WARNING: THIS STARTS WITH SEX AND ITS RATHER GROSS BUT THEN ITS OK

nearly 2 weeks later..

"Fuck! Eric- can you stop for a minute?"

He stopped thrusting. "Is everything ok?"

"It's more than ok, just when did you get so good at this?"

"I think we're just good together because that's what was meant to be."

"You're so cute. You can keep going now." I flirted with him, and he listened.

After a few minutes, there was a strange wetness where we were connected. I looked down. I jumped away from him. I'd gotten my period, and it was on him. It had also gotten on the bed. Neither of us said anything at first, we just sat there in shock. Then I started crying a little, embarassed about what had just happened.

"Jenny, it's ok." Eric told me, hugging me gently. "This just tells us now that we have to keep trying. And bed sheets can be replaced. It's all fine."

"It's not fine. It's weird and gross. Just- let me get dressed." I said, pushing him away, getting up and walking to the bathroom.

Once I was dressed, I came back out and flopped on my bed, with my face in a pillow. Eric, who had also gotten dressed, rolled over to me and pulled me into his arms.

Later...

We were sitting on my bed, and Tianna was laying in front of us. She was so small and adorable still. At three and a half months old, she barely fit into 3-6 month baby clothes, but they worked. It was so strange to be trying to have another baby so soon, but it felt right.

For the past hour, we'd been talking to her and teaching her what her toys did. She didn't have many, since she hadn't really been interested in them before, but now she was starting to be. She had this little stuffed kitten that she liked particularly much; she would scream if you touched it while she was holding it. If she dropped it though, it was as if it didn't exsist.

Tianna was sleeping for about four hours at a time, but we were lucky since most babies don't sleep that long. She hadn't yet slept through a whole night. Oh well. She had more important needs at the moment.

Randomly, she started crying. It was her hungry cry. I was starting to understand what she needed from her different cries. I lifted her up and got her in a feeding position. Eric wasn't even awkward around this. It was like he was already a father; he was like a father to Tianna (not that Chuck wasn't, but he was too). He just scooted closer to me, put his arm around me and kissed my head and then Tianna's. It was the cutest thing.

Tianna nursed for a whole hour, and then fell asleep. I gently moved her to the crib and we quietly left the room.

The next day... May 20th... 7:31 am...

It was Wednesday so Eric and I were going to take Tianna to Chuck's and go out to do something. Chuck always seemed bright and happy when he was around the baby. When he wasn't, there sometimes seemed to be something bothering him. He never mentioned it, and it wasn't bad looking so I stayed out of it.

"Jenny, do you mind if I take her to the park?" Chuck asked me when we dropped her off.

"As long as you're careful then it's fine with me. Just have fun."

"You guys too." He replied. We left a minute later.

Eric and I went to see a movie, and then went shopping. It was cute. He insisted on buying me a necklace to go with the engagement ring that I wasn't wearing. We were purposely hiding our engagement for a little while. We were only 17. But the necklace he got had a heart shaped white diamond charm. The people in the store looked at us weirdly when we made out in the store after he'd gotten it. Excuse me people? We were in love. This behavior was normal.

Early in the afternoon, we went home. Eric decided we should go on a formal date, so he gave me time to get ready.

I dressed in a dress that went right below my knees and was sparkly silver. I don't even remember what I'd thought I needed it for, but now it had a use.

We went out and got chinese food this time. It was good, and Eric kept cracking jokes the whole time. After our date, we had to go pick Tianna up. She was fast asleep, and I felt so bad that I accidentally woke her up.

We got home, and everyone else was already there. Even Nate was over. And Dan, Serena and Brent. Alison was sitting on her play mat on the floor by Vanessa's feet (she was sitting on the couch).

"We have an announcement." Vanessa said once we were all waiting for someone to say something. "We're engaged." She said, smiling at Nate.

She was engaged too? This was cool. The only difference is no one knew about Eric and I.

Everyone cheered them on, or said random things or asked questions. I went back to my room.

I sat on the bed and let my mind drift. I thought of what it would be like when we eventually find out I'm pregnant, and what the pregnancy will be like. I thought of what our baby would look like, and what combinations of our features it would have.

I got up, went over to my dressor where I'd put the engagement ring. I took it out and put it on. It was so perfect. I put it back, and thought about our wedding. When was it going to be? Where? What would my dress look like? What kind of flowers would we use? What would Eric's tux look like? There were so many things to think about. At least we had plenty of time to think about all of it. There was no need to rush.