I'd stopped crying before I got home, and luckily, the lights were dimmed, so Eric couldn't tell I'd been crying.
For some reason, he and the girls were all already sleeping, even though it was barely nine.
Oh well, at least that way I didn't have to talk.
In the morning...
I woke up late, around 10, to find Eric up and feeding Kalika and Tianna some oatmeal while Madison sat in the play-pen beside them
"Good morning. How are you feeling?" He asked me, giving me a bright smile.
That's when it really sunk in. I was fucking pregnant again! Even last night, after the test sticks revealed it to me, I hadn't let myself believe it.
There was no way I was telling anyone, not even Eric until I was sure it was really true.
"I still feel a little sick." I told him tiredly.
"You look pale. Maybe you should have a glass of water." He said, standing up and getting one for me.
"Thanks." I said when he handed it to me.
"You don't have to thank me."
"Oh well, I did anyway." I told him as I sat in the chair beside him and the girls.
Madison nearly instantly began crying and reaching for me, so I took her out of the play-pen and held her in my lap.
"You're such an amazing daddy." I told Eric as I watched him feed both girls at once.
"You're such an amazing mommy." He told me back.
"Not really. I'm at work a lot of the time while you just watch the three girls all by yourself."
"Yes, but when you come home, after a long hard day of work, you still do everything you can for the girls, even if you have to stay up nearly all night to do it, and work the next day again. I think that makes you better than me. Plus, you gave birth to them after carrying them in your stomach for nine months each."
"Still though, you got me pregnant with two of them, and you still watch them all day by yourself."
"Whatever."
"That's what I thought." I laughed.
That afternoon...
Eric and I went with Vanessa, Chuck and Blair to help them baby shop.
Chuck and Blair had brought Carson along, but Nate kept their kids with him at the park.
Eric carried Kalika, I carried Madison and Chuck held onto Tianna to help us out, while Blair pushed Carson in his stroller.
Vanessa was shopping for their baby girl, and Chuck and Blair finally told us that they weren't going to find out the sex of their baby. They wanted it to be a surprise.
I couldn't help but wonder if our unborn baby was a boy or girl, but I tried not to wonder too hard in case it didn't really even exist.
We stopped for dinner at a pizza place, since Blair was craving pizza. Also, Nate and the kids joined us.
A week later... June 7... Wednesday...
I got home from work, exhausted as normal. The clothing line for teenage girls was going great, and was getting close to finished.
The day wasn't really difficult, just uncomfortable.
My boobs had been sore and annoying for the past two days, and I was really bloated. I'd gained like four pounds of bloat, and it was embarrassing beyond words possible explanation.
Especially when Eric suggested we showered together, and I tried to get out of it because I didn't like the bloat, but he reminded me that it was ok, and made me feel comfortable with it for a while.
June 18... Monday...
It was before I got dressed in the morning for work that I realized something.
I had a little bit of a belly again.
So, there really was going to be another baby for us!
I could feel things were about to get stressful.
Even though I was nervous about telling Eric, I went on to the atelier and worked hard as if nothing was unusual.
As soon as I got home, I planned to tell him.
He was sitting on the floor with the girls, in the middle of changing Kalika's diaper when I came in.
"Hey. How was work?" He asked me happily.
"Tiring. How was taking care of the babies at home all day?"
"Momma!" Tianna exclaimed, running over and jumping on me, just realizing I was home.
"Cute. They're the cutest little girls, Jen. I wish you could see all the funny things they do while you're working."
"Yeah, I know they're cute, but I really need to talk to you about something." I told my husband seriously.
"Is everything alright?"
"Uh- yeah. It's fine, just- remember how we said we were probably going to try and have a boy in the future?"
"Of course I remember. Why?"
"Well- um-"
"Jenny?"
"What?"
"What are you trying to say?"
"I'm trying to say, what if we did sooner?"
"Are you saying you want to try now?"
"Sort of, but not really." I stuttered nervously.
"I don't think you can 'sort of but not really' try to have another baby."
"Eric! I think I'm pregnant!" I exclaimed.
"Why didn't you just say so?"
"I didn't want to suddenly say it and scare you. I wanted you to have a little hint first." I quietly admitted.
"So you aren't sure?"
"No."
"What makes you think you are?"
"Well, a few weeks back, I took a few pregnancy tests and they all came out positive. Plus I've had symptoms and now this." I said, standing up and lifting my shirt a ways.
"So, you've been told you're pregnant, you've had multiple symptoms, your baby bump is showing and you're still not sure you're pregnant?"
"There's no way it could've happened! I was on the pill and we normally used condoms!"
"Jen, every once in a while, those things fail. Unless your tubes are tied or taken out, there's still the possibility you can get pregnant from sex, no matter how protected it is."
"Every once in a while? Every fucking once in a while? Eric, this is the third time condoms have failed for me!"
"Ok, babe, calm down. We'll get you an appointment at the doctor to confirm your pregnancy, and everything will be fine." Eric calmingly assured me.
"After this baby is born I'm getting my fucking tubes tied." I stated firmly.
"So you only want four kids?" Eric laughed.
"Stop fucking laughing! Originally I'd planned on two!"
"I'm sorry." He apologized sincerely.
"No you're not."
"Yes I am, whether you believe me or not."
"Whatever." I growled, starting to walk away.
"Ok."
I immediately started laughing, causing Eric to laugh.
"I fucking love you!" I told him.
"I love you more!" He said, putting his hands on my hips and kissing me strongly.