Carol had been crying at the Councillors office and now she was just mad at Daryl, he was looking everywhere else in the small restaurant except at her because he didn't know what to say. Counselling had been hard for both of them, she was trying to keep it together, in the end he just asked for their food to go. He took her hand and the food containers, they took the food home to eat so if she burst into tears again they wouldn't have people looking at them.

She was so confused about him. Going to someone helped clear her mind on where she wanted to end up, it was going to be a bumpy ride home, she wanted to be his home. It was hard for her she felt like she had to put more behind her than he did.

He wanted them, the counselor agreed with the separation that Carol still wanted, then slowly get back together. Daryl already had a plumber working on the apartment above the garage. He just needed a bed, tv, fridge and a few odds and ends. He felt like he was being banished. He told her that this afternoon. She just wasn't ready for him to be in her face 24/7 she needed time alone.

They sorted out a roster of sorts, date nights and nights for him to come over to be a family with them. He was allowed to stay over if he wanted too. Carol just wanted a break from him right now. She was going to sleep alone until they got into a routine.

She was barely eating looking around the room finally he looked at her. 'Alright, give it too me both barrels, it might make you feel better,'

She glanced up at him, she didn't want to because once she said the words she could never take them back, she wanted to, she wanted to scream them at him. Tell him that he broke his vow to her, to their daughter, because he couldn't handle the grief, she couldn't handle the grief but she never ever stopped thinking about him during that time. She never lost control or forgot about him. She wanted to tell him, hurt him in the same way he hurt her, she could never ever do that to him

'I want a divorce!' she told him, she wanted that bit of marriage paper gone, because it was really worth nothing to her. He was her husband but she didn't want that marriage. 'and I think we should sell, buy somewhere else... this place... has too many memories,'

'OK... why?'

'Because I don't want to live here, where you... you know, I want to make new memories,'

'What about...' his gaze glanced at the shelf.

'They are in here,' she made a circling motion around her heart, 'But Ollie deserves his own place, where we can make new memories, I know you don't want to leave here because of ...it was Sophia's home, but it was not is... I don't want to try restart our relationship somewhere where ... you did that. I am open to being remarried though, but I want to really really start again.'

He just looked at her.

'Its not like we are going to leave her behind, but I think if we want to start again, he was right, we need a whole fresh start, go back to basic's, get to know each other again, fall in love head over heel's the pounding of the chest in anticipation that we are going to see each other. I think he's right we don't want to resent each other. This is what I want,'

'A divorce though?'

'Everything... and start again,'

'So you would be single? Not married, dating other people?'

'No I would be single, dating, just one person... I think it would be good for both of us, for Ollie to spend time together and apart,' She watched his face, 'I don't want to cry anymore, I just need my space and I need time to figure out where I fit into this... its been just me and Ollie for such a long time now... its just... we deserve to spend the time, make a effort instead of just coming home and having ... you know, we need to make sure its what we both want, for real,'

'I'm so confused,'

'I just don't want to live here, the memories are not all good,' Carol told him. 'That's all, I want us to date, hang out, who knows, I want children a house full, but I also want to be sure I want you back 100% everyday. If you are living somewhere else it will make it easier for me to think it through, become me again, but if you want to stay here... I guess Ollie and I can find something, I just don't want to live here, I'm 100% sure about that,'

'Ok, Ok, I'll ring the real estate agent tomorrow, we will list it, do you know what you want or where you want to go?'

'I don't know, a big house, with a yard, lots of room,' Carol told him.

'There's a place for Sale near Merles, when we go pick up Ollie I'll show you,' He told her.'Its big, I think it has 8 bedrooms, its like massive, no one ever brought it for ages because of its size, its like a farm house with a wrap around porch, its got about 6 bedroom's upstairs and 2 down, or you could use it as an office or something,'

'Wow that's huge, I don't think I want to fill 8 bedrooms, but lets look. Where do they live? Merle and Maggie?' Carol wasn't sure where they lived. She didn't ask. She trusted Merle to take Ollie to Maggie to look after him.

'They have a bit of land just on the outskirts , some fruit trees and some cows,' Daryl told her, he reached out and held her hand for a minute, they both ate one handed. Carol was looking over at the shelf.

'What's in the little wrapped gifts?' she asked him.

'Just something... for her,' he told him, 'Nothing really,' he wasn't ready to tell her, her aniversary was coming up he would tell her or show her then. 'you finished, we should get going,' Carol finished as much as she could and followed him out of the house to get Ollie and to drive by a house.