Author Note: Okay, this is the new segment at the beginning of chapters called "That Awkward Moment-DGM Version". Everyone has figured out that I don't own DGM at this point.
One day a few months ago, I was in chorus with my friends waiting to rehearse our part. We are allowed to get on our iPads, and I was looking up a picture of Allen without his arm for some reason. Needless to say, my friend was peeking at what I was doing and after "allen walker loses his" was in, I clicked the only option there and my friend's eyes bulged and she said, "The heck are you looking up, pervert!"
At this point, I was having to explain to my six friends why exactly I was looking up photos of "allen walker loses his innocence". EPIC FAIL…
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Situation
Chapter 39: Hi-ho! Hi-ho! It's off to work we go!
It had been at least two hours since Kanda and I got back from the water park, but he was still in the bathroom. My wet shirt and swim trunks were slung over the tub to dry, and I was now wearing my usual sweatpants, but I paired it with one of Kanda's button-ups since I was sitting on the balcony, overlooking the parking lot and a creek that we crossed by bridge to get to the resort. It was strangely warm tonight, about fifty degrees with strong winds, my favorite type of weather.
I was a bit worried that Kanda was mad at me as I walked back into the living room, closing and locking the sliding glass door behind my ephemeral feet, and soon, I was back in the bedroom, sprawled out shirtless on the bed. Maybe when Kanda finally came out of the bathroom, I could make it up to him….
The clock was ticking closer to eight, and usually, Kanda would be beside me reading at this point, but he ha―
The bathroom door opening cut off my thoughts before Kanda lay on the bed next to me, making the room suddenly feel like a sauna. Really, he was completely dry and emanating heat, even his hair was void of moisture. Deciding to get on with the "apology", I straddle his hips, taking him somewhat by surprise as I clash our lips together, and I realize that he was only wearing his underwear. Good, he'll be happier sooner that way.
Suddenly, our positions are flipped, and I'm flat on my back as my boyfriend looks down at me, his signature smirk growing wider as I mewl, "Kandy, I want you to touch me…."
Not waiting another second, he greedily attacks my neck, and I moan quietly as he sucks on my collarbone. Unhappy with being left out of the action, I use my hands to try to slip my sweatpants off, but larger, calloused hands stop the movement. A disappointed whimper escapes my parted lips, and Kanda stops completely, moving up to my ear to whisper, "Quit trying to take your pants off."
Freeing my hands, I wrap my arms around his neck, "But―"
"I'm not mad at you, and even if I was, I don't want you to try to make up for it with your body," he says, pulling my waistband up from where it was at my mid-thigh. Flipping off the lamp that was lighting the room, he slips under the blankets, and after a moment of hesitation, I follow suit. After I was locked in his arms and nuzzled into his chest, he says into my hair, "You aren't a bargaining chip, Allen. I never want you to try to apologize with sex, ever."
"Fine," I say, not really caring. In my mind, my body was worthless, so as long as it's Kanda, I don't care what he does with it. Granted, I don't want him to beat me, but intimately it doesn't matter.
"Don't 'fine' me," he growls, and I see his jaw clench with either anger or frustration, I couldn't tell. "Promise me you won't try that again, and mean it."
Rolling my eyes, I fake my best meaningful tone, "I promise I'll never do it again, Kanda."
The arms around me retract, and all of the warm that had surrounded me left as he sat up, cross-legged as he watched me, his eyes practically daring me to lie again in the darkness. Sighing, I flop onto my back, staring at him as I grumble, "What?"
"I don't know. You're the one with the issue here," he replied coolly, not breaking the gaze. Shaking my head, I ask, "What do you want me to do?"
His gaze hardened before he closed his eyes, and I know that he is seriously struggling to keep his temper in check, but we both know that that tiny string he's grasping at is slowly thinning. Taking a breath, he exhales, "I want you to quit lying to me. Truly, I don't know if you think I'm too stupid to know the difference, or if you are trying to make me lose it, but either way, you should know that I know when you lie."
"It was still worth a shot," I say, suddenly feeling cold and burrowing into the blankets. Even though the bed was warm, and normally, in the cocoon I was in at the moment, I would be frying, I still felt like I was wrapped in ice, shivers wracking my small body. Kanda's eyes were open now, and I met the dark orbs, silently begging him to warm me like he normally would, but he never moved as I shook from the cold. I knew he wanted me to tell him why I was acting up, and I didn't really have a choice.
After calming my teeth chattering enough to speak, I stare at the rumpled sheets he previously was under before explaining, "I don't care about my body as long as it's you. Heck, I'd think that would be obvious with what I've done to it in the past. Now will you please help me?"
Simply looking at me, he shakes his head, and I continue, "I swear I will never try to give you my body as an apology ever again."
As soon as the words had left my mouth, he was next to me under the blankets, and with a whimper, I push myself flush against him, wanting to absorb every last ounce of heat he could give me. My shivering didn't fully cease, but it did drop tremendously, and Kanda's arms around my body comforted me.
"I wish that you would find a new mindset, Allen," he whispered to me, drawing swirls into my back with his warm hands. Nodding, I quietly say, "I know."
Kissing my crown, he asks, "Do you want me to sing a lullaby?"
"Yes!" I squeak immediately before blushing. Chuckling, he soothingly begins, "There's no guarantee that this will be easy. It's not a miracle you need, believe me. Now I'm no angel, I'm just me, but I will love you endlessly. Wings aren't what you need, you need me."
The tears slip down my cheeks, slicking my face and his chest as he continues, "There's a house on a hill with a view of the town, and I know how you adore it. So I'll work every day through the sun and the rain until I can afford it. Yeah, your friends may I'm crazy 'cause they can only see I'm not perfect, but I swear I'm perfect for you.
"And there's no guarantee that this will be easy. It's not a miracle you need, believe me. Now I'm no angel, I'm just me, but I will love you endlessly. Wings aren't what you need, you need me."
Kanda kissed the tears in the corner of my eyes away as he finished, and I choke around my somewhat joyful sob, "I love you, too, Kanda."
The chills had long since disappeared, and it took less than two minutes for me to drift off, my boyfriend humming the tune the whole time.
Oo_oO_Oo_oO
When I woke up, light was struggling to bleed through the drapes, leaving the bedroom in a near lowlight. Kanda was softly breathing beside me, his back to me as I sat up, propping up the pillows behind me, and I quietly snagged the pad of paper and pen that was on the nightstand. Why did the people who ran resorts keep these in the rooms? I may never know, but I was happy to have it as I waited for the sleeping bluenette beside me to wake up as I doodled on the paper.
Okay, so maybe it wasn't really a doodle. It was more like…something along the lines of "Mugen X Crown Clown Forever", but that's a little too technical for my taste. Taking extra care, I draw the O's as hearts and add tiny stars around the picture.
It was close to ten now, and I didn't really need to do anything since Kanda said he was taking me out today, but he didn't tell me where of course. He's a serious jerk sometimes!
Stirring alerts me that Kanda was awake, and I try to hide the scribble I had been working on, but a hand grabs it away before I can. With a chuckle, my boyfriend smirks, "A true masterpiece. I really like the meaning."
"I was bored!" I protest inching away from his amused gaze, embarrassment causing me to blush strawberry. Little did I remember that beds end at some point, and my inching away ended with an extremely mad Allen Walker on his butt in the floor.
My rear hits the floor relatively hard, and I yelp in a thick British accent, "My arse!"
I slap my hands over my mouth as soon as the words are out, blushing darker from the fact that I really didn't like people to hear me when I have an accent, and look down at my feet. A chuckle from the bed makes my eyes go back up, met with Kanda looking at me like I'd grown another arm, and he says, "Right, I forgot you were a Brit."
"Don't tell anyone I did that!" I squeak, hopping back onto the bed and giving him a pleading look. "I hate my accent."
"I think it's cute," he says, and I flush again. The bluenette was still holding the pad of paper, and I quickly snatch it away, laying it face down on the nightstand.
In an hour, we were in the black Ford Focus driving around Pigeon Forge. We had already eaten at Mr. Gatti's, an awesome buffet with pizza, pasta, and salad. Unfortunately, a certain samurai forced me to eat a salad, my least favorite food. Okay, anything vegetable related was my least favorite food, but that just made it worse! But it was worth it because it means the baby will be healthy.
"Can you at least give me a hint?!" I beg from the passenger seat, turning down my Nickelback CD that was currently playing "Burn it to the Ground". One thing I thought I'd never see was Kanda actually drumming his fingers on the steering wheel to the beat.
He seems to ponder it for a moment before saying, "It has something to do with your necklace."
I tilt my head in confusion, "What? You mean you're taking me to a jewelry store?"
"Something like that," he says with his trademark smirk. Grumbling about hating surprises even though it was a total lie, I watch the passing buildings. The sky was a baby blue color with soft, fluffy clouds floating through the atmosphere, and the streets were overflowing with cars, probably out for lunch. In about five minutes, I notice the car slows down considerably, and there wasn't a stoplight or anything that called for stopping. Eagerly glancing around, I quickly understand what Kanda meant by my necklace.
We were turning into the parking lot to a gem mine.
"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" I chanted excitedly, practically bouncing in my seat with anticipation. With a smirk, my boyfriend replies, "I figured you'd like it."
I nod elatedly, "I do!"
After parking and buying a bucket of sand with the gems scattered within it, Kanda and I sit at a bench in front of the stream. Everything was inside, and from the look of it, the water was heated. There was only one other group in the café sized mine, a little girl and her mother, and there were two streams, benches on either side and screens set across the water borders. Kanda glanced at it uncertainly and I have the feeling he was waiting for me to do something because he was completely lost.
Unlike the samurai, I had done this several times with Mana, but it had been nearly nine years, not that it affected my memory of the times we'd gone to the ones near our "house".
Smiling, I take the shovel and put two big scoops in each screen before taking mine and dunking it in the water. After watching for a moment, Kanda mimics the quick dips into the running water and says, "How many times have you done this?"
"Too many to count," I respond, noticing the first gems becoming visible. From so many years of practice, I immediately know that two were rose quartz and the other a small piece of obsidian, one of my personal favorites. Kanda had already gotten most of the sand out, and I couldn't help but notice several chunks of varying agate and a relatively massive hunk of bloodstone. Irony anyone?
Once we had finished the first scoops, we emptied the gems into a tray and continued to the next until the bucket was empty. The whole time Kanda was asking about different types of gems and their meanings, which I was more than happy to explain. It didn't take long in our romantic relationship for me to realize when people called Kanda stupid that they literally meant the inability to learn. Sure, he was smart and definitely would excel in school, but truly, where was his common sense? How many times had Lenalee kicked him, and yet he still did dumb things to get another in the gut?
"What now?" he asks, looking down at the tray on the bench between us. Poking around in them, I answer, "Well, normally we would bring them to the front and they indentify the stones for us and try to get us to spend more money, but I know which ones we have."
He nods, "Do you want to look through them now or wait until later?"
I ponder this for a moment before saying, "Later. Besides, I hear there's a candy shop in Gatlinburg that has the best homemade taffy."
"As long as I'm not forced to eat any then we can walk around down there and shop if you want," he offers as we pay and walk back to the car. Happily, I say, "Yes! Let's do that!"
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Even though towards the end of the walk my back slightly began to ache, it was a fun day. The gems are all pretty even though they aren't cut, and Kanda bought me an airbrush hoodie that had "Mugen X Crown Clown" written in bubble letters on the front.
"Ugh, Lenalee and the rabbit will be here tomorrow afternoon," my sexy boyfriend grumbles as he plops down on the bed, the retreating rays of sunlight coming through the window lighting him up.
With a giggle, I reply, "Don't worry, Kitten can make Kandy feel better."
"Oh?" he smirks, his eyes closed. "And what did Kitten have in mind?"
Blushing, I crawl over him, "Well, the bath is a good option."
"Kandy likes," he says, pressing our lips together.
Author Note: Please don't hate me! I went to a youth conference this weekend, had to clean my closet (aka The Forest of the Lost), and I got hooked on, like, three anime shows, which I watched completely in one week. Anyway, I'm not sure when the next chapter will be out, but one will be by Sunday. Please, Please, PLEASE R/R!