A/N: So just like I promised another update :p Ugh guys all these sad scenes are slowly killing me to write them but I'm happy to say that in the next few chapters things will start to look up slowly :D I tried to get myself in a good enough mood where I could write something like this and I have to say listening to the Titanic theme got me there in a heartbeat X'( so sad
Oh btw I read a story a few days ago. It was a Sabriel fic so for those of you who are into that to ;) like moi. It takes place on the Titanic and basically follows the same plot. Now I know you guys will say that oh yeah that's been done already but I have to say this one really got to me. I was bawling at the very end...sad but true X')
It's called Promise me by privatebullshit if any of you wanted to check it out!
Otherwise I hope you guys enjoy this fic and the first part of it is up to par!
Thanks for the lovely reviews guys! :)
Amy couldn't believe her own eyes as she took in Gabe standing before her. He was wearing the exact same clothes as Steve had been wearing and his eyes were steel flints glittering in the darkness. As soon as his gaze landed, on her, though they instantly softened and he looked down at the dirty alley floor.
Amy choked as she stared at him, "Gabe?" she managed to croak out in a hoarse whisper.
Gabe refused to answer as his fists clenched at his sides. Amy took a closer to look at him immediately the clothes finally sinking into her mind.
"Wait a minute, you were that guy! And you- Omg no this can't be happening," Amy started to croak out.
Gabe looked up at her and made a calming gesture with his hands, "Amy just breathe," he tried to soothe her.
A choking gasp off to her right hand side made her attention snap away from Gabe standing in front of her. Seeing Taro lying there in a steadily growing pool of his blood spurred Amy into immediate action. Quickly she crawled over to him and started to search for the wound that she knew was causing the blood loss in his stomach.
Finding the wound Amy immediately pressed down onto it and Taro winced and hissed in agitation as the wound burned intensely.
"Hold on Mr. Yoshiro I'm going to get you help," Amy pleaded with him quietly as she felt the tears start to run down her cheeks.
Taro chuckled from above her and Amy looked up. He was looking down on her sadly and with great admiration, "Don't worry about it Amy, you are such a good girl and I really hope you find good friends your age. I have lived a long and healthy life. I couldn't ask for anything better and one of my highlights was meeting you."
He winced and coughed making blood spill out of his mouth and spray down on her. Amy winced but did not pull away as she watched one of the kindest people that she had known in her life, slowly die before her eyes. Grabbing his shirt Amy cried out to him,
"Mr. Yoshiro! Don't you dare die on me! Were not saying any good byes! Not in this filthy alley! You're going to keep living, and you're going to come to the restaurant and order your buns and tea and cheer all of us up when we see you. This isn't the end, do you hear me!"
Amy shouted this out loudly, completely forgetting that Gabe was standing behind her watching their display. His eyes clouded even worse with sorrow. Mr. Yoshiro lifted his hand weakly and held her face gently in his grip.
"No more tears Amy, just live a long life," Mr. Yoshiro whispered as his hand started to slip.
Amy's eyes widened as her whole body froze; without her even seeing or realizing it, Gabe had lifted his hand up behind her back and snapped his fingers. The loud snap in the otherwise dark alley jolted Amy out of her reverie.
Suddenly, everything around her changed. The whole alley felt like it did a 360 and before she even knew it, she was back in her apartment room. Looking around quickly Amy groaned and clutched her head at the small headache that pounded behind her eyes, and the dizzying spell.
Slowly but surely it passed and Amy glanced down at the floor where she still sat, Taro was nowhere to be seen and even her hands were not bloody anymore; looking at them in shock Amy turned back and saw Gabe still standing in the middle of her apartment taking in the modest abode.
Amy stood shakily and Gabe's amber, golden eyes snapped back to hers immediately. He carefully watched her as she rose as if afraid that she would disappear on him. Amy took him in, for someone that was supposed to be supposedly dead he looked remarkably healthy. His hair was smooth and appeared soft, it was cut the exact same way since she had last seen him maybe a little neater. His clothes were rumpled slightly and plain but otherwise his same care free style. Skin flushed slightly and his eyes shown out from beneath his heavy eyebrows; Amy figured that that may have something to do with what had happened earlier; that is if he was still the same Gabe that she had known.
"Amy-"Gabe had started to say but he didn't even have the chance to finish.
Amy had stood straight up suddenly and waltzed over to him; before he could even react she yanked her hand back and slapped him with all the force she could muster in her body right down to the last cell across the cheek. Gabe's head slammed to the side at the force of the blow and slowly he raised his hand up to cup the abused cheek.
Wincing slightly as he felt the sting of her slap, he turned his face back to look at her. Meeting her angry eyes, he couldn't keep the heated stare and looked down towards her floor.
Amy was absolutely fuming; her chest was rising and falling so hard that she thought she would puncture a lung somehow. Her mind was raging and all that could be heard after the ringing slap was the intense breathing from her. She was slightly glad to see that her imprint was leaving a nasty mark across his face, turning it an angry red that clearly outlined her whole hand. She knew he could heal it if he wanted to but she was happy that he kept it. While it made her mad to see him she also knew, he was real after she did that and saw the evidence of it.
Rubbing her forehead lightly with her thumb and forefinger Amy didn't even have the energy to cry. She didn't even feel like she had to; it was hard for her to rationalize in her mind. On one hand, she was so exuberantly excited to see Gabe whole and healthy and not cold and dead, yet that had been over a year ago now…why had he not come forward sooner?
She was so emotionally exhausted about everything that she couldn't face him at that time; spinning on her heel she walked over to the window where her desk sat and looked out at the street. The full moon shown down brightly, even with over half of the lights out on her block it still lit everything up brightly enough that she could see with her naked eyes.
Swallowing hard Amy asked him, "Where's Taro?"
"He's in his own home," Gabe, murmured softly, "I guess I deserved that huh?"
Amy looked up at the bright moon and rolled her eyes as she bit any errant tears away viciously for the time being, "You think Gabe?" she yelled spinning around to face him.
Gabe's face flinched at her harsh and brusque tone. Rubbing the tip of his nose he stayed silent waiting for her to continue and continue did she ever.
"You made me believe that you had been dead for this whole last year! Meanwhile what exactly have you been doing? Sipping martinis and screwing around with hot babes! I've been trying to piece together my life again after you died, right in front of me Gabe! Right in front of me! That tore me up! Do you know how long and often I have cried myself to sleep as I mourned my loss? Oh my apologies of course you wouldn't because you were off screwing pooches and not giving a rat's ass about my feelings!"
"Amy-"
"And on another note! Do you know how torn up Jazz and Lance must be after they've thought you've been dead for over a year! Jeez, we should call them up and ask…oh wait my mistake I wouldn't know how to get a hold of them anymore because we all lost contact that same week after we thought you died! You know Gabe when I really needed my friends the most you guys just up and left me with no one! I can't believe you would do this to us, to me! I thought I meant more to you," Amy finished off quietly almost at a whisper.
At this Gabe looked up at her quickly the snap of his neck audible in the room, "Amy don't you ever say something like that! You know that I care about you and I would never let something awful happen to you!"
Amy laughed scornfully at him, "Gabe you probably did the best thing to hurt me as you so called tried to protect me, you tore my soul it feels like to pieces! I never met someone like you before! With you, I felt comfortable with; I thought I could talk to you and trust you. That there wouldn't be any secrets between us!" Amy cut off here as she let out a choked sob, "But now I see I was wrong, you could have gotten back to me and told me at least that you were ok within the week and I would have forgiven you but you couldn't even do something like that for me."
Collapsing in the chair at her desk Amy hid her face in her hands and started to sob harshly. Her shoulders shook with her sobs, and she couldn't seem to get enough air in through her lungs. Gabe watched her sadly still from his same position in her room. It was quiet other than for her shaking sobs.
Amy felt her mind just reeling with everything that had happened in the last short 24 hours. Her body was emotionally, physically, and mentally spent. All the wanted to do was curl up in a tight ball and sleep for a couple hundred years. She could literally feel her whole body ready to collapse if it was even possible.
"Amy-"Gabe started to walk over towards her but she just shook her head so that he would stop. Gabe did and sighed deeply, "I just want you to know that I never wanted to hurt you as badly as I have done. I never wanted to cause you this kind of pain; you mean so much to me. You are my amazing friend, I know it's not right to justify this but I did what I thought was best for you whether it hurt me to do it or not. I thought you would go on with your life and move past this in due time, but it seems like you couldn't or you were too deeply in rooted to leave. I did this to protect you Amy never to hurt you, please one day I hope you can understand that at least. If you don't ever forgive me I think that's something I'll just have to live with."
Amy hiccupped violently as she took in shaking breaths so that she could answer him, "Gabe I never wanted to lose you though," she confessed to him as she looked up at him, her eyes swollen and red, "any of you! I lost Lance and Jazz to! No one should have to feel this kind of pain. I honestly don't know if I can forgive you Gabe."
Gabe looked down ashamed at himself and his actions as he listened to Amy's broken tone. He knew that doing what he did would hurt Amy but he had honestly hoped that she could move past this and create a better life for her. Someone that was wrapped up in their kind of lifestyle either didn't make it through the experience or they wound up with tremendous heartache. Either or could prove fatal to the person. Gabe had done what he had done thinking that he could still save her and force her out of this life even if he had to go the hard way. It turned out that Amy was far to entrenched in this life to ever really be able to leave it. He had been stupid and completely near sighted in this issue and had over shot it.
"I understand that Amy, and I want you to know that I'm not going anywhere from now on," Gabe said to her kindly, "I know that you may never be able to forgive me for this and for hurting you as I have done. Please know this that while my actions were blinded I tried to do what I thought was best for you at the time; and I respect your answer that you may never be able to forgive me for this. It's the least that I deserve for doing something like this to you."
Amy nodded her head as she choked on more tears. It was quiet now in the apartment the only sounds being Amy's hiccupping sobs. Gabe stayed rooted to the spot as he watched her.
Amy finally after some time seemed to get a hold of herself and looked up at him, "Mr. Yoshiro is at home you said?"
Gabe nodded his head at her.
"What about his injuries-"Amy began to say and Gabe cut her off.
"He's as good as new and has no memory of what happened this night," Gabe answered her. When it seemed like Amy was about to object Gabe just shook his head, "No Amy its best if he doesn't remember this night. There's too much that would have to be explained and besides the fewer people that really know about this world the better."
Amy snorted as she imagined just how many people on this planet probably had some kind of hunch about this world.
"Thank you," she mumbled quietly.
Gabe did not even have to ask what that was intended for. He merely nodded his head and intoned quietly, "You're very welcome."
Suddenly, a light scratching came from the window behind Amy. Standing up quickly she knocked the chair away from her in her haste to turn around. Gabe peered around her frowning in confusion at the sound. Amy looked out the dark window and her eyes widened at what met them.
Sitting outside on the window ledge, the moonlight illuminating it from behind, sat the same black cat that Amy could have sworn that she had seen for the last day. Its inky black fur blended in perfectly with the dark night surrounding it but what unnerved Amy the most was its emerald green eyes. They shown out at her from behind the window and it felt as if her very own soul was being bared to the whole room. Amy shivered at the intense stare. Gabe coughed from behind her and Amy turned to look at him.
Pointing to the cat Gabe said to her, "You should let her in…I have a feeling she's been quite grumpy for the longest time."
Amy quirked her brow in confusion but otherwise did not move. The cat seeing this scratched the window again a little more viciously so that her claws actually left marks and let out a long and pitiful yowl that caused dogs to start barking and howling in the neighborhood. Amy raised her eyebrows at this and looked at Gabe as if saying, "Really?' silently.
Gabe shrugged his shoulders and bit his lip to keep in a chuckle, "Yeah maybe grumpy is putting it mildly."
Amy walked over to the window and flipped the latches on the inside that kept the window firmly shut. Grabbing it from under the edge, she yanked. Wincing as she heard the whine of the window as she forced it up; she finally wedged it open enough that the cat slunk in from underneath.
It jumped onto her table and meowed at her as if in thanks. Rolling her eyes Amy slammed the window shut again, 'Great Amy you're talking for the cat now…excellent.'
The cat jumped down onto the floor and turned so that it could take the two of them in easily. Amy scrutinized it closely as she bit her thumb lightly.
"So what's your story? Someone crossed your path today? Or you lost another life from a semi? Oh wait I know! The restaurant isn't serving your favorite cream and mice?"
The cat gave her a deadpan look as if asking her, "Are you done yet so I can talk?"
Amy shrugged and crossed her arms in front of her chest defensively. Gabe watched this exchange between the two in deep amusement.
Suddenly before her very eyes, the cat that sat on her floor seemed to shimmer. Quick as a blink it grew, the fur began to recede, whiskers retracting into her face allowing for a small smattering of freckles to take its place. Pale skin was revealed underneath the black fur and only her short black hair was the only dark hair left on her body. Smooth hands and nails as shiny as fish scales replaced claws and the pads of her paws. The nose flowed gently over her face into its same button nose that Amy had first remembered, small, full lips coming next. Slowly the cat eyes faded and their slant became less pronounced but the same intensely green colour of eyes was kept. The last items to go were the pointy cat ears and long tail that slowly sunk back into her body and vanished.
Amy stared in amazement as her roommate stood in front of her, Jazz.
Her mouth dropped open as she looked at her friend, stuttering she said, "But what? How? Why? Wait a minute this is…ugh!" throwing her hands up in the air Amy turned around frustrated as her shoulders tensed up at this new flood of emotions.
Spinning back around she looked at Jazz who stared back at her in the same somewhat sad fashion that Gabe had been giving her and she quite frankly was getting sick of it.
"You've been watching me! How long have you actually been here Jazz!"
Jazz scuffed her foot lightly on the floor. She mumbled something that was unintelligible to her and Amy frowned and cupped her ear.
"I'm sorry I didn't catch that," Amy remarked snidely.
"I've been watching you on and off for a few months alright?" said Jazz exasperated.
Amy frowned at this, "And why haven't you bothered to reveal yourself to me before now? If you've been watching me then you know how hard this was for me! Sure Gabe can cling on to that excuse even though I think it's a load of horse poop but you can't!"
Jazz sighed at this, "Look Amy I was only trying to do what was best for you at the time, besides Gabe said-"
"Wait hang on, Gabe said? What do you mean Gabe said?" asked Amy frowning in confusion.
She looked at the two of them, catching how their eyes locked and then strayed away from one another; the subtle shifting of their bodies and the occasional anxious and guilty glances that the two of them parted. Suddenly, Amy knew within one glance what had happened.
"Oh my god," she whispered horrified, "you were in on it, both of you together at least so probably Lance was too. You all knew he was alive," she pointed an accusing finger at Gabe, "and you didn't even bother to tell me.."
Jazz swallowed nervously, "Amy I wanted to so badly! But I wanted you to have a full and normal life! I didn't want you to drop out of school and end up…here!" Jazz proclaimed as she waved her hands around the small apartment in one swoop.
Amy glared at her and when she spoke, next her voice was shaking with raw anger, hurt, and sorrow.
"Jazz do you really know the kind of hell I'm going through? That I have been going through for over the last year and a month or so now? No of course, you wouldn't! You've been watching all of this through a window! What would you really know about my life right now! Absolutely dick all! You guys were supposed to be my friends! How do you expect me to stay at that accursed school after what I thought happened to Gabe? I lost someone so dear and important to me! I couldn't stay there, not after that so I left and I never looked back. And I know you all say it was supposedly the best for me but in actuality I think it was the worse thing that could have ever happened. So next time around, if there is a next time, do not think your doing something that is best for me. Please save me that kind of hurt again, if you can actually think that way."
Jazz and Gabe were at a total loss for words after Amy said all of that. Neither of them had wanted to own up that this was probably all a mistake a lot earlier on and this was what it had come down to. They both looked at their old friend now who was still so young and she had been forced to grow up way before her time and lie just to get by. Gabe was ashamed of himself. They both were.
"Amy-"Gabe began to say.
Amy just shook her head, "I need some time alone. I'm tired, actually that doesn't even begin to describe it so please just leave."
Jazz and Gabe shared a joint look that made Amy furious all over again.
"Leave!" she shouted at them.
With that both of them disappeared before anything more could be said.
As soon as they were gone from the room, Amy slowly felt herself break down. Moving around the couch she laid down on it, clutching one of the cushions to her chest; closing her eyes she let out everything that she had been holding back since they had both been in the room with her. For what felt as if it was the hundredth time that night, Amy cried her whole soul out.
Soon enough she had exhausted herself sufficiently that she fell asleep, the tear tracks still staining her cheeks as she rested fitfully.
A/N: So how did it go? Enjoy it? Personally i would have slapped the shit out of Gabe to not gonna lie X)