Chapter 15: It Feels Right

He Could Be The One

We had sex.

No, this is just some sick dream. I couldn't be that intoxicated that I was obligated to do such a thing. I'm not that stupid. God, yes I am, I lost my innocence before marriage. What if we didn't use protection? I could end up pregnant, drop out of school, skip college, and have people judge me for my stupid mistakes. How awful would all of that be? I'm not saying that bringing a life into this world is bad, but at a young age, it's just not the best thing to happen. Why did I have to attend such a stupid event, such as a party, where this is so likely to happen to anyone.

I tugged at my hair in angry frustration, tears filling my eyes, and spilling down my cheeks. I wanted to take everything back. The drinking, the party, the blurry mistake. No one deserves this, not even Austin.

I wiped my cheeks and looked down at him. I decided to do what most people wouldn't do after they found out they've had sex with someone. I woke him up. Gently as I could, I shook his shoulder.

"Wake up, Austin. Please." He moved a bit, then a few seconds later he opened his eyes and when he saw me he sat up from the bed immediately. At first he furrowed his eyebrows, then he looked at me then at himself and his eyes widened. My eyes were glassy, and I put my head down in shame as more tears came down my face. My body shook, and seconds later sobs racked my body, I had no control. Stupid me, for doing this to myself.

"No, Ally please don't cry. We can fix this," he said rubbing my shoulder. I snapped my head up. How could we can fix, something as horrible as this?

"How? Tell me how, because I won't to know," I said in a very upset tone. He only sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "I don't know." Perfect, just fucking perfect.

"Exactly, we can't. But this meant nothing, okay? You do not speak of this and neither will I. In fact, why don't we just forget we met each other?" His eyes widened once more and he shook his head. Believe me, I didn't want to forget him, but I felt as if I had to. I had to forget the bad and the good things with him, no matter what kind of emotions I was feeling. Because I knew that if I let my emotions take over, I would give into him again, and I don't think I can take that pain once more.

"No, you don't mean that. You're just upset and angry and you don't mean it." His voice grew silent and I began to talk again. "I do mean it. Just please stay out of my life, I will stay out of yours." I said, grabbing my clothing from the floor and quickly putting it on. After I got dressed, I looked up at him. He hasn't moved, just sat there, looking at nothing.

Before I grabbed the door knob, I looked back at him.

"I'm sorry."

And I left.

I am a piece of shit, I made you wait! This was going to be longer trust me, but I really need to go to bed because I am going to go camping for this music program thing so yeah. I got really emotional in this and I wrote a lot of emotions. And also I'm listening to I Miss You by Blink-182 and i love this song.

Anyway, I will update asap, and i now we've all heard that before, but just trust me, i will!

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Remember, perfect is just another word. (Thought I should change my motto or slogan thing. Is it good?)

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