February 11... Saturday... 7:19 pm...

Chuck and Blair had just boarded their plane, which would be taking them to Greece for their honeymoon.

The wedding had been elegant and simple. It was so cute how they got married right before Valentine's day.

The next morning...

I was woken up by the smell of pancakes and the sound of Kalika crying from her bedroom.

I crawled out of bed, and went to get our baby girl.

Once I changed her clothes and diaper, I took her to the kitchen, where I found Eric and Tianna.

"Happy random day in February!" Eric greeted me, kissing my cheek, then Kalika's.

"Good morning to you too." I laughed, setting Kalika on the play blanket in the living room with Tianna (the two rooms were connected).

"Sleep well?"

"I would've slept better if the little one wasn't so jumpy and stayed off my bladder, but otherwise yeah."

"Getting up to pee every hour doesn't sound very fun in the middle of the night."

"It wasn't quite every hour, but maybe every two."

"Still, it was a lot."

"It'll all be worth it when the baby is born."

"Yes it will be. Anyway, when are we deciding on a name?"

"I don't know. I'm barely 22 weeks along. There's still plenty of time to make choices."

"I know, but we should start thinking about a name now, so we'll choose a nice one."

"What, do you not like Kalika's name?"

"No, Jen, I love her name! Why are you even asking that?"

"We chose it at last minute! Now you're saying we need to choose this one sooner so it can be a nice name! That hints in every way that you regret naming her 'Kalika'!"

"I don't regret anything! At least not anything involving this family!"

"You sure made it sound like you do!"

"Well, I'm sorry you understood it that way."

"Be sorry all you want, it doesn't change anything." I told him, going into the bedroom and changing into a tee shirt and leggings.

"Babe, what are you doing?"

"I'm going to the loft with Dan and Serena." I replied, putting the girls in the double stroller.

"Come on, at least have some breakfast."

"No, I'm not hungry."

"The baby probably is."

"If the baby was hungry, she would be letting me know."

"Whatever. You can't run from our arguments every time."

"I'm not running, I'm taking a fucking break!"

"Call it whatever you want then, but you're still trying to get out of it because you're scared."

"I am not scared! You couldn't hurt me if you wanted!"

"Why the hell would I even want to?"

"Exactly."

As I made my way back to Brooklyn, my thoughts crowded in my head.

I was being a coward, Eric was right, but I wasn't scared of what he must've thought. I left because I wanted the argument to stop there, not because of anything else. I was scared we'd have a big fight like when I was pregnant with Kalika, so I stopped it before it went too far.

When I got to the loft, I could her Dan and Serena talking inside, so they were obviously home.

I knocked on the door. Serena answered.

"Jenny! Hi! Come in!" She greeted us with a gigantic smile.

"Woah, Jen! Are you ok?" Dan asked as soon as he saw me.

"Yeah, Eric and I just had an argument. I needed to take a break for a few hours. Mind if I hang out here?"

"Mind? I barely see you anymore! Of course you can hang here!"

"Thanks."

"Anytime, sis. You can ignore Serena's hyper-to-hell happy streak if you want." Dan offered, laughing.

"Why is she so happy?"

"Promise you won't tell anyone yet?" Serena asked me giddily.

"Ok, I promise..."

"We just found out we're having twins like Vanessa and Nate!"

Twins. They were having twins. Just like Vanessa and Nate. I was the first one to have twins. The only different thing was that my little boy didn't make it.

"Jenny, are you ok?" Dan suddenly asked me, nervously.

I hadn't realized I was shaking and my eyes were filling with tears.

"Um, no. I need to use the bathroom." I lied, hurrying into the bathroom and closing the door.

I sat on the closed toilet lid and cried. I didn't think I was still so sensitive about what had happened to Laurent. It must just be how it seemed like I was the only one who couldn't carry a healthy baby at this point.

As I cried my eyes out, I could feel our unborn baby nudging around inside me, as if she was reading my thoughts and reminding me she was healthy.

"Hey, Jen? Are you actually even using the bathroom?" Dan asked through the door.

"No."

"Can I come in?"

"Why?"

"I want to talk to you."

"No." I told him, hoping he would go away, and he did.

About 30 minutes later, I'd stopped crying, but not shaking.

Someone else knocked on the door. "Babe? Please let me in?" Eric begged me.

"It's not locked."

Eric gently opened the door and slipped inside.

"Jenny, what happened?"

"They're having twins too."

"I know, they just told me."

"It brings back the feelings about what happened to Laurent." I choked, fighting tears again.

"Aw, Jen..." He trailed off, wrapping his arms around me and kissing my shoulder.

"Thinking about what happened to him makes me feel like I failed."

"You didn't fail. Whatever happened then wasn't your fault."

"Don't act like we don't know what happened! He stopped developing halfway through the pregnancy, shortly before dying!"

"I wasn't going to make you feel worse by bringing it up."

"Just thinking of it makes it worse!"

"Then do you want to go for a walk to distract you?"

"Not really, but I could use a distraction."

February 14... 11:13 pm...

"This was a great Valentine's Day." I told Eric while we cuddled in bed after a romantic date night and a beautiful while of making love.

"I'm glad you had a good time."

"Yeah, I definitely did. But I was thinking, after this baby is born, I should go on the pill. You know, so I don't get pregnant again? Also we should start using condoms."

"I'm not going to object that, because it's a smart idea."

"I know."

"Obviously."

"I love you!" I randomly blurted, kissing my husband playfully.

"Oh really? I had no fucking idea!" He joked at me, laughing. "I love you too-"

Suddenly he was cut off by my phone ringing. I checked. Lily was calling me. What was so important at this hour, when she knew Eric and I would probably be in bed?

"Jenny, your father is in the hospital." She told me before I could even say hello.

"Why? What happened?"

"The doctors aren't sure yet, but they're running tests right now."

"Should we go to the hospital now?" I asked, getting an alarmed look from Eric.

"Well, there isn't much of a point, since he isn't awake, so maybe you should just come in the morning?"

"Ok, we'll be there then. Goodnight." I said, hanging up.

What the fuck was going on?