Chapter 4
APOV
More.. That's what we deserve. Me and my son.
I always wanted more but I couldn't say it. I was just number 16. I couldn't touch him, I couldn't tell him I love him and I surely couldn't ask for more. I was slowly working towards it. Being his sub was my compromise. It was either that or not have him at all so I took it all in stride. It was 8 months in to our revised contract when I found out about Teddy. I tried all that week to gauge his reaction but every time I either got shot down or I got the answers that I didn't want to hear.
'I can't be a father.'
'I don't want kids.'
'That's why I have contracts and rules. No room for mistakes.'
Unknowingly he had call our baby a mistake. That's when I knew it wouldn't work. I didn't want my baby to know that he was conceived while I was in the red room and that his father is incapable of love.
I was just another one of his sex slaves. That weekend when I went to Escala instead of going to the room and assuming the position, I went to his study and waited for him to come home.
I was expecting some sort of reaction. Really I was looking for anything, any indication that he wanted me to stay would have been perfect but all I got was a nod, and a handshake.
I thought we were more but that was the perfect indication that I was wrong. We shared, laughed, ate together.. but it was all just a lie. A ploy to try to keep me in the playroom..
I'm taken out of my mind when Luke calls my name from the door.
"Are you ready?"
"Not really.. but lets go."
I'm getting released from the hospital today and I figure the best course of action is to go right to Christian. Rip the bandaid off. Jason and Luke did a great job of keeping him away but it's time to face the music.
The ride to Escala was quiet. So is the elevator ride. I'm really glad that Luke stayed with me or else I probably would have turned back around. We hop off the elevator and am greeted by Jason.
"Hello, Ana. How are you today?"
Okay, lets cut the small talk. "Jason.. where is he?"
"He's in his study. He has no idea that you are here."
"And how is he?"
"Usual.. upset and frustrated. I managed to get Welch on our side, although I didn't tell him anything, so he doesn't have any new information on you as of right now."
"Okay.. I guess it is now or never."
"Ana!" Gail comes enveloping me in a hug. "How are you? I'm sorry I haven't been able to visit, things have been a little crazy around here."
"It's no problem Gail, I completely understand."
"How's my boy doing?"
"He's doing great. They said he should be able to come home next week hopefully." I say smiling.
"Oh, that's fantastic dear!" She squeals.
"What's with all the noise?" I hear behind me. I know it's him and now I don't know if I can face him. I look up at the faces of Jason, Luke and Gail all staring at me. I freeze.
After some time I start to slowly turn around.
I take a deep breath.. "Christian."
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-Ari