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My heart nearly stopped at the sound of his voice. He was definitely not Jenn.
"None of your goddamn business," Eric snarled at Tobias.
"Shut up, Eric," I shoved him out of the doorway, glaring at him.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I tried to hide the panic that threatened to consume me. The look one his face was indescribable. The pain in his eyes broke my heart, but he anger that seeped from pores scared the living shit out of me.
"Tobias, I swear, I can explain..." Who was I kidding? I had no idea how to explain this.
"What is there to explain?" He said a little too calm. "You lied to me."
"I just, he, I...I don't know what to say. I'm sorry," It felt as if a hand was slowly wrapping around my throat.
"Sorry? That's not good enough. Not this time," he turned and began to make his way down the hall. That's it? He was just going to let it end there?
My panic began to be replaced by frustration and annoyance. He didn't have a say in how I was allowed to live my life. I loved him, but as my brother he needed to learn how to except me for me and not for this Abnegation girl that he left behind.
I couldn't let him go. I chased after him, grabbing his arm to stop him. He ripped it from my grasp as he turned to face me. "I don't understand why you're making choose?"
"You know why," he growled.
"Because of Amar?" He flinched at the named. "You can't just go and accuse Eric of killing him and expect me to label him as a killer just based off you're word. It doesn't work like that."
"You don't believe me?" He sounded offended, but I didn't care.
"I asked him about it and he said he had nothing to do with it. He was genuinely offended by the accusation," I lied. I didn't know how else to smooth this over.
"People lie," he spat. Well, no shit.
"He wasn't lying. I believe him, and if you have a problem with that, too bad," So, I didn't ask him, that didn't matter. I know for a fact that Eric isn't a killer.
"What the hell has gotten into you, hm? Before you came to Dauntless you would have never even thought about being with someone like Eric. You would have labeled him for what he is, an asshole on a power trip. Why don't you see that?"
"Because I'm not that little girl that you left behind in Abnegation. I've grown up and I can decided who I want to be with and who I don't. I love you for who you are and I let you live your own life. Why can't you do the same for me?"
He sighed, running his hand over his face. "I'm not going to talk about this anymore, you know where I stand."
"Tobias-," but he cut me off.
"The only reason I came up here is because I wanted to talk you about this. I found it in my apartment," he pulled a piece of folded paper out of his back pocket and tossed it in my direction. I caught it, giving him a confused look. "But I'm not really in the mood to even be near you right now."
"Stop being so childish," I rolled my eyes.
"Whatever," was the last thing that he said to me as he walked away. I didn't bother looking at the paper as I shoved it in my pocket. I watched as he disappeared around he corner. As upset as I was at him, I hated being on bad terms with him.
After a minute or so, I turned back and headed back to my apartment. Eric was on the couch when I opened the door. When he saw me he immediately stood and made his way over to me. He frowned, I assumed because he noticed the sour look on my face.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have answered the door," he said.
"No, he was going to find out eventually. We weren't going to be able to hide this forever," I admitted.
"I know I have my reasons for not being a big fan of his and vise versa, but what has his panties in such as twist that it's got him pissed at you too?" He pulled me towards the couch. I sat on his lap and rest my head on his chest.
"He thinks you killed Amar," I said bluntly. I wasn't quite sure how else to put it.
"What?" I was right about one thing, he did seem offended. "Amar was our instructor. I had nothing against Amar. Sure, I thought he played favorites and he wasn't my favorite person, but shit, I wouldn't have killed him." He sat up, causing me to sit up as well. I looked at him confused. "You don't think I killed him, do you?"
"Of course not! That's why he's so pissed."
"Well, he needs to grow the fuck up," he leaned back and wrapped his arms around me.
"Exactly," I agreed. "He just thinks you're an asshole on a power trip." "I really don't give a shit what he thinks about me," he shrugged.
"Trust me, I know." I sat up and untangled myself from him. I stood and made my way towards my room.
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Once lunch rolled around, me and Eric headed to the dinning hall. I ducked my head as I tried to sneak past Jenn.
"Hey!" Damn. "Thanks for standing me up. Where were you?" She joined me in line, Eric falling in place behind her.
"Let's just say it was for a good reason."
"Sleeping in is not a good reason," she countered.
"I wasn't sleeping in," I lied. "Me and Four had a family issue that needed to get solved."
"Did it get solved?"
"No," As a matter of fact, it got 10 times worse.
"He's just being a dick," Eric chirped in.
"Four is many things," Jenn grabbed a chocolate muffin as she spoke. "But he is not a dick. He's probably one of the nicest guys I know."
"You've never pissed him off have you?" I chucked, grabbing a hamburger.
"You can piss him off?" She looked amazed by the taught of Tobias mad. I shook my head, smiling as I walked over to our table. When we were all seated, the small talk continued on between Eric, Jenn, and Jason who had already been sitting at the table. I zoned out about 5 minutes into it and found myself scanning the dinning hall for Tobias.
He was sitting at the far end of the room with Zeke and Shauna. He must have felt my eyes on him because he looked up and locked eyes with me. He then looked over at the seat next to me, at Eric. When he looked back at me, an unreadable expression was set on his face and his eyes were harsh. He looked away from me and back at Zeke.
I let out a breath that I hadn't realized I'd been holding in. Eric must have noticed this and placed his hand on my knee. He leaned closer to me and whispered, "Fuck him. You're the only thing he has left. He's not going anywhere. He's just being a baby and throwing a tantrum. He'll get over it."
I turned and gave him sad smile. "What if he doesn't?"
"Then, like I said, fuck him." I nodded, but I didn't want to be here right now.
"Hey, Jason?"
"Yeah?" He looked up from his burger.
"Mind if I take the day off?" I was supposed to be shadowing him today.
"Yeah, go ahead." He smiled. "Thanks," and with that I stood and gathered my trash.
"Alex?" Eric questioned.
"I'm fine." I said as I walked away. I dumped the remainder of my lunch and headed back to my apartment.
After a long hot shower, I wondered around my apartment, trying to clear my head. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed the piece of paper that Tobias gave me earlier on my dresser. I unfold it and read the three lines that were written on it;
On the day you hated most
At the time when she died
In the place where you first jumped on
What hell was this supposed to mean? At first the words didn't make sense, but obviously they were important enough for Tobias to feel the need to show them to me. I read them over and over again, trying to make out what they were saying.
On the day you hated most. There were a lot of days that I hated. Today was on that list of hated days, but that was besides the point. Was it talking about a holiday? A birthday? A specific day of the year? No day in particularly was sticking out. It must be referring to a day of the week. If that was the case, that was an easy one; Wednesdays. Wednesdays were council meeting days. Marcus would be out late and come home in a terrible mood.
At the time when she died. There could only be one she, our mother. She died in the middle of the night. When me and Tobias woke up her body was already gone, but it was said that she died around two in the morning.
In the place where you first jumped on. That had to be when we first jumped onto the train when we picked Dauntless as our new faction.
Wednesday, at two a.m., on the train platform near the Hub. That's tonight. There was only one person in the world would know all of that information besides me and Tobias: Marcus.
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That night, I wiggled out of Eric grasp and got out of bed. I quickly and quietly got dressed. I stuck out of his apartment and locked the door behind me. There's no foot traffic around the Pit at this time so I mad my way through Dauntless unnoticed.
Once I reach the outside, I broke into a slow run, finding a rhythm that went hand in hand with my breathing. It's not cold out, but a chill swept through my body as I thought about who I was going to be face to face with in just a few short minutes. After everything, why did he want to see Tobias? Didn't he realize that neither one of use want anything to do with him.
It wasn't long before the Hub came into view. I looked at my watch, it's a few minutes to two. I might be a few minutes late, but it's Marcus and I could careless if I'm punctual.
My running came to a stop when I finally reached the stairs. I was hit with a wall of memories as I looked up the rungs. I couldn't help but smile. I was so scared and unsure if I had made the right choice or not. I remember Jake and Aidan running along side of me. I felt a pang of guilt in my chest realizing that I had been spending so much time with Eric that I hardly ever saw my friends anymore.
I shook the nerves and memories off as I began to climb. My footsteps echoed throughout the dark that surrounded me, but when I reached the top, it wasn't Marcus who I saw.
Tobias stood alone on the platform. He looked at me, his anger and frustration towards me gone for a moment as it was replaced by confusion.
"You came?" Not that he sounded surprised, but almost as if he was expecting me not to come.
"I wasn't going to let you face him alone, not matter how pissed you are at me. You're my brother Tobias, nothing is ever gonna change that."
He looked down at his sneakers and I sighed. We both looked off into the distance as the sound of a train rumbled and shook the tracks.
"I didn't know the trains ran this late," If I would have known that I wouldn't have run all the way here.
"They don't, but Marcus would never take a train, he would never associate himself so closely with the Dauntless," he had a point, but then what explanation was there for the train?
As the train neared, I watched a person leaped from the train and onto the platform. I squinted, trying to make out who it was. It wasn't Marcus, but a woman.
The woman strode towards us, when she was a few feet away I could finally see her. Long curly hair. Black Dauntless pants, gray Abnegation shirt, brown Amity boots. Her face was so foreign, yet so familiar that I could never forget it.
"Mom?"
I was on the fence on whether to have it be Jake or Four, but I had a better idea of how to write the Four version. I know all of you expected a bigger BANG, but I figured that they've kinda already been through this once, so I thought this time it would be better to have a more of a "i'm disappointed in you" kinda version of it.
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