A/N Double update ^^

Shingyouji felt a shot of electricity run through his vein as he felt the older man ghosted his fingers on his bare back. The fingers trailed his abs, up to his chest then to his jaw-line, it lingers in there for a moment as their gazes lock on each other. Their eyes articulating certain need and desire they have been keeping for a long time. Slowly the other leaned towards him and he closed his eyes, feeling his lips like the first time he dis. The kiss is aggressive, passionate, seeking. He felt him wrapped his arm possessively in his thin waist, hauling him closer on an attempt to take the kiss deeper. He gladly obliged, anchoring his arms on the other's neck, pulling him gently as his back touches the soft and uninviting bed, the other hovering above him. The kiss went on, devouring tasting each other like they never had before. A battle of tongues took place as their hands get busy to feel each other. They both want this. Heck they need this.

He felt him break away when air becomes an issue, but those thin lips continue nibbling his jaw pecking on his cheeks, his nose, his eyelids, all over his face. As he felt him place one last kiss on his plump lips, he opened his eyes and met his, those tender dark orbs that seem to promise him forever.

"Arata-san", he breathed out.

The other smiled and kissed his forehead gently, before eyeing him once again. "Sukidesu" The older man whispered, uttering those words, caressing his face in a really gentle manner he almost want to cry. He smiled a bit before heaving the other close again, feeling those lips for the second time. And as things starting to heat up. Shingyouji heard the loud ringing of the alarm clock and he's up at once, panting heavily, sweating all alone in bed. He shuts his eyes and grip on his hair, his other hand searching blindly on the annoying clock to turn it off.

Those dreams again, he kept on having those dreams ever since he had admitted to himself he likes Misu. The dreams are mostly compose of him and the older man being oh so intimate, kissing and cuddling, but this one's different since this is the first time it actually implied that they're about to make love. He groaned upon the disappointment he felt, it's like he's really anticipating for that to occur, he got up from his bed and wondered a bit if Misu could be really a sweet lover, but then his thoughts were cut off, thinking of the events, he knows he hurted the older man, he knew he was offended with his words, he knew he saw the hurt in Misu's eyes the moment he told him he should not meddle in his life.

Shingyouji felt like a jerk. How can he said those things when Misu had been there for him, he always take care of him ever since the accident. He knows he doesn't have the right to hurt him but his feeling for the older man is getting too strong that he doesn't know how to control it anymore. He knew there shouldn't be aproblem falling for him but why did everytime he felt he is afraid of something, like afraid of getting hurt. As much as he wants to stay away from, he couldn't bring himself to be totally devoid of the other, just like now, as they're having their lunch along with his senpais, he could notice the dark rims surrounding Misu's eyes, like he's been bawling all night. He also lookes so frail and restless, Shingyouji felt more guilty when despite of the older's appearance, he still manage to look over Shingyouji, he still asked him what he wants, checking if what he's eating is good for him, even helping him preparing his medicine and juice to drink after his meal. Seeing Misu like this makes the younger man want to tear up. He had pushed the other, harshly even yet there he is, still looking out for him like nothing happens. Misu must be an angel.

The lunch had been quiet. As their friends started to leave, Shingyouji couldn't take it any longer. He grabbed Misu's arms, preventing him on standing up and getting water for him. Misu looked back at him, silently asking him what's wrong and Shingyouji bit his bottom lip. Why can't Misu just be cold to him for being so ruthless last night? That way he wouldn't feel like a total asshole right now.

"Shingyouji?"

The younger man shivered a bit upon hearing Misu's voice. In an instant, he realized why the other had been silent most of that time. His voice sounds so weak, so defenceless, so vulnerable. He must have cried really hard.

"A-are you okay?", Shingyouji uttered, biting his inner cheek so as not to cry.

Misu stared at him for a while, scrutinizing his face before breaking off with a soft smile.

"Are you?", he asked Shingyouji and since he's busy worrying about the other, he just nods. Misu kept his smile on his face.

"And then I'm fine.", he uttered as he gently pulled away from Shingyouji's grasp to do what he's supposed to do.

As Shingyouji watched the older poured water on the glass, he felt the urge to hug him, thank him for always being there and making him feel that he really cares. Now how can he stop liking him when everything he does keep hauling Shingyouji closer to the pit, making him fall even deeper than he could possibly imagine?

This is danger, he's supposed to stop.

He quickly stood up from his seat, as Misu got back.

"Shingyouji?" he heard him asked.

"Uhmm—I'll go ahead, I still have kendo practice." He said before turning his heel to leave.

"But your water—"

Yet what he has to say was left unheard as Shingyouji is already far from him, Misu could only stare in misery.

Misu was busy doing his papers when suddenly an unwanted guest arrived.

"Expecting for Shingyouji?" it was Gii.

Misu didn't bother to look at him, he's too focus on staring at his paper works, though deep inside he is hoping that the younger showed up he seems everything changes and turned into a majot 180 degress turn. He felt like before it was Shingyouji asking for his attention now he's the one doing everything to keep him, he knew had changed so much, now he's the one looking out for the other, the one taking care of him, he knew had grown a lot, he had tried to show his true emotions ans Misu wanted to improved more than before.

"I heard from Takumi what happened last night." Misu's musing were put into a halt when Gii spoke.

"He told me that you said that you almost want to tell Shinyouji-kun that you're together, why didn't you tell him?" his rival asked and it took Misu seconds before answering. He heaved a sigh before breaking his stare on his papers and turning to Gii.

"Saki, if Hayama lose his memories and he couldn't remember what you two had will you tell him that you two are together and very much in love with each other?" Misu asked.

"Well of course, that's the truth." Gii abruptly replied.

"And you'll assume that Hayama will believe you right, that he will rightfully agree that indeed, you his lover right?"

"Yes, I mean I have our friends to prove that."

"And so he'll accept the fact that you are indeed his lover, because there are evidences and witnessed that point you are his boyfriend. He'll believe that… definitely, he'll still be your boyfriend, but… do you think, that having to comprehend the information that he has a lover will also bring his feelings back? Isn't it that he will just acknowledge you as his lover because you told him you are and not because he feels in his heart he loves you?"

"Misu, he had amnesia. He'll be able to feel it sooner or later. Only his memories were lost, but not his feelings, I'm sure he's gonna feel for me. The point is he already knew I am his boyfriend.

"The problem is Shingyouji knew nothing about me."

"Then tell him." Gii suggested.

"It's different."

"How come?"

"Hayama remembers nothing, that's why it's easier to supply facts in his head. He don't know anything else so he'll take in whatever the people tells him, entrusting his life for he assumes he had nothing to lose. While shingyouji, he had some basis, he knows a part of his life and there were so many things that have changed ever since then. And not to mention he liked that pretty-boy-next-door senpai of his before he met me and one more thing, I asked him to end everything between us before he got that amnesia. And I don't want him to panick, I knew Shingyouji very well, he might be gullible, but he won't find this funny even it was a joke."

Gii could only listen.

"It's not easy. I can't just break it to him just like that remember how he was afraid of me? He'll be awkward, he might avoid me and that's the last I don't want to happen. I will only tell this once Saki, Shingyouji is my everything."

"Then what are you planning to do?"

Misu smiled faintly at this. "I was hoping he'd find in his heart all those feelings he had for me, or even the tiniest bit of it. I'm wishing he'd fall for me like he did before. Another reason I'm not telling him our relationship is because I want him to be with me just because he wants to, not because he has to, not because he's feeling obligated to do so." Misu paused to chuckle bitterly. "I'm pathetic. I want Shingyouji to realize that he loves me, but I guess that would be impossible now since he's all over his first love."

"Well I noticed Shingyouji to be clingy at you…"

"But he still chooses him over me, we were supposed to be together but he was with his dear senpai." The hurt in his voice could not be more noticeable, oblivious of the fact that Shingyouji went with Ikuta for the mere reason of taking him out of his mind.

"So you'll just wait for him to regain his memory?"

"That's what I had planned."

Gii sighed. "Well, it's your choice, but I hate to break this to you, and believe me I do got your point but with Ikuta around and when he remember the last thing you did to him he might end up choosing his beloved senpai even he had his memories back, I don't think you have thought about that tiny problem.

Misu was silent, he doesn't wan to cry not especially in front of his rival he just flaunted a faint smile and looked confidently back at Gii. "I trust Shingyouji, I trust what we have.

Gii shrugged and tapped Misu's shoulder for encouragement. They lingered in silence for a while and he stand up telling he'll meet Takumi in the greenhouse and Misu nodded at him. The dorm head got Misu's point but he knows his rival should knock some sense out of his pet/possession force him to remember something if possible. He's not blind not to see that Shingyouji obviously still feels something for Misu, the jealousy and sweetness are enough proofs. The chemistry and overflowing love canbe felt between them and it couldn't hinder even with lacunar amnesia or something worse. Misu's affecting Shingyouji, and Gii wished he would figure that out and finally do something before the situation got worst.

He had been in the gym alone fifteen minutes ago, yet the thing is, he doesn't know where to go. He lied when he told Misu he had a practice. He's still on the process of treatment and the kendo team decided to lessen his practice schedule as much as possible. He just said that as a lame excuse to avoid Misu. He's so pitiable.

Just last night, he had convinced himself not to mind the other but everytime hes Misu's face, he find it harder and harder, the attraction and affection he has for the older is too overwhelming, he just couldn't bring himself not to care. He hasn't felt this with anyone before not even Ikuta.

Which brings him back to his plan, he should really get rid of these feelings as soon as possible. Maybe having someonw with him will be the perfect distraction, maybe it will help terminate what he had for Misu, and then he could finally continue being friends with him.

And yet the thought of having other merely just a friend stings, he curses himself, why do his thoughts and emotions contradicts on an on? Going back to his so-called plan and disregarding the feeling of not being with Misu in a different way, he thought of Ikuta. He focused himself on his former senpai, that one once very special guy. Well, he still is, but compared to what he feels for Misu, his feelings for Ikuta were nothing. He bashed himself, he's thoughts were on Misu once again, he can't stop thinking about him, he's reallybgetting crazy.

Concentrating one more time, he pictured Ikuta in his mind, his face, his smile, his laughter everything about him. This the guy he's supposed to dream about, the one he's supposed to be together with, he needs something to help him forget his feelings he had for Misu, and Ikuta will be the perfect one to do the job.

He stand up went to the principal's office asking permission if he could leave the school ground today. As he go to his room he saw Misu seem to be waiting for him.

"Heard you ask to leave school today?"

"Uhh… yes."

"Okay, let me help you prepare your medicines." SHingyouji just nodded as Misu eneter his room first before him helping him to arrange his meds. Misu carefully put Shingyouji's tablets inside transparent plastic. He then took a bottle water and orange juice, placing it in a paper bag. Suddenly Shingyouji's name was called on the P.A system informing him that he has a phone call. As they both reach the place, Misu goes with him and listen to what the caller has to say as he handed the bag to Shingyouji, and yet the younger grabbed tha bag, he felt Misu gripped tighter on the handle. Eyes wide as he listened on the other line.

"Arata-san my medicine…" he called as he pulled the bag but to no avail, Misu is clutching it hard.

"Arata-san… I need to go.." he tried once again as he watched Misu took the phone away from his ear.

"Arata-san…"

You're not going…"

"What?!"

"You're not going…" he said firmly as before pulling the bag harshly, indicating he won't really let Shingyouji go anywhere. The younger just stare at him at the sudden switch of mood.

"Well fine! Don't hand me my tablets, I could still go without it!, he said and was about to runaway when he felt Misu grabbed his arm.

"I said you're not going!"

"Why can't I!?

"Just because if you want to go somewhere, you have to bring me with you!"

"That's insane! I don't need you!"

"Then you're not going!"

"What the—Arata-san! Why are you being like this? I told you not to intervene right?! Why do you keep on butting why can't you just leave me alo—"

"IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE MINE!"

A loud crash on the floor is a partially wet paper bag, a carton of orange juice, a plastic of tablets and a broken bottled water.

"I-I'm sorry?"

"You're mine and I'm yours.."

A tear fell on those brown orb eyes, same time that a tear fell of the person in front of him.

"W-we're together and I love you…"

"You must be kidding me…" Shingyouji looked straight at Misu in disbelief.

A/N Okay so it was Misu who had said the three letter words, I know I am breaking Misu's calm aura I hope no one bashed me I know Shingyouji is dreaming about Misu "doing" it to him ^^ And i know i have weird imagination I have been doing OTP a lot more than MisuxSHin so I am really in experementive mode of exploring their emotions, and I just want the fans pair to be happy that someone still write about them ^^ but in all honesty I love all the pairs ^^