Something like Suicide

Interval Twenty-four

Paradox

It's a funny thing. Life that is. Before all this happened I don't think I realized how fragile life was. Sure I was always constantly aware of death, because of Syo, but I don't think I understood. I watched this town crumble before a threat that only I believed in. People I loved died. And I could say I was sad, but I didn't. In fact, I was ecstatic. They didn't target me. I got to see a new sunrise each day.

I was always so over-aware of Syo's mortality, I guess I forgot about my own. It was that morning, when our small village found out the truth, that I discovered...

...I didn't want to die here...

Masato looked over at Ren as they left. They took only what they could carry in their own travel bags. He, although Masa didn't know Haruka like the older members, didn't like the strange tone of her voice. It sounded strain as she told them to leave.

"Ren?" The blue haired teen squeaked as his loving boyfriend pulled him down behind a snow covered bush.

Ren flashed him one of his devilish smiles. "Don't worry."

"I'm not worried." Masato blushed, letting himself fall into the other's arms. "I was just wondering what's going on."

Ren's face fell a little. "I'm not sure. I've only heard a story about what happened last time that humans found out about us. And from what I remember it wasn't good."

"What happened?"

Ren shook his head not answering.

"Ren? You do know, don't you?"

"Yes." His voice solemn.

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be." Ren let out a low laugh. "I wasn't there. It was a long time ago."

Ren stood suddenly. His blue eyes squinted at the street light. "Is that?"

Masa also stood trying his hardest to see whoever Ren was talking about. It took him only seconds to to see the slim silhouette, though he wasn't as sharp as Ren so it took him a few minutes to realize who it was. "How did he get there?"

OoO

"Masato."

He sighed letting his head slip from his hands to hit the smooth wood of his desk. His forehead smeared the script on his now crinkled sheet of parchment. His father, called to him for the umpteenth time. His father was an older more traditional man. He wanted his only son to follow in his footprints. As for his younger sister Mai, she was free to do what she wanted, but she was so sweet she often helped her big brother anyway she could.

"Masato! Open the door." He father's fist pounded against the door.

Masa didn't pretend not to know why. It was time for their family dinner, but to him it was hardly that. His mother, grief-stricken from her father's sudden passing, had locked herself in her room until her untimely death. Now his father had found a new mistress and demanded they eat together as a fake family. It's shamed his mother's memory, in his mind, that his father had moved on so quickly and remorsefully.

"I'm not hungry." He stated not moving his head from the desk.

"Masa-onii." He heard her sweetly chime out, no doubt under their father's direction. "Please come out for dinner."

He was so tempted, for his sister he would give up the world, his life, all their money, anything to make her happy. But he didn't move. He froze in fear of being manipulated and controlled by his father, Masaomi. 'I don't want to be controlled by him.'

"I miss you." she said sadly. He could hear something being slight crumpled before it scraped lightly against his floor. "Papa misses you too. We are bother worried. I know you don't like mama much but-"

"She's not our mom!" He interrupted in a harsh tone. "She's not our mom and she never will be!"

"Masa-onii, i know you don't think of her as a mama. But please, I beg you, don't pull away like our mama did." She paused then added more sternly, "I won't forgive you if you do!"

He sighed again, lifting himself from his chair to see what his sister shoved under the door. It was just a small piece of scrape paper.

I won't blame you.

He was baffled. There was no way that she could have heard him talking to the boy at the window. What would she be doing up do late anyways? Besides, that was just a dream. Yes, a reoccurring dream that he kept having. After all how could someone he had never met so openly confess their undying love for him when he was just so plain?

"Now even my little sister is telling me father is crazy." He gave a smug laugh. "I hate this life so much."

The corner of his eyes started to water as they wondered back to the picture on his desk. The picture of a happy family that no longer existed. "I have this life so much, so why do I want to keep living so badly?"

OoO

Masato woke up in a room, a very unfamiliar white room. In fact everything was like that. He wasn't sure where he was or where he should be. He wasn't upset and for some reason felt very calm.

"Oh, you're awake?" She said, her voice warm like a spring day. "It's nice to finally met you Masato-san."

"And you are?" He asked before the question he really wanted.

She gave him a small giggle. "You don't have to worry, we have never met before. I am Haruka Nanami. and this lazy sleeping sack of stupidity is Ren." She kicked a blonde, that Masato hadn't noticed, waking him from his slumber.

"I'm up!" He yelped in pain bringing his leg up to rub the sore spot on it.

"I have to go out for a moment to grab our newest addition." She left them. Though as she opened the door and an elderly man stepped forth he couldn't help but to feel a pang of guilt. He looked worried and deep bags wove themselves beneath his weary blue eyes.

"Oh you're here!" He heard the girl, Haruka exclaim as she shut the door.

His eyes wondered over to the strawberry blonde that sat still somewhat dozing in the chair next to his bed. "Do I know you?"

It took Ren a few minutes to roll his head and wake up some more. "Mmm, I guess you could say I'm the person who saved you."

"What?"

"Oh, never mind." He gave him a wink. "But I do plan to win your heart yet again."

OoO

"Masa stay here." Ren stood, the shrubbery the hid behind rustling in complaint at his sudden movements. He couldn't help but smile as his boyfriend grabbed his sleeve in a futile attempt to make him stay. He let out a soft seductive chuckle as the teen blushed furiously while shaking his head to any sneaking suspicions. "What's wrong?"

"I'm still worried."

Ren patted Masato's soft blue hair. "Don't."

" Before you go will you please tell me?"

"Tell you what?"

"Last time, what happened?"

Ren let out a sigh.

OoO

"What are you doing him?"

Eiichi whirled around faster than any dancer could. His purple eyes spotted Ren coming out of the shadows of the treeline. He couldn't help but to unleash a crooked smile. "Taking care of business."

"Bullshit." The brunette was shocked that curse words were even part of the old fashioned blonde's vocabulary. "What are you really doing?"

"Having fun. Wanna try?"

Ren's sharp eyes notices the dribbled of blood on his shirt. "We aren't monsters."

Eiichi's grin grew stepping forward so he could throw an arm around Ren. "You just haven't embraced it yet. It's so easy. You don't even have to think about it. Doesn't it give you pleasure knowing that someones life is in your hands? That you decide of they live or die?"

The strawberry blonde pushed him away. "You're just like Tokiya! Completely out of control."

He laughed at that. "No, don't you see? I'm completely in control. I'm deciding who lives and who dies."

"You're insane."

"Maybe, but I will live past tonight. You on the other hand, will not."

Ren gasped trying to back up. Eiichi had gone off the edge and wanted to take the whole town down with him. With a stricken look forming on his face, Ren wished that for once he had disobeyed Haruka and stayed until she left too.

Uuuuuh. (Spoilers)

That moment when you totally have you OTP for a new series and BAM! They're brothers. Damn it! Well first incest otp... ugh.

I'm gonna be honest, I cheated on you guys with wattpad again. I was really hoping to find a story that has been deleted here. *sigh* What I wouldn't give to read Coding and Codeine again... oh well

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