Jessica's Journey Chapter 6, a glee fanfic

Chapter 6

A/N: Thank you guys so much for the follows and favorites and the reviews. It makes my day.

Riana Salvatore: Thanks for the reviews. There will be music in this story, it is glee after all, but I only put in music if I think it fits with what's happening and how Jess is feeling. Sometimes I don't even plan on putting in a song but I'll be listening to music as I'm writing and a song comes on and if it feels right I'll put it in, but if I can't find a good song that goes with Jess's emotions I'm not going to put in any music.

Thank you again guys, enjoy.

Disclaimer: I don't own the t.v. show Glee or any songs used.

I sat in one of the chairs in the back of the room as Uncle Will and I waited for everyone to show up for glee. One by one they filed in and Uncle Will gave them all music for Sit Down, You're Rocking the Boat and I watched as they set up choreography and began performing. The singing wasn't too bad but I had to put all my effort into not cringing when I saw the dance routine. Uncle Will and I both grimaced when Artie ran into the wall.

"We suck!" Rachel announced. She said a few more things to Uncle Will about how they weren't taking Glee Club seriously and then stormed out.

I raised my eyebrows as Uncle Will called out for her, but she kept going. Uncle Will told us to stay put and went after her. Jeez. I knew she was very serious about all of this but it was the first rehearsal.

"Who does she think she is?" Kurt (I finally figured out the name of the kid who got thrown in the dumpster) asked.

"I didn't think it was that bad." I told them and they all turned, some of them had obviously forgotten I was there. "The choreography needs some work, but I thought your singing was great Artie. You just need to be more confident in yourself."

"Who are you anyway?" Mercedes asked as Artie let a small smile play across his face.

"I'm Mr. Shue's niece. He convinced me to help him out with Glee Club." I informed them. "Is Rachel always like that?" I asked, honestly curious.

"Pretty much." Mercedes told me.

"How do you not know this?" Kurt asked as if it should be obvious to me.

"I just moved here from North Carolina, so I don't really know anyone." I told him. "I haven't made any friends yet, so I don't know stuff like this."

"Well, if y-you want, you c-c-could sit with us at lu-lunch." Tina offered and I smiled.

"Sure." I said, smiling. Sure I don't need friends to be happy, but it would be nice to have people to talk to again. We spent the next 15 minutes talking and getting to know each other until Uncle Will finally came back. Unfortunately Rachel wasn't with him, but it was past time to go so the club disbanded. But it was different than when we all left after auditions. Everyone said bye and Tina reminded me to find her at lunch. This time I felt happy and like I belonged.

"What was that?" Uncle Will asked as we left that day.

"What was what?" I asked still beaming.

"You actually talked to people?" He asked teasing me.

"Yeah," I told him. "When you left to try and get Rachel back we were all talking. Tina invited me to sit with her and Artie at lunch."

"That's great. I'm glad you're making friends. I like to see you happy." He told me. He sighed as he continued. "Unfortunately, Glee Club might be over if we don't find more singers. Rachel won't stay unless we can find a male lead that can 'keep up with her'" He said making quotations with his hands. "Plus Mr. Figgins says Glee Club will be over if we don't place at Regionals."

"That sucks." I told him, knowing how much glee means to him. "What are you gonna do?"

"I'm going to talk to Sue to see if I can get some cheerios to join and then go talk to football." I frowned. "What?" He asked.

"I don't think many football players are gonna want to dance around and sing songs in public." I told him.

"There's got to be something I can do." He said, face twisting in concentration.

"You'll figure something out. You always do, now come on I'll race you to the car." And with that I ran ahead and he started laughing and chasing after me.

We all sat together waiting for my Uncle to show up so we could start Glee rehearsal. We hadn't been able to get any new people to join yet but I was able to convince Rachel to give glee a chance. It took a lot of sucking up to her but she really is nice so it didn't take too long.

"Why don't you sing with us Jess?" Mercedes asked as we all waited.

I immediately laughed and shook my head. "No way, I suck at singing in front of people. Plus I'm not that good."

"Come on, Mr. Shue said you're really good." Rachel added.

"Come on, please." They chorused. Oh god. I looked at all of them begging me to sing and I almost gave in when Uncle Will walked in with someone following him.

"Hey guys, this is Finn and he's joining Glee Club." He actually got someone to join. You could see the shock in all of our faces.

"Finn?" Kurt gasped.

"Hey guys," Finn greeted with a smile. "I don't know how this whole thing goes, but I'm here so… I guess I'll find out."

We all headed out to the stage to start rehearsal when Kurt and Mercedes stopped me. "Girl, we are gonna get you to sing. I promise you that." Mercedes told me and Kurt nodded in agreement.

"Ok ok. I'll sing. Might as well just get it over with right?" They both squealed and dragged me out to the stage.

"Mr. Shue, I know we were supposed to rehearse but we got Jess to agree to sing for us." Kurt announced once they had gotten me onto the stage. Wait, they were gonna make me sing on stage? Oh god.

"Really?" Uncle Will asked surprised, he knew I didn't like singing in front of people.

I slowly nodded already regretting my decision. "I can't believe I'm doing this. No one's allowed to laugh." I stated, glaring at Kurt and Mercedes who just smiled.

(Dreaming with a Broken Heart: John Mayer)

When you're dreamin' with a broken heart
The wakin' up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wonderin' was she really here
Is she standin' in my room
No she's not
Cuz she's gone, gone, gone, gone gone

When you're dreamin' with a broken heart
The givin' up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her cryin' eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wonderin' could you stay my love
Will you wake up by my side
No she can't
Cuz she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands
Would you get them if I did
No you won't
Cuz you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreamin' with a broken heart
The wakin' up is the hardest part

When I finished the room was silent and I awkwardly stood there. I knew this would happen. "I know, I know. It was bad."

They all just gaped at me. "That was really good." Artie told me.

"Even I know that was good." Finn announced.

I could feel my face heating up as everyone praised my singing. I always felt like my voice wasn't really good.

"Why'd you pick that song?" Rachel asked. "I always sing best when I sing songs that mean something to me and you sang great so you must have some sort of connection to it."

Yeah, it's basically my life right now, losing a piece of myself with my parents. "Doesn't matter."

"Rachel," Uncle Will warned, knowing why I didn't want to say.

"Of course it does," Rachel said. "Just tell us."

"No!" I yelled frustrated.

She took a step back with a hurt expression on her face and everyone else stared at me, surprised at my outburst. "I don't want to talk about it, okay?" With that I left the auditorium.

"Jessie?" Uncle Will asked as he walked up behind me.

I sniffled and rubbed my eyes. "What?" I demanded, not in the mood to talk to him, or anyone.

"She didn't mean to upset you." He said softly as he sat down next to me. I close my eyes as I lean my head back and rest it on the locker behind me. I angrily rub at the tears streaming down my face, I don't want to cry anymore.

"I can't do this." I cry to Uncle Will as he wraps his arm around my shoulders. "I thought I could handle it, but everyone keeps asking me questions and it just reminds me of them. I can't." As I finish my voice breaks and I just lean into Uncle Will and cry.

"Shhhh." He murmurs against my hair. "We'll get through this, it'll be okay."

We sat there for a while in silence, until I slowly pulled myself up and Uncle Will followed. I told him I'd wait in the car as he headed back to the auditorium. I go the bathroom first, splashing water on my face and trying to hide the fact that I'd been crying. I gave up and left, eyes still red and puffy, slowly shuffling out to the car.

I sit there, happy to be alone. I lean my chair back and stare at the roof of the car. "I miss you guys. I wish you were here, I need you." I whisper which makes me start crying again, knowing they won't answer. I pull my phone out and plug in my earbuds. They have music notes in black, gold and silver painted on them. My dad got them for me on my birthday a few years ago and I never leave home without them.

I just hit shuffle and fall asleep as I let the music take me.

(A drop in the ocean: Ron Pope)

A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most
Cuz you are my heaven

I don't wanna waste the weekend
If you don't love me pretend
A few more hours, then it's time to go
And as my train rolls down the east coast
I wonder how you keep warm
It's too late to cry
Too broken to move on
And still I can't let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don't take what you don't need from me

It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most
Cuz you are my heaven

Misplaced trust and old friends
Never counting regrets
By the grace of god I do not rest at all
In New England as the leaves change
The last excuse that I'll claim
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl
And still I can't let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don't take what you don't need from me

Heaven doesn't seem so far away anymore
No no heaven doesn't seem far away
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
No no heaven doesn't seem far away