I'm sorry this took a while. Last chapter really got to me and I haven't really been able to write. This chapter is a bit short. I focus on Joey, Seto, Mokuba and Serenity this chapter. Everyone else will return next chapter. Again, sorry for the lateness. Enjoy!
Endlessly:
I could love you endlessly, I could fall in love with you and we could keep a miracle alive. Every time I look in your eyes, I get lost inside of your soul. What are you doing to me? Don't you know that I hate you? Don't you want my blood on your hands? Don't you want me to scream? Don't you realize that it's too late to bring me back life? I'm already further than death. I'm drowning in my desire for you and my need to kill you. I want my hands covered in your blood, I want your skin underneath my fingertips I want you to reach out and touch me, I want you to burn me alive with your beautiful eyes. I want to hear your voice when I go to bed at night, I want to lie next to you and watch the world go by. I want to end you for good, I want to make you suffer, I want to see the look in your eyes when you look up at me when I hold the knife above your heart. I want you to know that any claims of hope you had of us is nothing but fantasy we'll never have. I want you to be the one that kills me, I want my blood on your hands.. I want you to end me I want to feel your passion. I want to feel your soul wrapping around mine. I want to know if you feel this too. I want to know if I can kill you now. I want to feel you underneath me I want to feel something besides this loneliness I feel inside. I want to bring the demon out of you.
I want to know if it hurts when I cut you up inside. I want to know if you really hate me or if I really hate you. I want to make me scream, I want to feel the power within me grow. I want you to knock me out, I want you to defeat me. I want something so much more from you than I could ever get. I want you to bleed, I want you to scream. I need you to know you're driving me crazy. I need you to know my soul burns passionately for you every time you give me that look I think I'm going to lose my mind. I want you dead, I want your soul to scream, to earn itself to me. I need you to know this isn't a game anymore. And what would you think if I told you that loved you this whole time? What would you say if I told you I never wanted to hate you, that I never loved you at all? What if I was playing with your mind?
What if I was lying right now? What if I told it was too personal to tell you how I felt about you? What if I told you that everything you've done to me was nothing more than just a wicked fantasies you dreamt of? What if I can't take it back? What if I don't want to? What if everything I said wasn't a lie? What if I tried to bring you back? What if I really did love you? Would you love me back, even though you think of me as a fool? Am I fool to fall in love with you? What if I told you that loving you is so impossible, it's not reality. I couldn't take it anymore. You burn me alive, I'd give myself to you if I could.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh. If I did, then Yugioh would have ended with Bakura and Yami admitting their undying love for one another and Seto would have pulled Joey into a kiss to shut him up because Puppy and Darkshipping rock!
Warnings: My usual, y'all know what that means, but for those of you who happen to be new to my awesomeness, it means there's lemony goodness!
Summary:
Moments away from destroying Zorc, Yami hesitates, asking Horakhty if she can set Bakura free. She agrees, telling Yami that in order for him to pass into the afterlife, he must break his enemy of the darkness, and he only as a year to do so.
Chapter Twenty-two: Verge
[Mokuba's POV]:
Serenity called me a few days ago asking me if I could help her get to Domino City. I, of course, agreed. Seto and I are at the airport right now waiting to pick her up. I had asked her if she wanted Joey to come along with us, but she said she wanted to surprise him.
While we were on the phone, Serenity seemed extremely upset. I asked her what was wrong and she told me. This angered me. How dare her mother try to keep Joey from my Nii-sama! They needed each other! I took matters into my own hands taking some money from my allowance, which I had been saving up to get a new game for Joey and I to play, and paid for Serenity's plane ticket. I even set up a fake meeting that Serenity's mom had to go to for her work. That would buy Serenity enough time to get to the airport and into Domino City. No one messes with Seto's happiness and gets away with it!
Nobody!
"How much longer?" I ask.
"Shouldn't be too much longer, Mokuba." Seto says scrolling through his touch screen phone. The airport is jammed packed. Everyone is coming in and out of Japan for the holidays to see their families.
"I bet Joey will be happy to see his sister." I say after a while.
"Hmm." my brother grunts.
I'm not sure how Seto feels about the girl to be honest. They've never interacted before. I really like her. She's smart, funny, pretty. I blush at my last thought.
"What's with the blush?" Seto asks.
"N-nothing Seto!" I exclaim, my face heating up.
My brother gives me a look, but doesn't say anything returning to his phone. I wring my hands impatiently wishing Serenity would get here already.
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[Serenity's POV]:
Finally, I have arrived in Domino City. As requested Mokuba and Kaiba are waiting for me without my brother. Mokuba was kind enough to lend me some money to get to Japan. The plan he had was flawless. I'm so lucky to have such a sweet, caring, loving friend. I hope we'll get to spend more time together while I'm here. I won't be able to stay too long. I'm sure Mom already knows I'm here…
I feel bad. I really do. But what choice did I have? Mom wouldn't let me see Joey! I know he needs my help! She can't look past his sexual orientation, flaws or anything! If it wasn't for Joey, I'd have lost all hope a long time ago. He made me believe in myself. Even if he hadn't have been able to pay for my surgery and I had gone blind all those years ago, I still would have loved my brother as much as I do today.
My parents don't realize how strong our bond is. I don't think Mom hates Joey, she just doesn't understand him. She thinks Joey will corrupt my mind. She thinks I'm some sweet, naive girl. I used to be like that. Before I met Joey's friends and I witness terrible things during Battle City. I've grown up since then, I know the world is cruel, but it's also amazing. You just have to learn how to deal with what you're given. With friends, your life can be amazing.
I can't wait to find out how everyone's doing. Mom won't let me talk to my brother too much, so finding out about what's been going on is nearly impossible. It was a miracle I got in contact with Mokuba. I just love his gorgeous black hair. He sure has grown since I had last seen him in Battle City. I think we're about the same age.
The announcer announces that we've landed in Domino City. Everyone files off the plane and into the airport.
"Hello Mokuba, Kaiba." I say.
"Hey, Serenity!" Mokuba beams.
Kaiba doesn't say anything.
"I'm assuming you want to see Joey?" Kaiba asks.
I bite my lip. "Actually, Kaiba...I wanted to talk to you about something." I say looking down at my feet.
"Seto stop intimidating her!" Mokuba chatises.
"No, he's fine Mokuba. It's not him." I say looking up at the two brothers.
Kaiba studies me for a long moment. "What do you need to talk about?" he asks.
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[Seto's POV]:
"Thank you Kaiba, for letting me talk to you." Serenity says. We're sitting in my office at my house. I told her I'd talk to her only if I was able to get some work done. She agreed. Mokuba was elsewhere giving us privacy.
"Just get it over and done with with what you want to say to me." I say typing away on my computer. Stupid pricks fucked up another one of my projects!
Silence fills the room. I don't press her to speak. I could care less if she's in here or not. I have never had a problem with the girl. She's left me alone, I left her alone. Mokuba seems to have taken a liking her too. I think it's payback time for all the times he's teased me about liking Joey.
"Thank you." the redheaded girl whispers. If not for my extraordinary senses that I had trained myself to have I would have missed the soft-spoken words.
"Mokuba is the one that paid for your plane ticket." I say not looking up from my computer screen.
"That's not what I'm talking about." she says.
"Then what?" I ask. Time to send this memo out to my fools.
"For helping my brother." Serenity says. "I know you and he haven't always gotten along but…"
"I"m assuming you know what has occurred between your brother and I." I say.
"Yes."
"Then what is the point in this conversation?" I snap. "I have work to do."
"I want you to be happy." she says. "I think my brother can make you."
"If you're here to tell me things Mokuba tells me then save it. I'm not here to listen to nonsense." I snap.
"But you do love him, don't you?" she asks. "You didn't have sex with my brother because you…"
I look up at her. Her face is painted red. She's fidgetting.
"Would you calm down? It's quite annoying. I'm trying to get some work done." I snap.
"Sorry." she mumbles.
"I'm not going to bite you head off. Believe it or not, I actually kind of like you." I say returnign to my work.
"Really?"
"Yes and you better treat my brother right." I say.
"But I-"
"Don't even try to deny it. Now then, are you going to tell me why you wanted to talk to me?"
"I'm sure Joey's talked to you about our father…" the girl trails off.
"Yes." I say through gritted teeth.
"He's not the only problem." she says.
"I don't know what to do about your mother. You're under age." I say.
"I don't want you to do anything with her." she says. "Not concerning me anyways."
I look up at her our eyes meeting.
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[Joey's POV]:
So much has been going on lately. Yams and Bakura are finally together. I have to admit, I'm still a bit iffy with Yams being around Bakura, but ya can tell 'Kura's changed...so I guess I'll let it slide. We're all in the living room playing 'Sorry'.
"Bakura, you can't do that!" Yami cries.
"I don't see why not." Bakura scoffs. "I got seven. That's seven places."
"More like ten!"
I laugh. "Ya guys are funny."
"Y'all sure are." a familiar voice says.
I nearly jump out of my skin. I look up to see my sister giggling behind her hand.
"S-Serenity when did ya-"
"I've been here for a few hours." she says.
"But how I thought dat Ma…"
"Let's go somewhere to talk." she says. "If that's okay with you guys?" she asks looking at all of my friends.
Everyone nods.
"Alright den. I see y'all later."
"Make sure when you see Kaiba later to fuck him hard!" Bakura calls.
"Shut up, Bakura!" I exclaim my face heating up.
Serenity giggles as we walk through the door into the shop portion of the Game Shop.
"Smell ya later, gramps!" I call pushing the door open. Serenity following behind.
"Stay safe you two!" he shouts.
"We will!" Serenity calls.
We walk through the streets of Domino. It's so nice to be on break. I got some homework to do, but I'll worry 'bout dat later. My sis is here. We go into a coffee shop. I'm not one for drinking it, but I suppose it's a nice place to sit and talk. Serenity orders some tea. I just get some Coke and a doughnut.
"How cha get past Ma?" I ask chewing on my doughnut.
"Mokuba helped me." she replies.
"Seriously?"
She nods.
"Sis, ya should go home…" I trail off.
"Not a chance." she says.
"But!"
"No buts, Joey." she says.
"But ya gonna get in trouble…"
"If I get in trouble so be it. I needed to see you, Joey. I've been worried about you." Serenity says.
I sigh.
"When was the last time you talked to Kaiba?" my sister asks.
"It's been a while." I mumble looking down. All of a sudden I don't want to eat.
"Why?" she asks.
I shrug. "I just didn't think he'd wanna see me…"
Serenity scoffs. I look up to see her roll her eyes. "Joey, Kaiba loves you, okay?"
"He didn't say it, though…" I mutter looking down again.
"I think it's hard for him." she says. "Give him time."
"He's always so busy with work too…" I sigh.
"Mokuba's making him get off early so the two of you can talk." Serenity says.
"Really?" I beam.
Serenity laughs. "Yes."
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[Serenity's POV]:
My brother and I go to a coffee shop to talk. I figured if we get a bit of fresh air and some privacy he'd be able to open up to me on what's been bothering him. I want to be here for him. No matter what the cost. He, of course, was worried about me being here without Mom's permission, but I assured him it'd be alright. Joey's happiness means everything to me. I won't let Mom, Dad, or anyone get in my way of making sure he and Kaiba are together.
He told me about how he and Kaiba haven't seen or spoken to each other in a few days. I'm not surprised, but I know that's not the only thing that's bothering him. He's holding back on something.
"That's not the only thing that's bothering you." I say.
"Huh?" Joey says.
"Joey, what's going on?" I ask.
My brother looks down at the table. He takes a deep breath.
"It's Kaiba…"
"What about him?" I ask.
"He seems distance…" Joey trails off.
"Perhaps talking to him will help?" I suggest.
Joey shrugs. "I don't wanna ruin dis."
"You won't. Kaiba needs to be able to talk to you. You and he are lovers now." I say.
Joey laughs humourlessly. "It sounds so weird when you say dat. Kaiba and I have always been at each other's throats and now.."
"Oh you'll still be at each other's throats." I giggle. "Just in a different way."
My brother's face heats up. I reach out to touch his hand. He looks up at me as I lace our fingers together. "I love you Joey. I'm here for you. No matter what." I say.
Joey smiles. "I know." he says.
"I'm very proud of you." I say.
"What for?" he asks raising an eyebrow.
"You told Kaiba about Dad. I know that's not easy for you to do." I say.
Joey looks away. "It wasn't like I wanted to I just…"
"You trust him." I say.
He looks over at me again, nodding. "Yeah...but I feel bad cuz everyone else doesn't know. I'm not sure how to tell him."
"Let's focus on locking Dad up for the time being and you focus on talking to Kaiba. You and he seriously need to talk." I say.
"Alright." Joey says.
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[Seto's POV]:
"So are you going to tell him about Gozaburo today?" Mokuba asks swinging his legs a bit before jumping off the couch. I'm on my laptop doing some work. Serenity and I had talked earlier today. She wants to help me take her dad down. I knew she'd be on board with that. No one is going to be hurting Wheeler but me. He's mine! Wow, I sound like some possessive master..
'Are we going to get the dog leash out tonight, Seto?' that stupid inner voice teases.
'Shut up.'
"Seto?" Mokuba asks breaking me out of my thoughts.
"Hmm?"
"I asked you a question." my brother says standing in front of me with his hands on his hips.
I look up from my computer. "What did you say?"
"Ugh!" Mokuba cries throwing his arms in the air. He starts pacing back and forth in the room. "You're so insufferable!"
I roll my eyes.
He stands in front of me again. "I asked you if you were going to tell Joey about Gozaburo." he repeats.
I close my eyes for a moment. I don't know how I should even go about doing this. Talking about Gozaburo isn't something I like to do. I just want to bury those horrible memories away from the rest of my life.
"Seto, we've had this conversation before. You know that Joey will love you no matter what." Mokuba says taking a seat beside of me on the couch.
"I know." I mutter.
"Then what's the problem?" he asks.
I don't answer. I don't know how to. They say for a relationship to work the people involved need to be able to trust one another. Joey has told me about his past, even before we had sex. Now, it's my turn. How am I supposed to do this though? It's terrifying me.
"Oh! Serenity's callin'!" Mokuba says jumping up and answering his phone.
If Serenity's calling that means Joey will be here soon. I haven't seen him in a few days. I find myself thinking of him a lot since that night. I still can't get it out of my mind. I never realized how beautiful he truly was until we made love. He's given me everything. It's only right that I tell him about my past.
"Joey'll be here soon." Mokuba says sitting down on the couch beside of me. I nod, getting up.
"Where are you going?" he asks.
"To my room." I reply. "Tell Joey to come up when he gets here."
I go to my room, flopping on the bed, staring up at the ceiling. So much has changed since Joey entered my life. I remember meeting him just like it was yesterday. He was so excited that I had so many cards and I loved Duel Monsters. I was so rude to him. Sometimes I wished I hadn't have been. But, there's nothing I can do about it now. Besides, I love that feisty side to him.
"Seto?" his gorgeous accent breaks me out of my thoughts. I look up. My lover is standing against the door. I don't even remember him knocking or opening the door. I sit up, motioning for him to come over. He complies, sitting carefully on my bed. Why is he being so uneasy around me? I need to fix this. I can't have Joey acting like a scared little puppy.
I push him against the bed. He let's out a yelp.
"Seto w-what are ya-"
I don't give him a chance to reply. My lips are upon his. Joey response, deepening the kiss. Gods, I never knew I could miss something so much in my life. I want him so badly right now, but we need to talk. We can fuck later. I break the kiss. Joey growls.
"I thought you wanted to talk." I say stroking the side of his face. I love his smooth skin underneath my fingertips. It's weakness, I know, but I find that I'm addicted to him.
"I do, but…"
I lean in to press my lips to his, silencing him. Joey wraps his arms around my neck bucking his hips up. I choke back a moan. Shit, if he keeps this up we won't be doing any talking. I pull away resting my forehead on his. He's staring up at me with those gorgeous honey eyes that always have me undone. I breathe him in. He smells so wonderful. I wished I could keep him here with me….
"Seto?" Joey asks concernly.
Dammit, I keep zoning out. We need to talk and I'm avoiding the inevitable. I sit up, Joey doing the same.
"Are you alright?" he asks.
"I'm fine." I say.
Joey looks at me for a moment. "Ya know ya don't have to keep things from me. We're together now. So lighten up. I've seen all there is to see of ya. Ya ain't fightin' Yuge or Yams. Ya not in a meeting. Ya wi me. We've already made love, what else is there to share?" he says.
Oh if only you knew….
"I hate to see ya so unhappy. I love you." Joey says looking away a blush staining his cheeks. "I'm not sure if ya feel the same way but...I love ya and I want to be wit ya...I always have…."
"I want to be with you too." I say. "But…"
"No, no buts, Seto!" Joey exclaims looking at me. Those honey eyes are glazed over with determination. 'Why does there have to be a 'but' with everything in my life?"
I close my eyes, shaking my head. "You're life is already fucked up enough. If you get involved with me…"
"I don't care!" Joey exclaims. "I don't care about what kinda past ya had, what weird obsession ya have with Blue-eyes, why ya so obsessed wit beatin' Yams and Yuge at Duel Monsters. All dat matters ta me is if you love me. Do you?"
I stare at him. Do I love him? Yes. Yes I do. But being with him will only cost me everything. I want to be with him. I want to spend the rest of my life with this man, but how can I when I'll just…
"Do ya?" he asks.
I close my eyes. What can I tell him that he'll understand? I don't want to hurt him, but him being with me isn't what he needs. We both live very different lives. I don't think I can commit to this relationship. We'll never have time for one another and I'll never be able to tell him about Gozaburo.
My eyes snap open when I feel Joey's warm, soft lips pressing up against mine. I kiss him back. I'm going to miss this…
We break the kiss, panting heavily. Joey reaches a shaky hand up to stroke the side of my face. He cups my face in his palms, staring deeply into my eyes.
"Do ya know how beautiful ya are to me?" he breathes. "I love ya so much."
My heart beats wildly in my chest. How can I get away from him now when he's looking at me like that? I knew I should have never allowed myself to kiss him. Now I can't escape his hold. He's drawing me in.
"Joey-"
"Please, don't say it." he whimpers tears ready to spill.
"Say what?" I ask.
"Dat we can't be together! Dat ya ain't good enough for me or I ain't good enough for ya! Why can't we be together, Seto? Is it me? Did I do somethin' wrong? Did ya not like making love to me? Did I not feel good? Did I-"
I silence him with a kiss. He closes his eyes, moaning into the kiss, pulling on my hair. I lay him down on the bed, crawling on top of him, straddling him. I grind my hips into his, causing us both to moan into the kiss.
"Joey, I don't want to hurt you-"
"Ya won't hurt me!" he exclaims.
"Let me finish." I say.
He nods.
"You are good enough for me. You shouldn't want me. You deserve so much better. You're loyal, caring, compassionate, determined, friendly. Everything that I am not. You have so many secrets and you hold your head up and look your enemies in the eye. You don't back away from anyone. I admire that about you."
I sit up moving off of him. Joey sits up as well. "When you were in a coma during Battle City after you dueled Mariku, I didn't know how to act. I-I felt bad that you lost. I know I've made fun of your dueling. I always thought you were horrible, but that day. You proved me wrong." I say.
"Seto-"
"We can't do this, Joey." I say. "It's not you, it's me."
"Please don't do dis to me." Joey pleads. "You're all I have."
I close my eyes, shaking my head. "You know damn well that you have your friends and sister-"
"I know but I want you!" he exclaims. "I need you. Please...whatever it is dat's botherin' ya we can fix it…."
"It's not something you can fix overnight, Joey." I say.
"Then I'll be right here for ya. Ya were there for me when I told ya 'bout Dad. Don't cha think I'd be here for ya with whateva's botherin' ya?" Joey asks.
"I know you would be." I say.
"Then what's the problem?" he asks.
I close my eyes. I can't tell him. He'll think I'm weak if I do.
"Seto? Are you alright?" my lover asks me concernly.
Mokuba said I need to tell Joey. How can I? I don't want to. It's weakness. He has enough on his plate than dealing with me. Silence engulfs us for a long while. I'm not sure how much time has passed, but the longer we sit here the harder I find it to keep my secrets from him.
I hear the bed creak indicating Joey's getting up. Without thinking, I reach out for him.
"Seto?" he asks getting back on the bed.
I don't say anything. I don't even look at him. I feel Joey wrap his arms around me. They feel nice. I love being in his arms. How can I let him go when he's the only one willing to break through my walls besides my brother?
"I can't get the other night outta my mind." Joey says resting his chin on top of my head.
I snort. "Figures a dog like you wouldn't be able to get sex out of his mind."
"Hey!" Joey exclaims.
"You know it's true." I smirk.
His hold tightens on me. "Oh yeah, well if I recall you were nearly screaming when I gave ya dat bj."
"Well dogs do lick a lot." I say.
"Ya better be lucky I love ya." he says.
We sit in silence for a moment. I have to tell him. Whether he'll stay with me after this, is anyone's guess. But he needs to know…
"Joey, I need to tell you something." I say.
He moves so we're facing one another. He takes my hand, intertwining our fingers. The contact makes this both easier and harder for me. I take a deep breath.
"As you know, Mokuba and I were adopted by Gozaburo. I was twelve, he was eight. Everything was fine for a while. Mokuba was so happy having a real family. Then I had to start studying to run his precious company and everything fell down hill after that. He separated Mokuba and I. I hardly saw my brother for those years. I was constantly in books, alone. I learnt rather quickly it was best not to argue with my stepfather. If I did anything he didn't like, he'd beat me. He tried to harm Mokuba one day because he did something 'wrong'. I didn't let him. I didn't care what happened to me, as long as Mokuba was safe."
I take a deep breath before continuing. "Years went by. The same shit day in and day out. I hardly ever slept. I hardly ate. I hardly saw my brother. He drew me Blue-eyes." I smile to myself. "It kept me strong. I knew someday, somehow we'd get out of that hellhole….
"One night, I had been really sick and I failed a test I was given. I couldn't think and I didn't care about the beating. But Gozaburo didn't beat me that night…" I trail off.
"Ya mean he?" Joey gasps.
I turn away from him. My fists clench the sheets tightly. Those memories are really getting to me. I knew I shouldn't have said anything!
Joey moves, pulling me into his arms and I break into a sob clinging to him like the weak fool my stepfather claimed I was.
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Before anyone asks: yes, I am doing Siblingshipping. Because I can. Next chapter we get Joey's reaction to Seto's confession. We need to do something awesome too..I'm not sure what's going to happen. I'm totally winging this thing. I do have some sort of crazy idea, but that's for later lol. Review lovelies! :D.