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Author's Note: I'll be honest guys...school is kicking my ass lol. Plus working full time is a killer. I just wanna stay home with my books, laptop, and TV and forget about my adult responsibilities. Anyway I hope you guys like this. It's very Murphy friendly so if you don't like him I'm sorry.
Rebeccaannex3: Thank you so much for your review I'm glad you like the idea of Clarke knowing about Octavia on the Ark, I always thought of how lonely it must have been to only exist to two other people and that just depresses me because I love her character.
Fandoms123: haha sorry it took so long! Hope you like this update.
Loulou: Thank you for your review I'm glad you liked the story and I know Clarke's history is...dark but I'm glad you understand why I put it in this story. Hope you enjoy
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Sey77 and 365 : I think you'll like Murphy in this chapter!
Guest: I'm happy I make you giggle
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As soon as he finished his skinning duty, Murphy told Bellamy he was going to go round up Monty and Jasper about getting Clarke and his things together to move into the cabin. As soon as the male co leader gave him the okay, Murphy practically ran towards the drop ship, where he knew Monty was this morning with Octavia.
As luck would have it, Monty was still there with her and they were huddled together laughing about something or another. As he got closer to them, he was about to give them his usual glare of disgust but he didn't. If he was being completely honest with himself, he was sick and tired of acting like a dick all the time. He was out of the sky box. He's been out for over a month; he's never going back there and he was not getting floated the second he hits eighteen (he still hopes he lives till then). Ever since his dad died and his mom... well, he was afraid of getting seriously close to anyone but he didn't want to be that way anymore. He wanted friends; he wanted people he could think of as family.
"Hey guys, I need to talk to you about something huge!" He exclaimed and Monty and Octavia look at him with confusion.
Octavia has barley spoken to him since they came to the ground, but Clarke told her that he was a good person at heart and not to judge him on the mask he wears in front of others. If there was anyone to take advice on about people, it was Clarke.
Monty gives a small smile at Murphy and nods for him to tell them what he came to say. Monty may not love the guy, but he'll admit last night Murphy wasn't bad company to have around; he was actually very pleasant.
"You both know how we're moving Clarke into a cabin today?" He asks and smirks when they both nod in confirmation. Everyone was amused at Bellamy's antics despite all their hangovers.
"Well Clarke only agreed if Bellamy moves into the cabin too!" He reveals and Monty and Octavia's eyes go wide in shock before matching the excited grin on Murphy's face.
Everyone in camp knew that Clarke and Bellamy were great for each other. Hell, they were everyone's surrogate mother and father! They made the camp a family, not just a group of criminals. All of the 100 wanted them to stop denying their chemistry and just go for it already. Octavia was especially happy because she knew the two people she loves most could be a match made from above. Plus, she wouldn't have to share them with anyone else. Selfish of her to want to keep their bond just between the three of them, but Octavia thinks she's deserved some selfishness.
"They both are moving in tonight, they want to have a meeting to see if anyone wants the extra room. You guys need to help me spread the word for no one to take it. Let them have some time to get their shit together." Murphy grins at the impressed looks on their faces. Yes, he may only speak up to disagree about things, but he did have some good ideas.
"That sounds like a great idea! The close quarters will give them a chance to actually admit there is something there." Monty pipes up excited. He really cares about Clarke, she was like a sister to him and he knew she cared about Bellamy more than she herself may realize. He wants her happy and he will do whatever to help her get there.
"Okay, I'll go tell Lincoln and make my way to the younger kids. Monty..." Octavia starts to say but Monty cuts her off.
"I'm going to go tell Miller then Jasper!" Monty says happily as he quickly runs away from them towards the gate where Miller had guarding duty.
Octavia and Murphy watch him go, Octavia with a smirk on her face.
"If Bellamy and Clarke do get together, we need to work on Monty and Miller next." She says and he gives her a blank look for a second before realizing what she meant.
He laughs and shakes his head.
"Whatever you say Cupid. I'm going to tell Sterling and Harper my brilliant plan." He says and gives a half wave as he walks away.
Octavia looks at both directions the boys left to and gives a small smile. This time last year she had no one to talk to and now she's making more friends than she ever dreamed.
Life was looking so much better on the ground...She takes a look towards Lincoln who was slowly walking to her.
Very (very!) good, indeed.
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By the end of the day, the news about Bellamy and Clarke moving into a cabin together spread like wildfire. Murphy's plan was a success; when the two co leaders asked if anyone would want the third room, not a single person volunteered. It was a little off putting to the two, but they didn't question anyone on it. Maybe no one wanted to share with the two co leaders because they were doing things they shouldn't be. It made them suspicious but for all the wrong reasons.
The night came quickly and before they knew it, the two leaders were on their way to their new home.
"It's so weird to be moving in here." Clarke comments as she looks at her new home. It was bigger than her tent but not by much. Not that she was complaining, in fact, it was the complete opposite. Someone else should be benefiting from this beautifully made cabin; not her.
"Princess, get over it. Whether you believe it or not, you do deserve to be here right now. You have helped us so much since we landed." Bellamy comments from the space between her room and his. He didn't want to invade her space in case she felt uncomfortable. He just felt so weird around her now and he couldn't make himself stop. He was secretly ecstatic that no one wants to share the cabin with them, but he was still nervous.
Clarke looks at him and gives a smile. She knows he's trying his best to give her space, but she doesn't want to be alone right now. This place is unfamiliar to her and she knew she wouldn't be able to sleep well until it was. Memories of the sky box haunted her and she really could use Bellamy right now.
"Come on in for a minute." She says and he slowly walks in her room and stands by her makeshift bed.
"You know when I first got arrested, I wasn't able to sleep for almost three days. Something about being in an unfamiliar room at night unsettles me." She admits and he nods in agreement before giving her a small smile. He felt the same way after O was arrested and his mom was floated. His home didn't feel like home anymore.
"Well I can sit with you and talk until you can't keep your eyes open. It always used to work for O when she was little." He says shyly.
"I know she used to tell me." She says softly before sitting on her bed and motioning for him to sit down too.
He does so hesitantly, putting enough space between them but they were still pretty close and looks deep into her eyes.
"Can I ask you something? If you don't feel comfortable you don't have to answer." He says and she gives him a look, thinking he was going to ask about Dashnaw but she nods at him to go ahead anyway. If the question was about him, she just wouldn't answer it. She never wants to talk about what happened with him again.
"What happened between you and my mom? I mean, when we talk about her you always have a fond look on your face and say how amazing she was but...I don't get how you can feel that way after what she let you do." He asks curiously without pity or judgment. He honestly wanted to know the many sides of Clarke Griffin. What makes her forgive something like that?
Clarke nods her head slowly, trying to think of her reply before she says it. It was true, she was angry at Aurora for a long time but that didn't change the fact that she was Octavia and Bellamy's mother and she would never speak ill of her. Plus, before what happened she was very fond of her; she loved Aurora like a mother.
"After it happened...we actually got distant with each other. She was overwhelmed by guilt at letting me do what I did. When I think about that now, it was mostly my own fault; since I made it impossible for her to take my place and backing out just wasn't an option. At the time though, I was so angry at her. I was still there for O but I could barley look at her. We didn't have a blow out over it until a couple weeks before O got arrested." Clarke starts to say and Bellamy listens intently as she tells him more of her story...
(Flashback)
Clarke and Octavia were sitting on her and Bellamy's bed, giggling at each other as Octavia told her about her newest argument with Bellamy.
"And then he was saying how I need to sleep with mom because when he gets out of work he needs the whole bed to unwind him...I told him fine since he smells so bad after work anyway!" Octavia joked, making Clarke laugh at the thought of Bellamy's flustered face when O told him he smelled.
"Oh, I bet he loved hearing that." She joked and Octavia shook her head smirking a little. Her and Bellamy were close for many reasons, the most being that Bellamy felt responsible for her and he thought he was the only person that knew about her. However, having Clarke for so long is like a breath of fresh air. A person on The Ark that loved her by choice; not by obligation.
"Hey, can we go over some of those self defense moves? I wanna practice getting out of a choke hold." Octavia asked jumping off the bed, knowing Clarke wouldn't say no.
Ever since the...event, Clarke has been determined to teach Octavia all sorts of self defense techniques in case she ever got out under the floor and was discovered. Dashnaw may be gone, but there were still some sick men in space and Clarke wanted her to be prepared in case anyone tried anything. Octavia isn't stupid; she knows Clarke is also teaching her because a part of her feels like her mother wouldn't be able to protect her if something like that would happen. Clarke may have faith in Bellamy, but that faith only went to him now.
Clarke gets up hesitantly and faces her best friend with a serious look on her face. Clarke would be damned if some sick bastard tried to hurt Octavia and her not be able to defend herself.
"Okay, lets see what you got my dear." Clarke says with a hard look.
Twenty minutes later, the stop when they hear a distinct three knock on the door, signaling to them that Aurora was outside the door but others were close so they needed to move behind the door.
When Octavia's mother walks in she has a gentle smile on her face as she goes to give her daughter a hug and kiss on the cheek. She looks at Clarke and loses her smile. There was a time when she would have rushed into this girl's arms and hugged her but too much has happened and Aurora can barley look at her without the over flowing whelm of guilt.
Clarke moves back subtly before giving Octavia a smile.
"I should get going. Bellamy will be home soon and I have to meet Wells." Clarke said wanting to get away from Aurora as soon as possible. She can't even look at her now a days.
Octavia looks at the two women sadly, not knowing what to say. She knows both of them felt horrible about what happened but they needed to talk about it. However, she knows not to push.
"Okay." Octavia mutters sadly. Aurora looks at her baby girl and sees the despair in her eyes. It wasn't right. Her daughter should not suffer because of her, she's been doing that for too long.
"You really have to go so soon? I'm sure I can make us something real quick." Aurora offers and Clarke's eyes go hard.
"Yes. I need to leave, I'm sure my mother will have something when I get home." She says harshly making Aurora's stubbornness come out.
"Clarke..." Octavia says but Aurora cuts her off.
"No Clarke, please talk to me! You've been silent for far too long!" She yells and Clarke moves closer to her to the point where they were only inches apart.
"You want me to talk fine! You let me down! You chose to let me lose something important just so you wouldn't get yourself dirty!" Clarke almost screamed but she was conscious that there could be people close by.
Aurora's eyes filled with tears. She was right of course; it's been what was haunting her for months. That didn't make hearing it hurt any less. The guilt has been eating her up and she couldn't take it anymore.
"You were just using me to help your children weren't you!? You never gave a shit about me, did you?" Clarke asked.
"No! I love you like a daughter!" Aurora protested and Clarke shook her head angrily.
"Then why did you let me do this?! I'm broken now! I will never be the same again and that's YOUR fault! You knew I would do anything for O and Bellamy and you used that against me!" Clarke finally admitted to how she's been feeling since the night she left Dashnaw's office.
"You're right, I didn't fight hard enough for you! I was scared that if I stopped you, he would have backed out of our deal all together and I was too afraid of that happening. But you're right. I didn't fight hard enough and I should have. But I can't take my mistake back. I wish every day I never told you about my deal with that sick fuck, I wish I never let you go with me. I wish you didn't lose yourself because I'm not strong enough, I was never strong enough but you were. I failed you and my children and that is killing me!" By the end of her speech, Aurora was curled up on the floor at Clarke's feet crying.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Aurora was grabbing onto Clarke's legs and repeating how sorry she was.
Clarke looked at Octavia who had tears in her eyes. O has never seen such emotion coming from her mother or her best friend before. She wishes she could do something but she knows that they have to deal with this on their own.
After what seemed like an eternity Clarke looks down at Aurora who kept whispering how much of a failure she was to her, Octavia, and Bellamy.
"Don't think I've forgiven you." She starts to say and Aurora looks up at her with tears still streaming down her pale cheeks.
"But maybe there is a chance for us to move on." Clarke finishes and Aurora gives a light nod.
(End of Flashback)
Clarke looks at Bellamy who listened to her story without comment.
"We never did get to move on, but the day Octavia was arrested I knew she needed to hear it from me. I let her hug me and kiss me and tell me she loved me. I told her I loved her and promised to protect you but I still never fully forgave her." Clarke admits and Bellamy just nods his head.
He remembers after he got the job something was plaguing his mom, but he just figured she was stressed with work or upset because SHE slept with Dashnaw. He couldn't believe the things he was learning about her now that she is dead. He isn't sure he could forgive her after what she did either.
"I know what you mean, but it was honorable of you to say what you did in the last moments she had. Not many people would be that selfless." Bellamy commented and she smiled as a red blush filled her cheeks. She was not honorable at all but it was nice of him to say.
They spent hours after that talking, about the smallest of things, to their hopes for the future. It was things like talking and getting to know each other that made their feelings for each other start to grow.
Bellamy didn't even think about moving to his room while they were talking. He wanted to spend hours talking to her but soon sleep over came them both as they slept peacefully in Clarke's room, shoulder to shoulder...
Content.
TBC!