I seriously think this story will be finished by the end of this month if I keep this up. I mean it's only like 8 over here in NC and I still want to write. Alright, so before we get started I got a review from a guest reviewer that was dying about Crosshipping. I think you are misinformed my dear. I believe you think my Marik is the Yami. No, no. I call Yami Marik Malik...(though I used to call him Mariku which is why he is referred to as such in this story when he is brought up) My point is this: I am doing Librashipping which is MarikXYugi. (Or in most people's cases): (MalikXYugi). Anyways, just remember I NEVER call the yami, Marik. Marik is the Hikari in my eyes. I'm sorry for the confusion. Though, I do hope you still like this story regardless and I do than you for the epic review dear!
Now then, let's get started! I think y'all will like this chapter. ;).
Endlessly:
I could love you endlessly, I could fall in love with you and we could keep a miracle alive. Every time I look in your eyes, I get lost inside of your soul. What are you doing to me? Don't you know that I hate you? Don't you want my blood on your hands? Don't you want me to scream? Don't you realize that it's too late to bring me back life? I'm already further than death. I'm drowning in my desire for you and my need to kill you. I want my hands covered in your blood, I want your skin underneath my fingertips I want you to reach out and touch me, I want you to burn me alive with your beautiful eyes. I want to hear your voice when I go to bed at night, I want to lie next to you and watch the world go by. I want to end you for good, I want to make you suffer, I want to see the look in your eyes when you look up at me when I hold the knife above your heart. I want you to know that any claims of hope you had of us is nothing but fantasy we'll never have. I want you to be the one that kills me, I want my blood on your hands.. I want you to end me I want to feel your passion. I want to feel your soul wrapping around mine. I want to know if you feel this too. I want to know if I can kill you now. I want to feel you underneath me I want to feel something besides this loneliness I feel inside. I want to bring the demon out of you.
I want to know if it hurts when I cut you up inside. I want to know if you really hate me or if I really hate you. I want to make me scream, I want to feel the power within me grow. I want you to knock me out, I want you to defeat me. I want something so much more from you than I could ever get. I want you to bleed, I want you to scream. I need you to know you're driving me crazy. I need you to know my soul burns passionately for you every time you give me that look I think I'm going to lose my mind. I want you dead, I want your soul to scream, to earn itself to me. I need you to know this isn't a game anymore. And what would you think if I told you that loved you this whole time? What would you say if I told you I never wanted to hate you, that I never loved you at all? What if I was playing with your mind?
What if I was lying right now? What if I told it was too personal to tell you how I felt about you? What if I told you that everything you've done to me was nothing more than just a wicked fantasies you dreamt of? What if I can't take it back? What if I don't want to? What if everything I said wasn't a lie? What if I tried to bring you back? What if I really did love you? Would you love me back, even though you think of me as a fool? Am I fool to fall in love with you? What if I told you that loving you is so impossible, it's not reality. I couldn't take it anymore. You burn me alive, I'd give myself to you if I could.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh. If I did, then Yugioh would have ended with Bakura and Yami admitting their undying love for one another and Seto would have pulled Joey into a kiss to shut him up because Puppy and Darkshipping rock!
Warnings: My usual, y'all know what that means, but for those of you who happen to be new to my awesomeness, it means there's lemony goodness!
Summary:
Moments away from destroying Zorc, Yami hesitates, asking Horakhty if she can set Bakura free. She agrees, telling Yami that in order for him to pass into the afterlife, he must break his enemy of the darkness, and he only as a year to do so.
Chapter Forty-four: Relief
[Mr. Muto's POV]:
I've stayed in here with Yami all afternoon trying to calm him down. It just breaks my heart how sad he is. It's the reason I've decided to give my own life to bring Bakura back. It's the least I can do. Yami has given my grandson so much courage and strength. It's because of Yami that he has friends, and it's because of the former Pharaoh that Bakura isn't destroyed.
"Have you and Kaiba decided on a day?" Yami asks rubbing his thumb across the top of Bakura's hand.
"Tomorrow morning." I reply.
"Does Yugi and the others know?" he asks.
"No." I reply. "I wanted to speak with you before I told them."
"Well, I imagine it's getting late." Yami says. "Maybe you should tell them."
I nod standing up. "Will you be alright by yourself?" I ask.
"I'm always alright if I'm near Bakura." He replies looking at his lover.
I smile and head out the door. I go into the waiting room where Yugi, Ryou, and Anzu are sitting around talking.
"Where is everyone else at?" I ask.
"Joey, Tristan, and Duke are in the snack room. Mai and Marik are outside smoking. Serenity just went to the bathroom. Mokuba and Kaiba went out." Ryou replies.
I nod and take a seat next to Yugi. "So they finally got you to eat something?" I chuckle seeing his half empty tray of food.
"I did." Ryou says.
"Well, it's about time. I can't have my grandson going hungry now can I?" I chuckle.
Yugi smiles sadly. "How'd Yami take the news?" he asks.
"He's grateful, but at the same time he feels terrible." I reply.
"It's to be expected." Ryou sighs. "Yami does adore you."
"And I adore him." I say.
"So when is the…" Yugi looks away.
"That's what I came in here to talk to you about." I say. "So we need to wait until Kaiba and Mokuba get back."
"But who knows when that'll be." Serenity says walking into the room and sitting next to Ryou.
"True," I concur with a nod.
About an hour and a half later everyone has finally come into the waiting room.
"Now we just have to wait for-"
"Mr. Muto!" Mokuba exclaims swinging the door open and running to me. I stand up and he jumps into my arms, sobbing.
I set him down gently. "It's okay, Mokuba." I whisper rubbing his back.
"I-Seto told me and"-
"I know, sh. I know." I say soothingly.
"Seto are ya really gonna let him go through with dis?!" Joey exclaims.
"I don't have a choice." Kaiba replies. "It's not my decision to make."
I let go of Mokuba and Serenity walks up to him. They hug each other, tears sliding down their cheeks. I look around the room at everyone. They're full of sadness. Though Kaiba and Marik aren't shedding tears, I know they're sad. I close my eyes and sigh.
"There is no point in tears. It breaks my heart to see all of you so sad." I say.
"I know," Anzu sniffs wiping her tears away. "But the thought of losing you is too much to bear."
"It's hard, yes, but Bakura needs me and he needs all of you. You're all he has." I say. Everyone looks at each other. "And all of you need him. I'm getting old, who better than to bring him back than me?"
"But it's not fair!" Yugi exclaims clenching his fists. "I want Bakura back. I really do, but…do you really have to die? I just-"
I walk over to my grandson and he throws himself into me, sobbing.
"Yugi, like I've said before I'll always be with you. You're strong and it's because of all these wonderful people in your life." I say.
"I know," he sniffs pulling away a bit. "I just…"
"So when is the…you know…" Tristan asks looking away.
"Eight in the morning." Kaiba replies.
"Ya gotta be kiddin' me!" Joey exclaims. "Dat's like in a few hours!'
"We don't have much time left, Joey." I say. "We need to get Bakura back to life and quickly."
"I know I just…" Joey says looking away, clenching his fists.
"Everyone, I know this is hard on all of you, but this is something I need to do. I will miss all of you dearly, but I feel in my heart that it's the right thing to do. Yami is in love with Bakura. I can't let Yami suffer if I have the chance to reunite him with his soul mate." I say. "Plus…I know how that feels." I trail off.
"You want to be with Grandma?" Yugi asks pulling away from me.
I nod.
"What happened to your grandma anyways, Yugi?" Mai asks.
I close my eyes and sigh. "She had cancer." I reply.
"I didn't know her for too long. She died when I was about eight," Yugi says. "But, I remember we used to play all sorts of games together…."
"She was a wonderful woman." I say.
"And you want to be with her." Anzu says.
"Yes." I reply. I look at Yugi. He looks like he's about to cry, but he's old enough to come to me if need be.
"Yuge, are you alright?" Joey asks.
"I…I just need to be alone…." He mutters and heads down the hallway.
"But"- Joey protests starting to go after his best friend, but Kaiba stops him.
"He needs to be alone, Joey." He says.
"But he's-"
Kaiba closes his eyes and shakes his head.
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[Yugi's POV]:
I walk down the hallway and go into the bathroom. I lean against the door, slding down it. I bring my knees up to my chest and cry into my folded arms resting on top of my knees. Why is this happening? It hurts so much. I understand where Grandpa is coming from. I want him to see Grandpa again. I want Bakura to come back and see Yami's smiling face, but at the same time I don't' want to lose my grandpa. He's the only family I have…
I know I have friends to help me through this, but it still hurts. I wished there was another way around this, but there's not. I know Kaiba and his workers have done everything they can to find a way to bring Bakura back. I should be grateful that we finally have that chance. In less than three days Horakhty will be coming back to tell us the fate of Bakura's soul.
I know she'll set him free, but I wonder how Bakura will react to all of this. How will he feel when he wakes up, if he wakes up at all…knowing that it was my grandpa who gave him a heart to survive? There's still a chance that even though his and Grandpa's blood types match, Bakura could still not wake up from the operation. I should be in there with the others spending as much time as I can with Grandpa. I shouldn't be in here crying. I need to be strong. Strong for everyone, but most of all strong for Grandpa and Yami. Strong for Bakura…
I hear a knock on the door. I push myself up to my feet and turn around so I can open the door. Of all the people I'd think would come to see me it's Marik.
"Marik?" I blink.
He comes inside and locks the door without a word. We stare at each other for what seems like forever. Suddenly, I feel a slap across my face. I stumble back a bit and rub my cheek.
"Your friends and grandpa are out there and you're locking yourself in a bathroom?" he sneers.
I turn away, clenching my fists. "I just need to be alone, Marik." I mutter.
"Hn. And you really think that's wise? Especially when you should be getting sleep?" he asks.
"And what about you?!" I exclaim. "You're outside smoking all day and hiding how you really feel about this whole situation!"
"I'm not hiding anything." Marik says leaning against the door, crossing his arms over his chest. "I want Bakura to come back-"
"I know you do. So why are you so sad about it?" I ask.
Marik shrugs.
"I think you do know you just can't admit to it." I say.
"Look, I came in here to come get you not to talk about how I feel about this. He's your grandfather not mine. He's dying to bring my best friend back. I feel bad alright? Is that so hard to understand?" Marik spits looking down.
I walk over to Marik so we're about a foot apart. "Why would it be? It means you care, Marik." I say. "Even though you want Bakura back more, you still feel bad because my grandfather has been kind to you and Bakura. Though, is that really the only reason you're beating yourself up about all of this? Do you feel bad about something else too?"
"You should get some sleep." Marik mutters.
I look at Marik for a moment. "You're acting weird." I note.
He averts his gaze to me, his eyes widening. "What are you going on about?" he spits. "I'm fine."
"I think this has gotten us closer, don't you?" I whisper.
"Why would you want to be closer to me?" Marik spits looking away.
"Why wouldn't I?" I ask. "You're a great guy, Marik. You're funny, smart, kind…"
"I think you're talking about someone else. I am definitely none of those things." Marik mutters.
"You're not fooling anyone. I can see right through you, Marik. I know you care. I know you're worried and I know you're afraid." I say.
Marik looks at me. "Afraid?"
I nod.
"I'm not afraid Yugi." He spits.
I smile sadly. "You're afraid of how this will turn out." I say.
"Hmm…"
We stand in silence for a moment.
"You have pretty eyes, you know that?" I say. Marik looks at me like I've lost my mind.
I laugh. "No one's ever told you that before?" I ask.
He looks away. "No." he mutters.
I smile sadly reaching up to touch his face. He looks at me with those gorgeous eyes that make my heart do strange things. Is this how Yami feels when he looks into Bakura's eyes? Or how Joey feels when he looks into Kaiba's?
The next moments are a blur because one minute we're staring into each other's eyes and the next we're kissing. I've never kissed anyone before, but I feel that this is a special kiss. Marik holds me in his arms and I all but melt into them like some little girl.
We break apart.
"Marik…" I breathe.
His only responses is another kiss this one more passionate than the other. We break the kiss and Marik kisses my neck. I moan wrapping my arms around his waist, pulling us closer together.
"I want you," he breathes trailing kisses up and down my neck and below my ear.
I close my eyes running my hands up his shirt. I feel him tense when I touch his scars. "Sorry," I mutter.
"It's fine." He says kissing my cheek.
"Marik, I-"
He pulls away. "I know."
I reach up with a shaky hand and stroke the side of his face. "I want you too." I say.
Marik pulls me into another kiss. This incredible warmth I've never known fills me to the core as he nips on my bottom lip and sucks on my tongue. We break the kiss panting heavily.
"You don't seem like the type to take control of such things." I pant.
"You're right, I've never taken anyone before." He says.
"Are you afraid?" I ask.
"No because Mai was right." He says.
"About?" I ask.
"Being in love with you." He says pulling me towards him.
Moments like this can't get any perfect. Feelings washed over a mile high mountain crashing into an ocean because of one single kiss and touches that leave both of us breathless for more. Our kisses get more intense and our bodies react to the pleasure coursing through each time our hands run across each other's bodies and our lips connect.
"You're in love with me?" I ask as we remove each other's clothing running our hands up and down each other's chests. Marik leans down and kisses my neck, kissing down my chest and rubbing my back.
"Hmm. I do have this desire for you right now. I'm not sure why, but it must be that because I've never wanted to take anyone before." He says between kisses.
"M-Marik." I moan.
"Though, you should get some sleep-"
"Sleep can wait. This cannot." I half moan half reply.
"You're sexy, you know that?" he purrs nibbling on my ear.
"So are you." I breathe clawing his back.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" he asks.
"Yes," I moan as he sinks his teeth into my neck. "Make love to me, Marik."
Marik lifts me in his arms and impales me on his erection. I moan, squeezing my eyes shut. I dig my nails into his shoulders. Marik groans wrapping his arms around my waist. How did we get to this point? One minute I'm alone in the bathroom and the next Marik and I are making love…
I need help.
After a few moments I deem myself ready and rock against my newfound lover. He gasps and thrust upward into me hard. My eyes snap open and I moan.
"Don't moan too loudly you know how your friends are voyeurs." He teases.
"I heard you were a screamer." I say.
"Would you like to see how loud I can scream?" he asks thrusting into me so hard he nails my prostate.
"Perhaps." I reply breathlessly.
"Bakura is the real screamer though." Marik laughs.
"Oh I know. I've heard him before." I laugh.
I kiss Marik and I all but become undone. I feel alive…like I have truly found what everyone is talking about. It feels wonderful. Is this what I needed to feel better? To feel like I can get through this pain?
Marik takes my erection in his hand and strokes it in time with his thrust. I moan rocking against him, begging him to go deeper within me. He groans sinking his teeth into the base of my throat. Good Ra, this is nothing but amazing!
Bliss washes over us as we become undone. Marik holds me in his arms for a while longer and then sets me back down gently. We get dressed and sit down next to each other, leaning against the door.
"Thank you, Marik." I say after a while. "I needed that. Really, I did."
"You're not the only one." He says.
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[The next day…]:
[Marik's POV]:
One minute I'm smoking a cigarette outside with Mai and then next I'm having sex with Yugi in the bathroom. Mr. Muto informed us last night that today would be the day that he'd get the operation for Bakura's heart transplant. Yugi went to the bathroom and for some reason I went with him. No one tried to stop me either. It was like they knew nothing could keep me from the boy.
We argued a bit and then I was admitting things I'd never thought I'd admit, especially in front of him. I took him last night. Something I've always been afraid of doing. It's around six in the morning. They're getting everything set up for the operation now. Yugi is sleeping on my shoulder.
"So are you guys together or somethin'?" Joey asks, yawning.
"What does it look like?" I snap. I mean how obvious can we get? Ugh.
"It's so unexpected." He mutters.
"Like they would know they'd end up together?" Mai scoffs. "No one really knows for sure until you look into the eyes of your beloved. Isn't that right, Joey?" Mai asks sitting beside of him.
"W-what?" he blushes.
"You heard me, knucklehead. Don't you come undone when Kaiba lays you on the bed and makes love to you?" she says.
His face heats up. I laugh.
About thirty minutes later everyone else is waking up and coming into the waiting room. Yugi wakes up not long after everyone starts chattering about.
"Hey," he yawns.
"Hey," I say.
"Hey Yuge, how ya feeling?" Joey asks.
"Tired." He yawns.
"Aren't we all?" Mai asks.
"Where Grandpa?" Yugi asks.
"They're preparing him for the operation." Ryou replies.
Yugi stands up trying to walk off, but I pull him back down.
"Kaiba said he'd let us know when we could come in there. They're not doing anything major yet. Just setting things up." I say.
Yugi nods and sits back down beside of me. We lace our fingers together. It's nice to finally find someone that I can love. For years I believed I was in love with Bakura, but now I know that wasn't true. He is my best friend and we'll always be close, but what I had with Yugi I can never have with Bakura or anyone else for that matter. Funny how I used to want Yugi dead, but now I just want to be with him. I must be insane.
Kaiba walks out along with two nurses. Yugi jumps up and we all head into the operation room. To say good-bye to a dear friend and our grandfather…
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[Yami's POV]:
I let out a yawn and pull Bakura close to me. I'm sure it's early morning hours by now. I hardly get any sleep. I wake up almost every hour because I think Bakura's going to wake up and I'm going to miss that moment. I wake up to realize it's only a dream, but now he has the chance to awaken and it's all because of Mr. Muto.
He's giving me something I could never get back on my own: Bakura. He knows how it feels to be in love. During our talk he told me the story of his wife and how he fell so hard and so deeply in love with her the moment he laid eyes on her. I knew exactly where he was coming from because I felt the same way when I laid my eyes on Bakura.
It's funny how things have come to pass. One minute I'm ruling Egypt and the next I'm lying in a hospital bed next to someone who used to want me dead. No, Bakura never wanted me dead. Zorc did. Bakura was just following his orders and laws because he felt he had no one else to turn to. But, he realized he did, and still does. No matter what, I will always love Bakura.
I sit up and look at the clock on the wall. It's about seven-thirty-five. Mr. Muto said his operation was at eight this morning. Yugi and the others no doubt are telling him good-bye. I get up wincing when my bare feet hit the cold tiles. I walk over to the other side of the bed, brushing my lover's bangs back. I kiss his forehead and stand up straight stroking the side of his face.
"We'll be together soon, my love." I whisper. I force myself away from Bakura and walk out of the room heading to the room where my friends are and the man that's willing to give his heart to bring mine back from the pits of despair.
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Yugi and Marik had fun in the bathroom didn't they? I'd say so. I was trying to sleep last night and then I thought "How can I get those two together during this time?" And BAM! I thought of that scene! Yami is FINALLY out of that damn room! Next chappie WILL be the operation and whatever else I decide to throw in there! Gods this story is just...a;fk;alflakf;afafa *dies* Review lovelies!