sorry i haven't updated in a while i got my computer back and then our internet started failing but don't worry i'll make up for it by updating as much as i can. plus i added a new story and i'm working on another story. so be sure to check those out. one of them is wild boy and i don't know what i'll call the other we'll just have to wait and see. i do not own shugo chara or count chocula cereal... hmm now i want count chocula.... damn it..... oh well.

Chapter 4

[Amu's pov]

"Ikuto, you're back!" I yelled jumping into his arms. He smirked and hugged me.

"Aw Amu did you miss me that much?" he chuckled, his mouth next to my ear. I blushed and pushed him away.

"B…baka!" I said turning my back to him, blushing like crazy. He smirked and wrapped his arms around me, resting his head on my shoulder. I blushed more feeling like I was going to burst. I could feel his strong arms holding me tight, I could feel his heart beat against my back, his breath on my neck. I was overly happy. He was back, he was mine. Everything was fine. We could be together, me and him. Everything had been a dream. I loved him. And he loved me, didn't he.

"Ikuto how do you feel about me?" I asked. He smiled and turned me around. He kissed me, hungry, demanding. I could tell that he loved me. He didn't have to say it. Speaking would only ruin it. After a while he pulled away, both of us breathing heavily.

"Ikuto I love you" I whispered leaning forward to kiss him again.

"Amu-Chan? Amu-Chan, wake up? Amu-Chan it's time to get up!" someone yelled.

I sat up to find Yaya about to pounce on me and Rima and keito standing in the doorway. I jumped out of bed.

"You idiots! Why the hell did you wake me up!?" I yelled at them, Keito and Rima where grinning and yaya had a huge smile on her face.

"What's with you guys?" I asked looking at all of them.

"Ikuto your back"

"Ikuto how do you feel about me"

"Ikuto I love you" they said mockingly. My face turned bright red and I backed out of the room. 'I can't believe I said that out loud' I thought as I walked downstairs for breakfast. I was wearing a yellow tank top and pink boy shorts with yellow polka dots, and I most likely had horrible bed head. I walked into the kitchen not paying attention to my surroundings and tried grabbed my count chocula's out of the cabinet. I puffed out my cheeks in anger when I realized someone had put them on the top shelf where I couldn't reach them.

Suddenly someone reached up from behind me and took them down. I turned around to face them and froze, my cheeks suddenly feeling hot. Ikuto stood inches away from me smirking. In his hand was my cereal. I was suddenly conscious of how I looked. I tried to back away only to remember that I was standing in front of the counter. He leaned forward placing on hand on the counter on either side of me, trapping me. I regained my composure as best as I could.

"What are you doing here Ikuto" I demanded looking up at him. I opened my mouth to say something but froze up. His face was inches away from mine. I was staring into his sapphire blue eyes. His lips were turned up just a bit in that smirk that I had come to love so much. It was then that I knew that no matter what he did, no matter what he says, I will always feel the same about him. I wondered if he had any feelings for me at all.

"I'm here to talk to you." He said, his voice had gotten deeper over the years. His eyes seemed darker; his hair was a bit longer. 'How is it that I'm just now noticing it' I wondered as I stared up at him still unable to talk.

"Amu I get that your mad at me, you can even hate me if you want to. But don't ignore me, listen to what I have to say!" he said suddenly angry. It surprised me, I had only seen him angry once or twice, and only once at me… but that time he had been faking it hadn't he, just to make me leave him alone.

"I don't hate you; yeah I'm mad at you but… I don't hate you. I could never hate you, Ikuto" I said quietly looking away from his face, afraid that I would once again be taken in by his beautiful eyes.

"Then why are you doing this Amu?" he asked his voice softening. I knew that he was no longer smirking. He was probably frowning. "Why do you ignore me, and do things that would make me angry, and jealous?" his voice was rising again.

"I haven't done anything" I said defensively. He started to laugh, but it didn't reach his eyes. He was mocking me, he knew.

"Do you think I'm stupid? Do you think I didn't notice that you show up with that guy everywhere I go? Did you think I didn't notice that you didn't like that guy all over you? I'm not stupid Amu!" he yelled. I leaned away from him as best as I could. I couldn't believe it, I was scared of him. I wasn't scared that he would hurt me, I was afraid that he would never talk to me again. He was looking at me waiting for my reaction. I looked down letting my bangs hide my watery eyes. 'Don't look, don't look.' I begged silently. His fingers touched my chin and he gently lifted my head so I had no choice but to look up at him. The tears fell but I refused to make a sound. I glared up at him defiantly the tears streaming down my face. He seemed surprised that I was crying. He didn't seem to know what to do.

"What are you getting mad about? I'm the one who should be mad at you. You made a promise to me, and then broke it. All this time I've thought only of you, Waited for you. Even though I only heard from you once or twice all these years. And then I hear from you finally after waiting so long, and I find out your getting married to someone else. How am I supposed to react to that? Am I supposed to just give up, just move on as though nothing happened? How could you do that to me!" I yelled losing my cool. I grabbed his shirt and pressed my forehead against his chest. He placed his hands on my shoulders.

"I found my dad in Miami. Nothing like I expected. He was living in a rat hole apartment. Apparently he broke his hand, Couldn't play his violin any more. He had gotten into gambling, had a lot of debts. Got his money off the black market. They were after him. Asa's father owned a chain of live houses. I played at the main one and that's when Asa met me. Apparently she fell in love with me the first time she heard me play. She's the kind of girl who gets what she wants. Her father knew about my dad's problem. He told us that if I would go out with and eventually marry Asa he would pay my father's debts. My father agreed right away. After all I had told him I had no reason to go back to Japan." He said resting his chin on the top of my head. I didn't move, just stood there letting him hold me.

"I never wanted to hurt you Amu. But I needed to help my father. I thought about you every day. I didn't call you because I was afraid that just hearing your voice would make me want to stop everything and come running to your side. That time I called you and you were upset about Tadase, I wanted to come running back to you, to comfort you. But I didn't. I'm sorry Amu" he said kissing my forehead.

"Ikuto don't marry her. Be mine." I begged gripping his shirt tighter.

"I wish I could Amu." he said stepping away from me. My eyes widened. 'What does he mean. Does he expect that I'll just accept the marriage just because he told me he didn't really want it? What the hell' I thought as I stared up at him in disbelief.

"So you just want me to accept it, after hearing that you expect me to just quietly sit by while you marry that girl. What the hell is your problem Ikuto" I pushed past him and ran to my room, making sure to slam the door. When I was alone I leaned against the door and slid so I was sitting. Tears were once again running down my face. That jerk how could he do that. He got my hopes up and then just crushed them.

[Ikuto's pov]

I leaned against the counter, my arms hanging limply by my side. 'How could I be so stupid?' I thought as I heard her door slam. Utau was standing in the door way, glaring at me. 'When did she become so protective of Amu' I wondered.

"Why are you so good at breaking hearts?" she asked. I could tell she was angry; it was definitely not a good idea to be around her when she's angry.

"It's not like I actually tried to hurt her. I just want her to know how I feel." I said trying to think of a way to leave without being killed.

"Did you really think that just telling her would be enough?" she asked her voice still filled with anger.

"No I knew it wouldn't but what else am I supposed to do. Dad needs the money." I said standing up. if I went slowly maybe she wouldn't notice.

"Couldn't you have just asked me for money, or mom, all of us would have willingly sent money" she said placing her hands on her hips. I said nothing hoping that if she got bored she would let me leave.

"You should leave now before she bites your head off." Kukai said walking up behind Utau. She turned around and glared at him.

"What's that supposed to mean?" she asked angrily. He shrugged his shoulders and motioned for me to leave.

"Don't take his side kukai or we're over" she said crossing her arms. Kukai got a sweat drop.

"Oh come on Utau don't break up with me again" he said grinning. She hit him in the back of the head as I slipped out the front door of the house.

"Those two fight too much" Yoru said coming out of nowhere. I ignored him and kept walking.

"Why are you still here?" I asked him as we walked down the street.

"Because you still haven't found your own freedom" he said landing on my shoulder. I sighed wondering what he meant. Amu's chara's had left her a long time ago. Did that mean she had found her true self? I sighed not really knowing what to think. I looked back at Amu's house and saw her watching me from the window of her room. Her hand was pressed against the glass and her eyes were red from crying.

"I'm sorry" I mouthed. Her eyes widened when she realized I had seen her and she blushed. Suddenly I noticed her lips were moving. I couldn't tell what she was saying. I walked back towards the house and jumped up onto the balcony. Her lips moved again, this time I could see what she was trying to say. "I love you". I reached for the handle to open the door but she locked it and turned her back to me. I could tell she was watching my reflection in the mirror on the other wall.

"I love you too" I said before jumping off the balcony.

so so how was it? i'm having some troubles with this one so i need some motivation. if you like it review and tell me ok. love ya all