Another short update. Oh well. *shrugs* Chapter 42 peeps! Enjoy!
Endlessly:
I could love you endlessly, I could fall in love with you and we could keep a miracle alive. Every time I look in your eyes, I get lost inside of your soul. What are you doing to me? Don't you know that I hate you? Don't you want my blood on your hands? Don't you want me to scream? Don't you realize that it's too late to bring me back life? I'm already further than death. I'm drowning in my desire for you and my need to kill you. I want my hands covered in your blood, I want your skin underneath my fingertips I want you to reach out and touch me, I want you to burn me alive with your beautiful eyes. I want to hear your voice when I go to bed at night, I want to lie next to you and watch the world go by. I want to end you for good, I want to make you suffer, I want to see the look in your eyes when you look up at me when I hold the knife above your heart. I want you to know that any claims of hope you had of us is nothing but fantasy we'll never have. I want you to be the one that kills me, I want my blood on your hands.. I want you to end me I want to feel your passion. I want to feel your soul wrapping around mine. I want to know if you feel this too. I want to know if I can kill you now. I want to feel you underneath me I want to feel something besides this loneliness I feel inside. I want to bring the demon out of you.
I want to know if it hurts when I cut you up inside. I want to know if you really hate me or if I really hate you. I want to make me scream, I want to feel the power within me grow. I want you to knock me out, I want you to defeat me. I want something so much more from you than I could ever get. I want you to bleed, I want you to scream. I need you to know you're driving me crazy. I need you to know my soul burns passionately for you every time you give me that look I think I'm going to lose my mind. I want you dead, I want your soul to scream, to earn itself to me. I need you to know this isn't a game anymore. And what would you think if I told you that loved you this whole time? What would you say if I told you I never wanted to hate you, that I never loved you at all? What if I was playing with your mind?
What if I was lying right now? What if I told it was too personal to tell you how I felt about you? What if I told you that everything you've done to me was nothing more than just a wicked fantasies you dreamt of? What if I can't take it back? What if I don't want to? What if everything I said wasn't a lie? What if I tried to bring you back? What if I really did love you? Would you love me back, even though you think of me as a fool? Am I fool to fall in love with you? What if I told you that loving you is so impossible, it's not reality. I couldn't take it anymore. You burn me alive, I'd give myself to you if I could.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh. If I did, then Yugioh would have ended with Bakura and Yami admitting their undying love for one another and Seto would have pulled Joey into a kiss to shut him up because Puppy and Darkshipping rock!
Warnings: My usual, y'all know what that means, but for those of you who happen to be new to my awesomeness, it means there's lemony goodness!
Summary:
Moments away from destroying Zorc, Yami hesitates, asking Horakhty if she can set Bakura free. She agrees, telling Yami that in order for him to pass into the afterlife, he must break his enemy of the darkness, and he only as a year to do so.
Chapter Forty-two: Hope
[Anzu's POV]:
We-Tristan, Duke, Serenity, Mai, Joey, Mokuba, Ryou, and I-are sitting in a coffee shop just hanging out and relaxing. It's good to just get out and breathe. We've been doing so much crying and thinking lately. Yugi decided to stay with Yami. Mr. Muto is who knows where and Kaiba is working.
"Dammit." Joey growls looking at his cellphone. "He hung up!"
"Are you surprised, Joey?" I ask taking a sip of my coffee. "You know he's really stressed out."
"I know he is." Joey sighs putting his cellphone away. "Dat's why I want him to get outta dat office. He's workin' himself to death!"
"Bakura meant a lot to Nii-sama." Mokuba says. "He won't admit to it, but he's really upset about Bakura's death."
"He's just trying to be strong for all of us." Serenity says. "After all, he's really our only hope of bringing him back."
"And Seto knows that. It's why he's working so hard." Mokuba says.
"Well he's gonna kill himself if he doesn't stop." Duke scoffs. "What good is he if he's dead?"
"Nii-sama isn't going to stop until he finds a solution." Mokuba says. "It's the way we were raised. Gozoburo never let Seto rest until the job was done, so he has it in his mind that he can't rest until he finds a solution to this."
"But Kaiba should know that we care about his well-being. Sure, we miss Bakura, but we don't want Kaiba to get sick over this." I say.
"Seto knows that." Mokuba says, "but like I said, it's been programmed in his mind that he has to get things done without rest."
"Well someone needs to drag him out of that office"- Tristan says but he's cut off by Joey's phone ringing.
Joey gets his phone out of his pocket. His eyes widen when he sees the number. "It's Seto." He gasps. We turn our attention to the call. Kaiba wouldn't just call for the hell of it.
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[Joey's POV]:
I had called Seto earlier today to try and get him out of the office. He finally answered the phone after about a billion times. He sounded so tired and weak. I hate dat he won't get some sleep! I mean I understand dat he cares for Bakura and wants to save him, but still! I just hate dat he won't listen to anyone! Not even Mokuba!
"Well someone needs to drag him out of that office"-Tristan says but my phone cuts him off. I reach in my pocket and look at the number. "It's Seto." I gasp and answer it. "Seto! I'm so glad you called are you-"
"Joey, are you at the hospital?" he asks.
"Nah. T, Duke, Anzu, Mai, Ry, Mokie, and I are out right now." I say. "Why, what's goin' on, Seto?"
"Go back to the hospital. And tell Yugi and Marik to be in the waiting room." Seto replies.
"Why?" I ask.
"I'll explain when I get there, just do it!" he demands.
And with that, he hangs up. My eyes widen.
"What's going on, Joey?" Anzu asks.
"He wants us to all go back to the hospital and meet up in the waiting room." I say staring at my phone.
"Well, I guess he found a solution then." Mai says standing up.
"Then what are we waiting for?" Duke asks. "Let's go."
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[Marik's POV]:
I woke up this morning leaning against the wall where the smoking ramp was. Mai apparently had an extra pack in her purse because after Anzu had left that day she just lit one right up and so did I. Of course, we have to watch out for Anzu because she'll throw a bitch fit if she catches us smoking. Like we don't have more important things to worry about?
I stand up. My whole body feels so stiff. The others had gone off to who knows where. Not that I really care, I'm really not in the mood to hear their annoying mouths today. I have a headache that can kill eighty ants and my body feels like it's going to collapse from all this muscle and bone pressure. I sit down in one of the chairs in the waiting room. The nurses and such walk by and tend to other patients. It's a miracle that they're putting up with our shit because I sure wouldn't.
Yugi has locked himself in the room with Yami, who, no doubt, has been bawling his eyes out clinging to Bakura in the hope that he'll return. I wished he'd just let us burry him or whatever we're going to do with Bakura's body. It's only hurting all of us having him here hooked up to machines. He's dead and he's not coming back. Bakura's blood type is a rare one and no one is going to match it. And even if there was, by the time we found them it'd be too late. After all, we only have four more days until Horakhty comes and destroy Bakura's soul.
Though, would she really destroy it? I'm sure she's been watching what's been going on. I'm sure she realizes that Bakura has changed. No, he never wanted to change. His plan was to force Yami to fall in love with him so he could crush him along with the rest of us. He hated that I betrayed him by allowing the Pharaoh to help me get rid of Mariku and turn my life around. He wanted Yami to pay for what he believed Yami's family did to him.
Bakura has tried countless times to end Yami for good so he could get revenge, but he lost their game. Then Yami decided to save him. At first everyone was angry that he wanted to save him because no one truly understood Bakura they believed him to be evil, but now they realize he's not…they realize Bakura is an amazing person.
Bakura believed that if he made Yami fall in love with him then he could truly destroy him, but it was Bakura who fell in love with Yami. Zorc allowed Bakura to enjoy his life and then he took over his body and that's when everything fell apart.
Now Bakura's dead and there's no hope in bringing him back….
"Is Yami doing any better?" I ask as Yugi rounds the corner and sits down beside of me.
"No." Yugi sighs. "He's getting worse."
"He knows it's hopeless." I say.
"It's not hopeless, Marik. There are ways-"
"Well if there are I'd love to hear them!" I snap. "Face it Yugi: Bakura is dead. There is no one that has the same-"
Suddenly the doors open and everyone walks in.
"Where did you guys go?" Yugi asks.
"Out for a bit." Mai replies.
"What's wrong with you, Joey?" Yugi asks.
"He's just worried about Kaiba." Mai replies. "Though, he did get a call from him. Said he's got some news."
"Oh is that the reason you all came back?" I sneer.
"No, we were about to come back soon anyways." Ryou says.
"Seto should be here soon." Mokuba says looking at his phone, no doubt getting a text from his brother.
"I wonder what the stuck up bitch has to say this time." I mutter.
Not too long after everyone had arrived Kaiba and Mr. Muto came through the door.
"Grandpa!" Yugi exclaims running to the older man and hugging him. "Where have you been, I've been so worried-"
He hugs his grandson. "Yugi, I need to tell all of you something, okay?" he says.
Yugi nods and they walk into the room more. Kaiba stands beside Mr. Muto and they give each other a look before Mr. Muto turns to us.
"What's going on guys?" Joey asks. "Ya scarin' me."
"Everyone just calm down." Mr. Muto says. He takes a deep breath. "We've found a solution to bringing Bakura back."
"What is it?!" I exclaim jumping up.
"Please tell us." Ryou says.
Everyone starts chattering amongst each other wondering what the solution is. The hope that Yugi believed in has finally come to pass….
"Would all of you shut up?!" Kaiba shouts.
We all get quiet and look at him.
Mr. Muto and Kaiba look at each other again.
"What's the solution?" Anzu whispers.
Mr. Muto closes his eyes.
"No." Yugi whispers tears forming in his eyes. "Grandpa you can't!"
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[Yugi's POV]:
After spending some time with Yami trying to cheer him up, I went into the waiting room to see how Marik was doing. Everyone else came back and said Kaiba had called, which only meant that they found a solution to bringing Bakura back to life. Grandpa came back with Kaiba, and told us…that he is the solution.
"Yugi," Grandpa says walking up to me. I stand up and throw my arms around him and sob.
"Grandpa, please don't do this! There has to be another way-" I sob.
Grandpa rubs my back gently. "There isn't, Yugi. I know this hurts, but Bakura needs me. I'm his only hope."
I pull away from him and he wipes my tears away gently. "I don't-"
"It's okay," he says pulling me into his arms again. "It's going to be okay."
I pull away from him. "I just need time to think." I mutter and go out the door.
"Yuge"- I hear Joey say and I'm sure he's trying to follow me, but I hear Kaiba stopping him. I walk outside leaning against a wall, I slide down it, bring my knees up to my chest, fold my arms on my knees and sob.
How can I do this?! How can I let my grandpa kill himself just to bring Bakura back?! He's the only family I have left! But, he's our only chance to save Bakura. We only have four more days until Horakhty will come and give us the verdict on Bakura's soul. I want Bakura to be saved. He deserves to be. He's such a great person, but…
I don't want to have to lose my grandpa in order to bring him back.
This just isn't fair! How can I choose between them? How can I let my grandpa just die over Bakura's sake? But how can I not allow it to happen? If Grandpa is Bakura's only chance then shouldn't I take this opportunity? I wrap my arms around my legs and look up at the road. The streets are busy. Busy with life…life…
"Yugi," I hear Grandpa say. I look up at him with tearful eyes. He sits down beside of me wrapping and motions for me to come to him. I scoot closer and he wraps an arm around my shoulders as I lay my head on his chest. "Yugi, I know this is hard for you to deal with, but I'm Bakura's only hope."
"I know." I mutter.
"Everyone else is upset as well, and they have every right to be, but I know if you were in my shoes you'd take this chance." He says.
"I know I would, but it's just…" I say clinging to him. "I don't-" I take a deep breathe. "I don't want to lose you to bring Bakura back.
He moves me and I sit up. "Yugi, some things just can't be helped and this is one of them. It hurts. I wished there was another way around this, but there is not. The doctors, Kaiba's workers, and even Kaiba himself have tried to come up with a solution to bringing Bakura back, but there hasn't been one. I have the same blood type that Bakura has. I have to do this, Yugi. I can't bear to see Yami or any of you in such pain. I know Bakura means a lot to you as well. Please don't be sad that I'll be gone. You know I'll always love you, right?" he says.
I nod and he wipes my tears away. "I know it's just…"
"I know." He says pulling me towards him. "I know."
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[Serenity's POV]:
"Poor Yugi." I say.
"Do you think he's gonna be alright, guys?" Joey asks.
"This is hard for him." Ryou says. "He's having to choose between his grandpa and one of his best friends. How do you choose between that?"
"He shouldn't hafta choose!" Joey exclaims clenching his fists. "Why is dis shit happenin'?!"
No one says anything. Why is this happening? It shouldn't be! Bakura did nothing to deserve this! Mr. Muto is willing to give his life to save Bakura. I know he believes he's to blame for all of this, but he's not. No, no one truly is. Things just happen that we can't control. It hurts, but there's really nothing we can do about it.
Yugi and Mr. Muto come back a few hours later. Yugi's face is stained with dried up tears and Mr. Muto seems to have been crying too. I know this is hard on them, and they know that we're here for them.
"Yuge, how ya feelin' man?" Joey asks jumping up and half running up to his best friend.
"A bit better." Yugi sniffs. "What about you guys?"
Everyone looks around and shrugs.
"We all could be better," Ryou says. "But we're mainly worried about you."
Yugi smiles. "Thanks guys."
"Do ya want somethin' ta eat?" Joey asks.
Yugi nods and Joey goes to get some food for Yugi that we brought back. I look across the room where Marik is staring at his food.
"You should eat that before it gets cold, Marik." I say.
"It's already cold." He snaps.
"I'm surprised you're not jumping up and down in joy." Tristan scoffs.
Marik looks up at him and glares. "I am happy that Bakura is coming back." He says.
"So then what's the problem?" Duke asks.
"Nothing." He mutters looking down at his food again.
"He doesn't want Mr. Muto to die to bring Bakura back." Mai says walking into the room carrying a few sodas in her hands. She tosses them to us and walks over to Marik. "Here." She says. He looks up at her and jerks the soda out of her hand and sets it on the table beside of him.
"You can stop standing there." He snaps.
"Look, hun, I know you care, but don't be that way, okay? We're all hurt because of this." Mai says.
"Whatever." Marik spits.
We all sit in silence for a while. There's really nothing to say. Joey came back not too long ago and gave Yugi his food. He's barely eaten any. He just sits near Marik and tries to get him to eat. They argue back and forth trying to get each other to eat. It's so sad how things have turned out for us. I wish there was another way….
"Someone needs to tell Yami the news." I say.
We all look around the room at each other.
"I'll tell him." Yugi says getting up.
"No, Yugi." Mr. Muto says standing up and pushing his grandson down in the chair. "You need to eat something and stay here with your friends. "I'll tell Yami."
"But-"
"No buts young man." Mr. Muto scolds.
Yugi sighs and sinks back down into the chair while Mr. Muto goes into Yami's room.
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[Yami's POV]:
The clock ticks as the seconds pass by. How long has it been since I've been in here? Yugi came in here earlier, but how long has it been since he's left? Was it ten minutes ago or ten hours ago? I pull Bakura closer to me running my hand along his arm and intertwining our fingers together. Yugi has tried desperately to get me to eat something, but I'm just not hungry. I can't eat.
He said that Mr. Muto had left when Kaiba had and hasn't been back nor has he heard from him. I know he'll be back though. He'd never leave Yugi and the others. He probably just needed to get away. He, like everyone else, blames himself for what happened to Bakura. The only person that's truly at fault is me.
I, of all people, should have seen the signs. I should have destroyed Zorc while I had the chance and never have let Bakura do what he did, but as Mr. Muto said, there isn't anything I can do to change things. Bakura is gone for good.
Yugi said I need to let him go, and I know I do, but how can I possibly let him go when it took me forever to have him in my arms? We've been enemies for so long. I know that Bakura wanted me destroyed ever since we've known each other. We've fought constantly trying to out do each other. I had won the Ultimate Shadow Game and decided to save him. Bakura took that chance to try and destroy me through my heart, and he succeeded.
He succeeded because I did fall in love with him, but he fell in love with me as well and that's why Zorc attacked. The part of Bakura that was still so full of anger, hate, and confusion manifested because of his fear. His fear of losing me and his fear of keeping me out of harms way. Zorc was able to take full control so he could try and get rid of me, but he failed at the cost of Bakura taking his own life…
Tears stream down my face and I pull Bakura closer to me burying my face into his chest. I miss this. I miss the way he used to hold me. I miss our arguments. I miss his crude jokes. I miss the way he used to look at me. I miss the way he used to touch me. I miss the way we used to make love to one another. I miss….him….
There's a knock on the door followed by someone coming in. It's probably Yugi trying to get me to eat. I sigh and snuggle into Bakura's chest more. I don't want to see anyone right now. I listen to the footsteps they're much heavier than Yugi's would be. I look up to see Mr. Muto taking a sit in the chair on the other side of the bed. He doesn't say anything for a while,he just stares at Bakura and me.
"In all of my years I have never met anyone so devoted to someone as you are, Atem. You really truly do love Bakura." He says.
"Yes." I whisper.
He smiles sadly. "I have some news that you need to hear, so I need you to sit up and come over here so we can talk. You can stay near Bakura because I know nothing I say will force you away from that boy." He says.
I nod and untangle myself from Bakura. I walk around the bed stumbling some as I do. My body aches all over. Mr. Muto tries to help me, but I refuse him. I finally get to the other side of the bed and sit in the chair he's pulled up for me near Bakura. I sigh heavily and sink into the chair, closing my eyes.
"You're really thin, Yami." He comments.
I shrug.
"Don't you think you need to eat?" he asks. "You're not immortal anymore."
"I'm just not hungry." I mutter.
"Yami," Mr. Muto says. I look at him and he closes his eyes letting out a breath. "I'm sure Yugi told you that I've been gone. Well, it's because I found out something that you need to know." He says. I sit up straight in my chair. He looks over at Bakura and stands up. My eyes follow him as he approaches my lifeless lover and brushes his bangs back. "I know how much Bakura means to you. To everyone. I know that you'd do anything to bring him back. Kaiba's been trying to find a solution…and we finally found one." He says.
My heart pounds a mile a minute. There's a way to bring Bakura back to life? I look over at my lover and lace our fingers together squeezing his hand. I look up at Mr. Muto. His eyes locking with mine. My own widen in realization.
"You're going to…"
He nods. "Yes Yami, I'm going to give Bakura my heart." He says.
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[Ishizu's POV]:
It's been nearly a year since I've seen Marik. He calls from time to time, but I haven't heard from him in a few weeks. He had said that Bakura had been getting better. I don't know how to feel about that. I know that Marik and Bakura were really close during Battle City, but I just don't trust that man. How can I when he's hurt so many people?
I grew up reading the ancient scriptures just as my brothers had. I read about the fight between Atem and Bakura. I knew he was going to try and bring Zorc back, but what I never fathomed was Atem wanting to save Bakura. He had the chance to go into the afterlife, but he decided that he'd rather save Bakura.
Marik said that they fell in love with each other. I'm happy for them both, but about a week ago, I felt a horrible pain in my chest. I had to leave work at the museum early because of it. I don't have the Necklace anymore, but sometimes I get these really strong feelings within me. Almost as if my body is programmed to tune into bad omins and such.
Today, that feeling took me to the Pharaoh's Tablet that's hidden in the underground chamber where the Millennium Stone is. It's the place where the Pharaoh and a worthy opponent were originally going to face off and Atem was to lose in order to pass onto the afterlife. Things have changed because he had decided to stay here in the living world and save Bakura from the darkness.
Just four more days until his time is over with. I feel something bad has happened. I'm not sure what, but it has. I walk up to the tablet and stare at it. I feel it calling to me…
Ishizu. I hear someone say. I look around the room, but don't see anyone. The Tablet is glowing. My eyes widen and I reach out and touch it.
"Who's there?" I call.
Ishizu…. The voice says.
The light gets brighter. It's making me dizzy….
"I need to go to Domino City." I say in a trance-like voice.
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So Mr. Muto is going to give his heart to Bakura and Ishizu is coming to Domino City! Did y'all really think I forgot about her? Please. Let's see how everyone is taking Mr. Muto giving his heart to Bakura shall we? And why is Ishizu coming to Domino? Well, you'll find out now won't y'all? Review lovelies! :D