I know the back story is pretty messed up and yes Sakura is in a danger zone:)

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Chapter 16

The room fell in an eerily silent as Sakura flipped page after page of the painful memories Sasuke had written down to remember that day. It made her sick. It made her brows narrowed with anxiety each word she read, it made her stomach turned as she imagined how they had felt if she was in their position.

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"What the fuck do you think you are doing?!" The journal was snatched out of her hand in a sudden movement, but Sakura did not make a move to retrieve it. She stood in silent with her head down, her bangs cover her eyes as she focused on her feet. Her mind was filled with too much of information she could not accept.

Sasuke was mad when he saw the page she was on. How could she look into his privacy without asking, he never wanted people to see that and he never wanted to reveal what had happened that night. It was a piece of memory to remind him of the hatred he needed to feel towards those people. It was them who made him at the edge of losing his sanity and it was them who made him lose the hope in people and everything about the word trust.

He knew he just snapped at her, but he was mad, he wouldn't let anyone read it, not even Naruto. And to make it worse, she was the first person in his list that he doesn't want her to know about it.

"I'm fucking talking to you." The Uchiha threw the notebook on the desk before walking up to her until they were merely a few inches away.

He looked at her from above but her head was down, she didn't say anything. If it was anyone else, he would have beat the crap out of them; but he wouldn't do that to her.

"Gomen…" She bit her lower lip as she tried her hardest to control the tears that were forming in the edges of her eyes. The emotion was invading her mind forcing her all those unwanted feelings in her head. She thought she would never cry again, and she never wanted to ever again, but this time, they were heavy, too heavy for her to hold back anymore.

"Gomen….." Her voice was shaky from the unstoppable sob escaped from her throat.

Drip

A drop of tear dripped down on to the carpet as Sasuke watched those beads with heavy feeling. Her face was soaked with tears and she doesn't care how pathetic she looked right now, it doesn't matter anymore.

Sasuke found himself struggling for words, he had never seem her cry like this before, never seem her lose to her own emotions. The last time she cried was during their departure and he clearly remembered she had her best control to not let any of those emotions to slip. Watching her tears forming on her eyes and watching her bit her lip to control herself made his chest hurt and hands aching to reach out and comfort her.

His hands unconsciously moved forward but stopped midway. He doesn't know how, he doesn't know how to comfort this girl he had hurt so much.

"I- I didn't-" Sasuke began, but he was cut off when Sakura suddenly wrapped her arms around his waist.

"G-gomen…. I-I didn't know… I didn't know anything…" She hugged him and buried her head into his shirt. Her heart felt like it was going to rip apart from the inside.

If, just if she was there for them when they needed the most. She felt regret and hate herself for wasn't able to help them when they were suffering all the lost.

She was crying openly now, her tears were soaking onto his shirt, but Sasuke didn't care. He looked down at the girl and felt her warm and little body trembling against his. It wasn't any of her fault, why does she need to apologize? He couldn't understand her, she always thinks of everything as if it was her fault. He hated how she takes everything by herself.

Part of him wanted to hug back but the other part was telling him he doesn't worth hugging her. He knew he doesn't but just seeing her shaking so close to him, he couldn't control himself.

He put his hands on her shoulder and pushed her back a little before looking into her watery jade-color eyes.

"Don't…." He stopped as he felt his hand reaching onto her pink cheek to wipe those unwanted tears away.

"Don't apologize…" He finished with a soft tone before he found her staring at him with those attractive eyes of hers. Her eyes were red from her burst of emotions and her lips were swollen where she had bitted so hard.

She had stopped the tears the moment the Uchiha reached up to wipe them away, she couldn't understand why did the two have to experience all those betrays, they don't deserve it.

Her hands slowly reached up to her face, Sasuke had initially thought she was trying to wipe her tears away but was taken by surprise when she suddenly clapped her hands on her cheeks with a loud noise. She needed to slap herself awake, Sakura hated herself crying and he probably hates it more.

She doesn't want him to hate her.

Slap

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She did it a few more times before her usual expression came back onto her puffed cheeks again. It has been a long time since she cried; she will promise herself not to do it again.

"I won't cry again." She turned her back towards him and quickly wiped the remaining tears away with her sleeves. Taking a deep breath to calm every little bits of her emotion down, the pinked hair girl turned back to the Uchiha with a smile.

"So, what do we have, I am so hungry." It was true her stomach was screaming for food and now to get her mind off of the journal she just read, food is her best solution.

Sasuke didn't reply as he watched the girl walked to the table where he had settled down the porridge he brought in earlier. He felt a warm feeling inside him when she smiled at him. No girls can make any of this effect on him and she's the only one. And always will be.

He grinned when he saw Sakura's eyes sparked in millions of stars as she looked at the steamy warm food.

It's her after all.

"Can I really have this?" Sakura can almost feel herself drooling over the delicious looking food in front of her.

Sasuke wanted to laugh at her obvious comment, but restrain and decided to tease her a little." No, you read my journal so I won't let you have it." He was mad, but not anymore.

Despite her hunger, Sakura knew it was her fault for touching his journal in the first place. Taking a last look at the sparkly food, she swallowed hard before letting it go. " Ok, it was my fault after all."

(grumble)

Her stomach chose the wrong moment to make a loud whale dying sound and Sakura quickly placed her hands over her stomach.

Damn it.

"No, I-I wasn't hungry, it just…" It was an obvious lie but she struggle for words to get her out of this situation.

Sasuke almost smiled at her reaction, almost, what kind of lie was that? He sighed thinking he should stop now.

"Fine, you can have it, but there is a condition." The words slipped out of his mouth before he even noticed what he was saying. What condition does he want?

"Really?!" Sakura didn't think much about the condition part.

Watching her looking at him with her large jade color eyes, he felt his face slowly warming up.

"Don't…." He looked away when he felt he can't stand look at her eyes anymore. It was getting too warm.

"Huh?" Sakura waited as he look at her from the corner of his eyes before shifting back to the floor.

"Don't make that expression again…" He finished off in a very quiet tone. He wasn't sure she heard him, but he has to say it. He doesn't what to see her cry anymore. It hurts more than getting physically injured.

Sakura blinked a few times, surprised at his condition, before her eyes soften. She heard it clearly and those words made her smiled.

"I will never do that again." Sasuke's stiffed shoulder relaxed and felt his mouth tilting up slightly.

"You can have it."

"Sasuke," He turned his eyes back and found her standing in front of him.

She walked closer before she tipped her toes up to give him a kiss on the cheek. She has done it every time her grandma provided her food. She had told her once that it always make her happy whenever she does it.

"Thank you." She walked back to enjoy her food while leaving the surprised Uchiha standing like a rock trying to process what just happened. His face started to burned but luckily Sakura wasn't looking. His pride wouldn't allow her see this side of him.

Sasuke settled himself on his bed and took out a magazine so he could avoid looking at her the whole time. A few minute later, he found himself staring at her again. He groaned in frustration when his mind shifted to her soft lips. He just couldn't get his mind off of the sensation of her lips on his cheek.

"Sasuke." Sakura called out for him but he didn't answer. She had finished a while ago, but seeing Sasuke deep in thought in something, she decided not to disturbed him but he was maybe too into whatever he was thinking.

She walked up to him and closed the distance between them trying to get his attention. "Sasuke." He finally snapped himself out of whatever he was thinking when she had gotten too close.

"What." For some reason, his tone came out very usual though he almost jumped when her face was so close to his.

"Can I borrow your shower? I haven't take it for a while now, so I think I stink." She couldn't smell herself but she could feel her arm and back sticky from the sweat she had when she had a fever.

The Uchiha got up from the bed without a word and went over to his closet. He grabbed a long sleeve black shirt, shorts, and towel before throwing it to her.

"Wear it." He said simply before sitting himself down on the bed again.

"Thanks." Sakura thank him and went to the bath room for a relieving shower. The stickiness was really killing her.

Once she was inside, the pink hair girl carefully took the blue shirt off trying not to strain the injuries on her. Her whole body was in bandages and she sighed at the thought of taking each one of them down. It took nearly 20 minutes for her to get rid of those bloody gauze off and when she was finally done the girl stepped inside the water slowly as she felt the pain shotting up her body. It subsided slowly as she get used to the pain. Her body relaxed with the warm steamy water engulfed her.

It has been a long time since she got to take a warm bath, it felt too nice and she doesn't want to get up anymore.

Outside the room, Sasuke for some reason has gotten up from his bed and now was standing beside the bathroom door. She had taken too long, maybe it wasn't that long, but to him it was a long time. He was worry. What if her injuries hurt too much and she fainted, he shake the thought off assuring himself she wouldn't. But what if she trip and fell and hit her head? What if she….. he scratched his head trying to get all those thoughts away.

Sakura got out the water as soon as she was done, any longer she was sure she could have fallen sleep in that warm tub. Taking the white towel Sasuke had given her, she wiped her hair and the water off her body and smile in satisfaction when she felt the stickiness is gone.

Why hasn't she done yet? It has been almost been hour….. Sasuke was starting to worry again even though he just told himself she's ok 5 minutes ago. In fact Sakura was only in there for 30 minutes but Sasuke's internal clock works way faster when he thought about her.

The Uchiha heard a slight hiss and he didn't even give a second thought before he burst into the bathroom.

"What's taken you so long." He was glad that it came out that way. He doesn't want to say anything that would make him sound worry. It's a blow to his pride for the Uchiha to say something like that.

Sakura was about to put on the long sleeve shirt when he burst in. She paused thinking did she really take a long time.

"Sorry, the bandages took me some time." She shifted her eyes back onto the black shirt before starting to put it on. She didn't feel embarrassed since they had taken shower when they were little anyway.

She didn't mind since Sasuke wouldn't care anyway.

Noticing he had looked at her only in her undergarment longer than he should have, or shouldn't have at all, he quickly shut the door. Outside, the Uchiha's ears and face were starting to burn when the image flashed back again. No, he shouldn't be thinking about it but her damn curvy body was keep flashing back.

What the fuck am I thinking…. He felt like he's going to go crazy really soon.

"Sasuke, what are you doing?" He turned around from leaning his forehead on the wall. Just now, he probably looked like he was banging his head on the wall.

"Hn." He didn't feel like saying anything and walk to his bed to calm his head down. He only took a few steps before he noticed something unpleasant again.

"Where is the shorts I gave you." He demanded and wasn't too happy to see her bare thighs. The shirt was indeed long enough to make it a mini dress but he still couldn't let her walk around with just that.

It's ok for him to look at, but not anyone else.

"It's too big, I couldn't fit the waist part. Thanks though but I am good with just your shirt." She started to walk to him, and he sighed when he saw her stumble her way with her wobbly legs. He turned to her and put his arms under her knees before lifting her up and carry her off to his bed.

"How long do you think you are going to walk with those kind of legs."

"I can still walk, just…just a bit slow…" He settled her down carefully on the edge of the bed and bent down to examine her ankle. It has gotten a little better but he knew it still hurts a whole lot when she walks.

"Don't move." The Uchiha went to the table beside the bed and grabbed a roll of gauze and some ointment.

He bent down and started to apply the treatment when Sakura protested she could do it herself. But Sasuke didn't let her.

He felt like sighing a hundred more times when he noticed how skinny she was. Her legs are barely the size of his arm and he could tell even with the long sleeves covering her, her arms were probably only a bunch of skin and bones with no meat at all.

"Sorry for bothering you, I will leave after you are done." Her voice broke his chain of thoughts.

"No." He wouldn't let her go. How could she leave with her current state? He could never look at her the same way as he looked at her before. She is fragile and he knew if he doesn't watch out, she might be gone forever.

"But…"

"No." Then the argument begins.

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I think I will have trouble continuing from here, anyone has suggestions?