'"The whole point of fan fiction," she said, " is that you get to play inside somebody else's universe.
Rewrtite the rules. Or bend them. The sotry doesn't have to end when Gemma Leslie gets tired of it."
-Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell -2013'

Look who's back! I don't own Divergent, Veronica Roth does!

"Susan?" To my relief we've been broken apart by not my brother, but my 'friend'.

"Wow, Beatrice, you've, " she pauses trying to fathom the word," changed. You've only been away three months or so and look, you're wearing heals, you've got that tight," she winces at the use of the word," dress and is that? Is that a tattoo?" I glance down at my collarbone. Having ditched the ugly cardigan back in the house, my crows were in full display.

"Oh, yeah," The crows were now part of me, often I don't cover them up, they're now a part of me, I only tend to cover them around Caleb," They're just something I got nearer the beginning of the year, I still forget they're there."
Susan seems uncomfortable with the prospect of tattoos, around here they're spoken of in hushed tones, they're something that only the delinquents tend to have. "At school, as strange as it seems, the people in my faction tend to get one tattoo or another," I glance over at Tobias, I know that he has a full back of tattoos despite the fact that I haven't seen them in person.

"Oh, well, they're cool." She looks at us uneasy, possibly also because I was with Tobias, I'd never properly shown any affection towards anyone whilst I was here. I must be like a new person. Someone who goes and gets a tattoo, someone who goes around sleeping with boys; you could tell much about me by this image now. Centimetres from Tobias' face, beer in hand and dressed unlike anyone else here.

"Do you remember, Tobias?" I gesture towards him for Susan's sake," he's older than us. Marcus' son?" He lets his gaze fall towards the floor as if ashamed to be related to such a creature. I don't blame him; Marcus is a piece of work.

"Yes, of course. I haven't seen you in years. My, you've grown, no longer scrawny are we?" she speaks as if he were her grandson. " Are you two," she points her finger between the two of us, unable to say anymore, like she'd offend us.

"Are we? Oh? Together? Like in a relationship?" I look at Tobias for a sign of reassurance. Do I tell? She might let slip to Caleb. He gives me a slight reassuring nod to nudge me to go on. "Well, actually, yes. We are. " Susan lets out an excited squeal only a girl would make.

"For how long?" she jumps.

"Well, a few weeks, not that long. Just before I came out here." I answer sheepishly.

"That's so cute! How do you guys know each other, well properly, not just from here."

"Well, when I joined I was put in a room with this girl and Tobias and some others are her friend. We started talking and after a while we got close, it wasn't until our planes were cancelled on the way out did 'this'" I gesture to us," actually happen."

"Oh, well that's adorable, I should let you two get back to what you were doing. Had I realised-"

"-Yeah, it was nice seeing you Susan, " I cut off her rambling.

" Well, yeah you too, both of you." She smiles then briefly walks away leaving just the two of us.

"Well, she's bubbly. " Tobias mumbles, he didn't speak within that whole interaction.

"That's one word for it. Look, I need another drink come on," I grab his hand and walk him along to the drinks table. The room was vast and dank. The lights were dim and few coloured ones cut throughout the air. I pick up another full, plastic red cup full of some concoction of alcohols. The whole place stank of this foul stuff, this sweet thick sickly stuff.

" I have no clue how you manage to drink that, it's sweeter than that horrible artificial candy you get for a dollar down the store. " He bends down and sniffs my drink once more, only to pull a face of disgust, " Disgusting."

" I need it to block out my brother," I drone on.

"Well, too bad that he's at the door right now, " I swear under my breath, the last I need is to seem him anymore than I already have. He catches my eye and lets his gaze fall down to our hands. I don't care anymore, he can go and tell mom and dad. He can go an tell Marcus. He can go and tell all our friends. I don't care, not in the slightest. Not when Molly beats me up, not when people glare at us, not-

-I do care though don't I? People will laugh and stare, people will hate me for it. People won't understand. I've let Uriah down, I promised him I wouldn't fall for Tobias anymore than I did. We kept this relationship secret for a reason and suddenly after the mild thought of this becoming real? I can't cope. The air is now like smog, laced with cigarette smoke, too thick and heavy for my lungs to cope. I can't do this. The walls are closer to me now. This isn'r real. There's next to no light. It's all in my head. I've had little to drink, what was in this? I'm imagining this all aren't I? I need air. I drop Tobias' hand and excuse myself.

Thank you all for bearing with me while I had no internet! I have been writing though, so I have the next chapter or so all ready to go!

So I read quite a few books while I was away, but really if you guys are like me and you love fanfiction, you love reading and especially writing; I really super duper recommend Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell. I connected so much to Cather and I'm sure you guys will too! Let me know what you guys think of it!

-LMC