It took me 2 days to write this chapter out...*sigh* Read...whatever...
Endlessly:
I could love you endlessly, I could fall in love with you and we could keep a miracle alive. Every time I look in your eyes, I get lost inside of your soul. What are you doing to me? Don't you know that I hate you? Don't you want my blood on your hands? Don't you want me to scream? Don't you realize that it's too late to bring me back life? I'm already further than death. I'm drowning in my desire for you and my need to kill you. I want my hands covered in your blood, I want your skin underneath my fingertips I want you to reach out and touch me, I want you to burn me alive with your beautiful eyes. I want to hear your voice when I go to bed at night, I want to lie next to you and watch the world go by. I want to end you for good, I want to make you suffer, I want to see the look in your eyes when you look up at me when I hold the knife above your heart. I want you to know that any claims of hope you had of us is nothing but fantasy we'll never have. I want you to be the one that kills me, I want my blood on your hands.. I want you to end me I want to feel your passion. I want to feel your soul wrapping around mine. I want to know if you feel this too. I want to know if I can kill you now. I want to feel you underneath me I want to feel something besides this loneliness I feel inside. I want to bring the demon out of you.
I want to know if it hurts when I cut you up inside. I want to know if you really hate me or if I really hate you. I want to make me scream, I want to feel the power within me grow. I want you to knock me out, I want you to defeat me. I want something so much more from you than I could ever get. I want you to bleed, I want you to scream. I need you to know you're driving me crazy. I need you to know my soul burns passionately for you every time you give me that look I think I'm going to lose my mind. I want you dead, I want your soul to scream, to earn itself to me. I need you to know this isn't a game anymore. And what would you think if I told you that loved you this whole time? What would you say if I told you I never wanted to hate you, that I never loved you at all? What if I was playing with your mind?
What if I was lying right now? What if I told it was too personal to tell you how I felt about you? What if I told you that everything you've done to me was nothing more than just a wicked fantasies you dreamt of? What if I can't take it back? What if I don't want to? What if everything I said wasn't a lie? What if I tried to bring you back? What if I really did love you? Would you love me back, even though you think of me as a fool? Am I fool to fall in love with you? What if I told you that loving you is so impossible, it's not reality. I couldn't take it anymore. You burn me alive, I'd give myself to you if I could.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh. If I did, then Yugioh would have ended with Bakura and Yami admitting their undying love for one another and Seto would have pulled Joey into a kiss to shut him up because Puppy and Darkshipping rock!
Warnings: My usual, y'all know what that means, but for those of you who happen to be new to my awesomeness, it means there's lemony goodness!
Summary:
Moments away from destroying Zorc, Yami hesitates, asking Horakhty if she can set Bakura free. She agrees, telling Yami that in order for him to pass into the afterlife, he must break his enemy of the darkness, and he only as a year to do so.
Chapter Forty-five: Life
[Yugi's POV]:
We walk into the room where Grandpa is lying in the bed. The nurses and such are preparing him for the operation. We all walk over to him.
"Grandpa…" I choke, tears sliding down my cheeks.
He grabs my hand and squeezes it. "Everything is going to be alright, Yugi." He says. "I promise."
I nod. I want to believe him, but how can everything be alright when I'm about to lose someone I love? It's just isn't fair! I lay my head on his chest and the tears slide down my cheeks. Everyone comes up to me rubbing my back in comfort.
"Mr. Muto are you sure you want to do this?" Anzu asks.
"I have already made my decision." He replies. "Yugi, let your friends say goodbye to me. The operation starts soon."
I nod and back away. I watch as everyone says their goodbyes to my grandfather. It hurts to see them in pain. No one wants him to leave. Marik walks over to me and stands beside me after he's said his goodbyes.
"You have a good grandfather, Yugi." He says.
"I do." I mutter.
"We'll help you through it, Yuge." Joey says patting me on the shoulder.
I look up at my best friend. "Thank you, Joey." I say. I walk over to my grandpa again. This is truly it. This is truly the time to say goodbye.
"Grandpa," I start but I can't finish. I'm too choked up to speak.
"Yugi, don't cry. There are no reason for tears. I don't want the last thing I see to be all of you kids sad. I want smiling faces." Grandpa says.
I smile sadly, wiping my tears away. "It just hurts so much." I whisper.
"Losing someone is painful, but are you losing anyone?" he asks. "What have I told you over and over again, Yugi? When we lose someone dear to us, they're always in our hearts." He says reaching up and placing his hand on my chest. I put a hand on top of his. "I want you and Marik to live a long happy life together."
"How did you-"
"An old man sees very much." He says with a chuckle.
I laugh nervously. "I'm going to miss you, Grandpa."
"And I'm going to miss you, Yugi." He says. "But remember, I'll always be right here." He says pointing to my chest.
I smile and nod.
"Sir, we need to start the operation." A nurse says.
I nod giving my grandpa a hug and kissing him on the forehead. "I love you, Grandpa." I say.
He smiles. "I love you too, Yugi."
I move away. Marik wraps his arms around me and I bury my face into his chest. I can hear the stretcher moving…
"Wait!" I hear Yami shout. Wait…Yami? I turn around. My eyes widen when I see him standing in the doorway. He looks horrible! "Please…wait…" he pants.
Everyone looks at one another. The nurses look at Kaiba for answers to what they should do.
"Let him speak with him." Kaiba says.
They nod and move away. Yami walks in. We try to help him, but he refuses. Grandpa gives Yami a sad look as he approaches him nearly tripping on his own feet. He finally reaches him.
Yami doesn't say anything. And neither does Grandpa. He just hugs my grandpa for what seems like forever. Silence fills the room and after about ten minutes they break away.
"It's time." The nurses say. We nod and they wheel him away.
"Goodbye, Grandpa." I whisper, tears streaming down my face.
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[Yami's POV]:
I walk over to Yugi and pull him into my arms. He clings himself to be and sobs.
"Yams, man, ya look terrible." Joey says.
"Do you want anything to eat?" Anzu asks.
I shake my head rubbing my Hikari's back.
"We should all get back in the waiting room." Mokuba mutters. "The operation will take a while."
We all nod and everyone heads back the waiting room. Yugi and I stand in the room for a while longer. He pulls away and looks up at me.
"Yami, are you mad at me because I'm sad?" he asks.
"Yugi, he is your grandfather. I'd be mad if you weren't sad." I say.
Yugi lets out a shaky sigh. "It just…I'm trying to be strong…for you and-"
"Hold it right there, Yugi. Now, what is this about trying to be strong for me?" I inquire.
Yugi looks away.
"Yugi, what's going on?" I ask.
He sighs. "I just…I want to be strong for you because you're in so much pain and I hate it. So I thought if I was strong then it could help you…" he trails off.
"Yugi, being strong doesn't mean hiding how you feel." I say. "You are strong. You've helped me so much. It's because of you and your grandfather I even left Bakura's side."
Yugi looks at me, tears filling his eyes. "I hate this, Yami!" he exclaims. "I hate that I have to lose him and I hate that you lost Bakura!"
I pull my Hikari into my arms. "I'm sorry too, Yugi." I whisper. "I wished I could do something…"
"Just hold me, yami." He whispers into my chest.
I nod and do as he asks.
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[Anzu's POV]:
We left the room so Yami and Yugi could be alone. I know they needed it. We all said our goodbyes to Mr. Muto. As tired as I am, I know I won't be able to get any sleep. There's too much pain clenching at my heart to get any rest. I hate that I can't help Yugi and Yami more than I can, but at least I am not totally worthless as I feel.
Everyone looks so sad. I hate this. Mr. Muto told us not to be sad, but how can we not be? He was a dear friend and gave us so much. He never once complained when we were over and always made sure we had plenty of food and a place to sleep. Sure, he had rules, but who doesn't? He loved us and we loved him.
Serenity walks up to me and sits beside of me.
"You should get some rest, Serenity." I say.
She gives me a look. "Like I could really sleep at a time like this?" she says. "Besides, I'm not the only one that needs to get any sleep. You're not faring to well yourself, Anzu."
I sigh.
"This is hard on all of us." Serenity says. "But we all have each other, just like you always keep saying."
"Friendship isn't going to do shit." Marik spits. "So don't even bring that up."
"It won't, but it'll help." I point out.
Marik rolls his eyes. "You'll never stop spouting that shit will you, Anzu?" he snaps.
"No, I won't because everyone needs friends and loved ones around them." I say.
"Whatever." Marik mutters.
I understand that friendship isn't the answer to everything. I used to believe that, but I know better now. There's only so much friends can do, but that so much can carry someone a long way. All of us need to be here for each other.
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[Serenity's POV]:
It's been about an hour since Mr. Muto has been taken to the operating room. Yugi and Yami came back not too long ago. Yami tried to go back into the room with Bakura, but Kaiba wouldn't let him telling him that he wouldn't have been able to be in there anyways because they're doing Bakura's operation right after Mr. Muto's. After all, we don't have much time.
It's so sad how things have turned out for us. I thought that after I moved to Japan everything would be better, but it's not. Sure, I got away from my overbearing mother and Mai and Kaiba took care of my parents, but Bakura is dead and now Mr. Muto is about to be…he probably already is…
Just three more days, not even that, before Horakhty is supposed to come and give us the verdict on Bakura's soul. I know Bakura passed his test. I feel it. It's amazing how things change. I'm glad I've changed and it's all thanks to all the friends I have. Funny how the Items were the ones that brought us all together when it was the Items I used to fear.
"What did you and Kaiba talk about?" I ask my boyfriend.
"Nothing much," Mokuba sighs. 'We just took a ride down the highway and he told me about Mr. Muto's operation."
We look over at Kaiba who's sitting in the chair on his laptop. His fingers move so slowly and he's glaring at the screen.
"Nii-sama get some sleep, please." Mokuba pleads.
"I have work to do." Kaiba replies sleepily.
"Kaiba, you're not going to do anyone any good like that." Yami chatises.
Kaiba looks up and glares that the former Pharaoh. "You're one to talk. At least I've moved around. You've been in that damn room with Bakura for almost a week without any food and barely any sleep!" he hisses.
"At least I've gotten sleep." Yami mutters.
"All of us are just stressed and we need to stop blowing up on each other." Anzu says with a yawn.
"We need to get some sleep is what we need to do." Tristan scoffs.
"You geeks can sleep as long as you'd like, but I have work to do and I have to make sure the operation goes alright." Kaiba says.
"Why don't we take turns sleeping?" I suggest. Everyone looks at me. "Those that are awake can keep watch of what's going on with the operations and then people like Kaiba and Yami can get some sleep because the two of you look worse for wear."
"No-"
"Seto, please!" Mokuba pleads. "You're going to get sick!"
"Ya betta go get some sleep, Seto!" Joey exclaims. "Don't' make me woop ya ass!"
Kaiba sighs.
"Kaiba, I'll go to sleep if you do." Yami says.
"Fine," Kaiba growls. "But if I'm not woken up in a few hours someone is going to die."
"Who else is going to sleep?" I yawn.
"You." Anzu says. "And Ryou."
"Me?" Ryou asks pointing to himself.
"Yes, you." Anzu answers. "Because when Bakura wakes up we're not going to be able to get you away from him to sleep so you might as well get it now."
Ryou blushes and nods.
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[Ryou's POV]:
Anzu suggested that I needed to get some sleep. So along with Kaiba, Serenity, Mai, Joey (because he wanted to be near Kaiba), and Yami. I went to one of the back bedrooms that we've been sleeping in for the past four days. I lay on my side looking out the window. How can I sleep at a time like this? I close my eyes and sigh. If everything goes well, my yami will come back, but what if it doesn't? What if the operation doesn't succeed? Then what? We'll be left without two people and for what? Nothing.
I have to have faith though. Kaiba has the best doctors, so I'm sure the operations will go well, but still. I hate this. It's not fair to have to give up a life to save another's, but I suppose that's the way things go in life. It's funny, I never thought I'd want Bakura back. I mean sure, I've always cared about him because he's my yami, a part of me, but I used to hate him because of what he did, but then I realized it wasn't Bakura, and I've come to accept that he's like a big brother to me.
When Yami first told me that he was going to save Bakura I was angry. Angry because I thought he didn't' understand. I thought he just wanted to mess with all of us. He and Bakura had been enemies for over five thousand years, why try to save someone that was going to end up killing you anyways? But then when Bakura woke up…I realized why: they were in love.
It hurts to look into Yami's eyes now. He used to be so happy and it was because of Bakura. My yami was happy as well, but then Zorc got a hold of him again and he killed himself in order to save all of us. He's changed so much. Back in the day, Bakura would never have even thought of doing something like that, but he realized that we all loved him and he loved all of us.
"Bakura," I whisper tears streaming down my face. "Please come back."
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[Seto's POV]:
To get the geek squad off my ass, I decide to humour them by going to one of the back bedrooms I had designed when this hospital was built. I only agreed to this nonsense because Serenity made a good point about switching everyone around. Joey decided that he just couldn't live another second without me and here we are lying in the bed next to each other.
"Ya know staring at the ceiling ain't gonna get cha any sleep." Joey says.
"And neither is hearing your mouth." I snap.
"Ya too hard on yaself, Seto." Joey sighs moving closer to me. "We're all worried."
"Worry about those that deserve such nonsense, Joey. I'm fine." I reply.
"Yeah…" Joey mutters snuggling into my chest. I squeeze his arm that's lying across my chest. It doesn't take long for my lover to start snoring like some puppy. I smirk rubbing his arm. I hate seeing the sadness in everyone's eyes. I'm not used to them being sad. I tried to tell Mr. Muto that it would be a bad idea for him to be the candidate for the heart transplant, but he insisted.
I yawn. I know I need to sleep, but at a time like this, how can anyone sleep? I shouldn't be lying in the bed. I need to make sure everything is going smoothly, but Mokuba said he was going to take care of everything, still I hate leaving my job to my little brother.
I rub Joey's back. Being near him always relaxes me, still, I need to check on the progress of the operation. I don't have time for sleep. Moving my lover gently, I stand up and brush his hair back kissing his forehead.
"Mmm…Seto." He moans twitching in his sleep a bit then rolling over, snoring loud. I smirk to myself. My heart needs some serious help. I walk through the backdoor and go straight through the back hallway. I open the door where they're operating on Mr. Muto without knocking. Nurses are busy scattering about.
"Sir, I thought you were going to go to sleep?" one of the nurses says coming up to me.
"Sleep?" I scoff looking around her at the old man lying on the table. "How can I sleep at a time like this?"
"With all due respect Mr. Kaiba, but Mokuba informed us-"
"I will handle my brother." I cut her off. "You need to get back over there and do your job."
She looks like she wants to protest, but decides against it and scurries over to get back to work. I follow her, but keep my distance so they can do the operation.
"How is everything going?" I ask.
"Good, sir." The doctor replies holding his hand out for a tool, which is quickly given to him by the nurse standing next to him. "In another hour or so we should be finished."
"Good. I assume the others are getting Bakura prepared then?" I half ask-half yawn.
"Indeed." He replies. "Though, you should really get some sleep. You are aware of the beds in the back, no?"
"Yes, Joey is back there in one and some of the others." I reply.
The surgeon nods. "You should still get some sleep, Mr. Kaiba." He says. "It's not wise to be around this when you're"-
I hear his voice, but what he's saying isn't registering my mind. It's like it's all over the place. Like I'm in a tunnel and everything is echoing.
"Sir, are you alright?" I hear him say.
"I-"
"Seto!" I hear Mokuba exclaims before I black out.
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[Mokuba's POV]:
Seto went back in the back with Joey, Serenity, Ryou, Yami, and Mai while the rest of us stayed out here. He only agreed because we promised we'd keep an eye on how things progressed and because Yami had agreed to get some sleep away from Bakura. Though, I'd suspect none of them are getting any form of sleep. I can't really blame them, but Seto needs some sleep. He's been up nearly four day
"How long do these operations usually take?" Tristan asks.
"Well, since they're doing Bakura's right after Mr. Muto's this will take all day." I reply.
"Do you think everything's going okay?" Anzu asks.
"I was about to check actually." I reply with a yawn.
"Mokuba, shouldn't you get some sleep too?" Anzu asks.
I stand up, shaking my head. "I'm more worried about my brother." I say.
"And Serenity will woop your ass if you don't get some sleep soon." Duke scoffs.
"I'll risk it." I laugh then I head down the hall to the operating room. I look through the small window on the door watching them. I don't want to disturb anyone. My eyes widen when I see Seto walk through the door. He took the other way around. I should have known he was going to do that. I watch for a bit longer only to swing the door open and run to my brother.
"Seto!" I exclaim barely catching him in my arms. Sometimes I hate that he's so tall and I'm so short. "Nii-sama, are you alright?"
"He's exceeded himself once again." A nurse sighs. "I'll help you get him back to Joey."
"Thank you, Sara." I say and together, along with two other nurses, we help Seto back to the room where Joey is. We set him down gently. He turns over and pulls Joey close to him.
"My puppy." He says snuggling into the blonde.
I laugh as everyone steps out and I close the door behind me gently. "No one is to disturb them." I say locking the door. I can't risk Seto getting out again, now can I?
"Yes sir." She says with a bow and then leaves. I follow her back into the operating room to check on the progress. I owe it to Seto and the others to make sure everything runs smoothly.
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[Yugi's POV]:
I pace back and forth in the waiting room. I hate this. I clench my fists. Marik watches me. Everyone has tried to calm me down, but it will do no good. Marik stands up and pulls me to him.
"Your pacing is driving me crazy." He says.
"Sorry." I mutter looking away. Marik sighs pulling me closer to him. I bury my face in his chest hot tears sting my eyes. "I just wished it wasn't like this."
"I know." He mutters.
I sigh and he sits down. I sit in his lap and he holds me close to him rubbin my back. It's funny the most rudest and blunt person of all my friends is the one that can calm me down the most. I feel so complete in his arms. I sigh closing my eyes. I love the way he runs his fingers through my hair.
"I never thought in a million years the two of you would end up together." Anzu says. I can hear the smile in her voice. I smile to myself.
"Oh like those two haven't been in love for years?" Mai scoffs.
I turn my head to see the blond walking into the room and sitting beside Anzu.
"I thought you were going to go to sleep, Mai." I yawn.
"I got a bit of sleep." She replies. "Though, you look like you could use some rest."
"He was about to fall asleep in my arms until your heel clicking woke him up." Marik says.
Mai rolls her eyes and I turn back around to snuggle into Marik's chest. Millions of thoughts race through my mind about Grandpa and Bakura. I silently pray that everything goes okay. I know Grandpa will always be in my heart, but it still pains me to lose him.
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[Bakura's POV]:
Noises. Loud noises piercing my eardrums. Light, blinding light burning out my reintas.
"He's coming to." I hear someone say.
Who is speaking? Where am I? What happened? I feel like my fingers and toes are being stabbed by millions of tiny needles. I try to open my eyes, but the light is too bright.
"Stop shinning that light in his eyes!" I hear Kaiba shout.
Kaiba? What the?
"Yes sir." That same voice from earlier says.
Why is there so much noise in here? Why do I feel like I'm suffocating? I squeeze my eyes shut for a moment before I try to reopen them.
"Is he alright?"
"Why isn't he waking up?"
"Bakura get up you dumb ass!"
"Everyone back away! Let him breathe!"
"But we're-"
"Everyone get out right now!"
"But Seto-"
"Now!" the CEO roars. I smirk to myself. "Yami, where are you going?" he asks.
"I-"
"Get your stupid ass back in here." Kaiba snaps. "You know I wasn't talking to you, idiot."
Yami? He's in here? I hear footsteps and Yami take my hand in his.
"Leave them." Kaiba orders.
"At once, sir."
Stupid peasants.
I hear the door shut.
"Bakura, please…" he whispers I feel tears hit my hand. Tears? That means he's crying, but why?
I slowly open my eyes, blinking. We stare into each other's eyes for the longest time.
"Atem," I breathe reaching up to wipe the tears away.
Yami smiles at me, tears falling. I try to sit up, but he doesn't give me a chance. He stands up from the chair he's sitting in, falling to his knees he clings to me and sobs.
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Before anyone asks me Mr. Muto WILL NOT be coming back. He is gone. I have an amazing plan for the ending of this story and it cannot work if he comes back to life. (which isn't even possible anyways) so please don't ask if I will be bringing him back. I'm answering right now: NO!
So Bakura is alive again. Let's see how he reacts to everything. Again, thanks everyone for the reviews. 178 so far! I'm getting closer and closer y'all.
Haha okay I just HAVE to share this with y'all because it is beyond hilarious! This is from my and my girlfriend's RP. I do Bakura and she does Malik (the yami) Oh and she does Yami (don't worry I do more characters but we were only doing those three in this scene lol)
"Don't be lying like a balloon umbrella now. I might have to send you up into space on a hot air balloon umbrella ride for some fried chicken and moon pies." Bakura teases.
"What?" Yami asks.
"Don't ask." Malik laughs hysterically.
"Malik, do you remember the hot air balloon umbrella ride we took?" Bakura asks.
"Oh yeah, that was a lot of fun. It was all because you were too busy laughing instead of running your ass off." Malik cackles.
"It was quite romantic too." Bakura says. "I never knew Zorc had such a big heart!"
"I know, it was so nice and cozy! It was soft too!" Malik laughs seeing the look on Yami's face.
Yami was more confused than anything with the two.
"That fried chicken really got me! KFC style!" Bakura cackles. "And Little Debbie Moon Pies on the moon!"
"Oh yes! That was the best! Such a nice meal, I was starving!" Malik says.
"And then I fucked you so hard we created a crater in the moon!" Bakura roars with laughter.
"No I did not! I created ALL the craters in the moon! The moon has craters because of US!" Malik laughs loudly.
If you want to know what a balloon umbrella and a hot air balloon umbrella you're going to have to ask Zorc. He told Bakura not to run like one in Corruption and we (my gf and I) have been making jokes about it ever since haha. Alright review guys. I'm dying over here! LMAO!