Author Note: Hey, I'm back with chapter 2! Warnings are the same.

Me: Kanda, will you do the honors?

Kanda: Che, why the heck would I do that?

Me: I'll turn you into a girl, dye your hair pink, and make you wear pigtails like Lenalee.

Kanda: Crowsnightdoesn'townDGMorthecharacters,justtheplot !

Me: Thank you. On to chapter 2!

Situation

Chapter 2: Showers, Dollar General, and Lollipops

After I eat my normal breakfast, I begin to head out to the dollar store. I'm nearly to the gigantic doors when I hear Lenalee call, "Allen, wait up!"

I pop out my ear buds, and stuff them in the inside pocket of my exorcist coat. I turn to see the pigtailed girl running towards me, a smile across her face. Once she caught up with me, she asked, "Where are you going?"

"I have to go to the dollar store and grab a few things," I explain. She nods, "Do you mind if I tag along? I need to get some hair stuff, and I haven't seen you in forever!"

I smile, "I'd love it, and maybe you can help me with that plan."

Lenalee knows about the whole Kanda thing I have going on, and since she's his closest friend (that doesn't annoy the living crap out of him. Stupid usagi.), she asks him innocent questions to help me out. I never had time to put together anything that he would notice, like tight shirts to show off my muscle, or something. Truly, until Lenalee and I started plotting together, I thought the sexy bluenette had no weakness.

"Definitely, this is the perfect opportunity to get the coconut stuff! He'll notice for sure, even if he doesn't acknowledge it. He's got a keen nose."

I grin a little, "I've noticed."

She opened her mouth then closed it again. Instead, she began to pull me out the door that was conveniently open already. She flew us down the floating piece of land that Headquarters sat on using her Dark Boots. The air hitting my face felt soothing as I clung to her waist. The sun had barely risen, so most people were still asleep, which was perfect in our case. Once we landed, we started to discuss strategies. The street lights were still on and flooding the sidewalk with yellow light. We past several different stores and I was tempted to go into the pet store for Timcampy. I said, "Yeah, but I think he's already interested…"

Lenalee immediately perked up, and almost face planted in a telephone pole, "Why? I want details!"

I blush, "You know how I said the room has a bunk bed?"

She nodded. I continued, "I got the top bunk and was sitting on it when he came out of the bathroom. When he saw me, he said, 'Who said you get to be on top?'"

She squealed, the yaoi fangirl popping out of her like a balloon falling on grass, "This is a great sign! Did he do anything afterwards?"

My face was the color of blood, "No, but he was shirtless and was running his fingers through his hair. Oh, and he had a smirk on his face."

Another squeal escaped the green haired girl, "Kanda plays with his hair when he's nervous, I know that for a fact."

"Why?" I asked, confused by the concept.

She shrugs, "It's a girl thing, and apparently a long hair thing. He does it a lot when you're not looking."

I smile, happy that this means he probably feels the way I do. In one sense at least….

"We're here," Lenalee says, veering us into the small store. "It's time for a makeover."

"Wah?" I'm cut off by the excited girl pulling me to the face care section. She had snagged a basket from who knows where and was looking at acne treatments. "Let's see…Proactive looks good, but Clearasil is on sale…"

"I don't have acne!" I say, wondering what was wrong with my complexion.

She shakes her head, "No, but your skin is grainy."

I feel slightly embarrassed by the comment, but am glad that I can get the advice from Lenalee. She's not afraid to tell me things, and I'm grateful since I need all the advice I can get. After all, Kanda has a gazillion fangirls.

She eventually went with Proactive X-Out, and continued down the aisle. I groan and turn around as she starts comparing tampons. I'm not the guy that gets turned on by that, and rather put nail polish on than have to be seen looking at the offensive things. I feel my arm being jerked, and am thankful that she pulls me to the deodorant. Confused, I'm tempted to smell my armpits, but would look stupid doing so, and refrain. "Hawaiian Paradise or Lavender?" she asks.

I sigh, "Something not so girly, maybe?"

Lenalee grumbles something and picks a new one, but keeps the lavender for herself, tossing them in the basket. She continues to pull me along, buying some shaving cream and perfume. I got the new gauze, telling Lenalee that it was in case something happened, and that they must have thrown the other away from my old room. I feel horrible for lying, but knew the consequences of the truth would be much worse.

We snagged the shampoo, conditioner, and body wash in coconut flavor, and Lenalee got her stuff, too. She said that I should see if the conditioner would make a difference in my hair. I'm guessing the unspoken part of that was if Kanda would like the feel of it…

"Hello? Earth to Allen," Lenalee waved a hand in front of my face, trying to snap me out of my daydream.

"What?" I ask, blushing slightly. She giggled, holding a blue shirt to me, "I asked if you had a personal preference."

"It has to have long sleeved," I say, trying not to rush it out. She tilts her head in confusion, but says nothing.

As she continues to browse the clothes, I walk around. I haven't had time to explore the store since most things involved personal care in a rush. I pick out a small bottle of cat treats for Timcampy. I think the reason he gets eaten by felines so much is because he loves anything to do with them. I mean, he eats cat food and treats, and gets drunk on catnip. He's yet to fail to amaze me.

As I walk past the disappearing Halloween decorations from a week ago, something green catches my eyes. Lollipops. Carmel apple flavored lollipops. Okay, so I'm a little gay, but my biggest weakness is the sweet, colorful swirls. I grab the rest of them, which was probably close to a dozen, and walk back to where Lenalee was. I dump them into the small basket, taking her off guard, and nearly making her fall over. She eyes me and I grin sheepishly, "I love lollipops."

"I noticed," as she said the words, an evil look crossed her face. I realized what she was thinking, and wasn't sure to be happy or terrified. On one hand, this could make Kanda snap and maybe finally confess his feelings. On the other, it could be a death sentence. I shiver, this would be interesting.

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I open the door to mine and Kanda's room, happy he wasn't there. It's time to put the plan to work.

I set down the bags on my bed, sorting through what goes where. We had bought a pair of skinny jeans (it was not my idea) and two very formfitting shirts in black and dark blue. I pulled them out, putting the blue one, Tim's treats, and my lollipops in my dresser.

I hauled everything else into the bathroom, locking the door behind me, and set the bags on the vanity. I arranged everything the way I wanted, and moved the hair and body washes to the shower.

I start to wonder if the crazy plan would work. If it did great, but if it didn't….

"Do you want Kanda to notice you?" I asked my reflection in the mirror, trying to pep talk myself. I took a deep breath, and started to strip. After that, I wet my face, squirting the Proactive into my hand, and following the directions. Lenalee was right; my skin was very grainy. As I continue the treatment, I turn on the shower.

After the water started steaming, I stepped into the tub, pulling the curtain with me. The water ran down my body, and I washed off the acne treatment. I exhaled a breath that I didn't realize I was holding, and grabbed the razor. It doesn't take me long to take out my stress on myself. I slice the blade down my arm, making it as deep as I could without hitting something important. I gasp at the pain, and remove the tool, watching the blood well and wash away. I feel the numbness spread over the wound and down my arm. The water dripped off the ends of my growing white hair and long eyelashes. I can't remember when I started cutting, but it was sometime after I came to the Order and met the long haired samurai.

It was at least two years ago, and though I don't remember when I started exactly, I know that it soon became an addiction. I'm not even sure if I want to stop, but something would happen between then and now, I know. An akuma. A Noah. But the most likely was suicide. I get the thoughts every day. I put on the brave face, and fight. I only live for my friends anyways, not that they'd be my friends after they saw the scars. I've held a bottle of pills, and put one of the claws on my left arm to my throat. I attempted it once by overdosing sleeping pills, but I didn't take enough.

I feel a tear slide down my cheek. I shake my head. I wasn't going to start.

I silently went through my new shower routine, fantasizing about what the bluenette might do when he saw me. His lips on mine, rough, but soft at the same time. His hair falling out of its ponytail, and my hand running through the silky locks. He'd lift my shirt, exploring my body until….

My eyes flash open, and I push the thought away. I was going through with this no matter what.

I step out of the shower, and I dry off. My cut had clogged itself and I was thankful that I would have to deal with a gauze bulge on my arm. I apply some deodorant, and pull on the new clothes. The shirt complimented my hair and eyes, and outlined my muscle perfectly. Though, the jeans did make me feel self-conscious. Suck it up, Allen!

Stepping out of the bathroom, I glance around the bedroom. It was empty. I take a lollipop out of my dresser, unwrap it, and begin to lick it. It was about the size of a flat donut, so putting it in my mouth was out of the question. I continue to lick its sweet surface, and walk to the cafeteria.

Lenalee had promised to drag Kanda and Lavi (why?) to the cafeteria for lunch, but I wasn't allowed to eat. The demon with pigtails. I still had a lollipop though. I peeked into the large room, my eyes wandering it until I spotted the three of them sitting at a table in the back.

I make my way to their table, more than aware of the eyes glued to my body as I licked the candy. Lenalee noticed me first, followed by Lavi, though Kanda didn't look up from his soba. I sat across from Lenalee, and next to the hot bluenette, who I think was purposefully not looking up.

She winks. "Hey, I want a lollipop, too!" she whined. I shook my head, "Nope, I got plenty back at the room, but I'm saving them for later."

Lavi chuckled at the girl's whining, but instead said, "Aw, Yu, why are you so down today?"

The samurai death glared at the rabbit and growled, "Don't use my first name, or do you have a death wish?"

Lenalee interrupted the building fight by saying, "Allen, have you read any good mangas lately? I'm trying to find a new one, but am empty-handed at the moment."

I nod, "Yeah, it's called 'The Uke Discussion', but I can't figure out what uke and seme mean." I see Kanda ever so slightly stiffen, and I continue to lick the lollipop as seductively as I can. This would be very interesting.

Lavi bursts out laughing, "Let me give you an example. If it was between you and Kanda, Kanda would be seme and you would be uke."

Kanda simply punches the rabbit in the face, knocking him out cold instantly, and then returns to his soba. I knew full well what it meant, and was very happy by the effect it had on the bluenette. I refuse to blush at the images going through my mind, and press onward.

I shake my head, "I still don't understand." I reach out and start twirling Kanda's hair that frames his face, the silky strand sliding easily through my fingers. I innocently run my extra fingers down his face, asking, "Can you explain it to me, Kandy? I mean, Kanda."

I was having a field day with the guy. I put my elbow on the table and lean down slightly, looking at his face while I lick the "other" candy. His eyes were glazed over from the touch, and he swallowed hard when I called him "Kandy".

The samurai suddenly stands, brushing away my fingers, and walks away. I exhale deeply, thank goodness that was over. I was very pleased with the result, watching him make a getaway. I never am doing that again. Lenalee jumped up once Kanda was out of the room and hugged me, "You did it! He's going to have a long explanation when you get back."

I nod, knowing that I was blushing like mad. I wobbled up from the seat, knowing I needed to follow while the effect was still there.

After leaving the crime scene, I walk down the hall, throwing away the lollipop as I went. I was grinning like a lunatic, but for good reason. Kanda likes me! He actually likes me! I continue to smile until I get to the door. I unlock it and step inside. I immediately see the abused bluenette sitting on his bed, reading his book.

I walk to the bed, but before hopping onto the top bunk, I say innocently, "You never told me what the wor-"

I'm cut off by Kanda as he throws the book to the side and grabs my waist lightning fast, throwing me onto his bed. I had closed my eyes, and when I open them, they meet dark, lust filled ones. He's straddling me now, pinning me down under his weight. He leans down until I feel his breath on my ear. "Kanda?" I ask, slightly scared.

"Kanda? What happened to Kandy?" he rasps before licking my right ear lobe. I shudder at the touch, and he moves so his lips are just brushing mine. Finally, I think. This is what I've dreamed of.

I push up on my elbows, closing the tiny gap. My lips move against his, and he almost immediately shoves me back down, holding my hands hostage above my head. He nips my lip and I gasp, his tongue taking advantage of the moment and darting in my mouth. He explores my moist cavern, meeting my tongue, and we battle for dominance. We break apart for air, but soon Kanda attacks my jaw, kissing and licking down my neck. I close my eyes and moan, "Kandy…"

I feel his lips curve up at the new name. I grab at his hair, pulling it loose from the hair tie, and tugging on it slightly. Large hands crawl up under my shirt, and I melt under the touch. I've wanted this for so long. But when Kanda's hand skims over my older wound, I jolt with fear and pain. I pull away quickly, jerking my shirt down. I can't explain this. I whisper, "I…I…c-can't…"

Hurt fills the bluenette's eyes, but it was soon replaced by an unbreakable wall. The wall he has up over his emotions constantly. The wall that had come down over me. Kanda had let me in and expressed the mutual feeling, but I ruined it. He nods before getting up from the bed, grabs Mugen, and walks out the door. I reach out my hand, but yank it back as the door slams. I feel the tears bubble over my eyes, and I bring my knees to my chest. My one chance. My one chance and I blew it!

My vision blurred, I grasp the covers at the end of the bed, and pull them over me, the sweet smell of Kanda wafting around me. I lay there, tears running down my burning cheeks. I eventually fall asleep, somehow, wallowing in the sorrow from my stupid incompetence.

Author Note: There's chapter 2! I didn't have internet for a couple days, but got it out just in time for Jerry's birthday! Next chapter will be recap in Kanda's POV and I know that everyone's gonna be excited about that! Please, Please, PLEASE R/R!