Me and Mr. Grey…...Part 18
Brenda leaned back in the chair. She looked on as Sarah, Conner, and Brayden ran around the yard, with Tango eagerly following.
Julia was sitting next to her. "Brenda, have you called him?"
She shook her head. "No."
"Why not? What happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Did he cheat?"
"No, he wouldn't cheat."
"Well what?"
Brenda really did not want to talk about it, especially with Julia. "We just had a fight."
"Couples fight all the time. You can't run away. You have to just work through it, especially if you love each other. Are you two even in love?"
"Julia…..I don't want to talk about it."
Julia was really getting frustrated.
Brenda just showed up yesterday, right out of the blue. She was obviously upset, but she wouldn't talk to her. "Why won't you tell me what happened?"
She didn't respond.
Julia continued. "I know you don't want to talk to me, given how I feel about your husband. But I'll say this, I don't think you should have married him. He doesn't deserve you or Brayden. I don't care how good looking or rich he is. He still left you alone to raise his child. And if you want out of the marriage, just say the word. I know a good lawyer."
Brenda sighed. "Not now Julia."
"Ok, I'll be quiet. Well, it's time for lunch." She looked over at Brenda. "Are you hungry?"
Brenda shook her head. "No."
Julia stood up. "Look, I'm sorry. It's obvious you are sad, I don't want to make you feel, like you can't relax here. I promise not to make anymore smart comments. I just love and want the best for you."
Brenda looked up at her. "I know."
Julia bent down, and kissed the top of her head. "Well, I'll let you relax, the kids and I are going inside."
She called out to the kids, and they all went inside.
As soon as they were gone, tears rolled down Brenda's cheeks. She was still angry with Christian, but she still loved him too. (Why hasn't he called?)
Jax was looking through some business proposals, when the phone inside of his plane rung.
He answered it.
It was the pilot. "We'll be landing in ten minutes."
Jax thanked him and hung up.
He threw the papers in his leather briefcase, and buckled his seat belt.
He was supposed to be on his way to New York, but he changed his plans at the last minute.
He thought back to a conversation he had with Lois.
Sometimes she talked so fast, she would tell things she didn't mean to tell.
Jax called to let her know, he was coming to New York, and maybe they could have lunch. But when he called, he got an ear full.
"Jax, you have to stay away from Brenda!"
"What are you talking about?"
"You know exactly what I'm talking about. You should have stayed away. Brenda and her husband are at odds, and it's your fault. They had a big fight, and she left and went to LA."
She had his attention now. Jax questioned her. "Why LA?"
"Her sister is in LA."
Jax continued to listen to her rant and rave. After she finished, he came up with an emergency, and quickly ended the call.
Jax knew he shouldn't do what he was thinking. Which was take this opportunity to get closer to Brenda, knowing she was married. But Jax, had always done the right thing, and look where it had gotten him. He wasn't going to do the right thing this time. He loved and wanted her back.
After hanging up with Lois, Jax called a friend of his, who was a P.I.
Jax knew he could find out anything.
He remembered Julia's name, but he didn't know anything else.
His friend assured him, that he would be able to find her.
It didn't take long, for him to call back with Julia's address, and her new last name. So Jax up and changed his travel plans, and headed to LA...
Christian sat down behind his desk, at Grey Enterprises.
He reached down and pressed the button on his office phone.
His secretary answered. "Yes, Mr. Grey?"
"Did anyone call while I was gone?"
"No, Sir."
"That will be all."
He grabbed the phone, then placed it back on the receiver. He wouldn't call her. She asked for space, so he was going to give it to her. He knew she was fine, because he had spoken with Jake, Julia's husband. Julia didn't like him, so he couldn't call her. So he took his chances with Jake, and he was glad he did. Jake was very understanding, and told him to call anytime he wanted. He even offered him an ear if he needed one. Christian was not about to share his deepest feelings with a stranger, but he appreciated the gesture.
Christian turned in his chair, and looked out at the skyline of the city. He felt incredibly lonely and powerless, which threaten to drive him insane.
And to make matters worse, he was supposed to be going to his parent's house for dinner. He knew everyone would be asking about Brenda. They knew Brayden was in LA, but they didn't know Brenda had left too. He sighed. (Maybe I should just call them and say I can't make it. In favor of what? Sitting at home in an empty apt?) He was already missing her, it would do him good to get out, and be around his family. Since, the two most important people in his life were in LA…...
Brenda stopped feeling sorry for herself, and went into the house with Julia and the kids. She was happy she did, because she forgot all about her troubles, and let loose with the children.
They were all laughing and talking when the doorbell rung, which wasn't out of the ordinary. There were always children coming over to play.
Brenda looked out of the glass doors, and spotted the housekeeper outside reading. She stood up. "I'll get it."
Julia's housekeeper was an older lady. Her name was Sylvia. She had been with the family for a very long time, way before Julia married Jake. She really didn't do much, and Julia didn't really expect much out of her. She had gotten too old.
There were other housekeepers. They would come a couple of times a week. And they pretty much kept the house in order. Sylvia would supervise, but that's about it.
Julia adored Sylvia, she was like a mother to her. Brenda had grown fond of her too, and the kids hung on her every word.
Brenda walked up to the door, and looked out the peephole. She stepped back, then stood there for a moment. And looked out it again.
She unlocked the door, and opened it. "Jax…what…are you doing here?"
He smiled. "I came to see you."
"How did you even know I was here?"
"Lois told me."
"Why would she do that?"
"Not on purpose. She was scolding me. In the process, I learned you had a fight with your husband, and it was because of your meeting with me."
Brenda sighed. "It was not your fault. Well it was, but it wasn't. There's just a lot going on."
"May I come in?"
Brenda's eyes widen. "Jax, you can't be here."
"Why?"
"Because, my husband wouldn't like it."
"You can't talk to the opposite sex now?"
Jax didn't realize it, but that hit a nerve.
Christian was always trying to control her. She could talk to Jax if she wanted to. He talked to Elena all the time, hell he was in business with her.
Brenda looked up at Jax. "Yes, I can. Come in." She moved out of the way, and allowed him entrance.
He walked into the large house, and looked around. "This is a beautiful house."
"All Julia's doing." Brenda closed the door, and just stared at him. She was still confused, as to why he would come all this way. "I thought you were going to New York?"
He turned and looked at her. "I was, but plans change."
At that moment they heard Julia and the kids come into the foyer. Julia looked at Jax, then Brenda.
"Julia, this is Jax, an old friend."
Julia knew who Jax was, and she knew all about him leaving her at the altar. And even though she didn't like what he did, at least he didn't abandon his child.
She smiled and looked him over. "Hello." Her sister did have good taste in men. Jax was a blonde haired, blue eyed god.
He returned her smile. "Hello. You have a beautiful home."
"Thank you."
Jax looked down at the children. His eyes fell on the smallest one. "That must be Brayden."
Brenda smiled. "Yes. Brayden this is Jax, can you say hello?"
Brayden smiled. "Hi."
Brenda continued. "And that's Conner and Sarah. They are Julia's children."
Jax smiled. "Well, hello."
Conner and Sarah waived.
Conner walked over and grabbed his mother's hand. "Can we leave now?"
She looked down at him. "Yes." She looked over at Brenda and Jax. "Sorry, but we have to leave you two now. We are going to the theatre."
Jax nodded. "Well, don't let me keep you."
Brenda hugged them all and they left….
Julia smiled as soon as the door closed. (I hope she falls back in love with him, and divorces that loser.)
After Julia and the kids left, there was an awkward silence.
"Brenda, if this is making you feel uncomfortable, I can leave."
"No, it's not. Would you like something to drink?"
Jax nodded. "Sure."
She led him to the kitchen. "So, what would you like?"
"Water is fine."
"Water it is." She took out a bottled water, opened it, and poured some in a glass. She handed it to him.
"Thanks." He took a sip. "Brayden is beautiful, Brenda."
"Thank you." Brenda nervously ran her fingers through her hair. "Um, we can talk in the entertainment room?"
He nodded. "I don't care, wherever is fine."
"Ok." She turned and headed in that direction. Jax followed her. Brenda knew if Christian came and found Jax here, he would beat his a**.
Maybe she should make him leave? But it would be like saying, she had no control over her life.
She could talk to Jax if she wanted to. She didn't tell Christian who to talk to.
They made it to the entertainment room.
Jax took it all in.
It was some room. There was all types of games located throughout the space. From video games to board games. A pool table, air hockey, and some amusement park type games. "This is amazing."
Brenda looked around. "It is. The kids love it."
"I'm sure they do."
They walked over and sat down on the huge sectional.
"Jax, I still don't quite understand why you came?"
He leaned back. "I came to see how you were."
"I'm fine."
"You don't look fine. I can see it in your eyes. Brenda, who is this man you are married to?"
Brenda assumed he knew by now. "You don't know?"
"No, I don't. I could have investigated and found out. But I'd rather you tell me."
"His name is Christian Grey."
Jax knew exactly who that was. He was a young hot shot business mind. He heard some good things about him, as it pertains to business. "I've heard his name once or twice."
Brenda pulled her legs up to her chest. "Well, that's my husband. We haven't been together long."
Jax was confused. "But you have a toddler?"
"Jax, it's complicated."
"I'm listening."
Brenda preceded to tell him, how they met, and how she got pregnant. She also told him how they eventually married.
"So, you two hardly know each other?"
Brenda sighed. "Yes and no. Well, we are still learning new things about each other, because we married so quickly. Things couples learn while dating, we are learning while married. So, it's making things a little trickier."
Jax nodded. "Is he good to you?"
"Yes." And he was. He just had control issues, but she wasn't about to tell Jax that. Jax might see things a little differently.
Jax was different than Christian. He never had a problem, telling her he loved her, or showing her. And he was always a gentlemen, even when she didn't deserve it.
Jax and Christian were simply night and day. The worse thing Jax had ever done was leave her at the altar. And in a way she understood. She just wished, he would have told her before the wedding.
Jax looked closely at her. "Are you sure…he's good to you?"
"Yes, Jax. And I don't want to talk about him, not with you."
He turned his body towards her. "Ok. So, what do you have planned for today?"
She shrugged. "Nothing."
"Well, I think we should do something."
Brenda smiled. "Do what?"
"Anything you want."
She sighed. "Jax, I'm married."
"I know. Just as old friends. We were friends first, remember?"
"Yeah, but we almost got married too. I don't know Jax."
"Come on Brenda. This might be our last chance, to really put everything to rest. And really get things back on track. I know we spoke in Seattle, but that whole conversation was heavy. Let's see if I can get you to like me again."
"I like you Jax. I told you that."
"Well, show it, by spending the day with me."
She knew Jax would never try anything, it wasn't his style. Now if this was Sonny, she would've never opened the door.
Jax watched her, and he could tell she was wrestling with his proposal.
Brenda nodded her head. "Ok."
Jax smiled. "Good."
She didn't know if it was a good idea, to spend time with Jax. But Christian spent time with Elena. She even came to dinners at his parents' house.
Brenda stood up. "I'm going to change, and I need to call Julia…to let her know."
"Ok. I'll be right here waiting. Maybe, I'll try out some of these games."
Brenda grinned. "Jax, what do you know about playing video games?"
"I know a little about them. Remember, I was playing one, the first time I laid eyes on you."
"Have you played recently?"
He laughed. "No, but it's like riding a bike."
She laughed. "Videos games have changed, a whole lot since you've played them."
"I'll manage."
She left…...
Part 2
Christian pulled up to his parents house. He was driving himself more and more these days. Something he hardly did before he married Brenda.
He got out and headed into the house.
There were the usual suspects.
Elliot was there with his girlfriend. Even Mia brought a date. He was the only one there alone. Before Brenda, he would not have cared, but things were different now. He felt like apart of him was missing. He missed having her by his side.
Of course his family wanted to know where she was. He told them she went to LA, to visit her sister. That answer must've satisfied them, because they didn't ask anymore questions after that.
Christian was talking to Elliot, when Elena walked into the room. She smiled and said hello. He said hello, and continued his conversation with Elliot.
After awhile, dinner was served, and they all took their seats. Christian didn't talk much during dinner, which didn't go unnoticed by Elena. Not that he was ever the toast of any dinner party, but she could tell something was off.
After dinner, Christian walked down to the lake. He sat down, and looked out into the water.
He thought about the time, he brought Brenda down with him. She looked so beautiful, and he wanted her so badly, but she refused to let him touch her.
"Would you like some company?"
Christian looked up. "Elena, how did you know I was down here?"
She sat down next to him. "I guessed." She looked out into the lake. "It is beautiful out here."
Christian didn't say anything.
Elena looked over at him. "Is something wrong?"
"No."
"Where is that lovely wife of yours, I know you said she was visiting her sister. But it seems to be more to it than that."
Christian shot her a look. "Elena, since when is my business, your business?"
"I apologize. I didn't mean to overstep my boundaries."
*silence*
She looked over at him a couple of times, he was staring straight a head. She never got tired of looking at him. He was gorgeous. With his beautiful dark hair, and those enchanting eyes. He was the definition of perfection, especially since she knew he was just as beautiful naked. She felt a need growing in her belly. It had been so long, since she touched him.
Christian wondered what Brenda was doing, was she thinking about him? It took everything in him, to not hop on his plane, and demand she come back. But that might scare her away. He was determined to give her the time she needed.
Christian felt a hand on his thigh, he jumped up, and looked down at Elena. "What in the f*ck was that?"
"I want you again Christian. I know she isn't fulfilling your needs, not completely. She can't be. I want you to f*ck my throat, like you use to."
"Hell no! What is wrong with you? I'm married. And I would never cheat on Brenda!"
Elena stood up, and tried to grab his hand.
He jerked away. "Don't f*cking touch me, are you drunk?"
"No, I'm not drunk. I want you Christian, and I never stopped. I'll let you do whatever you want. I promise."
"Elena, I don't want you. And stop before my mom comes out here and sees you, or anybody else for that matter. I don't think she would be too happy, if she found out, you f*cked her fifteen year old son. So chill the f*ck out. And where is all this coming from? We haven't f*cked in years. Why now?" Christian looked around, to make sure no one was looking.
"Because I feel like I'm losing you."
Christian looked at her as if she was crazy. "You never had me. What is wrong with you? I've had a lot of women since you. And you never had a problem with them?"
Elena sat back down. "Because they were just submissives. But ever since I saw you with Brenda, I knew it was different."
Christian shoved his hands into his pockets. "Sh*t, Brenda was right. Look Elena, I'm going to sign over the salons. We can't work together. And you don't owe me anything, I'm giving them to you."
Elena stood up. Her eyes pleading. "No, I'm sorry. Please forgive me, I didn't mean it."
"Yes, you did. Look Elena, Brenda is my wife. Nothing means more to me. And why are you obsessing over me? You are very attractive, go find another man. And not a boy, cause the next time, your a** might end up in jail. Just move on, because we will never be anything but friends."
"You love her?"
Christian looked out into lake. "Elena, that's between me and my wife."
She smiled. "You do. I'm sorry. My Christian has grown up. Well you aren't my Christian, you're Brenda's."
"Elena, you are still my friend. But that sh*t can never happen again, or you won't be."
She smiled. "Please forget everything. I'm drunk."
He laughed. "Yeah right. You're lucky my mom didn't see you. She'd be kicking your a**, as we speak. Come on." They head back up to the main house...
When Brenda and Jax, finally made it back to Julia's, it was late. Everyone was in bed.
Brenda unlocked the door, and punched in the security code. Jax followed her inside.
She turned. "Would you like some coffee or something?"
"Yeah, sure."
It didn't take long for Brenda to make the coffee, and minutes later they were sitting outside drinking it.
"Jax, thanks for a great day. I had fun."
He smiled. "That was the goal."
It was cool that night, and Brenda wrapped herself in a blanket. She looked over at Jax. "Are you cold?"
"No, I'm fine. That fireplace is packing some serious heat."
"Yeah, it is." .
Jax was sitting in the seat next to her. He looked up at the stars. "Today, reminded me of the time when I took you to Malibu, after the accident."
Brenda smiled. "I thought the same thing."
"But this time, you didn't let me buy you anything."
"Jax, you know I couldn't do that. I'm married. The fact that we spent the whole day together, is questionable at best."
"Nothing happened."
She sighed. "No, but I don't think Christian would like it."
"Why did you go?"
"Because I wanted to."
She went because Christian smothered her at times, with his demands, and his need for control. She felt like she needed to get some of that control back.
"A penny for your thoughts?"
She grinned. "Jax, I would charge you more than a penny, try a couple grand. You can afford it."
He laughed.
She sat her coffee cup down, and pulled her legs up to her chest. "What have you been doing, since you left me at the altar?"
"Brenda, did you really have to say it like that?"
"Yes, because that's exactly what happened. Answer the question."
"The same as I've always done."
"Working?"
He nodded.
"No, woman in your life?"
"Nothing serious."
"Jax, as good looking as you are, you should have somebody. Unless times have changed and you have turned into a playboy?"
Jax grinned. "No, times have not changed. I move around too much, so it's hard to get anything serious going. And I was hoping one day, I would get the chance to right a wrong."
"Right a wrong?"
"Our wrong. I made the mistake in leaving, when we promised, neither one of us would."
"Jax….I'm married now."
"I realize that."
She smiled, not taking him seriously. "There is no way you can't right that wrong."
He looked at her. "Why?"
She saw the seriousness in his eyes. "Because…I'm married Jax, with a child."
"But I still love you. I never stopped...I want you back."
Brenda didn't know what to say. That came from out of the blue. Her mouth dropped open.
He got up, and kneeled down in front of her. "You're not happy in that marriage, I can see it in your eyes. You hardly know him. We have history. We were good together. Don't you miss us?"
"Jax, I'll always miss what we had, but-"
"But nothing Brenda." He moved closer, his nose touching hers.
She could feel his breath on her lips. She turned her head. "No, Jax. Please."
He kissed her cheek. "I made a mistake. I'm admitting it. I should have married you, when I had the chance."
"I have a child, I can't just break up our family."
"You shouldn't stay, if you're unhappy?"
She looked at him. "We are having problems, but I'd never leave him….not for you or anybody else."
Jax stood up, and looked down at her.
She could see the hurt in his eyes. "I'll always love you, Jax. Always. But….."
He pushed his hands into his pockets. "You're in love with your husband?"
"I am. And I know our relationship isn't perfect. And we hardly know each other. And we drive each other crazy, but he is my everything." She stood up. "You have to leave. I don't even know what I was thinking, spending the whole day with you. If he had done this, I would be livid. I'm sorry Jax, I really am. And I wish things could have been different between us, but I'm not going to leave my husband. I love him too much, and I'm sorry if that hurts you."
Jax nodded. "It hurts, but I understand."
"Do you?"
He sighed. "Yes. I just had to try one more time."
She smiled. "I'll always have a place in my heart for you. You have to know that."
"I guess that will have to be enough."
She reached over and grabbed his hand. "It has to be."
Jax pulled her hand up to his lips and kissed it. "I don't care where you are, or who you are with, I will always love you." He released her hand. "Walk me out?"
She nodded. "Of course."
After saying their goodbyes, she headed upstairs…..
Christian had just gotten back home from his parents' house. It took him all of five minutes, to undress and get into bed. His bed seemed bigger…colder. He wondered where she was, and what she was doing. And was he really just going to continue, and let things happen around him, or was he going to pick up that phone and call his wife?
After showering Brenda slid on her pajamas. She climbed into bed, but not before checking her phone.
No missed calls.
Yes, she was still upset with him. But he was still her husband, and this was the time he should've been showing her, how much he really cared.
Maybe he didn't care. Maybe she mistook his looks for love. Maybe that's why he never told her he loved her, because he actually didn't.
*phone rings* She reached over and grabbed it.
It was Christian.
Brenda answered it. "Hello."
She heard his voice on the other end. "Hey."
She didn't even know what to say.
"Brenda?"
"Yes?"
"How are you?"
"Fine." (Missing you.)
"And Brayden?"
"He's fine. Spending a lot of time with Sarah and Conner. He asked about you. When I first arrived, he thought you came with me."
"I miss him."
"He misses you too."
Christian was trying to stay as calm as possible. He wanted to tell her to get her a** home, but then she'd never come back. "So when is he coming home?"
"I don't know."
*silence*
"Well, tell him I said hello."
"Christian, you should call and tell him yourself."
"Brenda, I wasn't sure if you wanted me to."
"He's your child too Christian. You can call and check on him. I was actually wondering, why you have not called. And since when do you let me, dictate how you behave?"
"Since you left. I'm just trying to give you space."
Brenda got up, and walked over to the window. "Christian, you scared me."
"I didn't mean to."
"But you did. I didn't know what you were going to do me."
"Brenda, I would never hurt you."
"I want to believe that."
Christian sighed. "Brenda, I don't beat women."
She burst into laughter. "Ahhh, yes you do. You just ask for permission first."
"That sh*t isn't funny."
She giggled. "Yes, it is."
Christian was not in the mood for jokes. "Are you coming back?"
"I want to."
"Well come home."
"Christian, it's not that simple.
"It is."
"I don't want to come back, and have things be the same."
"It won't be."
"How can I be sure?"
"Because it won't be. I just got a little angry, because you went to another man's hotel room. A man you were once engaged to. And you lied about it."
Brenda started thinking about Jax, and how she'd just spent the whole day with him. "Christian, I need to tell you something."
"Brenda, don't tell me you f*cked him?"
"No."
"Well, what?"
"Jax, came to LA. And...please Baby don't be mad."
"And what Brenda?!"
"We spent the day together, but nothing happened, I promise. He tried to kiss me, but I told him I loved you. I realize I made a mistake, but I was so angry with you." *silence* "Christian? Christian?"
She looked down at her phone, he hung up. She tried calling back, but he didn't answer. She left messages:
Message 1: Please, Baby. Talk to me. I know it was stupid. I was trying to prove a point. But it was dumb.
Message 2: Christian, answer your phone. I'd rather you yell, than ignore me.
Message 3: Please pick up your phone.
Message 4: Christian, you have to talk to me, we're married. And you said you are never divorcing me. So we have to talk, at some point.
Message 5: I love you.
He was not going to pick up, so she gave up. She knew he had a right to be angry.
She sighed, walked over to the bed, and climbed in.
She'd just made things worse...
It's the next morning.
Brenda hardly slept. She got up, showered, and headed to Brayden's room. She bathed and dressed him. And he ran off to Conner's room.
Brenda was tidying up Brayden's room, when Julia walked in.
"What time did you get in last night?"
"Not too late."
Julia leaned up against the dresser. "So, what did you two do?"
Brenda stopped and looked at Julia. "Don't do that."
Julia smiled. "What am I doing?"
"Acting as if I went on a date."
"Technically you did."
"No, I didn't. And I shouldn't have went. I don't even know what I was thinking. And now Christian won't talk to me."
Julia had a confused look on her face. "How did he find out?"
"I told him, I didn't want to lie. And I felt bad."
"Maybe, he'll give you a divorce?"
Brenda threw the pillows on the bed. "I don't want a divorce."
"How about an annulment?"
Brenda grinned. "Stop it."
Julia laughed. "Ok, my lips are sealed. And don't pay me any attention, I just want you and Brayden to move back to LA, I miss you."
"I know."
"Well, I'm going down to the kitchen. I'm cooking today."
"Yay!"
Julia was an excellent cook, and so creative. Brenda always thought she should open her own restaurant.
Julia was just about to walk out of the door, when she stopped and turned. "And cheer up, I'm sure everything will workout, with you and that son of a b*tch."
Brenda rolled her eyes. "Thanks for the encouragement."
Julia smiled and left.
Brenda was walking out of Brayden's room, when she ran into Jake, Julia's husband.
"Morning Jake."
"Hello, Brenda."
Jake was dripping in sweat. Apparently he'd just finished working out.
Brenda was about to head downstairs, when Jake stopped her. "Brenda?"
"Yes?"
"I don't normally get in anybody else's affairs, but you are like a sister to me. Don't give up on your marriage, especially if you two love each other."
"Jake, can I be honest with you? And please don't say anything to Julia."
"Of course."
"I don't know if he loves me."
"What do you mean?"
"He's never told me. I want to believe he does, but I honestly I don't know."
"He wouldn't have married you if he didn't, right?"
Brenda looked away. "He's not like us. He's different."
"Different how?"
"I don't know if he believes in it."
Jake walked closer to her. "Why did you marry him?"
"At first it was because I was drawn to him. It's hard to explain."
"Do you love him now?"
Brenda nodded. "Yes."
"I don't know him, but I think he cares deeply for you. He's been calling...me to check on you and Brayden."
"Really?"
He nodded.
Brenda sighed. "I know he loves Brayden, that's not the issue. It's the romantic love, I'm not sure of."
"Brenda, go home, and talk to him."
"I don't know if that's a good idea. I did something that made him angry."
"What?"
Brenda told Jake all about Jax. And how she met him at his hotel, and about yesterday too.
Jake wiped his face with the towel, that was wrapped around his neck. "Yeah, I can understand why he would be angry? What possessed you to do that?"
"Anger."
"And he won't talk to you?"
"No."
"Maybe you should go back home. He'll have to talk to you then. Nothing happened right?"
"Of course not."
"Yeah, but he doesn't know that. You two need to talk. And I wouldn't wait."
Brenda nodded. "Yeah, you're right..."
Part 3
Brenda ended up going back to Seattle that same day.
She left Brayden with Julia.
Jake would be bringing him in a couple days.
It was after nine, when she made it home. Miss Jones was there, but she had no idea where Christian was.
After unpacking and showering, Brenda went into the kitchen.
Miss Jones was standing at the counter, making sandwiches.
Brenda looked down at them. "For Christian?"
"Yes, just in case he's hungry when he gets in."
"Oh."
"Are you hungry?"
She shook her head. "No, I'm fine, thanks."
Brenda opened the fridge, and pulled out a bottle of wine. She grabbed a glass, and filled it up. Then placed it back in the fridge.
She took a sip and sat it on the counter. "How is Christian?"
Miss Jones found that question incredibly odd. "He's fine." She thought Brenda was just off visiting her sister. But apparently there was more to it. She did notice a change in Mr. Grey. He went from sad to angry overnight. "When is Brayden coming back?"
"In a couple of days."
"I really miss having him around."
"He misses you too."
"Seems like it's been forever, but it hasn't even been a week." Miss Jones placed the sandwiches in the fridge.
Brenda grabbed her glass. "Well, goodnight."
"Brenda?"
She stopped and turned.
"I don't know what's going on, but you mean a lot to Mr. Grey."
"Probably not at this moment."
"You do. Even if he is upset, he still cares for you."
Brenda smiled. "Thanks for the kind words." She turned and walked towards the bedroom.
She tried to wait up for Christian, but she ended up falling asleep.
It was the next morning when she woke up.
And there was still no sign of Christian.
Maybe he went out of town? But she quickly dismissed that, because he would have told Miss Jones.
At that moment the bedroom door opened. Christian walked in. Brenda sat up. By the look on his face, he was not expecting to see her.
She looked him over.
His hair was a mess. His clothes were disheveled.
She looked away, then got out of bed, and went into the bathroom. She splashed water on her face, and brushed her teeth.
She walked out of the bathroom, without saying a word to him, and headed into the closet. She threw on a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt.
Christian just stood there watching her.
After putting on her shoes, she grabbed her purse, and walked towards the door.
"Where are you going?"
She didn't say a word. She just walked passed him, and opened the door.
He grabbed her arm, and pulled her back in.
He closed the door. "Where are you going?"
She looked everywhere but at him. "I'm leaving."
He reached up, and turned her face toward him. "Why?"
"Where have you been? Better yet, with who?"
"Brenda, you are in no position to ask me anything. After you spent all day with your ex."
"Nothing happened."
"So you say."
"It didn't." She really wanted to know where he'd been. "Did you cheat on me?"
Christian just stared at her. His gray eyes giving away nothing.
She reached over and grabbed the door knob. He placed his hand on top of hers, preventing her from turning it.
"Move your hand!"
"No."
She wanted to leave, but at the same time she had to know where he was, and with who. "Who were you with?"
"My parents."
"You slept at your parents'?"
"No, here."
"Christian, you didn't sleep here."
"I slept in the TV room. My jacket is still in there, if you'd like to check. I don't know, being in this room, didn't sit well with me. Especially, after finding out my wife, went on a day long date, with another motherf*cking man."
"It was not a date."
"Well, what in the f*ck was it?"
"It was just me being angry with you, and I was out to prove a point."
"What point would that be? It's ok to date after you're married?"
"Nothing happened Christian."
"I don't give a f*ck. You said he tried to kiss you?"
"Yes, but he didn't succeed."
Christian ran his fingers through his hair. "That was f*cked up Brenda. Really f*cked up."
"It was stupid, I know."
"Brenda, what if I spent the whole day with another woman?"
"I'd be upset, and I'd probably leave you."
"So, you're saying I should leave you?"
There was a worried look on her face. "Do you want to?"
"I haven't decided."
Her eyes widen. "You want to break up? Over this? After all the promises we made?"
"Promises were meant to broken remember?"
"Christian, don't use my words against me."
"You know….I was here missing you, and you were out dating."
"Christian, I was not dating."
"It was a motherf*cking date!"
"It was not a date! You know I love you, Christian. You."
"No, I don't. Not based off of your actions."
"Well, I can say the same thing about you. My mistake, you never told me you loved me."
"Brenda, don't turn this around on me."
"I made a mistake, Christian. Either you are going to forgive me or not."
They stood there staring at each other. Until she looked away.
She walked over and sat down on the bed. "We should have never gotten married. We are not compatible."
His eyes followed her. "We are compatible."
"We argue all the time."
He placed his hands into his pockets. "We don't argue all the time."
"Most of the time."
"Brenda, I can deal with the disagreements. And my need to change. But I can't deal with you seeing other men."
"It wasn't like that."
He walked over and stood in front of her. "If the man tries to kiss you, then it is like that."
Brenda sighed. "I am tired of going back and forth, you are driving me insane."
"Good. Where is Brayden?"
"At Julia's. He'll be here in a couple of days. Jake is bringing him. I felt like we needed some time alone. And plus he was originally supposed to come home then. I didn't want to shorten his stay, because he's having so much fun with Julia and the kids, not because of our problems."
"I can't wait to see him."
He looked down at her, and she looked up at him. Christian reached down and grabbed her hand. "I'm sorry for the way I've spoken to you in the past."
"And I'm sorry for disrespecting our relationship. Do you forgive me?"
Christian decided to just let it go….for now. "I forgive you."
Her eyes search his. "Do You?"
"Yes, but Brenda don't ever let that happen again."
"I won't."
He released her hand, and headed to the bathroom...
Christian said he had forgiven her, but he was obviously still pissed. A whole week had passed, and he had not laid one hand on her.
One night after putting Brayden to bed, they headed to their bedroom. Brenda didn't even bother trying to look sexy. If he didn't want to have sex with her...that was fine with her.
She showered and piled her hair on top of her head. Then pulled on a t shirt.
Christian watched as she slid into bed. She turned her back to him, and closed her eyes. "No, goodnight?"
"Goodnight, Christian."
"That was impersonal."
She turned and looked at him. "What should I do? Kiss you goodnight? I don't think so. If you don't want to touch me, I don't want to touch you either."
"Brenda, you're acting childish."
"This whole situation is childish." She sat up and looked down at him. "Why haven't you made love to me?"
"What?"
"I'm sorry. Let me rephrase that. Why haven't you f*cked your wife? Now, I'm sure you understand that. Are you still upset with me?"
He looked her straight in the eyes. "Yes."
"What happened to forgiving me?"
"I have forgiven you."
"No, you haven't."
"Brenda, I have forgiven you. But I'm still pissed."
"I didn't sleep with him, Christian."
"I believe you, but it still bothers me."
"You don't want me anymore?"
"I'll always want you."
"Well, why haven't you touched me?"
"Because I don't want to be pissed when I'm with you."
"That hasn't stopped you before."
"I'm trying to change."
"What, are you going to take it out on me, if we have sex?"
"Probably."
"As long as you're not hitting me, I welcome it. I just want things the way they were, especially in our bedroom. And Baby, I see the change you are trying to make. I appreciate it. But I miss you. And you haven't even kissed me."
"I have."
"On the top of head. I'm not a child, I'm a grown woman."
"I can see that."
She pulled her t shirt over her head, revealing her naked body. "Now, treat me like it." Tears filled her eyes. "I miss you, and I'm so sorry. Don't you miss being with me?"
She didn't give him time to answer. She moved closer and pressed her lips against his. As soon as her lips touched his, he was all over her.
After some time, he broke the kiss, reached over, and grabbed her t-shirt, then tied her wrists together. He then pushed her back onto the bed, pulling her bound wrists above her head.
He tied them to a bar on the headboard.
He opened the nightstand drawer, and grabbed a blind fold, and placed it over her eyes.
She felt the bed move, and then she felt him up against her lips. She stuck out her tongue and starting licking him.
He pushed her legs apart, then seconds later his mouth was on her.
She moaned and continued licking him.
Eventually she took him into her mouth, and sucked hard on the head of him. Christian grunted. It had been so long, and he had to cut it short, before he came in her mouth.
He moved his body away from hers, and continued licking her…there.
She grinded herself against his mouth. He liked that. "Yeah, Baby, keep doing that sh*t. I want you to cum on my face."
He grabbed her legs, and pushed them back, until her a** was off the bed, and her knees were above her shoulders. He stuck his tongue in her a**hole, which pushed her over the edge. "Oooh Christian."
He licked her clean, while she shook against his face. After finishing, he released her legs, then moved up her body. He kissed her stomach, then left briefly. She heard the drawer open, and him open something. "Christian, is that a condom? If it is, you better untie me, so I can knock the hell out of you. I told you I didn't cheat on you."
"Brenda, shut up." She felt the bed shift and him return. He kissed her, then moved down to her chest. He took each one of her buds into his mouth, sucking hard. She arched her back. He reached down and placed something at her opening. She felt it vibrate against her.
"Brenda, I'm going to put this in your a**"
"Oh, no you're not."
"Baby, it's the same size as my finger. The only difference it vibrates."
He kissed her, sliding his tongue into her mouth.
He moved the vibrator up and down her slickness. He could tell it was making her hot.
He quickly moved back down her body, and she felt his tongue enter her. And seconds later, she felt the tiny vibrator enter her a**hole. And it was…about the size of his finger, and it felt so damn good. He stiffened his tongue, and pushed it in and out of her, while pushing the vibrator in and out of her a**.
He knew she was about to cum. He felt her tighten around his tongue. She moaned and yelled. "Christian, my goodness!"
He removed the vibrator. Reached up and untied her, and took off the blindfold.
She was exhausted, she didn't even try to move. But he wasn't done with her. He moved over her. His gray eyes stare into her brown eyes, as he parted her legs and entered her.
"Baby, you're so wet."
He leaned down and started sucking on her neck. She held on tightly as he drove himself into her…...
Christian kissed her all over her face. "Are you feeling better?"
She nodded. "But not completely."
"What's wrong?"
"We need to work through our issues. We should see that therapist you suggested."
He nodded. "Ok."
She looked up at him. "As soon as possible."
"I'll see what I can set up."
She closed her eyes, and he kissed her softly.
Brenda's cell phone rung. She looked up at Christian. "I wonder who that is?"
She reached over and grabbed it. "It's Lois." She answered. "Lois, are you ok?"
"Yes! But it's Jax. Your husband beat him up!"
Brenda sat up. "No, he didn't."
"Brenda, listen to me. Yes, he did."
"How? When?"
She heard Lois screaming through the phone. "Ask him!"
"Is he ok?"
"Yes, he'll live. Brenda, you are married to a crazy person!"
"I'll have to call you back." She disconnected the call.
She looked down at Christian, who was staring at the ceiling. "Christian, did you beat up Jax?"
"Sure did."
She pushed him. "Christian!"
"Don't Christian me. That motherf*cker knew you were married, and still went after you anyway. I don't give a f*ck about your past. F*ck him."
"Christian, you can't go around hitting people."
"The hell I can't. I not only hit him, I tried to break his jaw."
Brenda got out of the bed, and went into the closet. She came out wearing a pair of pajamas. She walked over to the bed, and grabbed a pillow.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm not sleeping in here with you."
"Are you really upset, because I punched that motherf*cker in the face?"
"Yes, I am."
"Brenda, get your a** back in this bed."
"No." She walked over to the door and opened it. Before leaving she turned. "Yeah, you are really committed to that change."
"I got derailed, when my wife, went on a motherf*cking date."
She shot him a dirty look.
He propped his head up on his elbow. "And Brenda, what about when you threatened to kick Elena's a**, if she touched me?"
"But I didn't."
"But you would have, if she tried anything…right?"
Brenda rolled her eyes. "No, I was just scaring her."
"What if I told you, she asked if she could suck me off?"
"What are you talking about?"
"She came to my parents' house, to have dinner. It was one of the days you were gone. And she followed me down to the lake."
"Are you telling the truth Christian?"
"Yep. Why would I lie?"
She frowned. "To get a rise out of me."
"Brenda, it happened, but I said no."
"That b*tch."
Christian smiled. "You're not upset are you?"
She closed the door, and walked back over to the bed. "Did she touch you?"
"No."
"That old b*tch!"
Christian grinned. "Now you know how I feel."
He pulled her into the bed. She looked up at him. "You didn't do anything with her did you?"
"Of course not. We made promises, remember?" He grinned.
"That's not funny. Tell me the truth. Did you, Christian?"
"No. I only want you. My wife who continues to date. "
She was really getting sick of him. "It was not a date."
He leaned over and kissed her. "Just don't let it happen again."
"Look, I know it was stupid. But sometimes I feel like you try to control me too much."
"Brenda, I know I have a problem with control, but I don't know any man, that would be ok with what you did."
"I'm sorry Christian. Can we please just forget it?"
"I was done, as soon as I whipped his a**."
She sighed. "You can't do things like that."
"Don't date, and I won't have to."
'It was not a date."
He kissed her forehead. "Whatever it was, don't do it again."
"I told you I wouldn't. Are we done talking about it?"
"Yes, but all this arguing has made me horny."
"I'm tired Christian."
"You won't have to do a thing…..except cum….."
*sorry it took so long to post, I got sidetracked*