Chapter Nineteen: Worrying and Nightmares
Bella's POV
"Bella?!" Edward said.
I cried as I tried to scream through the duck tape.
He walked into the room.
"Bella!" He gasped going to run to me.
I tried to tell him to stop until Jim came behind him and stabbed him with a knife. I screamed as Edward let out a scream of pain and slowly fell to the ground. I struggled but it was pointless, there wasn't much I could do when I was chained to the wall and my mouth duck taped.
"Now maybe you will think twice about meeting with me Edward." Jim said stepping over his body.
I screamed and tried to get away as he started to drag me away. Some how I managed to get the duck tape off my mouth.
"NO! NO! EDWARD!" I screamed struggling.
"Stop fighting!" Jim cursed.
"NO! I wont stop fighting, I will fight you until I die! PLEASE! Please just let me go! I need to save him! PLEASE!" I begged.
Jim disappeared out of no where and I was released from the chains, not bothering to ask questions I got up and ran to Edward.
"Edward!" I said.
"Bella." He groaned.
"Edward stay with me please." I begged.
I struggled as I tried to control the bleeding.
"I-I love you." He whispered.
"No! No Edward! Edward! I need you to tell me what to do!" I said.
"I'm bleeding too much, you can't help me..." He gasped before coughing.
"You are a doctor Edward! Please just tell me what to do!" I cried.
I watched as his eyes went wide before his head slowly fell to the side and his eyes closed.
"Edward!" I screamed.
"NOO!" I screamed sitting up in bed.
"Bella?!" Edward asked rushing over to the bed.
"Edward!" I gasped.
He sat down and I attacked him throwing my arms around him.
"Don't let go, don't ever let me go." I cried.
"I won't Bella, I promise you." He said hugging me tighter.
I cried into his shoulder for a while before I finally calmed down, he stroked my hair kissing my forehead.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Edward asked after a while.
"It was just a nightmare, a very scary nightmare." I said.
He took that as I didn't want to talk about it thankfully, I didn't want to tell him that it was about Jim.
Later That Morning
"Feeling better?" Edward asked walking into the bathroom.
"Yeah, I feel a little nauseous, but I think that's just because of my morning sickness." I told him.
He bent over and kissed the top of my head, he rubbed my back before heading to the fridge.
"Are you hungry? I can cook you something before I go into work." He said.
"Ugh." I groaned setting a hand on my stomach.
"Sorry, I'll just grab something on the way at the bakery." He said getting his coat on.
"Will you be home late?" I asked.
"I have a appointment to get my medication set up after work, don't wait to eat supper if you feel like it. Try to eat something though, even if it is just crackers." He told me.
"Yes doctor." I smiled.
He kissed my forehead before heading out the door. I got up and made myself some caffeine-free tea before going into the living room. I grabbed my phone and dialed a number.
"Hello?" Mrs. Smith answered.
"Hi Mrs. Smith! It's Bella Cullen." I said.
"Bella! How are things?! How are the kids?" She asked.
"The kids are great! We are on winter vacation though, they do have a homework assignment while on break though." I laughed.
"Keeping them busy even on break I see." She laughed with me.
"It's just something simple, I wanted them to write about what they did over break." I told her.
"I love doing that! It's cute to read their responses." She told me.
"I know. Listen Mrs. Smith-"
"Bella! It's Anne. Call me Anne." She interrupted.
"Well, Anne, I was wondering if you would be interested in substituting for me again." I said.
"Sure! I would love too! Where are you off too this time?" She asked.
"Well actually I'm not going anywhere." I told her.
"Oh?" She asked.
"Yeah, I actually need you to substitute while I am on maternity leave." I said.
She gasped.
"Oh my gosh! Congratulations!" She yelled.
I laughed, "Thank you!"
"How far along are you?" She asked.
"Only three months, so it wouldn't be until I am about eight months." I told her.
"Oh great! I would love to help! And I expect a picture of your little baby once it's born!" She said.
"Oh course!" I said.
We finished up with some small talk before hanging up, when I looked at the clock I realized that we had been talking for almost an hour! It didn't seem like an hour, I finished my tea before getting up to get some cleaning done.
…
"Edward?!" I yelled walking in the house.
"Edward!" I called.
I ran upstairs to find him tied to a chair and his mouth taped shut.
"What the hell!" I screamed turning around to find Jim standing by the door.
"Well hello to you too Bella!" He smiled.
"Why do you keep doing this to us?!" I screamed.
"I see your pregnant." He said.
I looked down to see that I was bigger, probably about five months.
"I'm going to call the cops." I said rushing to the phone.
He grabbed me by the hair and yanked me back, I yelped in pain closing my eyes.
"Don't even think about it!" He growled.
I tried to fight him the best I could and the next thing I knew I was being stabbed with a knife right in the stomach.
"NO!" I screamed sitting up gasping for air.
I looked around the room and heard a crash, Edward stood there and looked at his cup that was now shattered. I must have scared him.
"Edward? What are you doing home?" I asked rubbing my eyes.
When he didn't answer I removed my hands from my eyes to see him rocking back and forth and tugging on his hair, crap.
"Peter I'm sorry!" I said getting up.
"I broke it!" He said.
"You didn't mean too, I know that. I scared you and made you drop it." I told him.
"I didn't mean too!" He said.
"I know Peter." I said.
"I'm sorry!" He cried.
"I know, how about a bath?" I asked.
"Okay." He said.
After his bath I helped him get dressed and we went back downstairs, I set him up at the table with some paper and crayons while I worked on cleaning up the broken glass. I managed to do that without cutting myself and walked back into the kitchen to dispose of it.
"I made a drawing." Peter said.
I walked over to the table and looked at his picture, it was a picture of a family at the park.
"That's very nice Peter." I told him.
"That is mom, dad, Alice, and Emmett." He pointed out each of them.
"Where are you Peter?" I asked.
"Over there, playing alone." He said getting very sad.
"Why are you alone?" I asked.
"Because I felt like I was being a bother." He said.
"Why did you think you were being a bother?" I asked sitting down next to him.
"Because no one asked for me to be like this, no one asked for my brain injury and for me to be such a freak." He said beginning to rock.
"You aren't a freak Peter, you are a very smart and handsome man. Don't you for one minute think that anyone loves you less, and you are not a bother to anyone." I told him looking him straight in the eyes.
"Even to you Bella?" He asked.
"Not even to me, you will never bother me." I said.
He hugged me out of no where.
"You're very sweet Peter, don't let anyone tell you differently." I whispered.
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I woke up in the morning with a cramping feeling in my stomach but pushed it away thinking it was normal. Carlisle told me that a little cramping is normal and is nothing to worry about. Edward had to go to work early this morning so I decided to take my time and enjoy a nice hot shower before I went to the mall with Rosalie and Alice. Once I was dressed in a t-shirt and jeans I slipped a pair of comfy flats on before heading downstairs. The door bell rang almost the second I stepped down from the last step, I grabbed my purse before heading outside where Alice and Rosalie stood waiting. The mall wasn't crowded thankfully so we were able to shop comfortably without fighting people. We each picked out some outfits and baby clothes. We even started Christmas shopping because we got so bored!
"I think I will have the cheese burger with fries, and a water please." I said to the waiter at lunch.
"I want the chicken salad with ranch dressing and a water." Rosalie said.
"And I will have the pasta with a water please." Alice ordered.
"Okay, I'll be right back with your food!" The waiter said.
I handed the waiter my menu as another cramping feeling came, and I guess my face showed it.
"Bella? Are you okay?" Rosalie asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I said smiling.
"So I think we should see a movie after this." Alice said.
"Sure, I'm going to go to the bathroom while we wait for the food." I said.
I got up from my seat and walked to the bathroom, I went into a stall and closed the door. I was about to pull my pants down when the worst pain came.
"AH!" I gasped doubling over.
I squeezed my eyes shut putting a hand on my stomach as another pain came.
"Bella?" Alice called.
I couldn't answer her instead I let out another scream.
"Bella!" Alice said trying to get the door open.
She ended up crawling under the stall to get to me, once she stood up I heard her gasp.
I looked up at her, her face showed fear and shock all over it.
"Bella..." She whispered pointing to my jeans.
I looked down and the crotch area and my thighs were covered in blood. I couldn't talk, I just looked up at her my eyes tearing up.
"Okay, come on." She said putting her arms around me.
"Alice, am I having a miscarriage?!" I gasped.
"Let's just get you to the hospital." She said.
In the car, almost to the hospital
"Dad! Dad something is wrong! Bella is bleeding! Yes she has pain, yeah we are headed there now! Okay, okay... Bye." Alice said.
The pain was less intense as it was back at the mall, I quit talking because my brain was racing a mile a minute. I looked out the window trying not to cry, but so far I wasn't having any luck especially when Rosalie squeezed my hand. We pulled up to the hospital and Alice parked the car, I saw Carlisle running outside with a wheelchair. Alice opened my door and Carlisle ducked in to help me with my seat belt.
"How are you doing Bella?" He asked.
"It hurts." I told him wiping my eyes.
"I know, let's get you in the chair so we can find out what's going on." He said helping me out of the car.
"I know what's going on, I miscarried." I cried.
"We don't know that." Carlisle said pushing me.
"I do." I whispered.
Once inside Alice helped me into a gown while Carlisle set up the exam room. I climbed onto the hospital bed and Rosalie covered my legs up with a blanket.
"Where is Edward?" I asked.
"I paged him to the front desk, once he gets there Jerry is going to tell him what is going on and send him here." Carlisle said.
"I want Edward." I said almost screaming it.
I was scared and I wanted my husband with me.
"I know that Bella, but we can't wait for him." Carlisle said squeezing my hand.
I wiped more tears away as Carlisle started the ultrasound. My head started spinning when he found no heart beat and no movement, I think that's when I blacked out.
I gasped sitting up, I swung my legs over the bed and ran my fingers through my hair. I looked over my shoulder to find Edward's spot empty, he must be at work already. I stood up feeling kind of shaky with the last nightmare still in mind.
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"Hi Bella." Jerry said.
"Hi." I said.
"Everything okay?" He asked.
"I guess, I have been having nightmares." I said.
"Oh, is there anything I can do?" He asked.
"Page Carlisle for me? Tell him I would like to speak to him?" I asked.
"Of course." He said picking up the phone.
"Thanks." I said walking over to the waiting area and taking a seat.
It didn't take long before I saw Carlisle walk up to the desk, Jerry pointed to me before Carlisle walked over to me smiling.
"Well hello beautiful daughter." He said.
"Hi dad." I said.
"Everything okay?" He asked.
"Can we go somewhere and talk?" I asked.
"Sure." He said leading me to an empty exam room.
I took a seat on the exam table as he pulled up a stool.
"So what has my daughter looking so worn out and worried?" He asked.
"I look that bad huh?" I asked.
"No, I just can tell something is bothering you." He told me.
"There is." I said.
"What?" He asked.
"I've been having nightmares, like four in the past day and a half." I told him.
"What are they about?" He asked.
"The first two were about either Edward or I being abducted by Jim again, and the second two have been about losing the baby. I was stabbed in the stomach by Jim and then the last one I miscarried." I whispered.
He looked truly concerned, "What do you think is causing this?"
"I don't know..." I said.
"Bella," He said, "Are you afraid of Jim coming after you again?"
I looked at the ground for a minute.
"Sort of." I said wiping a tear that escaped.
"Honey, he isn't going to touch you ever again." He said.
"I know! It's just that fear though, of knowing that he is still out there!" I told him.
He was about to say something before the doors opened, I looked up to see Edward walking in.
"What is going on? Is everything okay? Is it the baby?" He asked rushing over to me.
"No, everything is fine." Carlisle said.
"Why are you crying?" Edward asked me.
"Because I am being stupid." I said trying to get the tears to stop.
Carlisle rolled over to the counter before rolling back with a tissue. I laughed a little taking it and dabbing my eyes.
"You aren't being stupid Bella." Carlisle said.
"What is going on?" Edward asked again.
"Bella has been having nightmares, mostly of Jim coming back and hurting you or her." Carlisle told him.
"What?! Bella,why haven't you told me?!" He asked.
"I didn't want to worry you." I told him.
"Love, you cant keep everything bottled up like this. I can help you, and you sure you may worry me but I can help you." He told me.
I nodded before he pulled me into his arms kissing my forehead.
"Thanks dad." I said.
"Anytime." Carlisle said getting up and giving us privacy.
"How about we go home? It's been a long couple of days and you could use some rest." Edward said.
"Are you off?" I asked.
"I am now." He told me.
Edward got his things, clocked out, and we headed home. I didn't waste any time getting into my pajamas as we settled down to watch a movie before bed.
Okay, I was nice and gave you guys the chapter even though I didn't get the 10 reviews I asked for!
What did you guys think? What is bringing all these nightmares for Bella? Do you think Jim will come back for her?
The next chapter is going to be intense, and I've decided to give you a little hint to how intense it will be! I know, I'm awesome =P
"Damn it!" James screamed.
The next thing I knew I was thrown against the wall, James flew at me and put his hand around my neck. My eyes went wide as he pressed down.
"If you EVER back talk me again I will kill you!" He hissed.
"James! You are choking me!" I gasped.
"Good! Maybe this will help you learn!" He told me.
"I've learned! I have! James please, think about the baby!" I pleaded.
"The baby?! The baby?! You act like I care! It's not mine! You cheated on me, its like you don't even love me!" He growled pressing harder.
"I do! I love you James, so much!" I said looking in his eyes, I tried to fight back the tears but one slipped.
"Oh, so now you are going to try the crying thing! Well-"
"What the hell is going on?!" Emmett gasped.
I looked over at Emmett and realized this looked bad.
"Um... Umm, Edward um, thought that he saw something on my neck! So he was trying to get it off! Right Edward?" I asked looking at James who kind of loosened his grip.
I begged him with my eyes to agree and stop this madness.
"Right." He said.
I sighed in relief as he released my neck, I looked at Emmett who was struggling with whether to believe this or not.
There is a sneak peek to next chapter! Now, its intense because this chapter has abuse in it. So if you don't think you can read this next chapter you can skip over it... But I promise, nothing extreme will happen to Bella, I don't have any plans for any of that right now if ever! Just bare with me, I have never wrote a story where I incorporated abuse before. I do not know how it feels to be in abusive relationship, and I hate the thought of anyone having to go through something horrible like that. That being said, there will be abuse every now and then. So if you don't agree with it, or whatever, you should stop reading now I guess...
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