Chapter 7

APOV

"Christian" I say looking him in the eyes.

A mirage of emotions pass through his eyes starting with surprise and ending in recognition. He must know now that I am definitely the girl he saw in the hospital a few days ago. But he doesn't say anything, doesn't even move and it's making me more nervous than ever.

After a few minutes he clears his throat. "Can you give us a minute?" he asks.

I completely forgot about the gang around me. Gail slowly exits but Jason and Luke stay planted at my side. Christian looks at Jason and then to Luke with disapproving and rage filled eyes. I turn to both of them and nod telling them it is okay to leave. I don't think they really need to be here. Christian would never hurt me but i also know they will definitely be in the security offices watching the cameras like hawks. Luke looks to Jason who gives a nod and then he leaves but Jason turns to me and says "we'll be watching" low enough so only I can hear it. Knowing that I was right and that they care for me brings a slight smirk to my face but it is quickly gone once I look back up to Christian.

He goes from confused to hurt to angry all within a matter of seconds and jumping off of each other. He walks over to towards the fridge and asks me if I want anything to drink. Of course I can't because I really want to breastfeed but I keep my answer at a simple 'no thank you'.

So he just turns around in front of the fridge. I look down at my feet afraid of what I might see when i look up.

"Look at me." he commands and I do as I am told. "You never used to look down like that.." I don't say anything. Really i don't have a response so we stand in silence for a few minutes. I know he is looking at me but I am really just looking past him and out the window.

"So. it was you." He half asks hald states.

"In the hospital?"

"Yes. In the hospital."

"What happened? Are you okay?"

"I'm fine now. They discharged me right before I came here."

"You came here right after you were discharged?.. Why?"

"Well there's something important I need to tell you. I'm sure you probably have an idea of what it is but I need to tell you everything and give you a chance."

"You're giving me a chance? A chance to do what?"

"Please, sit down." I motion to the breakfast bar. He sits down and I do the same but make sure that there is a stool between us.

"Okay Christian. I'm going to speak and I need you to not interrupt me, please."

He doesn't say anything so I take that as my cue to start talking.

"The night when I left after dinner.." I clear my throat. This is harder than I thought it would be. Earlier that week I wasn't feeling well. I was sick almost everyday, certain smells made me run o the bathroom, I was tired.. Anyway, I figured something was wrong so I went to the doctor after I felt like that for a few days. They took some blood and urine to do some simple tests… When.. when they came back in the room they told me I was pregnant." I peak up to see Christians face but it is impassive as usual. "I went to Doctor Greene to confirm and she confirmed it. I was 10 weeks pregnant when I left you. You and I both know that I was a virgin when we met and we were exclusive in our.. our.. what ever you call them.. so there is no doubt that he is yours. While I was waiting for you that day Gail was making dinner and whatever she was cooking sent me straight to the bathroom. She got really worried and was going to take me to the doctor and i couldn't let her do all that so I told her. At some point she told Jason because he started to stop by and check up on me at my new apt. At first I thought you found out or had a background check done or something but he told me he was just there to help. Which he has been, both him and Gail. Around 6 weeks ago when I was 32 weeks, I wasn't feeling well one night when he came to check on me and I was showing early signs of preeclampsia which could have harmed either myself or the baby. I was given orders to stay calm and relax as much as I could. Jason then hired Luke to watch after me at all times and to keep us safe. My relaxing didn't work though because about two and a half weeks later, I was diagnosed with preeclampsia. My symptoms weren't severe and there was no reason to deliver that early so I was put on bed rest. But one night I woke up with a sharp pain and I couldn't breath. Luke rushed me to the hospital and called Gail and Jason. That was last week.. when you saw me. I had to do an emergency c-section so that we both had a chance of survival because at the point we both could have died if I tried a natural birth. So.." I say taking a breath and looking up at Christian once again. His eyes are closed tight and I'm pretty sure his nails are digging in to hands. "Our son.. Theodore Raymond Steele was born. He's doing really great and they said they're going to take him out of the NICU in a few days if everything keeps going well and then I can take him home…" I finish.

Christian hasn't moved since the last time I looked up at him. I just wait for him to say something.. say anything…

"Why didn't you tell me?" He finally asks. I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding.

"I was just your sub Christian. I know you don't want kids and I wanted to keep my son so.. I left I guess. I'm telling you this now because you deserve to know. Even if you don't want to be in his life I thought you should at least know that he exists."

He stays quiet for a minute or two. "Can I see him?"

"Yeah.. yeah. But visiting hours are over. You can see him in the morning."

"Okay." Okay. That's it?

"I'll I've you time to process this. I guess I will call you in the morning once I get to the hospital and add you to the list of visitors." I say getting up. I walk towards the elevator but then turn back to him. He looks so.. broken.. "Please don't be mad at Jason or Gail over this. They were just trying to help me." I turn back around and by the time I am at the elevator Luke is right next to me and wraps his arm around my shoulders to give me a reassuring squeeze. As we step in to the elevator I take a deep breath and turn around. I can slightly see Christian from the angle I am at and he looks at me with an unnamed emotion. The doors close and I feel like I can finally breathe.

"How was it?" Luke asks timidly.

"He didn't really say anything so I don't know. But he wants to see Teddy tomorrow."

"I'll arrange it." He says as we walk out of the elevator and to the car.

A/N: As per request I will be trying for longer chapters but to keep my updating frequent, it will be gradual so bare with me.

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