Alright time for another update. It's short...*sigh* but it's better than nothing I suppose. So...I hope y'all enjoy.
Endlessly:
I could love you endlessly, I could fall in love with you and we could keep a miracle alive. Every time I look in your eyes, I get lost inside of your soul. What are you doing to me? Don't you know that I hate you? Don't you want my blood on your hands? Don't you want me to scream? Don't you realize that it's too late to bring me back life? I'm already further than death. I'm drowning in my desire for you and my need to kill you. I want my hands covered in your blood, I want your skin underneath my fingertips I want you to reach out and touch me, I want you to burn me alive with your beautiful eyes. I want to hear your voice when I go to bed at night, I want to lie next to you and watch the world go by. I want to end you for good, I want to make you suffer, I want to see the look in your eyes when you look up at me when I hold the knife above your heart. I want you to know that any claims of hope you had of us is nothing but fantasy we'll never have. I want you to be the one that kills me, I want my blood on your hands.. I want you to end me I want to feel your passion. I want to feel your soul wrapping around mine. I want to know if you feel this too. I want to know if I can kill you now. I want to feel you underneath me I want to feel something besides this loneliness I feel inside. I want to bring the demon out of you.
I want to know if it hurts when I cut you up inside. I want to know if you really hate me or if I really hate you. I want to make me scream, I want to feel the power within me grow. I want you to knock me out, I want you to defeat me. I want something so much more from you than I could ever get. I want you to bleed, I want you to scream. I need you to know you're driving me crazy. I need you to know my soul burns passionately for you every time you give me that look I think I'm going to lose my mind. I want you dead, I want your soul to scream, to earn itself to me. I need you to know this isn't a game anymore. And what would you think if I told you that loved you this whole time? What would you say if I told you I never wanted to hate you, that I never loved you at all? What if I was playing with your mind?
What if I was lying right now? What if I told it was too personal to tell you how I felt about you? What if I told you that everything you've done to me was nothing more than just a wicked fantasies you dreamt of? What if I can't take it back? What if I don't want to? What if everything I said wasn't a lie? What if I tried to bring you back? What if I really did love you? Would you love me back, even though you think of me as a fool? Am I fool to fall in love with you? What if I told you that loving you is so impossible, it's not reality. I couldn't take it anymore. You burn me alive, I'd give myself to you if I could.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh. If I did, then Yugioh would have ended with Bakura and Yami admitting their undying love for one another and Seto would have pulled Joey into a kiss to shut him up because Puppy and Darkshipping rock!
Warnings: My usual, y'all know what that means, but for those of you who happen to be new to my awesomeness, it means there's lemony goodness!
Summary:
Moments away from destroying Zorc, Yami hesitates, asking Horakhty if she can set Bakura free. She agrees, telling Yami that in order for him to pass into the afterlife, he must break his enemy of the darkness, and he only as a year to do so.
Chapter Forty-one: Harted
[Mr. Muto's POV]:
It's always a tragedy when a person you love dies, but even more so when they take their own life. Bakura was a great person. I know what he's done, but that's nothing compared to what he's given all of us, especially Yami.
It breaks my heart to see these kids cry. The pain in their eyes and how they're reacting is too much for me to bear. I decide I need to speak to Yami, so I ask for the others to leave and we talk. It's no surprise he blames himself, but this isn't his fault and Horakhty will not punish the boy for what happened with Bakura.
It comes to no surprise that Yami wants to marry Bakura. They make such a great couple. They truly love each other. They deserve to be happy. They've been through everything together. I know there is a way to save Bakura and Kaiba is doing everything he can to make sure that happens.
"Yami," I say placing a hand on his back rubbing it. "I'm going to check on everyone else and see if they've found anything out about the transplate for Bakura, okay? Would you like me to send someone in here to be in here with you?" I ask.
Yami shakes his head clinging to Bakura. I feel my chest clench at the sight before me. I have to do something to stop this pain. It's too much to bear. I walk to the door, giving my grandson's other half another sad look before departing the room.
I walk down to where the Kaiba's team is working on trying to find a transplate. I knock on the door and a woman lets me in.
"How's the process?" I ask.
They look at each other and then give me a sad look.
"It's his blood type." The woman who let me in sighs. "It's rare so it's hard to find a candidate that will even work."
"Have you run a background check on me?" I ask.
"No sir." She replies. "We were told not to."
"Well I'm asking you to." I say.
She gives me a discomforting look then nods. "Everyone let's run a background check on Mr. Muto." She says.
"But we were told-"
"I'll handle Kaiba and Yugi." I cut the man speaking off.
He nods and they run the tests. My eyes widen when I see the results and Bakura's next to each other. I close my eyes thanking all the gods above for this chance.
"Sir, are you sure…"
"Yes." I reply.
I'm his only chance.
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[Ryou's POV]:
I needed to get out for a bit and thank. I called a taxi and asked to be taken into town. I made the excuse I was going to get some food for everyone and I wanted to be left alone. I just needed some time to think. So much had happened lately, it was overwhelming. Everyone is blaming themselves for what happened to Bakura. I wished they'd stop. It's not their fault. No, in reality it is mine.
It's mine because I am Bakura's other half. I, of all people, should have sensed it was Zorc controlling him. Bakura had been acting strangely. Sometimes he'd have this look in his eye, especially when he was looking at Yami. I ignored it because I thought if I had then it would go away. I should have known better.
Now my yami is dead and there's nothing I can do to change it. I clench my hands around the teacup. No one is in this coffee shop really, which makes it much better. The waitress comes up to me.
"Are you alright sir, can I get you more tea?" she asks.
"No thank you." I reply.
She nods and leaves to clean some of the tables. I sigh staring into my tea. I hate this. I hate that I can't do anything. Yami doesn't deserve this. He and Bakura were just really starting to accept their love for each other. They were finally starting to be happy. Bakura was so close to being free of Zorc's control and then…this happens!
After a while, I decide that I need to leave. I'm sure the others are worried about me. I grab some food for everyone and head back to the hospital. I don't get back until nightfall. Everyone is in the waiting room. Some of them have fallen asleep others are reading and some are just talking.
"Hey Ryou." Yugi says looking up at me where he and Marik are sitting beside each other. Ever since Bakura's death they have been talking quite a bit. I'm glad too, they both need someone to talk to and who better than each other?"
"Hey Yugi, hey Marik." I say walking over to them. "How are you feeling?"
"A bit better." Yugi replies.
"And you, Marik?" I ask.
"Is Bakura alive?" he snaps.
"I-"
"Then I'm not fine!" Marik snaps jerking the bag of food out of my hand, grabbing a box and storming outside.
I watch him leave, sighing, I sit down beside Yugi.
"I'm sorry, Ryou." Yugi says. "You know he doesn't mean it."
"Yes, I know." I say. "It's hard on him. Bakura and Marik have always been close."
"That's true." Yugi concurs.
We sit in silence for a moment.
"So do you think Joey and Tristan will wake up for food?" I chuckle.
"Perhaps. Though, Tristan and Duke have been fighting quite a bit and Joey didn't ask about food not even once." Yugi says.
"He's probably worried about Kaiba." I say taking a box of food out. "Do you want yours?" I ask.
Yugi nods and I hand it to him. "You're right. And he's been trying to calm Serenity down too." He says.
"This has gotten out of hand." I mutter.
"It has." Yugi sighs.
"How is Yami?" I ask after a bit of eating.
"I tried to go in there earlier, but he wanted to be alone." Yugi replies.
"I can understand that." I say.
"Yeah, me too, I'm just really worried about him. He's shutting down." Yugi sighs.
"I know." I mutter. "We all are."
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[Marik's POV]:
I sit outside staring at my food. If I were in the mood, I'd eat it, but I'm not. Yugi has tried desperately to calm me down, and I get calm, but then something comes by and pisses me off. And it's really nothing big, but Ishizu always did say I have a temper. Sometimes I wonder if Mariku didn't die, but rather, merged with me.
If only I could give my heart to Bakura, but, of course, he just has to have a rare blood type that doesn't match any of ours! I know everyone here would give up their heart for him, but really would that be the best thing to do? Don't get me wrong, I don't really like anyone, but still…they'll be crying their eyes out and Bakura would be upset when he woke up and…besides, heart transplates don't always work out.
I lean my head against the wall and close my eyes. Maybe a nice nap would…dammit to hell! I snap my eyes open. "What do you want, Ryou?" I snap.
Ryou approaches me. "I came to bring you some food." He says.
"I don't want it." I snap.
Ryou sighs and sits down beside of me. "Look, Marik, I know this hurts, but you can't starve yourself, Bakura wouldn't want that for you." He says.
"Well, Bakura isn't here. So…"
"Marik," Ryou says placing a hand on my arm. I jump a bit, but don't move. "I know that it hurts. I know how close you and Bakura were, but you can't keep doing this to yourself. It's not your fault."
"I know that." I mutter.
"We're all here for you. We have to be here for each other so we can get through this." He says.
I know he's right. I know we need to be able to get through this and move on with our lives, but how can we? How can I when Bakura was my best friend? He was the first person that ever really understood me. He was my lover at one time. How can I let him go when he barely had a chance to live?
"It's not fair." I spit. "Bakura never even had a chance."
"You have to look at the positives, Marik." Ryou says.
"And those are?!" I shout.
"Well, for one, Bakura didn't get destroyed when Yami destroyed Zorc." He points out. "And, he had the chance to know what it was like to be loved…"
I close my eyes. "And now the man who loves him the most is falling apart." I mutter.
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[A few days later…]:
[Joey's POV]:
"When is Seto comin' back?" I ask Mokuba for about the billionth time. My lover has been gone for the past three days and I haven't heard a word from him. I'm getting' really worried. Not to mention, Yams still hasn't eaten anythin'.
"He said not until he finds a way to bring Bakura back." Mokuba replies.
"Joey, you really need to stop asking that." Mai chatises. "I know you're worried about Kaiba, but you know how he gets when he's working."
"I know," I sigh, "I just…"
"Miss him. I know hun." She says rubbing my shoulder.
"Has anyone went to check on Yami?" Serenity asks.
"Yugi's in there with him." Mokuba replies.
"I'm surprised." Marik scoffs coming up to us with a soda. "He wouldn't let anyone in this morning."
"Hey Marik." Serenity says. "How are you?"
Marik shrugs and takes a seat across the room and stares at the TV. I hate all of dis. It's so stupid! Seto is drowning himself in his work. Gramps has been gone for three days as well saying he had to 'do some things'.
"Does anyone know where Gramps went?" I ask.
"He probably just needed to be alone, Joey." Serenity says. "He does think that it's his fault."
"It kind of is." Marik spits.
"Marik!" Mokuba exclaims. "That's not right! Take that back!"
"Why should I?" Marik scoffs. "He's the one who-"
"Yes, he was, but he didn't know!" Mai exclaims. "None of us did!"
"Whatever." Marik snaps getting up and heading outside.
"Prick." Mai spits.
I laugh. "Ya and Marik never have gotten along, have ya?"
"He's so damn rude." Mai says. "It's annoying."
"He's gotten better though." Ryou says coming up to us.
"Hey Ryou." Serenity says.
"Hey Serenity, hey everyone. How are you?" Ryou asks sitting down in one of the chairs near us.
We shrug.
"Yeah, same here." He sighs. "So has anyone heard from Kaiba or about the transplate?" he asks.
"Nii-sama is still working on it." Mokuba says. "As for the transplate…"
Ryou nods.
"I think we need to get out of here for a while." Mai says standing up.
"I agree." Mokuba says. "It'll do us some good."
"What about Yuge?" I ask.
"He's going to be busy with Yami." Ryou says. "Let's leave him to it and we can get out a bit. Being in this hospital is only making us feel worse."
"Alright, I'll go find T and Duke and we can leave." I say standing up.
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[Yugi's POV]:
Finally, Yami let me see him after a few days of trying desperately. He wanted to be alone. I don't mind him being alone, but I'm really worried about him. He just lies in the bed next to Bakura and holds him close. I'm sitting in the chair. It hurts to see him this way. I wished I could do something to help him.
"Did you and Grandpa have a good talk?" I ask.
"Yes." Yami mutters.
I nod. "That's good." I say.
We sit in silence for a while. I watch Yami run his fingers through Bakura's hair.
"Yami, I know this is hard for you, but it's time to let Bakura go." I say. Yami doesn't say anything. I sigh. "I know it hurts. We all love and miss Bakura very much, but he would want you to move on and live out your life."
"I'm not staying here if I can't be with him." He mutters. "Besides, Horakhty still hasn't' come and told me where Bakura is."
"That's true." I say. "So is that what you're waiting on?"
"No." Yami replies.
"Then what?" I ask.
"A way to bring Bakura back." He mutters pulling Bakura closer to him and lying his head on Bakura's chest.
I sigh. "Yami, there's no possible way-"
"I don't care." Yami spits. "I'll wait forever for someone to come along and save him if I have to!"
I close my eyes. I hate how hopeless this situation has gotten. If only I could give my heart to Bakura, I would. Then my yami would be happy, but that's not possible. I have tried desperately to help everyone to get through this, but it's becoming difficult. It's as if each passing day it only gets worse. Maybe it's because it's really over.
"Grandpa left right after he saw you." I say.
"Hmm."
"I'm not sure where he went." I continue as if Yami hadn't said anything. "He just said that he'd be gone for a few days and never said when he'd be back."
"He'll be back soon, Yugi." Yami says. "Don't worry."
I smile. "I'm sure he will. He probably just needed some time alone. Bakura was like a grandson to him." I say.
Yami sighs running his hand down Bakura's arm and lacing their fingers together.
"Kaiba's been gone for a while too. He's trying to find a way to bring Bakura back, Yami." I say.
Yami doesn't say anything. It's a miracle he's even talking.
"You should eat, Yami." I say.
"I don't want to." He mutters.
"If you don't eat, you'll die." I say. "I can't bear to lose you too."
I hate this. Yami only leaves Bakura's side to go to the bathroom. It's as if he thinks that by being near Bakura he'll come back. If only it were that simple.
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[Seto's POV]:
Joey has been calling me for the past three days leaving me annoying voicemails, begging me to come back. I finally answered Mokuba's calls and told him to tell my lover that I'm busy and not to bother me. I miss Joey, I really do, but right now I need to be able to concentrate and get work done. Just because someone has died doesn't mean I can stop working. Besides, I may be able to find a way to bring Bakura back.
Mokuba has been keeping me updated on how everyone is doing, especially Yami. He said that he hasn't been eating. I figured as much. The former Pharaoh isn't going to eat. How can he? His lover is dead and there's not a damn thing he can do about it. I haven't had much luck finding a way to bring him back myself.
I hate not being able to do something, but I'm not one to give up. I don't care what I have to do, Bakura will come back! But why do I care so much? Bakura isn't my friend and neither are the people that love him. Hell, I barely even know the man, but for some reason, I feel compelled to save him.
Maybe it's because I feel some sort of connection with him. Mokuba once said that Bakura and I share a similar past and he'd be able to truly understand me. I suppose that's the reason I'm trying to save him. Or hell, maybe I do care about those geeks back at the hospital and I hate to see them cry. Or maybe I'm just weird.
I sigh, rubbing my eyes. I haven't slept in about three days. I'm exhausted, but I have no time for rest. I'm way behind in my work and I need to get caught up. Mokuba said I need to get some sleep and let someone else do it, but people just don't know how to do things right, besides…it helps me keep my mind off of things.
I look at my phone and see it's Joey calling me. I sigh and answer the phone. I might as well entertain him.
"Seto!" he exclaims. "It's bout time ya answered! Been worried sick bout cha!"
"What do you want, Joey?" I sigh scrolling through my emails.
"Ya need ta get outta dat office, Seto. You sound horrible!" Joey says.
"Like you sound any better?" I snap.
"I've gotten some sleep." He says.
"Not much from the way you sound." I say.
"No, but more than ya have." He says.
"I have work to do, Joey." I say. "Is there a reason you called?"
"I just wanna see how ya doing, Seto. I miss ya." Joey says.
"I miss you too." I say.
"Then come back-"
"I can't."
"But-"
"I have work to do." I say and with that I hang up.
I hate having him and Mokuba worrying about me, but I can't let that stop me from getting things done. After all, I'm Bakura's only hope. I continue to do more work for a while. I yawn, but ignore it. I don't have time for sleep.
My office phone rings. "Yeah?" I say.
"There's a Mr. Muto here to see you sir." Susan says.
"Send him up." I say.
"At once, sir." She says.
A few moments later Mr. Muto walks in the door. I don't look up from my computer. He takes a sit in the chair across from mine.
"I don't have all the time in the world, what do you want?" I ask.
"I wanted to speak to you about something." Mr. Muto says. "It's rather important."
"Then speak." I say.
"I want you to set me up for Bakura's heart transplate." He replies.
I look up from my computer. "I was told by Yugi not to consider you." I say.
Mr. Muto closes his eyes and sighs. "I know."
"Then there's really no use in discussing this is there?" I say. "Besides, are you sure that's a good idea?"
"I'm his only chance, Kaiba." Mr. Muto says. "We can't find a match for his blood type and mine matches his. I can't bear to see Yami in this pain."
"And what about your grandson?" I ask.
"I'm old. I would have died in a few years anyways. Bakura deserves to live a happy life. He's been through enough and it's not right how he died." He says.
"No, it isn't, but he made that choice." I say.
"Do you really believe that, Kaiba?" Mr. Muto asks. "Because I don't think you do."
"It doesn't matter what I believe." I snap.
"Kaiba," Mr. Muto says. "I know this hurts you too. I can't bear to see you, Yugi, or any of the others in pain. Bakura meant a lot to all of us and I want to be able to help him."
I look at him for a moment. He seems serious about this.
"Are you sure?" I ask.
"Yes." He replies.
I stand up. "Then come on and let's go tell the others what you plan on doing." I say.
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Haha! Oh man did y'all see that coming with grandpa?! I bet not! I have plans guys! I do! I do! This story is getting closer and closer to being over! No idea when it'll be over, but you'll know when I do! I hope y'all enjoyed! Review lovelies! :D.