"Just Friends?" – A Joshifer Fan Fic

– Chapter 2 –

– Jennifer –

What did he just say. What did I just hear? What is going on. My best friend Josh Hutcherson has feelings for me? What is going to happen with our friendship now that I overheard his deepest confession to Sam? Should I stay and talk to him, or turn around and leave? Do I feel the same way? Do I have feelings for Josh? All of this is running through my head in what feels like 2 hours I've been standing here looking at Sam, then Josh, then back to Sam, then back to Josh. But the one thing not running through my head, which probably should be, is Nick.

"Uh, I better go. Josh, Jen, you're welcome to stay and talk… if you want. Just lock the door on your way out, okay?" Sam says. "Uh sure," Josh replies, barely a whisper. He hasn't taken his eyes off of me since I walked in. "Yeah, okay, thanks Sam." I say, trying to keep my composure. I fail. I burst out into a fit of laughter. Josh gives me an odd look, then eventually joins me, until we are both crying from laughing so hard. We eventually walk over and take a seat on the couch in Sam's trailer, and I am dreading this conversation we are about to have. I still haven't been able to figure out my confusing feelings for Josh, and I don't know what I'm going to say to him. I know that I feel differently about him than I did before, but do I have feelings for Josh? Am I just afraid to admit it to myself? Now, at the worst time possible, all I can think of is Nick, how am I supposed to explain this to Nick?

– Josh –

I can't believe she heard me. Jennifer and I are sitting here in silence in Sam's trailer, both of us staring at the floor not knowing what to say. All I can think about is how this could potentially destroy our friendship that I treasure more than anything. "Jen, I don't know what to say," I finally break the silence. "Josh, its okay," Jen says, and I'm confused by her tone. She was just laughing a few minutes ago, but now she is completely serious, and I can't tell what she's thinking, or what she's going to say. "Jennifer, I don't want anything to ruin our friendship. Our friendship is the most important thing to me, you have no idea," I try and explain. "Josh," she cuts me off, "it's fine, I promise. Nothing can ruin our friendship. Unless you kill someone, then I just don't think I can hang around with you anymore." Thank god. She isn't mad. She's joking with me. I haven't ruined everything. I get a sudden burst of confidence from her joke, and decide to just lay everything out on the table. "We never lie to each other right?" she nods.

I continue, "Jennifer Shrader Lawrence, ever since I saw you when we got to Atlanta, things were different, I felt different. I had butterflies in my stomach and for the first time I had thoughts… thoughts that I want more than anything to be more than friends with you. I'm not saying I was never attracted to you before, or had a crush on you before, but they all went away, especially when I would think of how happy you were with Nick." Her face falls when I say his name. "I'm sorry Jen, I shouldn't have brought him up. You probably feel guilty, or like you're hurting him because I'm sitting here spilling my feelings for you. I'm so sorry. You don't have to stay here, you can leave if you want." Why is she looking at me like that?

– Jennifer –

Josh just put his whole heart out there; well aware I could reject him, and crush him. Sitting here, listening to Josh, I have never been so sure of anything in my life. I can finally admit to myself, I'm in love with Josh Hutcherson. I've been looking at him in silence, smirking at him. Finally I feel I should speak up. Here goes nothing…

"Joshua Ryan Hutcherson, ever since I saw you when we got to Atlanta, things were different, I felt different." I say, copying the speech he just gave. He's now smiling, god I love that smile. "We were spending so much time together, and I couldn't figure out the way I was feeling. I always wanted to be around you, and when I wasn't I was thinking about how I wanted to be around you. My thoughts were rarely of Nick, and we've barely been talking." The bang of guilt I feel in my stomach when I talk about Nick is overwhelming, and I can't find my voice to go on speaking. I close my eyes and finally say the words in my head, I don't want to be with Nick, I want to be with Josh. When I open my eyes, Josh's beautiful smile is gone.

"Josh, I don't know what to do," I say, "Nick is coming here in three days, and I don't even want to see him, I have no desire to see him." Josh is looking "Jen, I feel horrible. I don't want your relationship to end because of me. I would feel like such an asshole, such a piece of shit, I just- .." I cut him off. "My feelings about Nick are not your fault. Sure, seeing you and falling for you made me not want to be with him even more, and when he comes here I'm going to end things. I have to end things. For my happiness." I shout, realizing I'm probably being too loud, as usual. Josh's smile, the smile that makes me weak in the knees is back, and I can't help but smiling too.

"Are you sure that's what you want Jen, don't do this if it's not what you really want. I want nothing more than you happy." Josh says, very seriously. "And I want nothing more than you. It feels amazing to finally admit it to myself." I say. I really want him to kiss me, but I realize how unfair that is to Nick, so I decide on strictly being friends until Nick leaves, and our relationship is over. We hug, and I feel electricity run through my whole body. Josh's touch has been doing that to me lately. I have never felt more at home than I do in his arms. "Come on, let's go get ice cream," I suggest. "And I really think we shouldn't tell anyone about any of this. At least not until Nick leaves." "Whatever you want Jen, I only want to make you happy."

I can't believe how much I love him.

– Josh –

I feel like I'm dreaming. I'm going to wake up, go to Jennifer's trailer, and have her hug me, and say "What's up buddy!" and I'll be back to Josh, the friend. But instead, to my delight, I'm sitting here, watching the most beautiful woman in the world slurp on her ice cream cone, and getting it all over her face. I couldn't be happier.

These three days can't go by fast enough. It's not that I don't like Nick; I fucking hate him. I never thought he treated Jen the way she deserved, like a queen. I always promised myself that if I ever got a girl half as perfect as Jennifer Lawrence, I would treat her as amazing as I possibly could. I just felt like Nick was an asshole, and Jennifer deserved somebody so much better, and I'm still in shock that person is going to me. Me. Why me? What did I do to deserve Jennifer Lawrence? The girl smiling at me, laughing, with ice cream all over her beautiful face, and her hands.

I can't believe how much I love her.