By now her tears had subsided and she started... "Don't you dare judge me! You don't know anything about me" she paused and looked me straight in the eyes and said "I lived without you for 20 years of my life and I did just fine."
I stood up. "Well then maybe you don't need me" I retorted and started to walk away from her, I got quite away before I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder...
"I didn't mean that... I need you" she said softy, she looking into the distance and continued "You know, I dreamt of having a brother as a little girl, someone to protect me, stick up for me... someone to be there, Dad was always working, I practically brought myself up from the age of 10" she reached out for my hand and I let her take it...
"You make me feel save and I care about you" she paused for a brief second then gently whispered "More than you could ever know." Oh I know, believe me I know I thought to myself.
Suddenly she kissed me, I had no time to react and I found myself kissing her back. My brain was yelling at me to stop but I didn't listen. When she broke the kiss I just looked at her in shock, not knowing what to say. I proceeded to walk away from her and back to the boat.
I hoped my Dad was asleep or out so that he wouldn't question me about anything, I guessed he would be asleep because it was past midnight now.
Once I got back to the boat I went straight to my room. I was right, Dad was asleep and for that I was grateful because I already had enough of my own questions to deal with let alone his.
I sat on my bed with my head in my hands. What was I thinking? Why did she kiss me? Why didn't I stop her? Thoughts were running through my head so fast, I didn't have a clue what to do next...
I lay down thinking about the night over and over again and every time I remembered what that kiss felt like. Amazing. As much as I wanted to deny it I enjoyed that kiss. What was I thinking?
I didn't get much sleep that night; I just kept replaying that moment over and over in my head...
...
I awoke from a restless sleep, it was about 10am so I decided to get out of bed. I got dressed and walking into the main living area where I saw Dad sat at the breakfast counter eating a bacon buttie.
"Oh, son you're awake, didn't hear you get in last night" he said
"Yeah... late night" I replied
"Oh yeah, it was, was it?" he questioned me, giving me a knowing look.
"So, who was the unlucky lady?" he asked.
"No, Dad it wasn't like that, I just got drunk and came home... by myself" If only he knew I thought to myself.
"Losing your touch with the ladies?"
"Hmmm something like that" I said in a distant tone.
"What's up?...has this got something to do with the other day and your Mum's locket?" he asked me.
"Nah, nah... forget it, just brought up bad memories that's all" I replied. He gave me a sympathetic look, "I said forget it!"
"Ok... ok, so what are you up to today? I gotta go into Manchester today for a job"
"Dunno, stay here... maybe go to the pub"
"Maybe you could go see Sienna; Patrick said she's been really down lately" he said.
I didn't reply straight away, I didn't know what to say. We had to talk about what happened last night but I didn't know if I could do it today.
"Mate, did you hear me?" my Dad questioned, breaking me out of my thoughts.
"Uh... uh, urm yeah of course Dad" I stuttered back.
"She is your sister after all" he stated.
"Yep" I said in an unhappy tone. I wasn't unhappy she was my sister, of course not, I am happy to have a sister like her... well most of the time I am, sometimes... I don't know, I can't explain it, but sometimes I get so frustrated with her... but she is the best sister I could have asked for, along with Lib of course.
...
It was now two in the afternoon and I was currently stood outside Patrick's flat, Sienna now lived there with him ever since she and Darren broke up. I really hoped that Patrick wasn't in because it would already be awkward enough.
I rose my hand to the door and knocked gently...