This has got to be the most boring chapter on the face of the earth, but there wasn't much I could really do in this chapter, so that's why it is so lame. But I promise, next chapter will be MUCH better. Despite the dullness, I do hope it isn't too terribly boring and I'm just being stupid.
Endlessly:
I could love you endlessly, I could fall in love with you and we could keep a miracle alive. Every time I look in your eyes, I get lost inside of your soul. What are you doing to me? Don't you know that I hate you? Don't you want my blood on your hands? Don't you want me to scream? Don't you realize that it's too late to bring me back life? I'm already further than death. I'm drowning in my desire for you and my need to kill you. I want my hands covered in your blood, I want your skin underneath my fingertips I want you to reach out and touch me, I want you to burn me alive with your beautiful eyes. I want to hear your voice when I go to bed at night, I want to lie next to you and watch the world go by. I want to end you for good, I want to make you suffer, I want to see the look in your eyes when you look up at me when I hold the knife above your heart. I want you to know that any claims of hope you had of us is nothing but fantasy we'll never have. I want you to be the one that kills me, I want my blood on your hands.. I want you to end me I want to feel your passion. I want to feel your soul wrapping around mine. I want to know if you feel this too. I want to know if I can kill you now. I want to feel you underneath me I want to feel something besides this loneliness I feel inside. I want to bring the demon out of you.
I want to know if it hurts when I cut you up inside. I want to know if you really hate me or if I really hate you. I want to make me scream, I want to feel the power within me grow. I want you to knock me out, I want you to defeat me. I want something so much more from you than I could ever get. I want you to bleed, I want you to scream. I need you to know you're driving me crazy. I need you to know my soul burns passionately for you every time you give me that look I think I'm going to lose my mind. I want you dead, I want your soul to scream, to earn itself to me. I need you to know this isn't a game anymore. And what would you think if I told you that loved you this whole time? What would you say if I told you I never wanted to hate you, that I never loved you at all? What if I was playing with your mind?
What if I was lying right now? What if I told it was too personal to tell you how I felt about you? What if I told you that everything you've done to me was nothing more than just a wicked fantasies you dreamt of? What if I can't take it back? What if I don't want to? What if everything I said wasn't a lie? What if I tried to bring you back? What if I really did love you? Would you love me back, even though you think of me as a fool? Am I fool to fall in love with you? What if I told you that loving you is so impossible, it's not reality. I couldn't take it anymore. You burn me alive, I'd give myself to you if I could.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh. If I did, then Yugioh would have ended with Bakura and Yami admitting their undying love for one another and Seto would have pulled Joey into a kiss to shut him up because Puppy and Darkshipping rock!
Warnings: My usual, y'all know what that means, but for those of you who happen to be new to my awesomeness, it means there's lemony goodness!
Summary:
Moments away from destroying Zorc, Yami hesitates, asking Horakhty if she can set Bakura free. She agrees, telling Yami that in order for him to pass into the afterlife, he must break his enemy of the darkness, and he only as a year to do so.
Chapter Thirty-four: Dropped
[Ryou's POV]:
We're all gathered around watching the duel. Bakura isn't having fun with this duel at all. And neither is Yami. Yami is trying to help Bakura, but Bakura won't let him. I know how hard it is for Bakura to open up to people, I'm the same way. But he's been doing so well, and now he's…
The pain in his eyes is so deep. He tries to cover it up by acting 'normal' around us, but he can't hide anything from me. I know this is an act. I know something terrible is going on with my yami. He was really acting strange a few weeks ago after Kaiba announced when Bakura's and Yami's duel would be….
"I'm going to go check on Bakura," I say getting up off the couch. He hasn't come down all morning. I'm extremely worried about him. I was sure he'd be excited about the fact that he'll get to duel Yami in a few weeks. I knock on the door, but no one ever answers, so I slip inside. My eyes widen when I see Bakura taking a card from his pocket and placing it in Yami's deck.
"Bakura?" I say.
My yami turns around. "Here, catch." he says throwing a card at me. I stumble to catch it. Unlike Bakura, I'm not graceful at all. I didn't inherit anything from him. It makes me sad….
My eyes widened when I see the card.
"Why are you giving me this?" I ask looking up at Bakura.
"It's yours, no?" Bakura says heading towards the door.
"Yeah, but-"
"Do me a favour, Hikari." Bakura says stopping to look at me.
"What?" I ask.
"Don't tell anyone."
"Why does 'Kura have such weird monsters?" Joey asks.
"I don't know what you're so scared of," Tristan laughs. "They're just holograms."
"I know dat, but-"
"Joey, you're scared of an ant." Kaiba scoffs.
"Wahhh? I am not!" Joey exclaims.
"Hey Anzu, remember the time that Joey was scared of the birds?" Tristan asks.
Anzu laughs. "That was priceless!"
"Well those birds were freaky!" Joey exclaims.
I smile at them then return to the duel. So far, it seems like a normal duel, but that could change. Yami's in the league now, but not by much. Bakura is a great duelist. He's the reason I know so much. I mean, my father taught me some, but Bakura's the one that really taught me. He's been teaching Joey how to duel better too. I miss how he used to be. He actually smiled and had fun, now it's like he's forcing himself to. It's a shame, he was finally accepting things and then…
"Wow. Bakura's 'a game' is completely off today." Duke scoffs.
"I know!" Joey exclaims. "I mean why'd he play such a weak monster with Chimera on the field?"
"He's trying to summon Dark Necrofer." Mai says.
"Ya mean dat creepy doll thing?" Joey shudders.
That can't be his strategy though. He can't summon that monster because I have it. I look the field. Bakura keeps summoning weak monsters and forcing Yami to attack them, but why? He knows he doesn't have Dark Necrofer so…
My eyes widened.
Bakura….no….
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[Joey's POV]:
The past month has been nothin' but a roller coaster for all of us. The highlight of everything is my parents are gettin' the help they need thanks to Seto and Mai. I don't know what I'd do without them. Now 'Kura and Yams are dueling. 'Kura is acting really weird. I mean he hasn't played dat freaky monster with the baby doll yet. It's like he ain't even tryin'!
"Bakura stop being stupid and get in there!" Mai shouts. "We wanna see a duel between two of the best duelist in the world not magazine reading boredom!"
Bakura looks at Mai for a moment. I can't describe the look in them. It's a mix between 'fuck you bitch' and 'help me'. What's going on with him? Everyone is saying that it has something to do with Zorc. It's creepy how Zorc still has control of him though I mean he was doin' so well and then he just went downhill. I wished there was somethin' I could do. I hate not helpin' people.
It's amazin' how things can change so fast. I mean just yesterday I was in a gang with T and now I'm watching a duel between two people that were born 5,000 years ago. Sometimes I wonder how I get into such predicaments, but Serenity said I always was one to find myself in such situations.
Serenity said that Bakura has changed me. I don't really know what she means by that, but I suppose I'll find out one day.
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[Mai's POV]:
After the mess with Pam and John was over and done with and Richard got them into the centers they needed to be in, faraway from their children I decided to stay a while in Domino. After all, I did owe Marik and besides, Bakura is my friend and he needs my help...more than ever.
I observed him over the past month whenever I came over to the Game Shop or whenever he went out. It was rare for him to go out and when he did, it was only because one of us got on his case. That old temper of his sure has returned. He snaps at everyone, especially Yami. Sometimes when he thinks no one is looking, he glares at him.
During the month I have spent with my friends, I learnt a lot of things about Ancient Egypt. I knew some things thanks to the stories I've heard from them, but not enough to really understand the situation. And though I'll never truly understand it, I can at least help Bakura into getting better. I want to help him, I don't want him to be trapped in his own misery like I was. He's been through that before, he deserves happiness and it's my job to help him.
Bakura's not even trying in this duel. His life points are pretty low. 1000 to Yami's 4,000. I thought he was going to try and summon Dark Necrofer to summon Dark Sanctuary, but he hasn't yet. What is going on with him?
"Bakura stop being stupid and get in there!" I shout. "We wanna see a duel between two of the best duelist in the world not magazine reading boredom!"
Bakura turns to me. The look he gives me is a mix of hatred and need. I can't describe the chilling feeling I'm feeling right now because of it. I think Bakura's issue goes beyond a simple hold that a God has on him.
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[Yugi's POV]:
The fans may be cheering, but Yami and Bakura most certainly are not. They're in so much pain from this duel and yet, Bakura seems to also be enjoying himself. It's like he's waiting to pounce and tear Yami to shreds. Bakura's becoming more and more distance. Yami constantly comes to me needing help. I wish there was more I could do for him, but there's only so much I can do especially when I don't know exactly what's going on with Bakura.
I know it has something to do with Zorc, but what could it possibly be? We know that Bakura's family was murdered, so maybe it has to do with that? Or maybe, this has nothing to do with that at all. I glance over at Marik. He stares at the duel intently. He's worried about his best friend. This is our last month to save Bakura, after all.
"Well it's about damn time." Marik scoffs.
"You'll have to do better than that Bakura to defeat me." Yami says after Bakura knocks 1500 of his life points down.
"We're just getting started, Atem." Bakura smirks.
"I'm surprised Bakura hasn't summoned Diabound Kernel." Kaiba says. "That monster could give him the edge."
That is a bit strange. I'm not sure what Bakura's strategy is, but he needs to step up his game otherwise, he'll never heal.
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[Seto's POV]:
I am watching one of the most boring duels on the face of the earth. One would think that two of the best duelist, and I say 'two of the best' because they are not the best that honour belongs to me, aren't dueling the way they should.
I don't know why no one can see it. Bakura is being controlled. It's so obvious, it was obvious from the start. I'm sure that Zorc is planning something sinister. I never wanted to believe in that Egyptian nonsense, but after realizing that it was real, I began to really watch Yami and Bakura.
Watching them, I have noticed a big change between how Bakura was a few months ago veruses now. Before Bakura was smiling. He was enjoying his life and finally accepting the help he needs. But now, he's turned into some depressed dumbass. Or, he's acting that way at least.
For someone who is the master at hiding their emotions, I can look beyond the act that he's putting on. The thing about this whole situation is, unlike me, Bakura doesn't want to put on this act. He wants help. Why else would he open up like he did? Sure, we don't know a lot about him and I have never talked to him much, but I don't need to talk to him in order to understand him.
Mokuba cares about him. At first, I was furious of this. I didn't want my little brother around someone that had the mental problems that Bakura did, but now I finally understand that he and I are more alike than I care to admit...at least, that's what Mokuba told me.
He wants me to help him. And I suppose I should, but ultimately this isn't my problem to fix. It's Yami's. He's the one that wanted to save the thief. He's the one that's in love with him, but then again Yami did help to save Joey. So, I guess I should help him to save his lover. After all, I can't stand owing someone something.
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[Marik's POV]:
Pain clenches my heart so tightly. It squeezes my heart, knocking the breath out of me as I watch my best friend suffer from the inside out and cover it up with lies and mockery. I know this isn't my friend's doing. It would have been him a few months ago. Bakura's plan had been to make Yami get close enough to him so that he'd crush him, but it backfired.
Zorc hates that.
Everyone knows it's Zorc who is making Bakura act the way he is, but I feel it is so much more to it than we know. There's nothing we can do, except give Bakura the support he needs to break through the darkness that's controlling him. And with everyone's help, I think we can do so.
"That pain is suffocating, isn't it?" Yugi says.
I look over to see him sitting beside of me. When did he move, or better yet, why did he? Shouldn't he be sitting beside of his friends?
"Yes," I reply.
"Bakura seems to finally be fighting back." Yugi points out. "I suppose that's a good thing."
"It would be if he was knowing what was going on." I say.
Yugi turns to me. "You see it too, don't you?"
"I've been seeing it, Yugi."
Yugi turns back to the duel.
"I feel something terrible will happen." he says.
"It will," Ryou mutters.
We turn to look up at the boy above us.
"Ryou, do you know why Bakura hasn't played Dark Necrofer yet?" Yugi asks.
"He doesn't have it." he replies.
"Then who does?" I ask.
"I do."
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[Duke's POV]:
"This duel is so boring," I complain.
"It's better than what you can do, Duke." Tristan scoffs.
"Perhaps," I concur, "but I'm ninety-nine percent sure that if I was up there I'd make a hell of a better show than they are."
"You don't understand anything, do you Duke?" Tristan mumbles.
"And what's that supposed to mean?" I glare.
"Exactly how it sounds." Tristan says turning to me. "You're all about yourself. You can't see what's truly going on here."
I clench my fists in my lap. "I see that Bakura's in pain." I mutter.
"Not enough," Tristan says.
"It's none of my business, Tristan." I spit.
"Bakura is our friend, we should try to help him." he says.
"He's not my friend." I spit.
"So you don't care that he'll die at the end of the month if we don't get the darkness out of him?" Tristan snarls.
"I never said that." I say. "All I'm saying is that he's not my friend. I don't befriend people that easily, Tristan."
"Am I your friend?" he asks.
"I guess." I shrug.
Tristan looks down at the ground. "Oh…"
"What do you want me to say, Tristan?" I ask. "You and I have always fought…"
"Over Serenity, I know." he sighs.
"Then why are you getting so upset with me?" I inquire.
"Because we have nothing left to fight over." he says.
He's right, we don't. Now that Serenity is with Mokuba, much to my displeasure, Tristan and I don't have to bump heads. We don't have to be enemies fighting for a girl's heart. I have always cared about Tristan, perhaps more than I have the others. While I respect Yami, I don't feel that bond I do with Tristan. He understands what it's like to love someone that doens't love you back.
It hurt when Serenity told me that she was in love with Mokuba and she had no desire to get with me. I wanted to be with her, I thought I could take care of her, but she doesn't want that from me.
"You have to let Serenity go, Duke." Tristan says.
"And what about you?" I snarl. "You still want her too."
"I care about her," Tristan says. "Yes, I'd love to date her and be with her, but I think her happiness is more important, don't you think?"
"I know."
"Then stop being a selfish dick."
"I'm not the one being selfish, actually." I say motioning to Bakura.
"Bakura's not meaning to do this." Tristan says.
"You people really need to open your eyes." I spit.
"You don't know anything about Bakura." he glares.
"And you do?" I counter.
Tristan stares at the duel.
"I know more than you do." he mutters.
"But not enough to help." I point out.
"It doesn't matter." he says. "The fact that I'm trying to help him should be good enough."
"He doesn't want any help, can't you see that?" I say.
"Then why is he begging for it?" Tristan asks.
"Who said he was?" I ask. "You just think he is because you want him to be like you and your pals, but in actuality he never will be. It's just like with me and Mai. We'll never be apart of the group."
Tristan looks up at me, our eyes meet. There's so much pain in them from what I have said.
"You don't think we care about you?" he asks.
"I never said you didn't care." I say looking away. "But let's be realistic: Mai, Bakura, and me we're too different. Mai is a wander, a loner who's just now realizing herself can be put on the bottom without putting herself down, Bakura was your enemy for a long time and now he's in love with someone that all of you look up to…"
"And what about you?" Tristan asks.
"Does it matter?" I spit.
"It matters to me."
"Why?"
"Because I care about you." Tristan says. "Despite all the shit you've pulled, you're still my friend."
"Don't say things you don't mean, Tristan." I spit.
"And what makes you think I'm lying?" he asks.
"I get that you care about me, but not the way you do Anzu, Yugi, Yami, and Joey." I say.
"Well, I am closer to them, but…"
"That's exactly my point." I say. "You'll never get close to me, Bakura or Mai because you haven't lived our lives."
"And what is so bad about your life?" Tristan inquires. "You have your own company and own stuff. You know how Joey's home life was now, Bakura's family was murdered and Mai...who knows what happened with her. You're unhappy because you don't want to open up to anyone."
"I'm opening up to you."
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[Bakura's POV]:
I watch through my own eyes as Zorc duels my lover. To the others, Atem is in control of this duel, but in reality it is Zorc. He's playing my lover, leading him into a trap. I have to stop this.
'There is nothing you can do except sit back and watch me do to your precious lover what you should have done ages ago.' Zorc cackles.
'I don't want to hurt him anymore.' I say.
'That's because you're stupid and don't see beyond how his ass makes your cock feel.' Zorc laughs.
'It goes far beyond sex, Zorc.' I say.
'Then what is it then? Why do you love him the way that you do when all of your life you've hated him?' he spits.
'He cares about me.'
'Does he?'
'I'm not going to listen to your head games, Zorc.' I spit.
'They're not head games, they're facts of life.' Zorc says. 'He'll never accept you. None of them will because of what you did.'
'They care about me.' I say. 'They love me.'
'If you say so.'
'What makes you think they don't?' I ask.
'They only care about you because the Pharaoh cares about you, but in actuality he doesn't care about you. The only reason he's trying to save you is because he feels guilty about what happened. He blames himself for what happened to you.' Zorc replies.
'Then I need to tell him it's not his fault!' I shout.
'No can do.' Zorc says. 'He must never find out the truth.'
'Why? Are you scared of what we might do to you?' I smirk.
'Fool, you can't do shit to me. Now then, I think it's time for me to get back to this duel and turn things around.' Zorc says.
I know what Zorc's plan is. He wants to summon Dark Necrofer. Too bad he won't be able to do so. I took care of that a while back. I got control one day, and I used it to my advantage. It wasn't very long, but it was enough to do what I needed to do.
Suddenly, Zorc appears in front of me.
'Where is it?' Zorc snarls.
'Where is what?' I ask, knowing exactly what he's referring to.
'Don't play dumb with me, Bakura. Where is the card?!' Zorc roars.
'Where it belongs.' I reply.
Zorc growls. Then, with a smirk, 'No matter, I have other plans. Either way, your precious lover will meet his demise in this duel and you'll fall right along with him!'
And with that, he disappears.
Everyone cheers, begging for me to try in this duel. I want to, I want to show Atem that I have what it takes to win, but not at this price. I don't want to lose any of my friends at the cost of winning this duel.
I continue to watch the duel. Yami is still in the league, but not by much now. Zorc has finally started doing something in this duel.
"Are you ready for the fun, Pharaoh?" I say.
"From the way you've been dueling today I don't think you're having fun at all, Bakura." he says.
"All part of my strategy, for now I will summon-" Zorc stops when he sees that Diabound Kernel isn't in my deck either.
'Touzoku!' Zorc hisses venomously.
'Looking for something?' I smirk.
'That is it!' Zorc growls. 'Play time is over! Oh what do we have here?'
My eyes widen when I see that he's drawn one of the Millennium Item cards.
'I think it's time for your punishment!' Zorc cackles.
'No!' I shout backing up, but it's hopeless. I have nowhere to go.
'Oh you'll be going somewhere alright! You'll be going up as my reward for defeating the Pharaoh.' Zorc cackles.
Suddenly, darkness consumes me and I fall to the floor in a pool of blood.
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[Yami's POV]:
I knew from the start that this duel wouldn't be like the other times that Bakura and I have dueled. With each day he's getting worse and worse. It wasn't supposed to be this way. No matter what I do, I can't snap Bakura out of the misery that he's engulfed himself in. Sex with him isn't the same, and I refuse to do it with him until my lover returns to the person I know he is.
Yugi suggested that I duel him because he believes it will help him, but so far from the way Bakura is dueling, he's not getting the help him needs. I know that it has to do with Zorc, I just wished I knew how much control the demon god had on Bakura. It's not fair how he has to suffer this way. I thought after I made love to him for the first time it was over, but clearly it was just the beginning. I know he's afraid to love, he's afraid of his feelings for me and Zorc is using that to his advantage. Then there's, of course, the fact that Bakura blames my family for his family's deaths. After all, it is my fault they died.
"Are you ready for the fun, Pharaoh?" Bakura says. His tone is that of mockery. So unlike the times we've dueled since I asked Horakhyt to set him free.
"From the way you've been dueling today I don't think you're having fun at all, Bakura." I say.
"All part of my strategy, for now I will summon-"
Bakura's eyes are glazed over with pure hatred. He stares down at his hand, growling. He seems to be having an eternal fight within himself. Are he and Zorc fighting? Bakura places a card face down. I draw a card, my eyes widening. What is this doing in my deck?!
I look up at Bakura, a smirk is wide across his face.
"It's show time, Pharaoh." he says.
Suddenly, the sky turns dark. A familiar purple fog covers the area. People scream, trying to get away, but they're sucked into the vortex. The smoke clears and I find myself in a cage. My eyes widen when I see Bakura trapped in a cage on the other side of the field.
I look back at the person I've been dueling all along.
"Zorc!" I hiss.
Zorc smirks. "Are you ready to play who gets to fuck the Thief King?!"
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We are FINALLY going to start my ultimate plan of doom and boy y'all are in for a show! I'm so hitting 200 reviews for this story! :D. Review lovelies!
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