Ok, I'm back! Lol, sorry it's taken me so long but I'm just getting over the writers block. It was horrible but I think I've got this figured out now. I hope to get updating all my stories to and uploading a few new ones(hopefully).

APOV

I ran as fast as my legs would carry me, Jasper keeping an even pace beside me. I knew if he wanted he could outrun me but he didn't leave my side. He kept shooting me worried looks but I refused to tell him what I had seen. For now anyway.

We finally made it back to the house. Edward was standing on the porch with a look of panic on his face. He had clearly read my mind before I'd got here. Which meant he already knew of Emmett's plans. This made it harder because now everyone would be wondering.

"He wouldn't." Edward stated as I raced up the steps.

"I don't know but so far that's what it looks like." I replied as I walked inside. I didn't have to look to know Edward and Jasper were following.

I walked into the living room where the only change was Edward wasn't in there. Everyone looked up anxiously. They were of course dieing to know what I had seen. Or if I had seen anything.

"Did you see anything?" Carlisle asked.

"Yes and it wasn't good." I answered.

"What was it?" Bella and Esme spoke at the same time.

I bit my lip and let everything I had seen come spilling out.

RPOV

I lay curled into a ball in the old bed in Edward's room. I hadn't moved since Jasper had brought me up. I had no intentions of moving anytime soon either. It wasn't like I had a reason for moving now anyway. With him gone I had no ambition to do anything.

I never knew him being gone would hit me this way. I felt so depressed. Like I would never be happy again. He was the only one for me and I let him walk away. Maybe he was right…maybe I wasn't paying enough attention to him…maybe things weren't as good as I had thought they were. I guess I'll never know for sure now that he's gone.

I curled up tighter and squeezed my eyes shut. It didn't help because images of us came flooding back. All those memories…vacations…honeymoons…weddings…just being with him. I couldn't control it and started dry sobbing again.

I gained control of myself a short while later. I was still shaking with sobs but not nearly as bad. I rolled onto my back and listened to the sounds coming from downstairs. There was a soft murmur and then a door opened and shut. I could tell by the footsteps it was Jasper and Alice. I noticed if I lay still and listened closely I could hear the whispers of my other family members. They were talking about me…and him. Something about they couldn't believe he was gone. I had to stop listening at that point. It was to hard hearing his name.

I stared at the ceiling for a while. Tracing the grooves and designs with my eyes. That didn't hold my attention for long so I rolled over to face the window. There were two blue birds on the windowsill. They had built a nest and were cuddling in it. Probably to keep warm. It would've been cute if it wasn't so depressing.

I sat up so I could see the birds better. I noticed they were sitting on eggs. I suddenly became jealous of the female bird. She had her mate and was starting a family. Something I had dreamed of but couldn't have. And now I didn't even have my mate. I began resenting the female bird.

I slowly stood and walked to the window. I unlocked it and slid it open. The birds didn't seem to notice. Or maybe they did and just didn't care. My hand slowly reached out and wrapped around the small female. She squawked and squirmed as her mate tried to save her. I tightened my hand until I could feel the tiny bones crush beneath my hand. The bird finally stopped moving and I let it drop to the ground. I slammed the window shut and leaned against the wall.

What had gotten into me? I had killed an innocent bird out of jealousy. Now the baby birds would have to rely on the father. I felt so horrible as I sank to the ground with my head in my hands. I couldn't believe I had done that. It was such a rotten thing to do. But then again my feelings of jealously were gone and now all I felt was remorse.

I don't know how long I had sat there before I heard the door open and close again. They were back. I listened closely. Alice had seen something but was hesitating to tell. Then, she said it. The words I'd never wanted to hear. The words that made me cry out with pain and burst into more dry sobs.

Em's POV

I kept walking until I reached a small café in Ontario. I didn't order anything, just sat in a small booth in the back. I sat with my arms folded in front of me on the table with my chin resting on my arms. Several waitresses stopped to ask if I wanted to order anything but I simply told them no that I was just getting out of the cold. Not that it was really cold to me but it as a good excuse.

I let my mind wander over several things as I sat. I thought about my family and wondered if they were worried. I thought about what I was going to do now that I was on my own. But mostly I thought about Rose. I missed her so much. Her smile, her laugh, her voice, her eyes, her scent…I missed it all. The thing I missed the most about her was how even when she was thoroughly pissed off at me, she would still say she loved me.

I quickly erased all thought of …her…from my mind before I started having second thoughts and went back. Besides. I had other things to think about. Like what my plans would be now.

I'd thought of maybe getting myself a small place out in a secluded part of the forest up here. That would be hard to do without her finding out by checking bank account statements. Kind of made me regret putting both our names on everything.

I'd also thought of just wondering around forever in the woods. That could work but it might get lonely. Nothing but trees and wildlife to keep me company. Nothing to do but lay around and hunt.

The main thing I had thought of was something I'd never have thought of unless I was desperate. But the more I thought about it the more sense it made. I had already given up everything else so why not this as well? It shouldn't be to difficult…all I'd have to do is cause a scene. Simple enough.

I guess you could say I was taking the coward's way out but to me this was the best choice. I had no better options anyway.

I had everything worked out. I would send a letter back home telling everyone I loved them and that I was sorry but I couldn't take it anymore. I would send a special letter to her as well. Then, I would get some money out of my account and book a flight to Volterra where I would end it all for myself.

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