Disclaimer: I do not own The 100 or the characters in it. They are owned by Kass Morgan
Summery: Clarke was always good at keeping secrets. In fact, she's been keeping one since she was six years old and it's about to come out in the open.
Couples: Bellarke eventually
Rating: T probably because of swearing mostly but also because of mature content.
Author's Note: This is it. Clarke's BIG secret is finally revealed! Hope everyone likes it.
XOXOX
Octavia looks at Bellamy and Clarke with shame written on her face. She knows what she said to Bellamy was harsh and cruel but she was just so mad at him. He put her in a situation that he knew frightened her to the brink of insanity. Locking her away in the dark? That was her nightmare and her brother brought it to life.
"I'm going to your tent Clarke. I can't be around him right now." She tells her best friend who just nods at her somberly before moving past her brother without a word. He watches her leave with a pained expression on his face.
Clarke knows he wants to say something to her but he was too upset to move. The drop ship door closes with a slam and Bellamy closes his eyes in defeat.
"Come on. I think we deserve a drink." Clarke says softly as she moves closer to him but not touching him. She knows he was upset and if she touched him he could lash out on her and she wanted to avoid that at all costs.
He says nothing but follows her down the ladder and toward the medical wing. She goes into her secret compartment and pulls out the bottle of Vodka, that they found at the bunker, before opening it and holding it out for him.
He takes it without hesitation and takes a large gulp before ungracefully plopping down on the floor. After a few seconds, Clarke sits next to him with a respectable distance between them.
"Don't take what she said to heart. She was afraid of being locked up there." She says after a few minutes of silence.
He looks at her so heartbroken and all she wanted to do was make that look disappear from his face.
"If my mother saw me now, she would be so disappointed in me. She raised me to be better, to be good...and all I do is hurt people." He whispered as the tears start gathering in his eyes. He sees Clarke shake her head at his words.
"That's not true. She is just upset and a little love struck. You two will get through this. You are a good person and a great brother Bellamy; you always were." She replies before holding her hand out to him to hand her the bottle. They probably shouldn't be wasting the liquor on themselves but being leaders had a slight advantage.
"Thank you for being there for her. You are good for her." He says and she sees the honesty in his eyes. They really have come a long way since they were dropped down to Earth.
"I tried to do anything I could for her." She says and smiles thinking of all the times she sneaked into Jaha's office to get the inspection schedule, teaching her math and all her school work, telling her no matter what she was meant to exist.
"I know. It is my fault she was arrested though, you would have made sure she got out of there safe. I never understood why I wasn't arrested too that night. I deserved to be." He says and she purses her lips.
"Children can't be guilty of their parent's 'crimes'. Your case was a delicate one because you were over eighteen when Octavia was discovered and some council members wanted you to be charged with aiding and a bedding. However, when I got questioned and said I didn't know anything about her, I had to make it seem like your mom wasn't in her right mind. That's what we always agreed on if the time came. If I made it look like your mom would do anything to protect Octavia, including threatening you, you would be spared and that's all we ever wanted." Clarke confessed and Bellamy looked even more guilty at the thought of her making his mother seem crazy so he wouldn't get arrested.
"I was really pissed off when you got demoted from guard duty." Clarke blurted out and Bellamy looked up at her in surprise.
"To be honest, I wasn't. I'm sure you know all about my mom and what she did to get me that job. I never liked what she had to do to keep us safe, but what she had to do to get me a job? It killed me." He confessed thinking of Dashnaw's grimy eyes lingering on his mother's body. It used to take all his energy not to shoot him in the head as soon as he got a gun.
Clarke is silent for a minute. Biting her lip and looking at him. She could leave the conversation at that but...
Bellamy finally deserved to know the truth.
"That's...that's not exactly what happened." Clarke admits before she starts telling him a story. A story that changed her life and would change his view on her forever. A story she never wanted him to know before.
(Flashback)
It was Clarke's fourteenth birthday and was happily walking towards the familiar path of section 16 to see her best friend and Aurora. She knew she couldn't stay too long because Bellamy would be back soon, but she wanted to see her family on her birthday.
She knocks three times on the door and Aurora opens it with a giant smile on her face.
"Happy birthday honey!" Aurora says softly, pulling her in a warm embrace. Octavia quickly jumps out of the closet to hug her friend as soon as the door was closed.
"Happy birthday C! I can't believe you're fourteen! What's it like?" Octavia asks excitedly. She was only twelve since her birthday was in a couple months, and Bellamy's nineteenth birthday in four months months.
"Nothing new so far." Clarke jokes and smiles at her best friend.
They talk for a little before Aurora stands up reluctantly.
"I'm sorry I have to get going so soon. I have a meeting with Joe Dashnaw about a recommendation letter for Bellamy and I can't be late. He really needs this job, we can use his extra ration points." She explains as she looks in the mirror to make sure she looks good.
Clarke's eyes harden at the mention of the pig of a guard Dashnaw. He was known to use his power to influence women into his bed and she will be damned if she lets him do anything to Aurora.
Clarke stands up and moves towards Aurora.
"Why don't I go with you? Having the 'princess of The Ark' could be an advantage to get him to write the letter." She says innocently and Aurora's eyes narrow, but she nods, knowing there was no point in arguing with the stubborn girl.
"Alright dear. Let's go then." She says as they both hug Octavia goodbye and make their way to Dashnaw's office.
Aurora knocks and waits for permission to enter before the two girls walk into the tiny room. There seating in a classic business chair was an elder man in his fifties, graying hair, dark eyes, with a sinister smirk on his face as he eyes the younger women.
"Miss Blake, always a pleasure...and Miss Griffin, I can't say I'm not surprised to see you. What can I help you beautiful ladies with?" He asks pleasantly already knowing what Miss Blake wanted. Maybe she brought the princess to try and persuade him to write the letter without any sort of...payment. As if that would happen.
"We are here to discuss a recommendation letter for my son to join the training program. He's been on the list since he turned eighteen and would be a very valuable asset to your team." Aurora says confidently walking closer to him. Her legs were a little shaky, but she knew he wouldn't refuse her. He never refused a woman before.
"I see. And...what will you do for me if I write this letter?" He asks innocently pulling his chair out, giving the women a clear view of his lap; his intentions of what he wanted perfectly clear to both.
Clarke looks at Aurora before grabbing her arm so she can talk to her.
"You don't need to do this. There must be another way!" Clarke whispers desperately and Aurora shakes her head sadly.
"There isn't sweetie. I need to do whatever I can to protect my child." She says and Clarke knew that was true...but she wasn't the only one who promised to protect the Blake children.
"You don't have to do this." Clarke repeats before looking back to Dashnaw who hasn't lost the smirk on his perverted face.
Clarke gives him a seductive smile before walking over to him slowly. She can feel his eyes on her body, especially her quickly growing chest before she makes her way to his side of the desk.
"I'm sure me and you can work something out." She says smiling as she bites her lip, drawing his attention to her plump lips.
"That's not what Aurora and I discussed." He says distractedly as she moves closer to him, inches away from legs.
Clarke gives a smirk of her own before moving her mouth so close to his ear he shivers at her hot breath so close.
"Why have her when you can have me?" She whispers hotly and he reaches to caress her arm lightly.
"I think we have ourselves a deal Miss Blake." Joe Dashnaw whispers staring deep into Clarke's eyes, making her skin crawl. But she keeps her sweet smile on her face as she leans and kisses him softly on the cheek.
"When you finish the letter, let Aurora know." She whispers before moving away from him and towards Aurora who was watching the scene with a painful expression on her face.
They walk out of his office and don't say a word to each other; Clarke going towards her section and Aurora towards hers.
XOXOX
Two days later, when a "surprise" inspection takes place, Dashnaw walks into the Blake's tiny home with a golden smirk on his face. Bellamy watches as Dashnaw's eyes linger all over his mother as he looks to make sure everything in their home is up to code.
"So son, I hear, you're interested in becoming a guard?" Dashnaw asks Bellamy, barley even looking at him, his eyes only on his mother.
Bellamy's eyes harden at the word son and as the older man openly stares at his mother's chest. He takes a deep breath and slowly stands up to be at eye level with him.
"I am. I'm hoping to start to the program as soon as possible." He states with a strong and powerful voice that Dashnaw should have respected. If only the man were respectable himself.
"Well you're in luck Mr. Blake, I have a recommendation letter for you, all ready to be given to our wonderful Chancellor. I already discussed the terms with your lovely mother here." He smirks at the older woman and he sees her gulp at the mention but she nods her head.
"Yes...of course I remember." She whispers sweetly to the man but wanting nothing more than to strangle him for even thinking about touching her sweet girl.
Bellamy looks at his mother with such anger at the realization of what she was going to do and Dashnaw's smirk just widens as he leans in closer to Aurora, his face invading her space.
"I will be expecting what we agreed on at eight tonight. Or the deal is off." He whispers low into her ear so her son can't hear his words. Bellamy looks and sees a single tear fall down her cheek but she nods again and gives him a weak smile before he backs away.
"Okay men, this living quarters are acceptable. Let's head out." Dashnaw announces to his two cadets and they leave without a word.
Aurora holds her hands over face as she starts to shake with violent sobs.
Bellamy slowly lets his sister out of the floor. How could his mother stoop so low? Why would she let that disgusting thing touch her just so he can get a job? It wasn't right! She clearly didn't want this, isn't that considered rape?!
Octavia jumps out of the floor and runs to her mother and gives her a tight hug.
"Mom..."Bellamy starts to say but Aurora quickly lifts her head and looks at him with tears still running down her face.
"Not a word Bellamy. I need to step out for a minute." She says tightly before grabbing her messenger and storming out her home. She needed to contact Clarke.
Bellamy looks at his little sister who looks just as upset as he does. Knowing how hard this was for her as well, he doesn't speak as he walks towards her and hugs her close to him.
As long as they did whatever they needed to, his sister would be safe.
XOXOX
Five minutes to eight, Clarke takes a deep breath as she adjusts her thin gray dress to show off her cleavage a little more. This was it. After this, she would no longer be the same girl she was. She would no longer be a virgin. She could do this.
She knocks on the door softly before plastering on her most happy yet sexy smile. When the door opens, Dashnaw is still in his uniform, his usual smirk on his face, opening the door a little for her to squeeze through.
When she steps inside, she is inches away from his chest and he was breathing deeply as his eyes trail down her neckline and down her dress. His excitement quickly beginning to show.
"Would you like something to drink sexy?" He mutters as his fingers start caressing her arms.
"No thank you." She mutters nervously. She wanted nothing more than to kick him where the moon don't shine and run home, but she knew she couldn't. She was not only doing this for Aurora but she was doing this for Octavia and for Bellamy. They needed her to do this. They needed the extra ration points and the respect that came with having a family member being a guard.
He leans in closer so his slimy lips brush over her sensitive neck making her shiver in fear. This was not how she wanted her first time to be but she had to think of something to make it somewhat enjoyable or else it would hurt like crazy. She thinks of happier times and handsome men and women faces, wishing it was someone else, anyone else touching her.
"Tell me something doll, why are you doing this?" He whispered as he places light kisses to her neck, making his way upwards.
"Let's just say I'm invested in Bellamy Blake's future." She answers and he looks deep in her eyes before he brings his lips to hers.
XOXO
The next morning, the minute Bellamy got called into Dashnaw's office to congratulate him on being selected for training, Clarke made her way into the Blake's home. Her eyes were dark, her hair a mess, and her skin red as if she spent hours trying to scrub her skin raw.
Aurora lets her in and looks at the girl she thinks of as her daughter with mixed emotions. She was so angry at her for taking her place and sleeping with that pig; it should have been her responsibility as Bellamy's mother to do what needed to be done. She was devastated because she knew that last night was Clarke's first time and it should have been special. Guilty because she should have never let Clarke this involved, but mostly she admired this woman's strength. She was only fourteen years old and she was the bravest person Aurora has ever the pleasure of knowing.
She takes Clarke's one hand and squeezes it tightly while Octavia comes out of the closet and takes her other. The three girls slowly make their way to Aurora bed and lay down together.
Without saying a word, both Blake girls hold their brave friend, their daughter, their sister as she breaks down and sobs. Sobs for her her innocence lost but also because she knows she would do it again in a heartbeat if she had to.
(End of Flashback)
Bellamy stares at Clarke in shock when she finishes telling him her story. All this time...all this time it was her?
"You...?" He starts to say and she just nods her head and takes another large gulp of the liquor.
"Now you finally know everything. No more secrets." She swears, not looking at him.
"Clarke..." He says not even knowing what else to say.
"It was you?" He asks again and she just looks at him and nods again.
"I couldn't let your mom do it. She did enough already trying to protect you both." She says shrugging her shoulders, trying not to cry. It took a long time, but she finally stopped seeing Joe Dashnaw's face every time she closed her eyes. Yes, her situation was not the best, but she was a consenting (somewhat) adult and she made her choice. She knows what happened was not rape and it wasn't anyone's choice but her own. She would change her choice at all.
Bellamy doesn't say anything for a minute, and then all of a sudden he lowers the Vodka bottle and pulls her into a tight and some what awkward hug. He holds her tight with her head on his shoulder and hopes his action can speak better than any words he can say to express how sorry he was.
They hug for a couple minutes and just as Bellamy was about to let go he feels Clarke start to shake and just holds her closer as she cries into his shoulder.
TBC!
There! That's the big secret! The second I thought of this story I knew I wanted it to be Clarke that got Bellamy his job as the guard and I hope everyone likes how I played it out. Sey77 you are the ONLY one who guessed right (to me anyway i'm sure people knew after awhile) Thanks so much everyone.