Author's Note:

So, here's chapter 4!

First of all, I'm so sorry for the wait. I didn't have the right inspiration and when I posted chapter 3, I had absolutely no idea what I would like to see happen in chapter 4 so I had to think about that and that took me some extra day so I'm sorry guys but I hope this chapter will make up for the wait. I really tried my very best for this on, rereading almost every line to see if it fitted in the story and what was happening at that moment so it took me about 8 hours to write this chapter. I had this chapter written yesterday afternoon and I send it to my Beta but she isn't answering so she's probably on vacation so that took me an extra wait day. So if there are any grammar/spelling mistakes I'm sorry. I hope that my Beta is back when I've written chapter 5 because I know that it's hard reading a story with a lot of grammar/spelling mistakes.

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Chapter 4: Please hold on

"Help will come Mer, I'm sure of that," Cristina reassured her. "Owen knows; he always knows when something is wrong. They will be here soon Mer, I promise."

'Another promise, another lie?' The thought ran through her head, partially unwanted, as she nodded at her person. Cristina mustered a reassuring smile before she linked her arm in Meredith's and they both walked back towards where the others were sleeping. If they could get some sleep themselves, the hours would pass easily and maybe, just maybe, help would come tomorrow and then she could carefully think about the future. A future including another addition to her McFamily…

''Lex, you awake?'' Mark asked softly as he awoke from his slumber. He rubbed his eyes tiredly and nudged her slightly. She didn't stir. He had surprisingly slept relatively good despite the cold and pain and prayed that Owen and the rest at the hospital knew that they never made it to Boise and had send the rescue teams to come look for them.

He looked over at Derek and a lump formed in his throat as he saw how pale he looked. His eyes were closed but his mouth hung slightly open. It was obvious that he couldn't get enough air through his nose anymore and it pained to see him so hurt, so fragile again. Images of his best friend, his brother, on a hospital bed, hooked up to every possible machine flew through his mind and tears formed in his eyes at the thought of him going through that again.

''Mark?'' Lexie frowned as she squinted her eyes to see if she had seen it right and she had. Mark was crying. The strong, cocky, and brave Mark Sloan was crying. Tears were slowly sliding down his cheeks and she turned her head to the direction he was looking at and knew immediately what had caused his tears. She sighed and grabbed his hand, squeezing it to let him know she was there for him.

He turned around at the contact and smiled warmly at her. She knew it was a fake smile but it was a smile nonetheless and that was all she needed from him for now.

''You doing okay?'' She asked, although she knew it was obvious that he wasn't doing okay. His best friend, her brother in law, was badly hurt and every time he looked at him she knew a piece of him died inside and it pained her to see him that way. The oh so strong and confident Mark Sloan was breaking under the image of seeing his brother so hurt and broken and she couldn't do more than trying to comfort him and hope for the best.

''I could better ask that same question to you,'' He smirked and bent down to kiss her hand that was still intertwined with his. She smiled at him and stretched her other arm towards his face to slowly wipe the tears from his eyes.

''It's gonna be okay Mark'' She tried to reassure him. ''I'm sure Owen already knows about our situation and send the rescue teams on their way''

''But Derek, he looks so pale and.. and what if they don't get here in time. He… he won't survive another night Lex'' He said as panic crossed his face.

''I'm sure they will get here in time Mark'' She replied, holding his cheek captive with her hand. ''We just have to believe that okay?'' He didn't look at her, just stared at his lap, not knowing what to say to that. He wanted to believe that, he wanted to believe that so badly but he didn't know if he could.

''Okay?'' She asked again, this time more firmly but still making sure that she didn't mean it badly.

He slowly nodded but still couldn't make himself to look her in the eye. Guilt struck him for failing once again to look after his brother. As a child he had the task to look out for his brother as he was stronger build and much taller than Derek was but it mostly turned out the other way and he still regretted that. He had failed Carolyn. He had failed the whole family and now, years after, he had failed Derek too.

''Mark, it's not your fault do you hear me? You couldn't do anything about this. Don't blame yourself for something you can't possibly control'' She told him, hoping that it would penetrate his one-minded thoughts.

''But-''

''No buts, Mark'' She said stern. ''You can't blame yourself for the plane crash happening and you couldn't do anything to prevent Derek from going on that plane. We were all needed and no one could have foreseen this so stop blaming yourself okay?''

He looked at her, his eyes red from the tears he had shed and he sniffled once again to keep his nose from running.

''Come lie next to me for a bit,'' She suggested and patted the space next to her.

He slowly nodded and made himself as comfortable as he could possibly get under the circumstances and kissed the top of her head. She smiled warmly at him and placed her hand in his again.

''Derek will be okay Mark. He's Derek and you know he won't give up without one hell of a fight. He will do everything in his power to stay with Meredith. He survived a gunshot wound to the chest and he will survive this too, I'm sure of that'' She said and smiled him a reassuring smile. She hoped that she was right because honestly, she didn't know if Derek would be okay. She shot him a quick glance and saw that he was still asleep with Meredith lying next to him. He looked so calm and at peace but she knew that behind that peace and calmness, there was pain and agony. Ever since he was finally happy with Meredith again he was afraid of losing her and she knew that that was the only thing on his mind right now. She could only hope and pray that they would finally get their happily ever after all they've been through…

''Shouldn't we already be there?'' Bailey snapped as she was getting impatient. They were in the air for close to 2 hours now and every minute that passed by she was getting more impatient. Every minute counted and with not knowing how their friends and colleagues were doing she couldn't take it any longer.

''The area is very large doctor and we wouldn't wanna miss them by going too fast'' Mark said as he looked at Bailey who nodded in response.

''It's just that-''

''I know'' Mark interrupted. ''They're your colleagues and friends and you want them to be save. I understand''

''Yeah…'' Bailey replied, looking at the ground in defeat. She couldn't stand the bear thought that maybe some of them died, that maybe all of them had died in the crash. Even though she sometimes couldn't stand them she loved them all and she couldn't lose one of them. She had practically raised them, had seen their ups and downs through life and couldn't deal with another death after George passed away. She just couldn't…

''Derek?'' Meredith said as she carefully nudged him. She hated that part. She hated to wake him up from the one place where he wasn't feeling a great amount of physical pain but she had to. They had to see how he was doing and they couldn't do that when he was asleep.

''Arghhh'' He groaned as he squeezed his eyelids shut tighter. He didn't wanna wake up. The pain was too unbearable and he couldn't do anything to stop it. ''No…'' He rasped. ''Please…''

Meredith's heart clenched at his words and tears formed in her eyes again. She had never seen him so broken, so hurt and it broke her heart. When he had been shot and had woken up from surgery they were able to give him some morphine to reduce the amount of pain he was feeling but here they didn't have any morphine. They had nothing except from some bandages and scissors and she couldn't bear the flash of pain that crossed his face every time he took in a deep breath.

'I'm sorry Derek. I'm so sorry but you have to wake up'' She said as she stroked his damp hair. ''I need to see how you're doing Derek, please''

''No…'' He rasped as he moved his head vigorously. ''Please…''

The noise had startled Mark from his slumber and he looked up, seeing Meredith bend over Derek, stroking his hair as she was obviously trying to wake him up but with no success.

''Derek'' Mark said suddenly as he had started to walk up to them. He kneeled down on the opposite side of where Meredith was kneeling and brought his face in front of his.

''Derek, you have to wake up okay? We can't see how you're doing when you're asleep'' Mark tried as he shot a worry look at Meredith who looked like she could burst into tears any second.

''It hurts'' Derek breathed.

''I know man, I know..'' Mark sighed as he shot Meredith an apologetic look. ''But please open your eyes okay, we need to see how you're doing. Everyone is worried about you man''

''Please Derek…'' Meredith begged. ''I need you…we need you'' She suddenly blurted out as Mark turned his head towards Meredith immediately, a shocked expression on his face.

''Mer…'' Derek's eyes opened immediately and he looked at her face, seeing panic cross her features. ''You're…. pregnant?'' He breathed. A smile forming on his lips at the mere thought.

''I… I'' Meredith stuttered. What did she say? Why on earth did she tell him that now? She wanted it to be special. It should have been a beautiful moment, one you would always remember and carry with you for the rest of your life. She most definitely didn't wanna remember Derek so hurt and broken whenever she thought about the moment she told him she was pregnant.

''Yes. I'm pregnant Derek'' She said as she looked at him, her expression blank.

No smile. Nothing.

His facial expressions changed from sheer happiness to worry and sadness as he saw the look on his wife's face. She wasn't happy and he didn't know why. Sure he knew why. They were in a plane crash and they were all hurt and tired, but they've been trying for so long to get pregnant and he didn't get why she wasn't happy about it. Was she scared? He didn't know.

''Mer...'' He breathed as he tried his hardest to pull his body into a sitting position. A grunt escaped his mouth and Mark immediately helped him to get him upright without worsening his injuries further.

''Mer… look at me'' He said in between breaths and she slowly lifted her head to look into his baby blue eyes. The eyes she fell in love with…

''Derek….'' She sighed as tears began pooling in her eyes again. She was a crying mess, a total mess. Her hormones were running wild and she couldn't do anything about it. They were in a God damn forest after their plane had crashed down and they were all hurt and broken and she couldn't deal with a pregnancy now, not when she didn't even know if the father of her baby would survive…

'I'm scared Derek'' She admitted as tears began to flow freely from her eyes. He lifted his good arm to slowly wipe them away and looked over at Mark who stared at him, still shocked from what Meredith had said.

''Oh Mer…'' He breathed as he continued to wipe the tears from her eyes.

''I'm scared of losing you Derek, I'm scared of losing this baby, I'm scared of everything'' She said as she burst out in tears. ''I can't do this Derek…''

''Yes, you.. can'' He breathed. ''I.. know you.. Mer. You're.. a strong… woman.. you can.. do this and you.. won't.. lose me. I.. promise'' He breathed as he took her hand in his, squeezing it tightly.

''You can't.. promise that'' She said in between hiccups. ''Look at you. You're hurt, you're in pain, I can see that. Everyone can see that Derek and we don't even know if the baby survives. We've had a miscarriage before and what if it happens again. I can't do this Derek, I just can't''

''Shhhh… it's… okay.. Mer'' He tried to soothe her. But he suddenly cringed as a wave of pain overtook his body. The immense amount of pain he felt just minutes ago came crashing back on him as the adrenaline of the situation wore off and he squeezed his eyes shut to try and block out the pain.

''Derek, breathe'' Meredith told him as she saw him panting. ''Take slow deep breaths''

''Can't…'' He rasped as a chill shook his body. His teeth chattered and Meredith frowned. She put the back of her hand on his forehead and was shocked of the warmth that radiated from it.

''Der…''

''Mer… I… don't feel.. so good'' He breathed.

''It's gonna be okay Derek. Just hold on for me okay?'' She said as she took his pulse. 'Too fast, too fast' she thought.

''Mark, go grab some blankets, now!'' Meredith immediately yelled. Cristina who was sleeping a few feet away, stirred from her sleep and looked around her in confusion. ''What.. what's going on?''

''Cristina!'' Meredith yelled. ''Derek suddenly spiked a fever. He has an accelerated heart rate and is breathing too fast. You need to do something!'' She cried as she looked at her husband who went paler every passing second. Beats of sweat formed on his forehead and his mouth hung slightly open again.

''Mark, what's going on?'' Lexie said as she woke up from the noise and saw Mark looking scared, holding a bunch of blankets in his arms.

''Derek spiked a fever and has an accelerated heart rate and breathing. He's not doing well Lex..'' Mark sighed as he quickly walked back.

''How did this happen so suddenly?'' Cristina asked as she took his pulse and listened to his breathing.

''I.. I don't know. I wanted him to wake up to see how he was doing but he didn't want to and then.. then I told him I was pregnant. He tried to comfort me but suddenly he grunted in pain and he began breathing hard and fast'' Meredith cried as she stroked his hair out of his face.

''I think it's hypoxemia Mer'' Cristina said, looking at her with fear in her eyes.

She knew what that meant. It was bad, really bad. Hypoxemia typically becomes worse over 24-48 hours after injury but it may also cause rapid deterioration and that was what was happening to Derek now. He was deteriorating fast and they didn't have the equipment to treat him. He was going to die. Derek was going to die if they didn't get him to the hospital within the next few hours…

''I see something, I see something! Both Bailey and Teddy yelled as they were looking to their right and saw the part of a plane through the snapped trees underneath them.

''We have found the plane. I repeat, we have found the plane'' Mark spoke through the walky-talky as he contacted the other helicopter. ''Coordinates are 45.55079°N 122.67122° back-up required''

''Where are we gonna land?'' Owen asked as he was mentally trying to prepare himself for what was coming. He had dealt with such situations before when he was in the war, had seen many of his friends die or injured but he couldn't ever get used to it. Every time it was different and he would never forget the moments when one of his friends died. Again.

''We will land there'' Mark said and pointed at the open space that was created by the plane who carried his doctors, his doctors who they still didn't know of how they were doing…

''We're going down'' The pilot spoke. ''Okay'' Mark nodded and checked his seatbelt and those of the doctors to make sure they were still doing their job before he slowly sat back and waited for touch-down...

''Derek, hold on you hear me!'' Meredith cried as she sobbed uncontrollably. 'Don't you dare die on me!'' she yelled.

''Mer…'' Cristina sighed as she looked at Meredith, sadness and desperation crossing her features.

''No ,Cristina! No!'' Meredith yelled. ''I'm not giving up''

''Mer….'' Derek rasped as he looked at her through half-shut eyelids. ''It's… okay…''

''No, Derek! You fight, you fight for us, for our baby. You're not allowed to die on me!'' she yelled again as she couldn't believe what was happening. Why was he giving up? He couldn't possibly give up. If they just had an oxygen mask, something as simple as an oxygen mask he wouldn't be dying right now. She let out a light laughter at the irony of that thought and both Cristina and Mark looked at her in confusion.

''If… if we just had an oxygen mask… he...he wouldn't be dying right now Cristina. It's not fair'' She sobbed.

''I know… I know'' Cristina replied, looking at Derek with sympathy in his eyes. She didn't like him. She didn't hate him but she just didn't like him. His cocky arrogance was making her nauseous and she didn't know how Meredith could put it with that. But seeing Derek here now, possibly dying, was making her feel something else than nauseas and she hated the universe for screwing up with them again. He was finally going to be a daddy and she knew how much he wanted to be one. It was not fair, not fair at all…

''Derek, keep breathing! Meredith yelled as she noticed that his chest rose and fell too slowly.

''Mer, even if help will come they will be too late. There's nothing else we can do for him'' She sighed as she looked at her person. Tears were starting to form in her eyes too now and she tried her hardest not to show them.

''Help will come, I'm sure of that'' Meredith said hopeful.

''Mer, you-''

''Helicopter!'' Mark shouted as he quickly run outside.

''They're here! We're saved!'' Mark shouted and Meredith turned her head to the right immediately, seeing the helicopter making contact with the ground. ''Derek, they're here, it's gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay. We're gonna get to the hospital. Please hold on for me for a bit okay?'' she said as she looked at him. Her eyes pleading. He managed a small, slow nod and she smiled, squeezing his hand in response.

Maybe, just maybe, everything was going to be okay and they would finally get their happy ending together. And she liked the thought of that. She liked that thought very much….