He Could Be the One

by Yellow Converse5

He was a bad boy who helped her for no apparent reason. She was a good girl who never got to thank him for it. They were from two different social classes and couldn't be seen with each other yet, they fell in love. "What was your problem?"/ "My problem was that I couldn't sleep knowing you could never be mine."/ Auslly

20. Chapter 20

hey guys, i know i said i would no longer be on fan fiction. but i felt that i should i finish this story, there is still one chapter left, so watch out for it.

I know i said that i decided to end the story because i lost inspiration, but thats not the whole story.

I said in the last time i wrote that i dropped out of uni.

Ive never told anyone what i am about to tell you, but i am tried of keeping it in.

My life is crap. I have lost so many people in my life. to suicide, drug overdose, natural causes. some of them, just left.

when i was 15 i developed social anxiety disorder. it was hard to live with it. i would cry a lot to.

I hate to admit it, but I would hurt myself to.

I would use the end of a sharp bobby pin and scratch myself. and i would always wish and hope that it would not get worse, but i don't know my future. and that scares me.

i would tell myself i am worthless, that i don't deserve everything i have.

there are so many things i wished people told me about emotional abuse.

i am a trainwreck.

i feel lonely too.

i use to say family

is everything, but its not. My mother stopped believing in me and I've given up on trying to prove to her that i am worth it.

i put a smile on my face, but its completely fake.

i guess i just want to say, that i am sorry that i lied.

if you have any questions at all and you want me to answer them in the next chapter, feel free to ask. they can be personal questions and funny questions.

I was just tried of hiding.

(i originally posted this on my other story, but i felt that all of my readers deserve to know the truth. i'm not doing this for attention, trust me. like i said, i just felt that it was time to tell people my story.)