"How are you feeling?" Maura's voice filled the room and Jane pulled her gaze from out the window to the slight woman who had just entered the room clutching white flowers and lunch. She didn't know how to answer that question.

The past 24 hours hadn't registered in her head yet, it all seemed like some horrible nightmare that she was going to wake up from soon in her bed, in her home, still pregnant. But now, all she felt was pain, a horrible ache in her heart that she had never felt before like someone was stepping heavily on her chest. She looked at Maura as she placed the flowers in the empty vase beside the hospital bed in Jane's room, the doctor looked exhausted and frail she had only just been home to change out of her blood stained pyjama's and had returned within half an hour, something which Jane was secretly glad about she wasn't sure how she was going to deal with herself without Maura there.

The detective had been transferred to a private room in the recovery wing, the doctors had to monitor her for the next 48 hours just to make everything was okay. Everything wasn't okay Jane could tell them that without any monitoring but she knew that they were looking for a different kind of not okay.

"Sad" Jane replied not being able to think of another word to to express what she was feeling.

"Relieved" she added her eyes meeting Maura's "but sad"

"I was talking about how you felt physically" Maura said with the tiniest smile as she came where Jane was sitting by the window and slid onto her lap kissing her forehead lightly.

"I'm physically relived too Maur" Jane said wrapping her weak feeling arms around the doctor.

"Does that make me a horrible person?"

"No" Maura said softly

"Are you lying?" Jane asked leaning her head on Maura in a state of exhaustion.

"No" Maura replied "I'm relived too"

Jane lifted her head and looked at Maura her brow furrowed.

"I'm devastated Jane" Maura said her expression following Jane's "But I can't help but be the smallest bit relieved"

"I know" Jane said her forehead still creased with frustration "I'm fucking heartbroken, but I'm …I'm just relieved at the same time"

"It's okay" Maura told her assuringly.

"I feel horrible" Jane whispered looking back out the window fighting the tears that were welling up in her eyes again. Maura watched Jane struggle against the tears that were stinging her eyes and she began to run her fingers through Jane's messy brown locks, trailing her fingers down gently down the brunettes cheek and following her jaw line. Maura took in each and every inch of Jane's being, she knew Jane's face like the back of her hand but she would still find herself mesmerised by it; by how stunning this woman really was.

A tear fell down Jane's cheek and Maura caught it, wiping it away with her thumb. She rested her chin on Jane's shoulder and just sat in the silence that consumed them feeling the warmth of Jane's arms around her.

Jane held Maura close her eyes closed to try and stop the tears from cascading down her face, she loved feeling Maura in her arms, she knew she wasn't alone with Maura there. There was something so incredibly comforting about the doctor, Jane felt safe and the huge aching hole that had been torn in her heart felt less empty with Maura there. They kept their arms around each other and the stillness around them pulled them into it's calming lull where time became something of a distant logic, they could have stayed there forever, never parting. Maura filled her veins with warmth and love, even in such a painfully grievous time she couldn't help but feel a strange optimism and contentment. Jane never wanted to let go as she suddenly began to realise she didn't know how she would ever be able to live without Maura if anything was ever to happen to her. She felt as like if she let go a part of her would go with Maura, and leave her incomplete until they were together again. It was a terrifying feeling of dependency and she held onto the doctor tighter, afraid of the thought of life without her. Maura was pressed so close to her she could swore she could feel the her heart beating, she felt the rise and fall of her chest as she took slow deep breaths, and then the soft gentle feel of the doctors lips as she pressed them to Jane's neck in a small sign of affection, reminding the brunette she was still there, not going anywhere.

"Maur" Jane whispered and the doctors name filled the stillness of the room.

"Yes?"

"How do we get past this?" Jane's voice was barely above a whisper, she rested her head lightly against Maura's.

"I don't know" Maura replied. Those three words echoed through the room, Maura Isles didn't know. The doctor didn't know, the smartest person Jane knew in the world didn't know the answer.

"Everything is so fragile, Maur" Jane said and she felt Maura exhale slowly.

"All we can do is keep breathing" Maura answered.

And that was it. She had an answer, a simple answer. An answer Jane could live by. Keep breathing. That's what they would have to do, to live, to survive, to get through whatever hardships life threw at them. Breathe. But she didn't know in that moment if breathing was possible without Maura there.

"Please don't leave" Jane found herself saying and Maura pulled away from the brunette to look at her curiously.

"Why would I leave, Jane?" she asked and Jane just bit on her bottom lip.

"I'm not going anywhere" Maura told her and Jane just looked down at Maura's lap.

"I wouldn't even know where to go if I were to leave" she stated while watching Jane.

"You could go anywhere" Jane shrugged still looking down and Maura just smiled.

"But you wouldn't be there"

Jane looked up and was immediately greeted with Maura's kind hazel eyes that stared right into the depths of her heart.

"I want to go home" Jane said "Your home"

"Our home" Maura corrected her.

Maura stayed with Jane for the rest of the time that she had to stay in hospital, because as much as the detective wanted to return home she was bound to the confines of the hospital room until at least the next morning. So, that meant Maura was too. She had no intentions of returning home until Jane did, she didn't want to be away from her not even for a few seconds. There was just enough room for her on Jane's hospital bed and so when they were both struggling to keep their eyes open she climbed up and lay curled up against Jane, their legs tangled under the thin blanket, her head on Jane's chest she shut her eyes listening to the beat of the detective's heart.

Angela had come to visit them earlier after Maura had called her while Jane had been napping, she knew Jane didn't want to tell her mother but it wasn't right not to.

"She's your mother Jane" Maura had told her "You can't keep something like this from her"

"It will break her heart Maur" Jane had frowned.

"It's broken all of our hearts Jane" Maura had said as they stared at the phone that sat between them on the bed.

As soon as Angela had arrived tears filled the room, Maura had to step out deciding it was better to give them a moment alone. She went down to the cafeteria her heart tugging at the distance she had created between her and Jane. Sitting at one of the tables away from everyone else she had leaned back in her seat letting out an exhausted sigh. There were people all around her, people with their own lives, their own problems. A woman was wrestling with her little boy who was holding a 'Congratulations!' balloon, a man was yelling down the phone distraught, there were a group of kids sitting around one of the tables in total silence their faces filled with anguish. And then there was Maura. She sat quietly watching the people around her come and go, she didn't know what she should have be feeling in that moment, Jane was upstairs, seven floors up to be exact, and she was okay or at least she would be okay.

Maura's phone had buzzed on the table as she had sat silently consumed by the people and white noise around her, glancing down at the screen she saw Hope's name. They hadn't talked for over a week, it was only then that Maura realised how holed up her and Jane had been from the rest of the world. She didn't feel like talking to her birth mother but she knew if she didn't answer the call now they wouldn't stop until she picked up.

"Hello Hope" Maura said running a hand through her unusually messy honey blonde waves.

"Maura, how are you?" Hope's voice was elated as her daughter picked, her cheery tone almost took Maura aback as she had temporarily forgotten about the happier emotions as the past hours with Jane had been so rough.

"I'm fine" Maura had answered but quickly changed her mind "Well no, I'm not fine…I'll be fine though…but not now"

"I-is everything alright?" Hope had asked her voice dropping to a more serious tone.

"No, not really" a frown had creased Maura's face.

"Jane had a miscarriage"

"Oh my- "

"We're um…it's" Maura hadn't known what else there was to say, words were failing her and all she had wanted was to get back to Jane.

"Can I call you later?"

"Of course honey" Hope had said "I'm so sorry Maura"

"I know…thank you" Maura had said already out of her chair and making her way back to the elevator.

Much to her surprise when she got back to Jane's room Angela was already gone, she slipped through the door and onto Jane's bed placing a kiss on the brunette's forehead before looking at her intently.

"What did she say?" Maura asked cautiously and Jane just shook her head unable to form words as tears welled in her eyes.

"You don't have to tell me, if it's too hard" Maura said soothingly seeing a tear spill down her cheek. She hated seeing Jane like this, so fragile and hurt, it was almost unbearable. The fearless detective had been bought to her knees. Maura knew she needed to be strong for Jane and she was trying her hardest, but she was also grieving their baby after the long struggle to accept that Jane was pregnant and there was going to be a gorgeous little baby in their lives, it had been ripped away.

"This entire situation was just too good to be true for her" Jane looked away, brushing away the tears from her cheek. She wanted to look at Maura but she couldn't, she couldn't stand to see the doctor look at her with such a sorrowful look in her eyes.

"Jane I- "

"No it's okay" Jane cut her off her eyes fixated on the window, she couldn't get the look on her mothers face as she had come through the doors out of her mind. If she thought she had felt devastated it hadn't seemed a patch on what her mother had looked like, yet somehow Angela had still looked so composed.

"It's not okay" Maura whispered running her fingers over Jane's hand but Jane quickly stopped her trapping fingers with her hand.

"Can we just pretend it's okay for a few seconds" Jane asked her was voice thick and husky, she turned her head to look at Maura her dark eyes bored deep into Maura's.

"Yes" Maura replied quietly and the corner of Jane's mouth twitched like she would smile if she could.

When Maura woke up the next morning everything ached, yoga was her first thought until she realised why she was so uncomfortable. She was still cramped up on Jane's hospital bed. As she looked up through her bleary eyes she saw Jane looking down at her with the corner of her mouth slightly tugging upwards.

"I'm numb" Jane stated "And we can go home"

"What?" Maura asked quickly sitting up rubbing her tired eyes to try and wake her up.

"You're numb? Are you okay? What happened?"

"You happened" Jane said, Maura could just hear the hint of sarcasm that was in her voice the old Jane was in there, she was just being drowned out by her sorrows. Everything came flooding back to Maura in that moment as she looked clearly around the room then back at Jane who was still in the white and blue hospital gown, with dishevelled hair and melancholy in her dark eyes.

"I didn't want to wake you" Jane shrugged lightly "I liked you being asleep, getting away from reality is hard and you looked so peaceful" she paused "But your big brain numbed my arm"

Maura's hand reached up and touched the back of her head as Jane lifted her heavy arm up and let it flop back down onto the bed.

"I'm sorry" Maura mouthed and the two women sat looking at each other, unsure of what to say a heavy silence fell between them.

"I would like to go home" Jane said quietly when she had finished studying Maura's face in the greatest detail.

"Okay" Maura replied simply getting off the hospital bed and stretching upwards after being so tightly cramped up all night. Jane slowly got off the hospital bed reminding herself she had her own two feet she had to balance on. But she wasn't standing alone for long, Maura's arm snaked around her waist and helped her over to her where her things were on the chair. Maura helped her out of the hospital gown pulling the ties at the back undone and trying not to let her eyes linger on the muscles and soft skin of Jane's back. Jane pulled on a t-shirt and pair of comfortable pants Angela had bought in for her then gathered up the rest of her belongings before turning to Maura and biting her lip. A peculiar feeling nudged in her stomach, this room had been her home for the past 48 hours it had seen her through her worst emotions, she felt strange suddenly being free to leave this room and all the tears shed in here behind her. It felt like she would be shutting the door on that entire part of her life that just happened, leaving all the dried tears and devastation behind her. Of course she still felt horrible but she couldn't deny the craving she had for the way her life was before all this complication had set in.

"Are you ready?" Maura asked and Jane just nodded.

They left the hospital in silence. There was no mention of their loss or how they were feeling, there was no mention of anything. They were speechless. But Jane liked it that way, she knew Maura was right there and that she wasn't alone. She didn't feel alone anymore.

When they were in the car driving home Jane stared out the window mindlessly watching the blur of the traffic flash past them, she found herself being mesmerised by the colours and the distant sounds. Maura kept her eyes on the road but she couldn't help glance over at Jane every now and then, it was strange for her to see Jane so numb. And that's what she was…numb. She was starting to block the pain of what had happened, like she didn't want to deal with it anymore, or she couldn't deal with it anymore.

"Maur" Jane said quietly still looking out the window as they got closer to Maura's house.

"Can we go for a walk?"

"What?" Maura asked shocked by Jane's request.

"We've spent far too much time in hospitals over the past two months" Jane said turning to look at Maura finally, her hand resting on her cheek.

"I just want to be outside"

Maura stared at her for a moment before replying, Jane was right they found themselves in hospital rooms far more than they ever imagined possible lately and it was draining. It was wearing away at both of them, all the emotions and trauma was exhausting them to the point where they barely felt human anymore.

"I think that's a good idea" Maura said with a smile as they pulled into her driveway.

"Now?" Jane asked cutely looking out the window as the car stopped and Maura just nodded.

It was a clear winters day, the ground was wet from the snow that had melted and the chill in the air made Jane's hairs stand up on her neck as she stepped out of the car but it also made her feel alive and normal. As they began to walk down the road Maura's eyes wandered the street as though it was unfamiliar territory to her, she had been completely unaware of everything going on around them over the past couple of days. She had almost forgotten entirely that it was winter, that the roads were icy and the air was freezing cold. She felt invigorated as the winter air wrapped itself around her and made her cheeks flush pink, her blood pumping fast desperately trying to keep her warm. But suddenly she felt a hand slip into hers, fingers entwine with her own and a sudden unexpected warmth flood her entire body. She looked over at Jane who's chocolate eyes were looking straight ahead as if she were unaware her hand slipping into Maura's, but as soon as she felt the doctors eyes on her she couldn't ignore it anymore.

"What?" she asked softly looking at Maura. The sound of their shoes crunching on the wet leaves and concrete of the sidewalk filled their ears as Maura just looked at Jane with wide eyes.

"You're holding my hand" Maura whispered.

"I know" Jane whispered back and Maura had to bite her lip to stop a huge smile spreading across her face. Jane was holding her hand. In public. She didn't care that she hadn't showered this morning, or that her hair was a mess, or even that she had slept in her clothes and they were now crumpled and she was still wearing them. No. None of that mattered, what mattered was that Jane was holding her hand. And as they walked along the street breathing the in the ice cold winter air, she felt warm, she felt whole and underneath the giant stretch of pale blue sky above them she felt like everything was going to be okay, they would be able to get through this. Together.

Hey guys! Happy Easter! I hope you're all having a great weekend. This chapter would have been up sooner but this lovely website was being a bit of a b**** and wasn't letting me upload anything. But here it is now!

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Thank you for all the support, I hope the easter bunny has come to you all... if not then there's another update coming instead :) Much love xxx