DISCLAIMER: I ONLY OWN BELLE THE REST BELONGS TO JAMES DASHNER (THE CHARACTER MURDERER)

Newt POV:

I stood there my eyes fixed on the doors.

"No" I whispered

All eyes were on me but I didn't care

Belle. My Belle. She was gone. She was standing there and then she was gone. I replayed the moment over and over again.

I didn't notice some of the crowd broke away. I felt a hand on my shoulder and saw Thomas. I looked back at the doors.

Gone

"Are you ok?" Thomas asked his voice was kind

I shook his hand off and walked over to the doors. I heard footsteps following me. I don't know who they belonged to

I didn't care.

I reached the door and the tears fell.

Gone

I hit the doors

Gone

I hit them again. This time harder

Gone

The word popped into my head every time I hit the wall.

I hit it again and again my hands started to bruise, scrape, bleed.

But I didn't care. All I cared about was Belle. My Belle. She's Gone

I discovered that Alby, Minho and Thomas were the people who followed me but I didn't care.

I don't care about them, The Glade, The Maze. Me.

She was going to be killed by a Griever. That's when the begging started. I started begging for the doors to open. For Belle to be ok and alive.

I mainly begged for Belle.

I felt myself being pulled away by a set of arms. I broke free and started pounding the doors again. Two sets of arms. I broke free my hands bled. Three sets of arms. I couldn't brake away from them this time. They dragged me to my room.

Our room

I broke out of their grasp and ran away from that room. I never want to be in again.

I found myself at the walls. I could do it I could.

Newt promise me something

What?

You'll try to commit suicide again

I promise

I promised her I wouldn't.

"I'm so sorry Belle" I said and grabbed a vine

"She'll never forgive you" I heard a voice say behind me

I turned around and saw Nelson. We hadn't spoken much since he had gone through The Changing

"She's dead it doesn't matter" I screamed at him

"She's not-"

"What do you know?" I snarled

"I just" He paused looking for the right words "Know"

I scoffed

"She was the only thing that kept me going and now. Now she's gone" I cried. Why wasn't he listening. She's dead

"And your the only thing that's keeping her going. Imagine her heartbreak when she finds you and kinds out that you killed yourself. You will see her again. I promise" He nodded towards the hand that was holding the vine "Let it go"

I let go the vine and walked over to The Homestead. I felt hollow. Alby came running over

"Newt. Do you want me to show the Greenie the Griever?" He asked

I turned to him and punching him in the face. I carried on walking until I was back in my room.

Our room.

Gone

The word was back. I shut the door behind me and cried

I heard a knock on the door

"Newt. Dinner's ready"

I wasn't hungry

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Night fell and I wasn't tired either. I hadn't moved from the spot. Boys came and went trying to convince me to move but I didn't. I just stared at the bed

Our bed

I would do anything for those loud snores I used to hear every night. I remember complaining about them most nights and her threatening to kick me out of bed

Gone

It was all I could think about

"Newt" I heard a voice say through the door. Tommy "Newt. It's Thomas" He signed "Please open the door. Eat something"

"Go away Tommy" I said sadly through the door. It was the first time I'd talked since she was first taken away.

He seemed shocked because he didn't answer. I guess he was expecting me to just sit in silence like I had done so far

"Just open the door"

And for some reason I did. I can't imagine how bad I must have looked. Red rimmed eyes. Scruffy hair.

Tommy had two plates of sandwiches.

"I couldn't eat knowing you were in here starving and I'm not going to leave until you eat this sandwich"

He shoved the sandwich in my face he shut the door and sat against it. I joined him

I reluctantly ate the sandwich. It tasted bitter

"You need some sleep" Tommy said

"I don't think I'll be sleeping"

"Ok. Your just gonna have to deal with me for the night" Tommy said

"Go sleep it's been a long day"

"You go to sleep. Then I'll sleep" Tommy said

And that's what happened. We stayed up for hours when sleep finally took me.

Poor Newt! I hoped you all liked this chapter anyway! Just so you all know one chapter will be Belle's chapter and the next will be Newt's it will be like that until the end now unless for some reason it changes. The rest or the story will be TMR but they will still speak and think of each other! Thank you so much for your reviews they are always so kind and sweet and ALWAYS put a smile on my face! Review if you love or hate this story! Until next chapter! Byee