This chapter is kinda saying how lazy I am. It was going to be two but I need to finish before I burn myself out...

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Something like Suicide

Night- Interval - Twenty-Six

Evening Lights

I leave these pages behind not in hope that they need to be read but in a desperate plea to make sure we are known. Of course, Kaoru, this letter is meant for you. In your pursuit for your brother I know that you will be safe from the rein of terror that my companions plan to bring to your home. But you will live, I will make sure of this. And should I fall, I want you to know the truth.

First, you already know what we are, but we were not born this way. None of us. from my understanding even our leader was once just a human. So even if you know me only as the monster that helped steal your brother from you, I too know what human warmth feels like.

Natsuki looked up. The sky was darkening. He had tried his hardest to stay in the shadows. After Kaoru's outburst, that had thrown everyone into a frenzied panic it was much harder to move. So he stayed hidden writing a letter that he hope would never have to be seen.

"I will save you, Kaoru. Even if you fight me ever step of the way."

OoO

"Baka, don't you know anything? The first snow fall always tastes the best. You can't stay cooped up in your house forever."

Natsuki didn't look at her, he didn't want to. Her cheerfulness would surely make him forget the sadness he felt. But it was to soon to forget. The wound was still fresh, tender, and burning the edges of his soul.

"I don't want to look at, or taste, the first snowfall!" He yelled at her, throwing a pillow that rested limply at his feet at her. "I want to die with him."

"Don't say that." she cooed. "You have to get out of this room and find something worth living for."

"You wouldn't understand. You have no idea what it's like to watch your other half die. And you will never understand. You are whole."

The girl tsked at him her heels clicking, face covered in by the darkness of that room. "If Satsuki wanted you dead, he wouldn't have let go."

OoO

Eiichi looked on happily as he found a cowering vampire tucked into a small hiding spot. "So Toki this is where you've been."

"I didn't mean it." He jittered pulling his legs in closer, which to Eiichi seem impossible. "He was just so appealing."

"Why are you apologizing for something you were meant to do all along?" He sneered. "We aren't like pets. We should do what is in our nature."

Tokiya sniffled. "Yeah..."

"Now get up."

Tokiya stood, his hand brushing against the bark of one of e trees as be did so. He pulled back in a small yelp. A jagged cut bubbled as he with drew it. "What are we going to do?"

"Tear this place apart."

"And the others?"

"Already to far gone for you to worry about."

Ichinose frowned at that statement not sure how to take it. He couldn't tell if his friends, his family, were dead or if they had really left him behind.

'Surely Natsuki is still here somewhere. And if he's here that means Haruka wants him to bring me back home. If he's not already de- No! They can't be." He force that thought from his mind.

Eiichi, as if sensing the blue haired male's unease said. "Don't worry I'm still here for you."

OoO

"Baka? Why are you so spaced out today?" She asked him leaning back as far as the wooden bench would let her. Her hair glistened with melted snow.

That's when he finally looked around. The sky was dark and street lights had begun to light up the public's park. A few people scurried into the warmth an shelter of their nearby homes. But for Natsuki there would be no warmth in the home he went back to. Not without...

"If I had known this trip to England would be so depressing I wouldn't have come." She sighed.

"You would have missed Satsuki's funeral."

"Yeah, yeah." She mumbled annoyingly. "Just cheer up for me."

"Be quiet Shibuya. You're annoying." He snapped.

"Hmph!" She scowled back at him.

OoO

Kaoru left the villagers as they began their search. He knew how to find one vampire. The only one he needed. And for that he needed to get a friend.

"Nagi." He called, lightly tapping on Syo's bedroom door. "Are you ready?"

Nagi's dull gray eyes peered at him from under the blanket. Nothing else was visible. "Yes."

"Do you remember what you need to do?"

The younger one nodded slowly.

"For Kira." Kaoru whispered like a prayer.

"For Kira." Nagi's hollow voice echoed back.

The blonde motioned his friend closer. He eyes watched as the blanket fell away and the boy ran to him in desperate need for warmth and love.

OoO

"I love when the lights reflect off the snow making the whole area seem to glow."

"You like everything." Natsuki scoffed.

"You use to as well." She huffed, her dark tresses glittering under the crescent moon's light. "You should look at life for how beautiful it is. Some people don't have a nice home to go to. They don't have more family waiting for them or friends. Think of all the things you have and let Satsuki's memory be the happiness that moves you forwards."

Natsuki stopped walking. Deep down he know that his best friend was right. Satsuki had always been his inspiration, his happiness. But he wasn't ready to let go. He wasn't okay with his older brother being just a memory.

'Satsuki tell me how to feel. Tell me what to think. Without you I'm lost.' He thought letting the cold winter breeze envelope his body.

Shibuya closed her eyes and with a lengthy yawn she muttered. "I wonder if all geniuses are like this."

OoO

Eiichi's plan was simple and fool proof. He had manipulated Tokiya into attacking, now all he had to do was sit back and watch. Telling his blue haired friend that he would have his back was all the encouragement he needed. While Tokiya slaughtered most of the village, he would find Kaoru.

He smirkd to himself. "Oi, Toki, we don't have all night."

He looked down, from where he stood on a high tree branch, to his puppet. Tokiya looked up at him with wide eyes. "Are you sure that we should be doing this? Even if we do catch up to Haruka, she will be pissed. Her no killing rule shouldn't be broken."

"What are you so afraid of?" The brunette jumped down from the pine laughing. "You already broke that rule. You made us known, so take some responsibility. After all you remember the stories from the last time humans found out about Haruka, right?"

The other nodded grimly. "Of course."

"So before it can happen again what should you do?"

"Erase this little village that no one cares about before word can spread."

"Right!" Eiichi grinned. "Now let me hear you say it out loud. So I know you understand what happened and what could have happened. What did those filthy humans do when they found out? Before we ever existed."

The sadistic tone and hot breathe filled his ear, as Tokiya shivered. He opened his mouth and few times, shutting it, not wanting to say before he could force his cracked voice to speak. "Someone died."

"And if someone dies again that blood is on your hands."

"I don't want that."

"Then go."

OoO

"If I could have one wish, it would be to stay with way forever."

Snow trickled down landing on her nose. Her cheeks puffy and red from the cold. Her red eyes glancing over at the large clocktower.

"We could have all the time in the world."

" That would make these fleeting memories useless." Nastuki rolled his eyes.

"Even in a thousand years I would still treasure them."

"Tomochika..." He said, calling her by her first name.

She smiled widely at him, eyes sparkling with delight. "Are you feeling better now?"

"Maybe."

OoO

It wouldn't have taken any kind of special super hearing to know when it started. The bloodcurdling screams, sobs, and the faint whisper of an apology. It didn't take a genius, which many had called him, to know that Eiichi had moved. Then again, so had he. So all that was left was for him to wait.

Even that didn't take long.

He heard the brush moved angerly as two people stomped through. And blonde head soon appeared out from behind the thicket, his angry blue eyes practically glowing. Attacked to his arm was a small boy he had only seen that once. The same boy that Eiichi had been after.

The outcome, there were only two, he could vividly see before his eyes. Either Kaoru could leave the child by his side or he could fight his way through, most likely with words.

His tone made Natsuki assume the latter. "Did you wait long?"

The tall blonde couldn't help but to smile. "Yes. I would have come to meet you, but you sent everyone on a mad hunt to find my kind."

"With good reason." Kaoru crossed his arms over his chest, shaking Nagi off only to have him hook back on to his waist. "Some of us don't even have home left to go to many more. What am I suppose to tell my friend Cecil? 'Oh your family was murdered by vampires that are destroyed the village and kidnapped my brother. But don't feel bad, Nagi has no family anymore either.' Am I suppose to say that to him? It is the truth."

Natsuki's smile flattered. "The was never meant to happen. Otoya's death was a mistake. We have to cover that up. But that doesn't matter. Forget that friend and come with me. I'll make sure you live, I'll make sure you see Syo-chan again."

"But I'd be a monster like you."

It stung. 'Monster'. That's all he would ever be in Kaoru's eyes. If that's what kept the teen alive, then so be it. If being a monster kept Kaoru, Haruka, and even the other two vampired that had escaped with her alive... he could fill that roll.

It's what he lived for.

"Our house is just passed me. Go and see what being a monster means."

The youngest Kurusu never let his eyes leave the vampire, surely think it was a trap. He made his way passed with Nagi snug at his side.

"Goodbye." Natsuki said gravely.

OoO

Once upon a time a genius musician met a frail vampiress in the snowly streets of England. Though petit and hungry, she did not attack him, rather she looked up at him with big golden eyes and said a simple 'Please'. At that time the musician though that she was begging for food or maybe even her life. But after a while he knew she was begging for the warmth of a human heart to save her.

She however was not alone. A vampire lay in the dirty ally with her. His temper far more foul and his mannerisms horrible, but he shielded her from the human that she had begged from.

In the end the musician took them both home. He cared for them for many weeks before being found out by his best friend. Although concerned, she was happy to see a smile, albeit light, on his face.

But unlike fairy tales this story did not end happy. Word got out about the two monsters that the genius harbored and panic spread. One night the towns folk, fearing for their lives, tried to burn the musician and his vampires alive. They did not know that a friend of his stayed with him, nor that his family was residing there after a funeral.

Luckily the genius and vampiress made it safely out. But her male companion did not make it nor the beautiful red haired Japanese girl. From that day on he swore himself to the sobbing vampiress. He would let nothing hurt her again.

I don't believe in fairy tales, but I do believe in reality. Had I never taken Haruka in with such loving embrace, I would have died long ago. I would have died without meeting all the people I have know, I would have died not seeing all the places, hearing all the sounds. And for that I am grateful.

May our story be know Haruka. The one of you and I one that night so long ago, drenched in the first snowfall of a foreign land.

...One more...