THE BIG DAY!
IT RANDOMLY HOPS AROUND WITH UPDATES (YOU'LL SEE WHEN YOU READ) CUZ IDK WHAT ELSE TO DO BUT JENNY'S THOUGHTS ARE INTERESTING. IT'S LIKE HER MENTAL DIARY AS THE BIRTH PROGRESSES YOU DON'T LIKE IT I DON'T CARE.
WARNING: THE END IS HEARTBREAKING. EVEN I CRIED A LITTLE
When I jumped up, the gush leaked through my pants and ran down my leg a little. "Ew. This is already getting gross." I said, cringing.
"Stay in here, I'll get Chuck." Eric told me, then ran into the living room. He came back with Chuck in under 20 seconds.
"Are you ready to go to the hospital?" Chuck asked me, slightly freaked.
"Do we have everything ready?"
"That I know of, yeah."
"Ok, just let me get changed."
"Why do you need to change?" Chuck seemed really confused.
"When my water broke, it leaked down my leg." I pointed to the mark.
"Ok, then you'll be ready to go?"
"Yeah."
45 minutes later...
We'd gotten to the hospital, and the doctors had made me put on a hospital gown thing and sit in a bed. We'd called the rest of the family right after we'd left, and they were just getting there.
Right after I was changed, they took a quick look and measured me. Barely a centimeter dilated. Probably why it didn't really hurt yet. It hadn't hurt at all until the doctor was done measuring, then I had a slightly sharp contraction. It still wasn't much though.
When Vanessa came in the room, Alison started to throw a fit for Chuck, and his face when she wanted him to hold her was actually damn cute.
Nate was with Vanessa too. "You don't mind me being here, do you? If you're not comfortable with it, I can leave-" He offered to me.
"No, you can stay. It doesn't bother me." I told him. "Eric, are you ok?" He looked uncomfortable, sitting in the chair by me.
"Yeah, why?"
"You're acting weird. Are you sure you're fine?"
"I'm the one who should be worrying about you right now. But yeah, whatever. I'm ok, I just want everything to go well. I don't think I'll be good at seeing you in pain."
"I'm not even sure I'll be good at being in pain." I joked.
7:03...
The doctor had just checked again. Barely any further. Only a centimeter total. Everything else was the same.
9:31...
Doctor checked another time. I'm just now officially in labor? And it barely even hurt? Confusing...
11:16...
2 centimeters dilated. Eric started asking if I was ok every time I had a contraction. Yes, Eric, I'm ok.
12:59 am...
Not quite 3 centimeters yet. Contractions are starting to actually hurt.
2:11...
4 centimeters. Contractions hurt, but are bearable. Eric is afraid to go to sleep and miss the birth. JUST GO TO SLEEP! I will wake you when I start pushing.
4:19...
Eric finally fell asleep. So did everyone except Chuck and me. 5 centimeters. Half way through. Ugh it's taking too long and I'm getting bored.
5:42...
Contractions are starting to hurt really fucking bad... 6 centimeters dilated. They won't let me eat! In case they have to do an emergency c-section. But that will not happen. Just no. I'm having the babies naturally.
7:13...
Everyone started waking up and being concerned. Great. 7 centimeters.
8:35...
8 centimeters. Let's not even start on the pain.
My dad, Lily, Vanessa, Serena and Dan had went to get something to eat, after I spent 30 minutes convincing them that they can leave me for a little while. However, Chuck and Eric refused to leave me.
"Jenny, are you ok?" Eric asked, looking a little scared (probably because I was crying).
"I'm fine, it just-" CONTRACTION! "GOD IT FUCKING HURTS!" I screamed, crying harder and smashing a pillow to my face. Eric practically jumped over to me.
"Do you need anything?"
"Just for this to be over. It hurts!" I whined.
"I know, I don't know what it feels like, and I never will, but I know it hurts. If I'm totally honest, I don't know what in the hell to do right now. I want to hug you, but I shouldn't."
"Yeah, please don't. You can hold my hand if you want- but you don't have to." I said quietly.
"Sure, yeah." He grasped my hand gently. Right in time for another contraction.
10:47...
It was time. Finally time. I was 10 centimeters dilated and I had permission to start pushing. Only problem was that I'd been up for over 24 hours and I was exhausted.
11:29...
So, I'd been pushing for a while, and nothing was happening. The doctors decided to do an ultrasound.
They figured out that the first baby was just now lowered into the right position, and they couldn't see the other. They told me to just keep pushing and they'll arrive soon.
12:04 pm...
When I did one of my pushes, a bunch of blood and amniotic fluid came out and I think it freaked Eric and Chuck out a little bit. If things weren't so serious, their reactions would've been funny as shit.
1:17...
They started up the ultrasound again. Baby got in the right position literally right after they started looking. UGH THE FUCKING PAIN!
2:35...
Out of nowhere, Chuck's face lit up.
"What? Chuck! What?" I had to ask, since he was looking at my genitals, which I couldn't see, but could only guess were a total mess.
Chuck didn't answer. Eric did. "The edge of the head is showing. Only a few more pushes for this one."
It was about time one was born! I kept pushing.
"Jenny, you can touch the baby if you want to." The doctor told me, and I did.
Two more pushes, and then with the last one, I pulled the baby out.
"It's the girl." I said, breathless and in awe of what I'd just done.
Chuck came to my side and couldn't keep a smile off his face as the umbilical cord was cut. My dad was crying of amazement.
"Tianna." I whispered to the baby. "How do you like your name?" She started crying. The nurse took her to check her over. I had another baby to push out.
3:12...
They'd had to do yet a third ultrasound, and they didn't seem too enthusiastic about it this time.
"What? Is something wrong with the baby? Is he ok? What's wrong?" They weren't saying anything.
"Jenny, there is something wrong, but we can't do anything about it. You're just going to have to push. Can you do that? Can you try to keep calm and push?"
"What the fuck is wrong with him?!" I demanded, close to tears.
"There's nothing for sure yet. You need to calm down a little bit. It might be hard, but you need to. And push."
I said nothing. I started pushing again, putting all of my strength into every push.
Suddenly, everyone looked worried. I could feel the baby coming out, but somehow it felt different.
I started to reach for him, but out of the corner of my eye, I noticed Lily cringe. I stopped and pulled my hand back. I pushed again, and the doctor reached for the baby, a sad look in her eyes.
"Guys what's happening?" I asked, scared shitless.
"Jenny, he didn't make it." Eric told me, crying a little.
The doctor showed me the baby boy. He was tiny and alien looking. I knew I was crying. How could I not be? Everyone in the room was crying, even the doctor.
"Chuck, I'm sorry-"
"Don't be sorry. It's not your fault."
"Yes it is! I'm so fucking stupid." I muttered, rolling over and pulling the blanket over my head.
"It's not your fault." Eric told me, putting his had on my arm.
"Don't fucking touch me! Please don't." And he didn't.
It gets better I swear. There's a point to all this. Only review if you're not gonna bitch at me.