Chapter 3
Packing away the last of the camp, I walk over to Sam and smile at her, she smiles at me. I didn't get much sleep last night, but I couldn't help but keep thinking about what Reed had said. Basicly the same thing he had told me the day before, about living for tomorrow.
"How did you sleep"? She asks.
"Not very good", I say. She looks at me saddened and then grins.
"Maybe you need a man in your bed to sleep", she says mockingly. I shake my head and hit her playfully on the shoulder.
"Reed", comes out of her mouth. My eyes widen and I look away from her, sure I do like him, but I don't think I would go that far, I mean he is a bug after all.
"I knew it, I knew you liked him, I mean he is just so perfect, his jet black hair, his really nice blue eyes, how tall he is", she says all dreamily. I then look at her and think, 'Yeah if only you knew his only flaw'.
"Well now, I didn't think any one thought so highly of me before", Reed's voice says from behind me. Sam then grins and says, "Those where words that came out Hikaru's mouth". Then she skips away.
"They did not come out of my mouth", I say as I turn around and look at him, look into his eyes, the colours swirling around in them, So fascinating. All other thoughts left my mind as I reach up and gently place my hand on the side of his face, just thinking about the fact that he is a bug, a creature I find fascinating.
"Really"? His voice snaps me out of my trance and I instantly take my hand away, and look to the side.
"Sorry", I say.
"Its all right", he says.
"I don't mind". I look at him once more and then turn around and start walking, knowing that he is going to follow me.
"So how did you sleep"? He asks.
"Horribly", I answer.
"Maybe next time you might want to have some one in the same place as you", he says. I stop and look at him. He is smiling at me.
"Its a thought, but I'll see.. Why"? I ask, wanting to know why he had to say it.
"Just a passing thought is all", he says with a shrug. I nod and start walking again.
"Good every one is here", The Commander says.
"No John is missing", a man says. I look over at Reed, and instantly look away when he looks at me.
"Well he is missing, we cannot go looking for him, we have to reach our destination in time", our commander says. With out any complaints we all start walking, and for some reason Reed don't seem to be his usual self by walking by himself.
"I see something happened between you two, your both walking with one another", Sam's voice comes from behind us. We both look back with out stopping to see that she is actually their.
"What do you mean"? Reed asks. Of course he would be confused, he wouldn't understand this concept about humans.
"Oh never mind", Sam says.
"Oh hey Reed, Hikaru here has a fascination to the bugs, that's why she can't shoot them unless she really has to", Sam says.
"I know", he simply replies.
"How"? She asks.
"Because she told me", Reed answers.
"And it don't bother you"? She asks. I then look at her and narrow my eyes, she just smiles at me.
"Why should it"? He asks.
"Because I guess that is one reason why I have very little friends", I say as I turn my attention to him.
"What are you talking about, I'm your only friend", Sam says.
"Yeah because just yesterday our other friend had been killed only yesterday", I some what raise my voice at her.
"Don't be like that", Sam says. I then stop which stops the three of us, and turn fully to face her.
"Look I believe I'm the only one who is taking that death badly... You don't seem to give a rats ass about it... So can I truly actually call you friend"? I ask snapping at her, my eyes narrowed, my hands into fists ready to punch her.
"I am hurting by it, but do you see me controlling it? I mean look its tearing you apart", she says. I then get right into her face and say, "If you where hurting you would of cried for her". Then I punch her in the face, turn and start walking. My hands still in fists. By the time I had calmed down, a few hours have passed, and we are now passing through what appears to be a rather large forest.
I guess sensing the attitude I had Reed had left me alone and went doing what he does best, walks alone. The forest is so amazing, I couldn't help but look at everything I could see, though their isn't any life aside from the trees.
"This is amazing", I say. Still looking up I wasn't watching where I was going and walk into some one.
"Sorry", I say as I look at the person and look into they eyes of Reed. All the different colours swirling around with in his eyes.
"Its ok, you seem to be in joying yourself", he answers, though I didn't really comprehend what he had said, just the thought of him being a bug and looking human is fascinating. I then reach up and place my hand on the side of his face again, moving my thumb gently on his flesh and feel that its so much like humans, just with a slight roughness to it. Then I brush my thumb over his lips and look down after pull my eyes away from his.
"You know"? He asks. I don't look at him, I didn't want to see the look on his face.
"Will you kill me like you did John"? I ask. I then feel his hand go to the side of my face, and he forces me to look at him.
"I will not kill you", he says.
"But how do I know"? I ask searching his eyes for anything, and their is nothing in them. The look isn't the human look, its the indifference look, one that you see bugs giving us.
"You don't", he says, and looks over. Sam is looking at us, and how I know this is because I can hear laughing.
"Don't judge your friend", Reed says as he brings his gaze back to mine.
"Maybe your the one I should judge", I say not realizing what would come of me for saying those words. He then gently and slowly moves his hand down to my neck. Then tightens his grip and leans in so his face is inches from mine.
"You judge and you get killed", he says, his breath hitting my nose and lips. Even through this whole experience, I'm not shaking due to fear, but anticipation. At this point I don't care if I get killed, I got to see what he was really like and it don't bother me. Then he lets go, the less space back to being a gaping one.
"Just as your fascinated with my kind, I'm also fascinated with yours", he then says as he turns around. I look at him shocked at that.
"I must admit, I have killed many of your kind, but I had no choice, like you had when you killed mine", he says.
"Why look human"? I ask wanting to know the answer to it.
"Hikaru, Reed, you all most kissed, why didn't you"? Sam asks as she walks over to us. Stopping our conversation.
"She isn't my type", is all he says then he starts walking toward the group of people. Then Sam's question did come to mind, and the only reason why I didn't finish the gap is because of his hand on my neck, now that I think about it, I reach to my neck and touch it, it feels tender. I then move my hair along it to hide any in coming bruising from it.
"What was that all about"? Sam asks. I look over at her and shrug my shoulders, I can't think of the reason why he did it, or even came close to me, though his touch seemed gentle before it came to my neck. I can't help but think I had said something that had offended him.
"I don't really know. Come lets catch up to them", I say as they start to get a good distance away. Sam and I both rush to catch up. We walk a few more hours and come to the edge of the forest looking at a large horizon of water. We just stand their looking at it, all I do is look at Reed, knowing that something might happen.
We stand their looking at the water, and I can't help but smile knowing this is where all the others end up dieing. This is just what I wanted. I then look over at Hikaru, I knew she was the one that seen what had happened, but she didn't act like she had. She is looking at me, as though she knows my plans. With out a question to be answered I nod at her and her eyes seem to widen at the realization that she might die here today. Well not might, she will, along with the rest of them except for the commander.
"We attack now", my brother asks impatiently. I sigh and shake my head.
"Let them believe they are safe, and out of harms way, then show up", I answer. I don't hear anything in return, they are waiting, and I know my kind hates waiting, even me, I don't like to wait, I would rather kill as much as I can. But my insane fascination to these creatures is too strong. Then I look back over to Hikaru and my fascination seems to more toward her then any other of these very creatures and I don't know why.
Then every one starts for the water, it toke not even 20 minutes to get their. Every one runs into the water, after shedding themselves of clothes. I smile to myself knowing that this is the right opportunity to strike. I look over and my eyes stay fixated on Hikaru, she too had shedded herself of clothes, say for two pieces that seem to cover two spots on her body.
Then I look at my hand, I could feel her skin on it, her soft feeling skin, nothing compared to my own kind, our skin is hard, really hard. Then their was the tenderness I could feel when I had a tight grip on her neck, so fragile. Yet when it came to the male of her species, their structure is way different, they have a harder complexion to them.
"Hikaru, dive", I hear her friend Sam yell, though she is just beside me, so I turn to look at her. She smiles at me.
"You know, she hasn't had the experience with a man", Sam says. I look at her oddly then realize what she is saying, that her friend hasn't breed before.
"Oh", I say not really knowing what to say about it, I mean I haven't had the experience with a female, but I'm not a lesser being, I'm something greater then them. To these creatures I should be a god.
"And I don't believe she actually deserves to have that experience", Sam says snapping me out of my own thoughts and looking at her with hatred.
"Why would you say that about your own friend"? I ask.
"Well its because of her ex, and I mean long time ex", she says.
"He only treated her right and she wouldn't give him what he wanted, she didn't have the gull to give it to him", Sam says. I look over to Hikaru wondering why she didn't want it, when I know most creatures would arise to the occasion.
"You know what she told him, after being years with him, is that she didn't feel right to have that with him", Sam says.
"How selfish is that... Its hurtful", Sam finally says.
"But maybe their is a darker reason behind that... Maybe she is hiding something", I say, with how much I know about the lessers, is that they have fear and what they fear they do not go near or do. So something must have happened to her.
"No he was a doll, he loved her very much he showed it every day, and she still did that, I'm just warning you about it", she says. I look back at her and wonder what she means about it.
"Oh no, I don't think she has that interest in me", I say, she can't I'm not one of her own. Sam smiles at that and looks at me.
"Good", she says. I narrow my eyes at her not knowing what she is getting at. Then something shocking happened, she crashes her lips on mine, and puts her arms around my neck. At first I didn't know what was going on, but then it clicks. I push her away and keep her at arms length.
"I'm afraid I do not have that attraction to you either", I say, discussed by it, but trying my best to hide it.
"Even if you don't, don't you want to have fun one last time, just in case you die"? She asks. Me die, ha, I have to laugh, no she is the one that is going to die, even if her friend does have that sort of attraction to me, then why would she go after me knowing it. These lessers are strange, they don't know what is right from wrong, much like my own kind, breeding with their brothers and sisters, that's why I chose to do this, and many other missions that the queen has, so I don't have to breed.
"Now brother"? My brother asks.
"Yes, yes now", I answer, I want this lesser dead, gone, for good. Hikaru does not need friends like this. I look over and Sam looks over as we hear screeches.
"We have bugs"! Sam yells, I watch as every one that was having fun in the water start running, including Hikaru, and Sam, she pulls out her gun. I grab the gun and glare at her, she glares at me.
"Run just like every one else", I say. She then frowns.
"No", she says. I shake my head at her and rush past her. She then rushes behind me. Turns out I ended up rushing in the path of Hikaru's large bag, I pick it up along the way, tossing it over my shoulders.
"How is it that they do this, they get us when we are least expecting it"? Sam asks from behind me.
"I don't know", Hikaru says from in front of me, she must of slowed down to let us catch up... Wrong choice. Right now I can't think like that, and I can't let my brothers and sisters know I have a soft spot for that lesser, so for the time being I'm just going to let things play out. The first few just ran right past us, heading for the group that is far ahead.
"Why did they leave us"? Sam asks.
"Maybe because they will leave us for the stranglers", I reply. I know better, but I can't let her know that. Then she turns around and starts firing as she sees some aiming for us. Well namely her and Hikaru. She kills off the few going after her, and then looks over and sees Hikaru with many around her, she is in the centre of them all.
"Hikaru"! She screams, then rushes to her aid, and begins to fire at them. I had to watch her amazed, she kills nearly all of them before they can turn their attention to her. One is a survivor, turns to her and rushes at her.
"Sam"! Hikaru screams. Sam shoots the rest of the bullets into my brother and gets her leg impaled. As she falls she lets out a hellish scream of pain.
"Sam, Sam", Hikaru says as she rushes to her friends aid.
"Reed help me with this", she says looking at me. I groan inwardly and do as she says. I rush over and help her pull out the sharp arm from her friends leg.
Once we get the object out of her leg, Reed and I help Sam move into the same direction the others have gone, and I hear nothing, like the bugs had stopped, and every one is dead. We then reach the massacre, every one dead, and in the centre of the bodies is the commander.
"Survivors, thank god I'm not going to be the only one", he says as he rushes over to us.
"We don't have any more weapons", Sam says and groans in pain.
"Can you move, still for a while yet, even if it means to go a bit slower"? The commander asks. I look at him then at Sam when she nods her head. He nods and we start walking once more. A few more hours, painful hours for Sam that is, we then stop, with in a cave, we no longer have tents, so a small cave will do fine for the night.
"Tomorrow we will make it to the pick up point", The commander says.
"The rest of us", I put in.
"Please, I might not even make it through the night", Sam says. I look at her and shake my head.
"Look I haven't given up yet, and you shouldn't either", I say to her. She just looks at me and nods her head, in understanding.
"Good, get some rest after your done with that", The commander says. I then slowly let water fall from the bottle I have hovering over her wound to clean it out. The water then lands on the wound and she screams in pain. After the whole bottle, I tore a piece of her clothing since I don't have much of my own on, and tie it around her wound. She then lays down and closes her eyes trying to get some rest as much as her pain will let her. I run a hand through my hair and sigh.
Then I get up and walk out of the cave, where Reed is. I look over at him he is leaning against a tree eyes closed. I sigh and look up at the sky, its so foreign.
"As much as you don't want to hear this, but what you think is friend, actually isn't a friend", Reed says. I then look over at him, he is now standing and looking at me.
"She is a friend", I say.
"She is all I have left". He shakes his head and replies, "Are you aware that she down talks you"?
"Yes", I say and walk over to a tree and put my hand on it.
"Then why be friends with her"? He asks.
"Because I'm human... I don't care what people do behind my back, as long as they act as though they care in front of me, then I don't mind", I say.
"Like you, I know what you are, and I don't care that you are more then likely the reason why this whole group had been killed... You've helped me", I say looking over at him.
"You lessers are confusing", he says. I look at him questioning about the lessers thing.
"Lessers"? I ask.
"Of course we are confusing, we are human", I then add.
"I have a feeling that I won't live through this, I believe your plan is to take the commander alive and getting to our planet, but know this... Humans have so many secrets and you need the right people to get those from", I say as I walk over to him, a few feet away looking into his colour swirling eyes. I flinch as I feel his hand on the side of my face, remembering what happened last time.
"Don't worry, I won't do that again", he says, as he gently moves his thumb along my skin. I close my eyes to the new feeling. Then I feel something on my lips and instantly open my eyes and shocked at what I see, his lips on mine. Just as it appeared he pulls away. He then looks at my hair, and slowly puts his hand into my mess of hair.
"I promise you this, you will get out of this alive", he says, and I believe him, I know I shouldn't but I do. For some reason I feel tears going down my face and then for once in my life I berry my face in his chest and put my arms around his torso.
"I'm scared, I don't want to die, I don't want Sam to die... I didn't want any one to die", I say as I start to sob.
"No matter what happens, things will work out even if they aren't what we want", he says as he gets the idea and puts his arms around my torso. Now that I'm this close, he don't smell like human, he smells like bug, and its welcoming, not repulsing like the other smells I've smelt. I can't help but wonder if I'm to... No get that thought out of my head he isn't human for god sakes, I would be condemned and he even said that he would rather me dead, even though he had said that he would make sure I can get out of this alive.
"I feel comfortable with in your embrace, I don't know if this is going to be my last night or not, but in case, would I be able to sleep in it"? I ask.
"I don't care that your a bug". He sighs and looks at me, then nods.
"Yes I can do that for you", he says.
I know I told her one thing, and then another, but I don't know what I'll do, so I'll figure it out while she sleeps, while they all sleep. We walk into the cave, and since I don't sleep, I sit against the wall, and she rests her head on my chest one arm around my torso.
I can tell that right away she had fallen asleep, her breathing came evenly. I don't know what lead me to kiss her, but I guess I wanted to know what it felt like, I know I'm not human as they call themselves, but I want to learn from her, I want to know everything she knows, about anything and everything. And I've never cared for some one more then I had cared for my queen. And right now I care for this being, this fragile human, more then her.
I move my hand to her hair and brush it through gently liking the feeling, then lean down to where my mouth is to her ear and whisper, "I promise you this, you will be coming with us, no matter the cost". I had made up my mind, I want her too much to let her get killed, and I promise it for good this time. I then put both arms around her and rest my head on hers.
I think I'm fascinated from her because of her fascination towards my kind, towards me, I can now tell that her touches where of curiosity, she wants to learn more about me, but is too afraid to do it. I guess I'm hopping that in the future that we will talk, let each other know about one another, even if it actually isn't specificly about each one of us, but our kinds.
Well that's it that's the third chapter. Hope you liked.