AHAHAHAH I forgot to type a whole scene between Haruka and Ai explaining the last name thing. Lol ugh I'm such a bad writer sorry guys. I'll add it at the end when it can fit in.

Anyways, Thank you to all who reviewed! It really cheered me up.

Disclaimer- if I owned this Haruka would have had a piano dropped on her head. And Syo would be locked in a cage where only I could find him.

Something like Suicide

Day Sixteen- 047

Thursday

Syo loathed the day time. He usually didn't get to see Ai and Kaoru was back at school. So he sat at his desk doodling on the notes that his brother had taken for him. Not that he was ungrateful but Kaoru's notes were far different and harder to understand than Fujimoto's.

Kaoru didn't tell him. Otoya didn't tell him. But he knew that his beloved teacher had died. It was kinda obvious... and he heard his mother talking to a neighbor about the funeral time, how sorry she was that couldn't make it. It had been over a month and his brother still said nothing.

He huffed looking up at the ceiling. He and his brother use to share everything. Now his brother was almost like a stranger. He wasn't so dense he didn't notice Otoya and Kaoru talking when he was just out of earshot.

Syo pulled himself out of his chair. His weary blue eyes turned to his door. He missed being close to Kaoru, he missed sharing the same room.

"Mom?" He called peeking his head out. "Hello?"

When he received no answer he left his room and headed to Kaoru's. He took a deep breath before entering. Kaoru's room was the same as his. The coloring, the layout, even the head of the bed fell just short of the window. Kaoru was definitely neater than Syo was. His books were in the correct order on his bookshelf. His clothes were all in the hamper. Even his desk was tidy.

Syo went over and flopped down on the bed. He reached his arm under the pillow, going to hug it close, until the tip of his fingers hit a notebook.

I wonder if Syo knows about his new friend. Part of me hopes he doesn't, but part of me hopes he does. If he doesn't it could hurt himself in the end. I don't want him hurt

"So Kaoru found out." Syo smirked.

His smirk fell to a frown as he turned over in the bed holding the notebook above his head. That just made his choice harder. If Kaoru knew then he would search for a way to get Syo back. If Kaoru knew he would chase him to the ends of the earth.

"Would you leave if you could?"

Yes, of course he would. A life without being inside all the time. A life with other people. Haruka wouldn't make him stay locked up. She would probably even go for walks with him.

"Even if that means Kaoru can't be by your side?"

Syo shook his head rapidly. He loved his brother. They were two sides to the same coin. Two halves of the same whole. Inseparable. Yet...

"I could take all the pain away."

Otoya leaned heavily on his desk, half daydreaming. A goofy grin worked it's way across his face as he stared out the window. The teacher, who barely noted his existence, ignored his as he shuffled through the papers he was grading. Neither of the wanted to be there, but Otoya had been stupid enough to get another detention. Fortunately his father was out with the search party and he could easily have Cecil sign his next one.

His daydream was simple. He smiled as he thought of the school in Tokyo he wanted to go to. He was so close. Just a little bit more.

"-oki-kun Ittoki-kun!" His replacement teacher called.

Otoya's head snapped up and he was forcefully pulled away from the future he dreamed of. "Yes?"

The teacher signed pushing up the rectangular glasses to the bridge of his nose. "You may go now."

"Oh yes! Thank you." He stood quickly and grabbed his bag before leaving.

He edited the building as fast as he could, pulling his hood tightly over his head expecting a blast of cold air. What he got was somewhat different. He ran face first into the chest of a another man.

"Tokiya." A voice said. "Be more careful next time."

Otoya's red eyes peered up to look at the person he collided with and other person who was lecturing 'Tokiya'. His eyes met with the somewhat familiar heterochromic eyes that he had seen on the person his brother had just become friends with and blue. And ocean of blue even. The person, Tokiya, had blur hair, eyes, and even clothes.

"Sorry." Tokiya said lightly pushing Otoya off his chest, making sure he was stable on his feet before letting go.

"O-oh I'm sorry." Otoya blushed. "I haven't seen you around before."

Tokiya looked to the mismatched eyes just to the left of him before smiling back at Otoya. "No, I'm new here. I got lost on my was to the sea."

"Wow."

Nagi walked slowly on the dusty, rocky, trail that lead to his house. He kicked up pebbles along his way, his eyes not leaving the ground in front of him. Perhaps it was a habit he picked up, although maybe not, but he often watched his feet as he walked or ran.

He stopped just short of bumping into someone. Their shoes were muddy and wet, along with the pant legs that sloppily dragged of the ground.

"Oh well if it isn't Nagi." That sarcastic voice, that could only be Eiichi, said.

The young teen's head shot up to meet the eerie purple eyes that looked at him. That sadistic grin his face always seemed to hold. The grip on his backpack strap tighten as he debated whether he should run away or not.

"Waiting on Kira? Would you like me to walk you home?"

Nagi went to shake his head, but his eyes spotted something off in the tree line. He couldn't make out what it was, but it looked scarier than Eiichi, as hard as that was to believe.

"Y-yeah..." Nagi whispered, he reached out and grabbed Eiichi's hand and dragged him off to his house.