Chapter Eight~
Emma's POV—
I sit alone in my house, my entire body raging with this gnawing poison of a hunger. It devours every shred of strength I have left in me. God I miss her.
Sometimes I fear that she won't ever remember me. That she won't ever love me back. But I will never stop loving her. I knew that the second she woke up.
She's different now, yes, but she's still the same person.
Maybe she's not the Regina I knew, but she's still Regina.
And when I look into her eyes now, they're not clouded with the hate or the pain or the hurt they're always shrouded by.
All I can see now is that beautiful soul. That soul full of light and love and emotion. True, raw emotion, just raining out of her like a waterfall.
So as I sit here, letting my stomach being clawed open by how much I miss her, I decide that I'm going to do something about it.
I think I'm going to write her some letters after all. Some letters that I'll let her see.
I still want to give her a chance to remember things on her own. A chance to start over. But maybe one day I'll be able to admit that I'm in love with her.
Dear Regina, I start.
You asked me to tell you who you were, and I was unable to provide an answer. This is because I want you to find yourself, and that's something you're still going to have to do.
But maybe I can help you. I can tell you who I thought you were.
And god, this is a more difficult task than it seems.
Because you…. Weren't just one thing. You were many things. I guess I can start out by telling you that we weren't on the best of terms when we met…. In fact, we hated each other. You were cold and hateful towards me because I was the birth mother to your adopted son, Henry. But even then, in those very early days, when I looked into your eyes I could tell that you weren't a mean person. There is so much hidden in your eyes, Regina, so much. Your eyes, they tell a story. They tell a story of the person you really are, the person I got to know as we eventually became friends.
And this person, this person way at your core, is so unbelievably good. She is someone who feels emotions not only with her heart, but with her entire soul. She cares with every fiber of life she has within her, and learns to love with a raging passion. Sometimes this love and care is a little too much to handle, and her passion and rage drives her to do things she regrets. But when she does these things, she regrets them with her entire body. This is the Regina I know. The Regina I know is strong and beautiful and good. No matter what kind of things she has done, she always wants to be better.
So who are you?
You are my inspiration. You tell me that I don't always have to do good things to be a good person.
I grieve every day that you can't remember who you are. But at the same time, it is such a blessing. You did things that you regretted. And that was so unfair…. You are such a beautiful person, and it wasn't fair that you were so haunted by your memories…. All I ever wanted for you was a happy ending. And I think in a way, this is it. This is the way for you to not be haunted any more. This is the way for you to be the person you were always meant to be.
Anyways, Regina, it's late. I hope this helped clear things up a bit….More letters are on their way.
-Emma.