MELTDOWN
Elena sat in the bathroom, trying to kill time and wrap her mind around what had just taken place.
In truth, she was not vomiting because she was pregnant. She actually felt better after her night of drinking the Black Rose wine, than she had in a long time.
It was the strange effect Markus seem to have on her, that had finally made her stomach queasy.
She felt ashamed. She had cheated on Stefan (not for the first time apparently) and for some reason she felt she had cheated on What's-His-Name too. How odd she thought, that she would feel that way about the ladder of the two. He had never been hers, and it's not like they ever been a couple, right? Still, the unexplainable feeling was there. She chalked it up to the fact she was carrying his child within her.
She wiped her tears and waited until she heard the bedroom door close before daring to open the bathroom door. She meekly peeked her head out, to make sure the coast was clear. Sighing in relief when she saw he had left. She went and sat down in the heavily gilded chair closest to the fireplace, where they had sat and eaten the night before. She closed her eyes and tried to make some sense out of what made none.
Her eyes flew open when the bedroom door re-opened, but to her relief it was only Ezra. He was pushing in a wheeled cart of food. Which he quickly laid out on the table before her. Not once speaking to her, or making direct eye contact. He turned to leave as quickly as he had entered, when Elena said "Thank you, Ezra." This seem to surprise him and he looked up at her, and almost smiled.
He stopped in his tracks, and reached under his coat pulling something out to hand to her.
"I almost forgot the Master wished me to give you these." The first object appeared to be a small but old looking book. The second was another Kitsune ball. Elena thanked him a second time, and he did a half bow before leaving the room.
Elena was unsure which to do first, however he stomach won out. She ate the biscuits with honey on them, and had some cheese, along with what seemed like milk. She didn't want to guess where it came from for fear she would not be able to drink it. Sometimes not knowing is a good thing. It tasted fine. She scooted the chair back from the table and noticed the balcony was back. She looked down and knew she would not try climbing down a second time. She figure Markus must have assumed the same thing, or the balcony would not be there. She pulled her chair towards it and pulled out the book. She opened the book and was surprised to see a pen and blank pages.
Elena quickly realized it was meant to be a diary. How did Markus know she wondered, and what else did Markus know about her? At that moment she was to relived and feeling like, she had an old friend back, to question it to much. She desperately needed an outlet. Quickly taking the pen in her hand, she began to write.
Dear Diary,
I am back in the Dark Dimension. I do not know why or exactly how I got here, but some guy (or should I say Vampire) named Markus is holding me captive. Poor Stefan he must be worried sick.
Then again, time passes quicker here. Maybe he hasn't even noticed me gone. Oh God, I hope that is not the case. I watched a Kitsune ball. Well not just any old Kitsune ball, the one from the night at the motel with Da..What's-His-Name! Apparently, his memories were not the only ones stolen that night. ALOT more happen that night between him and me than I knew and I do me ALOT!
If that wasn't enough…I'M PREGNANT! I have mixed feelings about that. I never imagined I would be pregnant and unmarried…without even the help of the father for that matter. I thought I was so careful, always saying no. Yeah, where did that get me? Sometimes I'm so scared just about that alone, without all the other stuff going on. Like the fact, I have been kidnapped, and I am wearing slave bracelets again.
(Elena put the pen down for a second to rub the bracelets and remember another time. Staring at them almost wishfully. She picked the pen back up and continued.)
Other times I'm kind of happy in an odd way. I have part of HIM. I wonder if it…he or she will look like him? I hope so. (She affectionately rubbed her tummy feeling almost possessive.) How am I going to tell Stefan? I wonder if he will call off the wedding. Guess I could not blame him if he did.
(Elena noticed she did not really have any strong feelings about it one-way or another…"Odd", she thought.) Maybe since he lost his brother, and how bad their relationship was thanks to Katherine and the Kitsune, it would be a chance to bring them together in a way. Accomplish what couldn't be done in life or un-dead life anyway.
Stefan is such a gentleman, I owe him so much. He has always been there for me, and I am sure always will be. I hate to hurt him with this news, but I'm sure he will make a great dad.
Now, about Markus. I don't know what to make of him. He can be very intimidating one minute and almost sweet…or sort of the next. He makes me feel weird. My heart feels like it stops every time I look in his eyes, and he makes me very nervous. Yet I feel kind of drawn to him. I really cannot explain it. Must be a Vampire thing. Just as many of girls have fallen prey willingly through-out the centuries. Note to self…keep guard up around Markus, and avoid eye contact!
Then there is the bit about what happened between us this morning. I was dreaming about...
Well anyway, I was dreaming, and he started taking advantage of me. I tried to fight him off, but he is to strong. We didn't go all the way, but came damn close. To close. I made the mistake of looking into his eyes, and he must have compelled me or something. I am sure he must have. We or he went much further than he should have. I didn't consent mind you, it was all him, but it did feel kind of good. Actually, it felt more than kind of. However, that is because I did my best to make good of a bad situation. I closed my eyes, and pretended it was someone else. My imagination must be pretty powerful, because when I opened them for a minute I thought I saw HIM. OMG did I just say that?
It is only because I watched that damn Kitsune ball. I never should have watched it. Then again, I am glad I did. It was my first time, yet I'm the last to know. Well, maybe not the last. I still have to break poor Stefan's heart and tell him about it, after he rescues me. Lord help me make it through the night again, and keep my dignity! That's kind of hard with a super seductive Vampire compelling you. I guess I just have to do whatever I have to remain alive, and not end up drained and dead.
I just have to go along until Stefan can rescue us.
Elena
Elena closed the book and started pacing, already bored, and yet so much on her mind, she was just overwhelmed, and didn't know where to start to try to figure things out.
Finally wanting a distraction, she reached for the other Kitsune ball, which Ezra had brought her. Hoping with everything in her, she would not turn out to be the star attraction again.
The ball started to play. She was surprised to see Caroline. She was with Shinichi and his sister, the Kitsune twins. What happened next made Elena want to vomit. Both of the them climbed inside of Caroline. "Evil closer than you think" isn't that what Shinichi had said once? Caroline had not been pregnant at all, those evil fox's had been nesting inside of her. Oh, poor Caroline, no wonder she had acted so crazy! The things she saw them doing to her, and making her eat purely for their enjoyment, was just sick. Elena put the ball down, feeling sick herself after what she had just witnessed. Her only relief was knowing Shinichi was dead, and could never hurt anyone again. When the Guardians turned back time it had made Caroline normal again, and all her friends alive again. Fell's Church was safe.
The only problem was that when the Guardian's turned back time, it only effected the people that were not present in the Dark Dimension. So Elena, Stefan, Bonnie and HIM (had he lived) still knew what had happened. Elena was thankful that nightmare was over, and it did kind of answer the riddle to Caroline being pregnant, which everyone had assumed would be a werewolf baby or pups. That had never been the case. Elena wished when time turned back, it would of worked on her too, and her memory of all the terrible things would have turned back too. Then she realized that would of meant she wouldn't of remembered HIM, and his baby wouldn't be growing in her now. Again, she rubbed her tummy, and decided things were the way they were meant to be.
She had to see this as fate. What other reason could there be? There had to be a reason she was to bring his child into the world, after all, whoever heard of getting pregnant by a vampire? She had seen and heard a lot since meeting the Salvatore brothers, but had never heard of a Vampire child…at least not one born that way. Therefore, this baby was obviously special in many ways.
True, she had chosen Stefan. Never giving into her feelings and desires (well, that she could consciously remember anyway) for What's-His-Name. It was a choice she just had to make. I refused to be like Katherine. Look what happened when I was reckless and care-free to my parents! I owed Stefan at least that much. He's been my rock through everything. He's kind, and gentle, and loves me, that is was what truly matters, she told herself. Yes, she had not been willing to throw it all away for temporary lust. For a womanizer, hot tempered, sarcastic, conceded, and unreliable, type of guy. The type that never would stick around, and would be always looking for the next thrill, or conquest. No matter how sexy, attractive, or drawn to him she was. ( Elena suddenly thought of that HBO show she loves TrueBlood, where Lafyette says "that boy is sex on a stick" Yap, that about summed HIM up.)
Sure there was a time when it seemed like there was something between them, and she had started to feel like she might be falling in love with him. (not the same way as she loved Stefan...actually not at all like Stefan) but it had turned out not to be real anyway. That type of all consuming, can't think of anything but, want to jump your bones every second of every day..is never real, she told herself. Real is what's dependable, after all everyone always says sex dies out after awhile anyway, than what are you left with, if the relationship was based on that type of mad attraction? Proving her right, he had gone back to the Dark Dimension with Bonnie, of all people. Her friend, the one she had tried to protect him from when Bonnie had tried to burn him up, and make his head explode. Yet he chose her. God knows what they were doing while they were together down here. Bonnie certainly didn't look like she wanted rescuing when her and Stefan showed up to do just that, thinking they were saving her.
HA, That's a fucking joke. Saving her from what? All those passionate nights, and smoldering looks and kisses that What's-His-Name was so good at? What girl in her right mind that was single would want saving from that? Not to mention when I went to attack him to defend her honor, Bonnie started crying for me not to hurt him! Yeah, they were definitely doing something. That Son-of-a-bitch! If that was not bad enough then he went and died. Life will never be the same again. (Elena, tried not to admit even to herself, she missed him…A LOT!) Good thing I have dependable Stefan. Damn..What's-His-Name had gotten what he wanted out of me anyway, and then moved on to my one of my closest friends. What type of guy does that? Certainly not one who's in love like he claimed.
Elena was squeezing her fists in tight balls, having gotten herself all worked up! She threw herself on the bed and broke down into gut wrenching sobs, which she didn't understand anyway. She chalked it up to pregnancy hormones. That is what everybody always said pregnant women did right? Fifteen or so minutes into her emotional meltdown, she drifted off to sleep.
I do not own Vampire Diaries. They were created by L.. Only Markus, Ezra, and Tamanthia are my creations.
Someone has pointed out that I used Jenna and Jeremy from the show, when they aren't in the books. What can I say, I think they were a good addition, and liked their characters.
I admit, when I picture Damon and Elena I picture the ones from the show. I mean Ian is great looking! He is Damon to me.
When people write fanfic, they are starting with a base, and turning it into their own idea.
In the last Book Damon died, and at the end we heard he was stirring. However L. got fired from writing the books now having her characters that she put her blood sweat and tears into creating away from her. I did at one point read it was because she wanted to put Damon and Elena together (don't quote me) and the publishers want Damon with Bonnie. I have no intentions of reading anymore of the Vampire Diaries books, for both those reasons. ) because what was done to Miss Smith was just plain wrong,
2) Bamon? Have they lost their mind? Not happening in my world, it would just ruin everything for me.
However this is my first fan fic as I warned everyone from the beginning, so if spelling, grammar, or some inconsistencies pop up, I'm not a pro guys, I'm doing this simply because I know I enjoy reading the stories on this site, and want to return the favor. I never claimed it would be good. Remember still a two finger typer. So what some can turn out in 30 min, takes me hours. I do try for you, and all though I don't have this all mapped out, I have a general idea, on 2 key points. The rest is just the inspiration as it comes to fill in from point A-B.
So you can't expect me to stick completely to the books, as if I did, this story would not be. This is my story, and how I think it should be…or at least one possible way it could be. So yeah, I like Jenna and Jeremy.
As for the questions I get "How long till she knows Markus is Damon?' Not for a long time. Like I said, I know basically where I want to go, But nothing is set in stone. I'm not going to tell you, when or where or why, just as L. Smith wouldn't reveal her answers either. If you want to know, than read the story. What's the fun of knowing what will happen before it happens? If I gave you all the answers ( even ones I don't know myself) there would be no point in writing the story.
The other reason for this story, is I'm sure there are many like me out there that don't like the way the last book ended, or the direction the new ghost writer plans on taking with the couples. Please don't think this is a lecture. I love your feedback, especially since I was completely unsure if I could even pull off writing a story, being as it's my first time. Plus I've read feedback on other stories, and seen where people were mean, and wrote, things like "learn to spell, or get a dictionary" As far as I'm concerned if you don't have anything nice to say, than don't say anything. What's the point, unless you want to hurt some ones feelings? On the other hand seeing your guy's nice feedback is super encouraging, and makes me not want to let you down. There is nothing worse than reading a story, and then finding out the author hasn't updated in a year, and you just wasted your time on a story that will never be completed. I hate that. I don't want to do that to you.
When I do fall behind, and my email starts sending me your messages, it makes me want to do it for you.
But please don't expect perfection. I read a really great story the other day, and realized it was by a 14 year old. I have 2 adult daughters, and raising my 7, and 10 year old step-kids, and have a grand-daughter that will be 1 in Sept, so when I read a great story by someone so young, I realize how much I'm lacking. I never expected to be trying to write fan fic, but after reading so many, and having this burning plot in my head that I saw no one else use, I figured might as well try.
Anyway, love ya all, and thank you for taking the time to both read, and review. Be sure to check out my poetry too.
Oh, I forgot to mention unlike the last update this time I was in the flow. Kida of curious if you can tell the diff?