Chapter 20: It comes to a head.
A/N: Just to let you know there is explicit content in this chapter. If you do not like please do not read.
I lunged and my lips took hers feverishly groaning in satisfaction as her moist tongue danced with mine. It was insane how the thought of doing exactly this consumed me. If I had it my way I'd kiss her at every opportunity, anytime, anywhere. Her tiny hands skated up my sides to clutch my back and bring me even closer to her.
Her fingernails lightly scratched down my back and a primitive growl escaped me.
My consciousness resurfaced to warn me against what I was doing, but Ginny firmly silenced it as her teeth tugged on my lower lip and I thought no more.
I pushed the towel out of the way. Exposing her fully to my hungry gaze.
Fuck she was beautiful.
The most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I needed to put my mouth on her. I needed it more than anything in the world. I made my way down pressing long kisses down the narrow path between her breasts. Her hands tangled in my hair as I let my teeth skim across her ribs and felt her arch into me. I could crow right now, I honestly could.
I finally sucked one puckered nipple into my mouth and basked in the gasps and the tiny moans that escaped her. After a few moments I shifted to her other breast lavishing equal attention as my fingered squeezed and rolled the other nipple between my thumb and forefinger.
Ginny had clearly had enough of teasing, she brought my mouth from her breast back to her mouth before grabbing my buttocks and forcing me underneath her. The stark white towel wound around my hips separated us and she ground against me. My hands settled like a vice against her hips equaling her pace as I ground into her with equal abandon.
I never wanted anything in my life as much as I wanted her.
The magnitude of the passion between us was endless. As her hips moved against mine, as my tongue became reaccustomed to the taste of her mouth, and my hands gluttonously relearned the curves of her naked body; I knew that I could never again go back. Had her skin always been so soft? Had it always looked like creamy porcelain? Had her nipples always been that perfect shade of pale pink?
It was if every moment with the woman I loved was something completely new.
Like it was our first time.
Ginny moaned into my mouth with an exquisite roll of her hips. I let my eyes roll shut as I gripped her hard and encouraged her movements.
Merlin that felt good. My right hand skimmed off on its own exploring her body. Molding into the generous arch of her back as she ground down against me. Up the smooth span of her spine before finally twisting into her gorgeous red locks. I angled her head a little to the side so that I could delve deeper into her sinewy sweetness and groaned as she whimpered her pleasure.
She broke away from me, her beautiful brown eyes a stormy sea of desire that made me want to rip off the towel that was separating us and sink inside of her. Too lose myself in her.
Not yet.
Her voice washed over me in a husky murmur. "Please Harry." I let my hand slide from her hair to caress her cheek as my body screamed for release. I felt my heart swell as she nuzzled her cheek into my palm, placing a sensual kiss against my fingertips.
Not yet.
I gently rolled her beneath me before slowly, achingly slowly began to trail hot open mouthed kisses down her neck. My hand laced itself with hers as I moved them above our heads causing her breasts to heave against my naked chest. Both our eyes moved to look at our hands joined together above us before returning each other's heady gazes.
My mouth took hers in a leisurely drugging kiss. Ginny finally submitted to the slower pace and gave up trying to set a faster tempo. Once I felt her body relax into mine I gave her hansd a light squeeze before trailing it back down her body. My hand sizzled as I rushed across the warm velvet of her skin. Skimming lightly over her hip and down her thigh before turning inward and sliding between. I felt her breath hitch in anticipation as my fingers drew closer to her heat. I traced a line back out over her hip and to her lower belly before lightly threading down into her curls. Her gasp made me grin into her neck as I nipped playfully at the spot I knew drove her mad. When my fingers finally made contact with her wet core it was me who could not suppress the groan. She was so fucking wet.
I couldn't take much more.
I massaged her center, letting her quiet cries and bucking hips spur me on. I flicked my fingers across the tiny bundle of nerves nestled between her dripping folds and could imagine doing the same thing with my tongue. My mouth began to water at the possibility of settling myself between her legs and feasting on her until she screamed my name. The thought of thrusting my tongue inside her hot sheath made my cock throb painfully. I mirrored my thoughts with my finger, pushing on digit inside of her. Her answering mewling cry was the most erotic thing I'd ever heard in my life.
"Please Harry!" Her voice begged with unrestrained need and a primitive satisfaction welled up inside of me.
I nipped at the shell as her ear as I whispered to her. "What do you want?"
"You. I want… I need you." Her hand ripped the towel from my waist and circled my erection. A huge gasp of air rushed from my lungs as the exquisite sensations made me shudder. I had to stop her before she made me lose it right here.
I gave her another probing kiss while I removed her hand from my cock. My knees moved in-between her legs and she widened them immediately so that I could settle myself between them. Anticipation wound tight inside of me like a spring. I positioned myself against her, rubbing the head of my erection against her dripping clit.
She moaned blissfully, it tasted like honey against my plundering tongue.
A loud bang echoed in the distance. I stilled, my mouth still attatched to Ginny's, on the verge of pressing myself inside of her. I felt her tense up beneath me as more loud bangs followed. "Oi Harry!"
Outrage coursed through me. Of all the fucking timing Ron…
I heard the door to my room creak open. "Harry you in there?" Ginny detached her mouth from mine only to slam her hand over it. As if I would really say anything in this situation. Shuffling soon followed and we both stared as the door handle to the bathroom began to rattle. "Oi Harry, you in there?"
What the hell was I supposed to do?
"No Ron it's just me, I'm taking a shower." Her voice was still lightly throaty from what had just transpired between us.
"You seen Harry?" She rolled her eyes and if this was any other situation I would probably be chuckling at her.
"No I haven't seen him for a few hours now."
"Alright, we were all going to head to Leaky for dinner, you in?" A few moments passed before she responded.
"No I'm not really up for it." Ron muttered his understanding before the tell tale shuffling of him going back downstairs faded away. We stayed immobile for a few minutes waiting to be certain that he was out of earshot before we attempted to move. We both slowly pulled away from each other, grabbing our respective towels and wrapping them around ourselves. One thing that was perfectly clear. The moment was long gone.
"Ginny..." I said. There had to be something I could say, something I could do to make her see that this wasn't a mistake. That this was right, her and I were right together.
"I'm sorry Harry. It was my fault. Let's just forget about it yeah? No harm done." And just like that she skirted around me and was out the bathroom door.
As she left the only thing that screamed inside of my brain were her words, and the thought over my dead fucking body.
I can't believe it. I can't believe it. Oh my Merlin! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO! What the hell did I just do. I managed to shuck on the majority of my clothes before the panic set in. Somehow I did forget my knickers though. I am not in my right mind right now. I shoved a handful of half wet red hair out of my face.
Breathe Ginny Breathe.
I can't. MERLIN WHAT DID I JUST DO!
I have to get out of here. I have to get out of this house right now. I have to get away from him so that I could preserve my own sanity.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck….
I searched frantically for my purse and my wand so that I could run for the hills, or the fireplace, whichever turned out to be closer.
Where did I put my sodding wand? Why could I never put it in the same place?
The adjoining door flew open and Harry walked in tugging on a pair of pants. He still wasn't wearing a shirt. It really wasn't helping matters since my brain feels like it's been fried. I stood in horror, staring at his beautiful face set into a look of grim determination.
"You are not going anywhere." His voice was deadly low tinged with an emotion I couldn't entirely place.
"I'm leaving." That was all I could manage to get out. I had to get away from this situation. I had to get away.
"No you are not. We are going to talk about what just happened."
"Nothing happened." Ah denial, if only you weren't such a heartless bitch because Harry was clearly not buying it.
"Are you fucking kidding me? I almost shagged your brains out in the loo!" His hand waved towards the door to my bedroom. I let me eyes follow the direction, it was so much easier than looking at him.
About that…
"Look, it wasn't a big deal. It happened. Let's just forget about it…" Harry's voice thundered through the room as he cut me off.
"I AM NOT GOING TO FORGET ABOUT IT!" Rage coursed through me. How dare he yell at me.
"Well I am! So you are just going to have to deal with it!" I screamed.
"Oh no you are not, I will not let you forget what just happened Ginny. That was something there…. It was…"
It was my turn to rudely interrupt. "No there wasn't! Just because you are still in love with me or something doesn't mean that what we just did meant anything."
"Is that what you want to hear? That I'm in love with you? Fine, Ginny. You're right. I'm in love with you. I love you so much it hurts. It's killing me. I've never stopped loving you Gin not for a single second. I will tell you it a thousand time if that's what you want. I love you. I love you. Look me in the eyes and tell me right now that when we were in the loo you didn't feel something too."
His emerald eyes were on fire with his emotions. I couldn't place a single one I was too dazed by his admissions. Did he just tell me he loved me? I quashed down the joy that rose within me. After everything he did?
"I felt nothing."
"Liar." He hissed as he took a step closer to me. I answered his step back.
"Who are you to tell me what I feel. You have no right. After what you did to me…" He looked away, his hand going up to rake through his already messy locks.
"I know what I did. I know what happened. I know now what it did to you. I can't go back and take it away. If I could I would do it in one second, I would take away every bit of pain that you felt, every tear that you cried. Everything. I would take it all away if I could. I would bear it if I could. But I can't. If we want to move forward…"
Anger blossomed once again. "Forward? There is no forward for us Harry. There is never going to be a forward. What the hell do you want from me?"
In all the time that Harry and I were a couple, we never really had a row before. I had never seen this side of him directed towards me. I'd seen him yell, I'd seen him mad, and I'd seen him fight but not once was it with me.
"What do I want? Jesus Ginny, the only thing I've wanted since the moment I got home was a chance to explain! To tell you what happened! To get a chance to tell you my side of the story."
I rolled my eyes at that. "Please, you've had plenty of chances to explain. To tell me 'your story'." My arms uncrossed over my chest to emphasize with airquotes. "I've asked you to tell me and you know what you said? You said 'fuck this'."
He laughed bitterly. "You didn't ask me for my story, you asked me for closure. Closure to a relationship that I don't believe is over. It will never be over. But you just keep running away from it."
Astonishment paralyzed me for a moment, I almost couldn't think of a thing to say to him at his words. "Excuse me?! I don't run away. You must have me confused with yourself."
"You've been running from me, from us, from the moment I got home. You are just to blinded by your own pride to see it."
My answering laugh was cold. "My pride? Says the man who can't except that his ex girlfriend wants nothing to do with him? That I actually want to move on with my life and someday be happy. The only thing you think about is yourself Harry. You don't care about me, you don't care if you hurt me, you don't care what the hell you are doing to me right now." Silent tears cascaded down my cheeks. I hated myself for letting him see me cry. "I want you to leave me alone. I don't want you to talk to me, to look at me, to picture some insane future with me ever again. If you ever loved me, if you ever even had any feelings for me at all. Please. Leave me alone."
Despair settled across Harry's features as his gaze clouded over with his own unshed tears. "But, you don't know…"
I couldn't take this anymore. "WHAT HARRY! WHAT THE HELL IS SO IMPORTANT THAT I DON'T KNOW. TELL ME RIGHT NOW! TELL ME!"
His mouth opened and closed several times but no words came out. I couldn't believe as I watched him silently looking for words that there was still some shred of hope inside of me. As the moments passed to minutes that hope dissolved in the air between us.
"That's what I thought." And without another word I turned and walked away.
A/N: Okay. I'm only a day late. You wouldn't even believe what happened to me this week if I told you. In the meantime. Chapter! Naughty things! Fights! What do you think is going to happen? Any ideas?
I'm sorry if this chapter has a lot of errors in it, I didn't have time to do more than one proofreading before I posted it.
I want to thank everyone for their reviews so far! You guys are so awesome! I especially want to thank Stephanie O, because honestly your reviews have been super helpfull and I haven't had time to write you back yet but I swear I will soon!
This story is starting to wind down, I don't think there will be much more than five or six more chapters, and I promise that things are going to come to light within the next chapter or two.
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-Nurse Holliday.