I saw Sienna walking up to the boat from the window.
"Hey" she said as she walked through the door, she walked over to me but I just moved away, I had to, it was easier this way.
"What's wrong?" she asked me in a concerned voice.
I didn't know how to do this. How can I even do it? Luckily Dirk and Lib had gone out, which was good because they didn't even know about us.
I signaled for her to sit down and she did.
"Do you want a drink?" I asked her, not knowing where to start.
"What's wrong? You're acting all weird" she said.
I sat down beside her.
"Listen, we need to talk" I said, reaching out to grab her hands but she was too quick, she moved them away.
"Don't... Don't do this" she whispered.
"We can't do this anymore" I told her, regretting the words as soon as they left my mouth.
Her eyes filled with tears.
"It's him isn't it? He's put you up to this"
"No, he didn't, I realised that this, what we're doing, it's wrong and I can't do it anymore, I'm sorry"
I watched as her tears started to fall down her face, I felt horrible and I just wanted to take it all back, but I knew I couldn't.
"I don't believe that" she said, desperately wiping at her tears and standing up.
"Well it's the truth" I said to her in a slightly raised voice.
"You were the one that said there's no going back"
"I know" I sighed.
"So, don't do this" she whispered.
"I have to" I looked to her eyes and saw more tears fall.
"But you said you loved me"
I gave her a gentle smile and reached for her again, but she just backed away again.
"We can't be together" I said, standing up and walking over to her, I reached out to wipe her fallen tears away and she let me, leaning into my touch.
"Tell me you don't love me anymore" she said in a low voice. I was so close to her, our eyes locked and we just stared at each other.
"I...I can't" I mumbled...
"But it doesn't change anything" I said after a moment, pulling away from her and going into my bedroom. She followed me.
"Fine, if that's what you want, we'll just go back to pretending" she said.
I watched as she started to leave. It's for the best I thought to myself...
I can't do it. I couldn't let her leave, I couldn't do it.
"Wait..."