That Awkward Moment when your friend tells another friend that you write Yullen porn (as a joke), but the friend takes it seriously and starts asking you why you would do that and if you were afraid of getting grounded.

Situation

Chapter 55: Premature

"Okay, so baby names. Go!" I say, leaning back against my boyfriend as he looks down at me, confused.

"What?" Kanda asked, using his hand as a cup and pouring water over my feverish skin, and rubs my chest and stomach soothingly. Rolling my eyes, I mutter, "Well, I'd rather not name our baby Something."

"True, but naming responsibilities go to you," he says.

"But-but-but," I pout, giving him a puppy face. Sighing, Kanda suggests, "I wouldn't mind a Japanese name."

Smiling, I press, "Like…?"

"I never really thought about girl names, but as far as boys go, I've always really liked the names Eiri and Hiro."

"Girls, Kanda! We are naming a girl!"

Pondering for a moment, he eventually says, "Kanade and Yoru."

"Haven't you said yoru during one of your cussing in Japanese moments? And you say something before it, too. Sha? Sho?"

Smirking, he nods, "Shi no yoru. It means night of death."

"Oh," I say. "Hold on! You want to name the baby death?"

Chuckling, he shakes his head, "In Japan, the sentence structure is subject-object-verb, not subject-verb-object. So actually, Shi no yoru, if translated directly, means 'death of night'."

"You could have just said that you wanted to name the baby Night. Japanese makes my head hurt," I complain. Smirking, he fluently says, "Anata ga sekimen suru toki ni kawaī mite."

"Kanda! Stop! I don't know what you're saying even if it makes you sexier!" I clap my hands over my mouth as the words come out, flushing strawberry.

"Does it now? Well, do you want to know what I said?"

Sheepishly, I nod, and he leans down to my ear and whispers, "I said 'you look cute when you blush'."

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"He can be so mean sometimes!" I babble to Lenalee. Not that she agrees, because all she does is giggle, "Aw, I think it's sweet! Lavi never talks to me in a different language."

Lying back on her giant bed, I grumble, "Good. That way you know what he's telling you. Yeah, and then, he calls me Aren. I mean, it is really sexy, but what's with the R?"

"Moron, the Japanese language doesn't have an L in it. It surprises me how well he can speak English, and he doesn't have trouble pronouncing things. Actually, every Japanese word ends in a vowel, in the exception of N."

Nodding, I say, "That makes sense. Let's see, Rinaree, Ravi, and Aren."

"Do not say Ravi! That sounds perverted on so many levels!" she laughs. Ugh, I didn't realize how much Ravi sounds like ravish, and I really did not want the images that came to mind when I put together Lavi and ravish. Shivering at the thought, I sit up again, my ears catching a weird squishing sound.

"What was that?" Lenalee asked, glancing at the floor and pressing down with her foot to examine if there was water. Shaking my head, I say, "I don't know. Maybe it wa―"

I cut myself off as I skimmed my hand across the comforter near where I was sitting on it, feeling dampness, and I jump up, the bed wet where I had been resting. Feeling a hand glide quickly over my butt, I jump, but Lenalee says before I could flip out, "Your jeans are soaked!"

"I swear, I didn't pee myself!" I blurt quickly. Seeming confused, Lenalee stares at the ground with a baffled expression, and I was started to get worried before her eyes widened impossibly large. Grabbing my hand, she begins dragging me out the door, "Are you in any pain? Can you walk fine?"

"No pain and I can walk. Why? What's wrong?" I ask, and in less than a second, I feel a sharp throb in my stomach. Hissing in pain, I try to keep up, "Okay, now it hurts a little."

Ignoring me, she asks urgently, "Where's Tim?"

Confused, I mutter, "Probably wherever Master is. He spends more time with him nowadays than anything."

"Great," she growled sarcastically, glancing into the cafeteria before shouting, "Lavi! Get over here right now!"

Said rabbit was at her side instantly, looking like a soldier awaiting his orders, "What do you need?"

"Run and find Kanda as fast as you can and bring him to Komui's," she says quickly, continuing to pull me along.

"Wait, what do I tell him?"

Glancing over her shoulder, she says, "Allen's water broke and he's going into labor two weeks early. Now go!"

The rabbit darts off as I exclaim, "What?!"

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"Yu, I need you to come with me!"

Turning my head, I point Mugen towards Lavi as he slows down, breathing hard, "Don't freaking call me that, Baka Usagi!"

"No time. Allen's water broke!" he panted. Giving him a confused look, I ask, "What?"

Hands on his knees, the rabbit says, "Clueless! He's going into labor two weeks early. We need to go to Komui's!"

Sheathing Mugen quickly, I dart wordlessly towards Lenalee's brother's office, Lavi chasing me and yelling for me to slow down.

No. No, no, no, no. This isn't happening. If I ignore it, the problem will go away. Allen's still in Lenalee's room talking about girly things and wearing that goofy smile that always makes me want to smile back, not going through whatever it is he's going through right now. When I get there, he'll be laughing and having fun, not writhing in pain from labor. And tonight, I'll get back to our room covered in sweat from training, and the whitette will insist on taking a shower with me, even though he'll turn around while he undresses, because he's too modest and always flushes strawberry when he sees me naked. He'll want to wash my hair first just so he has an excuse to play with it, and when I mention it, he'll try to deny it, but hopelessly fail from all the stuttering until I just shut him up with my lips. When we finally go to bed, Allen will snuggle down into my arms and chest and ask me to sing him a lullaby, and I'll oblige, singing and humming until I'm certain he's asleep, even if he's having trouble from small cramps and it takes hours.

Bursting through the door to Komui's office, Reever directs us to the back room, the same room that his surgeries are done so no one sees, even though nearly everyone knew at this point, and I open the next door.

"No, I don't care about anesthesia. I want to see Kanda!" Allen whimpers, his voice laced with the pain he was obviously enduring. Lenalee sat in a plastic chair next to him, yelling at Komui to back off as he tried to offer the boy some sort of painkiller, and the sight itself made me cringe internally. Next thing I knew, I was on my knees beside my boyfriend, his right hand in both of mine, and I tell him, "I'm here now. Take something."

The smile he attempts makes me feel like the worst person ever for getting him pregnant as he nods, wincing as Komui stabs a needle in him. Anxiety set in, and I ask, "How long is this going to go on? Don't you just cut her out?"

"No, that won't work," Komui said. "We have to wait until his body attempts to push her out itself."

Leaning his head back onto the pillow, Allen asks, "And when will that happen?"

"We don't know that, but it will probably be between five and eight hours," the scientist said. Obviously put off by this, my boyfriend mutters, "How will we know?"

"Trust me, you'll know. I don't think you want me to elaborate that."

Translation: he was going to be in a lot of pain. Lenalee and Allen I don't think caught that, but Lavi and I did. I could tell by the shimmer of worry that rarely ever shows in his emerald eye, and it was something I'd only seen a handful of times. Three-fourths of that handful involved Allen, and the other was serious battle. Trying to look emotionless, Komui walked out the door, saying over his shoulder, "Kanda, Lavi, may I speak to you?"

The rabbit immediately followed him, but I hesitated, glancing at the whitette who was now trying to control the pained grimace that kept trying to crawl onto his face. Taking a deep breath, he says, "It's fine; go."

Giving him a quick kiss on the cheek, I quickly pursue the other two, finding them in the hall. Lavi was obviously anxious to find out whatever it was as he stood beside me, and Komui leaned against the wall, "Okay, so I have some bad news."

My and Lavi's expressions saddened as we heard the words, because we knew exactly what he was about to say.

"There's only a fifty-fifty chance the baby will make it," he said slowly before he began to explain. "Originally, I thought that because of the Innocence, it would take her body longer to develop and she might be a late birth, but recent events have proved otherwise. Reever and I think that the Innocence is forcing Allen into labor due to it being ready, regardless of the rest of body. And more than anything, I'm worried about Allen's health."

"What about his health?" I ask dangerously, covering my emotions with anger.

"I know you both know where his scars come from, so I assume that you both understand that most woman who lose a baby at this stage become depressed for short periods of time, especially if it's their first, and that with his history, Allen is at serious risk for become seriously depressed and…."

Lavi glanced up at the scientist, "You don't think he would actually…like…."

"Yes, Usagi, he means he would be at risk for committing suicide, and I know that he'd be serious with it," I growled, not wanting to hear anymore of this crap. Unfortunately, my last comment caught Komui's attention and he asked, "What do you mean 'you know that he'd be serious with it'."

Scoffing, I ask, "Are you really that stupid? He was a cutter for two years, and he attempted twice, the second time being the night he got pregnant."

Lenalee's brother falls silent before walking back into his office, leaving the rabbit and I alone in the hallway. Holding back a scream of frustration, I punch the stone wall as hard as I can, feeling pain shoot through me, but not caring as tears flow down my face. The tears wouldn't stop as I sunk to the ground, clutching my injured hand to my chest, and I curl up into a tight ball, trying so hard to shut out the outside world. No one has ever seen me breakdown before, and I'd prefer to keep it that way, but that didn't matter as Lavi knelt down beside me. As soon as I felt his hand on my back, I slap it away with a "leave me alone".

"No, I won't," he says, moving my face with a hand on my wet cheek so he can look me in the eyes. "Why won't you let people help you?"

The hurt in his eyes is shining brightly as I spat, "Allen is all I need! I don't want your help!"

"Right now, Allen can't help you! And what about if the baby doesn't make it and he kills himself? What about then?"

"Then nothing! They'll be gone and I'll have no one! It worked up until now, and it still does!" I yell in a cracked voice, tears still streaming down my face even though I tried to make them stop. Slapping away his hand, I turn my back to Lavi, waiting for him to get up and leave, but he never does. Why? Why can't he just leave me alone? Why won't he just leave like everyone else has? Letting someone in is weakness, that much I've learned since I was born. And if they stuck around, I ended up pushing them away.

I've long since accepted the fact that Allen is part of my life now, and I was okay with that. After contemplating for days on end, I decided he was the one that I wanted beside me until the last lotus petal falls, and the baby was part of that. Other than those two, I didn't want anyone else. So why won't Lavi just leave me?!

"Kanda, look at me."

Pain pulsed through my hand, but I ignored it as I clenched my fists in anger.

"Look at me!"

"No," I growl.

At this point, he must have gotten fed up with me, and he just sits there quietly. Minutes go by with the only sound being my sobbing that I desperately tried to hold back. Suddenly, Lavi says, "Do you remember that Christmas three years ago? It was the first one I spent here, and at that point I didn't really know anyone other than you and Lenalee, so when everyone went to bed, you and I stayed up all night talking, even though you wanted me to leave you alone?"

Yes, I do. It took every last drop of self control I had in me not to punch his lights out, but eventually we fell asleep in the floor next to each other.

"And my birthday two years ago? No one remembered, not even Bookman, but when I walked into the cafeteria, you asked me why I wasn't celebrating with some stupid party."

Actually, I didn't know that I was the only one that remembered. It had to have been him mentioning it, right? There was no way that I just remembered from him telling people when he first got here.

"Remember when that finder girl dumped me because I wouldn't change my hair color? I cried in my room for a while, and then found you training, so I just started bawling to you about it. I remember that you told me, and I quote, 'If she can't accept you and your annoying butt, then you should find someone better.'"

"And I tried to strangle you when you jumped on me to give me a hug," I finish against my better judgment. A hand rests on my shoulder, "Because you're my best friend, and I love you more than anyone else other than Lenalee and Bookman. So if I can say that, why won't you let me comfort you? It hurts me to see you like this as much as it would Allen."

Giving in, I allow the rabbit to turn me around and embrace me as more tears streaked down my face.

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I wasn't sure what was happening. The baby was out of me, but Lenalee and Komui were still in the surgery room with my baby girl. They wouldn't let me see her, and even though I was excited to see her, Kanda and Lavi were on edge for some reason. It felt like they were keeping something from me, but I didn't know what, and I hated things being kept secret. Just when I was about to ask, Komui entered the room, an emotionless expression on his face as glanced at the three of us.

"Well?" Lavi was the first one to speak up. Taking a breath, Komui answered, "The baby is―"

He's cut off as his sister enters the room with tears in her eyes, cradling something wrapped in a blanket, and every heart in the room stopped.

Author Note: Okay, raise a hand if you hate me right now. I'll get this updated by Saturday, promise! Now the bad news: there are only three chapters left, not including the Fan Q&A, which will be Chapter 58. There will be 59 chapters in all! So as always, please, Please, PLEASE R/R and tell me how much you want to smack me!