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Chapter XVI

(Epov)

I was in the kitchen while Alice and Bella were upstairs doing whatever. She said I wasn't allowed to come. It should have insulted me more than it should, but it didn't. I didn't care because I didn't need to see whatever girly shit she was planning on doing.

I was in the kitchen because I was eating a snack while I was doing my homework. Esme has this rule that we couldn't eat where but the kitchen. Something about ants. I don't know.

I was about to turn the page of my book when my sister called me. "What Alice?" I called back. What did she want? Wasn't she working with Bella and didn't want me?

"Come here, I need your opinion on something." She answered.

I gave a sigh. I pushed off the counter I was leaning on before walking in towards the family room. "What is it?" I asked her. She didn't answer, but she didn't have to. When I looked, I saw what she wanted me to see.

"What do you think, bro?" my sister asked.

What did I think? I thought, damn. Holy damn. The girl next to her looked incredible. I almost wanted to ask who she was. But I knew it was Bella by her unmistakable chocolaty brown hair, which looked shorter. I couldn't tell. But I knew it was out of her usual ponytail.

One thing for sure, I now saw the realms between her and her mom now. Her cheekbones were so high; it made her shy smile look so much better. And there was that body I thought I saw about two months ago. There was no mistaken. The girl had curves and legs for days. And let's just say, if nothing else, my attention was definitely drawn to her chest area. It looked too great for any kind of words; especially in that shirt. Was that what under those damn clothes before? Then damn, she should have stripped down a long as time ago.

"Whoa." I breathed

"Is that a good whoa?" Bella asked.

Alice giggled. "Is there any other kind?" I saw her look at me. At least, I think she did. I couldn't focus on anything else, but the hottie in front of. She was hotter than her mom, maybe even hotter than Tanya. "…Edward!" my sister said.

I had no idea what she said. I shook my head and looked at her. "What?"

"Use your words. How does she look?" she asked.

"Yes, Edward." I looked at Bella again. "How do I look?" she asked.

Did they want an honest answer or one of those answers where you're hiding how you really feel? I'm going to guess more of the second one. I ran my hand through my hair. "Great." Was I said.

"Really?" Bella's smile widened. Did her smile get better? How hell did that happen?

I shallow before nodded. "Really great."

"You're not just saying that?" yep, that's Bella.

I shook my head. "Not at all. I hardly recognized you." I looked at my sister. "Good job."

She smiled. "I do good work." She bragged. That would have been a time to roll my eyes, but this time, she might have been right.

Bella laughed. "So what now?" she asked my sister.

"Well, all that work made me so hungry. What about you two?" she asked. I nodded.

"I can eat." Bella answered with a shrug.

"I can order a pizza." I offered.

Alice shook her head. "I'm tired of pizza. Let's go out and show off Bella's new look. "

"We can go to the Diner." Bella suggested, referring to the only actually sit-down place in Forks. Everywhere else was a fast food joint that you could sit down at if you wanted to, but you didn't have to.

"Nah, we might run into someone from school there." Alice answered.

"Oh." Bella said. I heard the disappointment in there. Then I realized why it was there. She thought we didn't want to be seen with her. I don't know about Alice, but I wouldn't mind being seen with this Bella. Hell, I don't even think I would mind if people thought I dumped Tanya for her.

I shot Alice a look.

Alice looked at me and laughed. "Oh, sorry. That's not what I meant. I meant, I don't want anyone from school to see you yet. I want to wait until tomorrow to reveal the new you." She explained.

"Then where do you want to go?" she asked her, taking the words out of my mouth.

Alice thought about it for a moment. "I know a place where no one from Forks High would step foot in. Let's go." She said before we all got ours jackets and followed her out.

XXX

After Alice had me driving for thirty minutes, we ended up at a small diner in La Push. I understood why she wanted to come here. She was right, no one from Forks would come here unless we're stopping for a bite because we were coming or on our way to the beach. Nothing else. It was way too small and the food was more than the normal greasy gross.

When we got there, it was rather empty for a Sunday so we got a booth in the corner. The girls sat across me as I sat on the other side by myself. I suggested they did; but now that we were sitting down and I had a full view of Bella's screaming chest, I had a feeling it was a mistake.

I needed to get it together. I mean, so what she cut her hair and change her clothes. She was still Bella. The Bella who wasn't attracted to me and wanted my best friend. That's why I did this. For him, not for me.

But damn it, she was hot. Was it so wrong to admire good work?

We ordered the food and it came quite quickly. They were quick, I had to give that.

I was eating my double cheeseburger while the girls shared a chicken sandwich meal because Bella wasn't hungry enough to eat something as big as the diner's sandwiches along and Alice wouldn't eat something as big as the diner's sandwiches.

"You are going to clog your arteries eating like that all the time." Alice complained as I took another huge bit of my burger.

"Thanks dad." I mocked as I wiped my hands with a napkin like the other times I had to when I took a bit. Being a doctor, even if he was a surgeon and not a real one, he always telling us what we should and shouldn't eat. And that sounded like something he would say to me. "I'll work it off in practice tomorrow. And besides I'm a football player. What the hell else am I supposes to eat? Carrots and lettuce?" I replied.

"Yeah." Alice replied. "Plus, you don't need all that meat. All you do is throw a ball." She teased.

"Shut the hell up. The ball doesn't get to the end zone by itself." I answered. She always down plays my skills. As if anyone can do the things I do.

She laughed. "Yeah, because Jasper doesn't have a damn thing to do with that." she joked. When she did, Bella giggled as she took another fry from their plate. I wondered if she giggled because of my banter with my sister or because Alice said Jasper's name.

I was going to say something to my sister when the waiter placed a chocolate milkshake in a tall glass in front of Bella. "Um, I didn't order this." She told him.

"Someone did for you." He answered in the sound bored and tired voice he had when we walked in. He pointed to the table in another corner. We all looked toward a table with a three of guys, ones from the Reserves, I'm sure.

They looked around my age in the faces, but older in size. The all had on jean jackets. The one that looked probably the oldest with jet black hair and silver eyes smiled and gave a wink. I knew that combo. I do it all the time. He was eye flirting. But who with? I followed his eyes and saw Bella give a small smile and her cheeks pinked. He was flirting with Bella? He send a drink and flirting with Bella. I hoped he didn't think sending a milkshake to watch her for the reason I was thinking.

She mouthed a "thank you" to the guy before taking the rest of paper off the straw. Then I saw what she was doing. "Don't drink that." I snapped as I took the glass away from her.

"Why not?" she asked.

"Yeah, Edward, why not?" my sister asked. I looked at her.

Why didn't I want her drink it? I don't know, but I should come up with something because both Alice and Bella were looking at me. "Because what if he told the guy to put something in it or something?" I asked. I don't think even I was convinced.

Bella chuckled. "I think it's fine, Edward. Thanks though." She said before taking the glass away from me and drinking from it.

I looked back at the table of guys. One was talking in the one who winked at Bella's ear. The guy smiled and nodded at his friend. What the hell did he say? Was it about Bella? I turned back to her. She didn't seem to notice. "Well?" I asked.

She shrugged. "It's fine." She answered.

"Edward, what was that about?" Alice asked.

I looked at her. "I just don't want something to the Chief's daughter, okay? If it did, he would be on my ass." I said, but I knew it was a lie. I'm pretty sure Alice did too. But the thing was, I didn't know what the lie was covering up.

"Thanks for the consideration." Bella said with a smile before taking another sip.

We kept eating and Bella kept drinking that damn milkshake. She even stopped drinking the lemonade she ordered to do so. She wasn't having any kind of side effects, so I guess it was okay. I couldn't believe I actually believed the lie I told them and was looking for some kind of side effects. Maybe I was convincing.

We were just finishing up and I was about to pay the bill, when I was stopped. I heard Alice and Bella greeting someone. I looked up from getting my wallet and saw the guys at the other table standing there, smiling down at the girls. The one who looked the oldest and flirting with Bella was in front. "I see you got my treat." He said, nodding to the half empty glass.

Bella nodded. "Yes, thank you again."

"Anytime, sexy." He answered, looking at her up and down. I felt myself glaring at the guy. "Paul." He introduced himself as he held out his hand.

"Bella." She said as she shook his hand.

"Alice." My sister said as he reached over and shook her hand.

He took his hand back. "Forks' girls, I'm guessing." Both of them nodded. He chuckled. "I asked because I've never seen you around here. I would have remembered such pretty faces." He said. Was he flirting with both my sister and Bella? Alice, I didn't care about because she could hand herself. But this was first Bella's interaction, besides Riley. What if she gets nervous or something? Or what if he said something that she didn't know how to response to?

She proved me wrong by giggling right along with Alice. Seriously? "So, have you two ever ridden on a motor bike?" he asked. They both shook their heads. He grinned. I knew that grin. It was my grin. It was the one I give Tanya when I wanted her to do something; usually something sex related. "Maybe you can ride with us tonight." He suggested. The guys behind him nodded. Okay, now I was about to punch this guy in the face.

"Dude." I spoke up. Everyone looked at me. "I am sitting here." I told him, giving him a look I knew he knows. It was the "back the hell off her" look. But I don't know who I was giving it for. Alice or Bella?

Realization came across his face. "My fault dude. Are they both with you?" he asked.

I was about to answer when I felt a hit in my leg. I gave a groan from Alice's hard ass kick. "Nope." She answered for me. All the attention was on her. "He's just my brother." She replied.

The guys smiled again. "So, both of you are single?" he asked

She nodded. "Yep. Though, I'm not looking for anyone right now. But, Bella here is very single." She grinned.

He looked down at Bella. "Are you now?" he asked.

"Well, everyone is technically single…" she started by got cut off. She gave a groan. I knew why because I saw Alice's arm move, which made me think she hit her. "I mean, yes. I am." She nodded.

He placed one hand behind her head and one in front of her and leaned into her personal space. Okay, now, I really felt like hitting him. I had to use everything in me to not jump up, pull him back and knock in him the fucking jaw. There were two things that were keeping me from doing that. One was, he was bigger than me and if that wasn't enough, he had two other guys. And I hate to say it, but I was more than sure he would kick my ass. The second thing was I knew I shouldn't because I had no reason to do it. Alice was right, she or Bella weren't mine. But I still had the damn feeling.

"You are really cute." He said.

She gulped. "Th-thanks." She shuttered.

He chuckled. He took pen from one his pockets and grabbed a napkin from the pile in middle of the table. "Well, Bella when you get tired of being 'technically single'…" he said as he wrote on the napkin then folded it. "Give me a ring." He handed it to her. "I'm sure I can help you with that." he gave a wink before finally pulling back from her face. "Nice to meet you, Alice." she nodded to my sister. She nodded back before the three guys walked away.

When they left the diner, Alice giggled excitedly. "You just got hit on, girl. How does that feel?" she nudged Bella.

"Weird, but flattering." Bella said with a smiled.

Alice gave a blissfully sigh. "Yeah, that feeling never gets old. Well, it hasn't for me yet." She said. Bella laughed at my sister. "And he gave you his number? Pretty cool." She said.

"Yeah, that's the weird part." Bella said. She started to unfold it. When I saw that, I snatched it out of her hand before she could fully do so. They both looked at me. "If you wanted to see it, you could have just asked." She said.

I didn't answer as I balled the napkin up and tossed it to the floor. It rolled and went under a table. I was happy for that because I figured since she wouldn't want to get her clothes dirty for a number she didn't even want, she wouldn't go get it.

"Uh, that was wicked rude." Alice snapped.

"Bella didn't want that jerkoff's number." I told her.

"I didn't?" Bella said in confusion.

I shook my head. "Of course not."

"How the hell do you know that for sure, Edward?" Alice demanded.

I looked at her. "Correct me if I'm wrong, sister, but doesn't she already want someone else or did you do all that hard work for her to get hit on by La Push lames?" I challenged.

Alice rolled her eyes away from me and to Bella. "He's right. Not about the lame part because I know you saw how hot those guys were. But about the reason we did all this. You need to save that sexiness for Jasper. He is going to crazy tomorrow." She gushed.

Bella sighed. "I hope so."

I groaned. I didn't want to hear this shit. "Can we go now?" I asked them. They looked at me. "I'm tired and we all have school tomorrow." I reminded them.

"He's right. Let's go." Bella agreed. We got out of the booth and I paid the bill at the counter before we left the diner.

At school the next day, I heard everyone talking. Some were saying we had a new girl in the school, others were saying it was someone just playing dress, and the others were saying it was someone's family member. I had no idea who they were talking about since a name was never said when I heard them. But everywhere I went to day, I hear about this girl.

It wasn't until I was at my locker when Jasper came up to me. "There you are." He said when he saw me.

I looked at him. "Yeah, here I am. Now that we both know my location, mind telling me why the hell it's so important?" I asked him.

"Dude, have you heard?" he asked.

"What, about this new chick or something?" I asked.

He gave me look then shook head. "Hell no. Edward, it's not a new girl. It's Isabella." he corrected.

"Swan?" I asked.

He nodded. I should have known that's who they were talking about. New girl, my ass. I made myself stop caring about it last night after Alice and I dropped her home. I figure it was just the change that caught my attention like that. I was so use to see her in baggy clothes all the damn time, that I found something, anything different sexy. I mean, yes, she was attractive last night, but the effect on me couldn't last that long. "Yeah. So you're telling me you haven't seen her?" he asked.

"Nope." I told him honestly. Just like when she had her contacts in, we didn't cross paths today.

"You need to see her." he urged.

"Why?" I demanded.

"Because…" he stopped and looked somewhere. "You can find out for yourself." He said, his eyes not leaving something. "She's behind you."

"What?" I asked.

"Well, walking pass." He corrected himself. I decided to follow his eyes to see what the hell he was talking about. Then I saw it

Bella looked better than she did yesterday. Her hair that exposed the side of her neck made her skin look to bright, almost glowing. Her chest was the same as yesterday, but the top her body look great in the light brown shirt she had on. And did her legs get longer? How the hell did that happen?

And it looked like the affect hasn't worn off yet. Maybe it's like the new car smell. It might be there for a while.

She gave us a small smile as she walked by. I was going to say something, but I was beaten. "Hey, Isabella." Jasper said to her.

Her cheeks were colored with a light pink before she tugged a piece hair behind her ear. "Hi Jasper." She said politely before walking away.

"Okay, I guess I see what you mean." I told him when she was out of ear shot.

He chuckled. He crossed his arms and leaned against the locker next to me as he continued to watch her walk away. "I don't know what my new favorite color is. Brown or tan?" he said.

I almost didn't catch what he was saying and almost had to ask him what he meant. But then I realized those were colors Bella was wearing. He didn't mean the top or the bottom. He meant her top or bottom. "Classy dude." I mumbled as I turned back to my locker.

He shifted his eyes to me. "Don't you think you're being a little hypocritical?" He joked when he heard me. I knew what he was talking about. He was talking about the comment I made about the comment he made. What he said sounded like something I would say. I think I've even have said something along those lines and it was about his sister, in front of him. When did I become the one to tell people what they shouldn't say?

I just rolled my eyes. "Anyways, could you blame me? She looks real good today. I mean she was cute before, but today…" he gave a breath. "Damn." He finished.

I rolled my eyes again, this time in annoyance. Did I have to hear this? I didn't want to hear her last night and I damn sure don't want to hear him today.

I was going to say something to him, but then I recognized what he said. "Wait. You thought she was cute before?" I asked in disbelief. I didn't think she was cute before. Just below pretty, maybe. She was nothing but average before.

He looked at me when he heard the question. Then he nodded. He actually nodded. "I know she didn't dress like every other girl here, but that was okay. She didn't expose herself, and sometimes a little mystery is good." He winked before turning back to what he was looking at before. "And mystery discovered." I followed his eyes again. Again he was looking at Bella. She was at her locker, talking to Rosalie. I wanted to tell him "dude, I know she was hot, but stop fucking staring at her like that". I didn't because that was what she wanted. His attention. But still.

I turned back to my locker. "I was thinking." He said.

"What?" I answered in a bored tone, trying to hide the annoyed one I had a feeling would come out.

"Maybe I should talk to her. Maybe I could ask her to the party on Saturday." He answered.

I snapped my neck to him. Was he saying what I think he was saying? "You mean on a date?" I asked. He gave a small shrug, but not looking at me. "You don't want to do that." I said before I knew what was coming out my mouth.

He looked at me. "Why not?" he asked. Yeah, self, why not? He wanted to ask her out that fast. She had his attention, your work was done. That was good, right? It was good. It was good. I kept repeating to myself. But no matter how many times I repeat it to myself, I didn't believe it.

"Because we might not even win Friday. If we don't, you know there will be no party on Saturday." I reminded him.

He chuckled. "Is Mr. Star Quarterback doubting his skills?" he joked.

I rolled my eyes. "Hell no." I answered quickly.

"Then what the hell is the problem?" he asked, reminding me of the point I clearly forgot I was trying to make. How the hell did I do that that fast?

I don't know, but I know whatever I was trying to do didn't work. I looked over to Bella's locker. Before I could even stop myself, I came up with something else. "Look at that." I told him, gesturing behind him. He followed my instruction. He saw what I saw, which was Mike Newton talking to Bella.

He gave a small groan. "Yeah, that's been happening all day." He answered. Wait, did he mean guys been talking to her or specify Mike? "Every time I see her, someone was talking to her." he answered my question I didn't ask out loud. I felt the need to groan too. That was until I saw her give Mike a small smile and head shake. She rejected him. I shouldn't be surprised. "That's what helped me make my decision. Everyone else is talking to her, why not me too?" he said.

"Do you really want to be that, through?" I asked.

He looked at me again. "What do you mean?"

"I mean, being like Mike and everyone else; talking to her and hitting on her. I'm sure she's pretty damn tired of it already." I told him, though I knew it wasn't true from what she said last night.

"So I shouldn't talk to her?" he asked.

I shook my head. "Not yet anyways." I told him.

"When then?" he asked.

"I don't know. Probably at least until after winter break." I told him.

"Wow. Why so far?" he asked. That was a good question. I knew it was enough time, but for what? That was the real question. Maybe for the affect to wear off me and I won't care.

"To see if this is not some kind of weird project she's doing and if this is really her now." I told him. There we go. There's something Edward Cullen would say. I almost thought I was losing myself for a second.

He thought about it then nodded. "Yeah, maybe." He looked at his wrist watch. "Hey, we better get to class." He said.

I nodded. Then I looked over his shoulder and saw Bella walking my way again. "Go. I'll catch up." I told him. He nodded before pushing off the locker and walking in the direction of our last. When he passed Bella, he gave her a smile. She blushed again and smiled back.

Did he not just hear me? Wait, why do I care if he did or not?

I stepped in front her to stop her. She caught herself from bumping into me. When she saw it was me, she gave me a smile. And not the shy one she just gave Jasper. "Hey, Edward."

"Hey. I hear you've been popular today." I said.

She rolled her eyes as she chuckled. "The word is subjective." She said. Yep, still Bella. Still confusing me. I feel I'm going to need reminder every now and then now.

"Right. Well, I had a take-home test this weekend for my next class. Since we didn't get a chance yesterday, I wanted to look at it now before I turned it in." I told her the reason why I stopped her.

"Sure." she said holding out her hand. I took out my paper I was working on all weekend and handed it to her. She grabbed it and looked over it. After a moment, she nodded and gave it back. "Looks good to me." she said.

"Thanks." I said as I placed it where it was before. "See ya." I told her before walking around her.

"Edward, wait." She stopped me. I looked at her. "I saw you talking to him and I just wanted to know if he said anything about me." she said.

"Jasper?" I asked, though I knew that's who she was talking about. Who else would she care about? She nodded. I couldn't do anything else before I shook my head. "Not that I know of." I knowingly lied.

"Oh." She said disappointedly. What the hell was that? Why did I do that? Why did I lie to her; and about something that literally just happened? "I mean, I know everyone else noticed the change and I just wanted to know if he did too. But I guess this was useless because nothing would change how he sees me." she said sadly.

I couldn't see her sad because of a lie I don't know why I told. "I mean…" I called her attention before she turned away. "It's just the first day. Maybe give him some time?" I suggested.

She gave a small smile and nodded. "Yeah, perhaps. I'll see you later." She said turning to walk away from me.

"Bella." I called. She turned to me. "You really look great today." I told her the truth. Well, the appropriate truth.

She grinned. "Thanks. Your sister is like some kind of magician or something." She teased before walking away.

"See you later tonight" I called. She gave a thumbs up as she walked to her class.

After school was practice. There, I heard even more people talking about Bella. Some of the players were talking about asking her out like Jasper was. They were making jokes about how they would mind seeing her in one of the cheerleading outfits at one of the games. I wondered if they would say that if they knew how she felt them.

What the hell? Why was everyone all over her in just one damn day? Even Jasper came up me and asked me why I didn't tell them what I told him. I replied by saying I don't care if she told them down. He was my friend and I would care if she hurt his pride. Honestly, I was trying to keep myself from doing so because I knew they would look at me and had a whole bunch of questions if I did. And how do I explain why I don't want them to ask her out when I didn't know the damn answer myself.

After practice, it wasn't until I got to the parking lot when I remember my mom took my car to teach Alice how to drive because she "had to learn in my car". It didn't make sense to me, but I told her she could use it. I had to ask Jasper a ride to Bella's house. He asked me whose house it was. I just told him a friend's. He dropped me off without many questions about where I was going or what I was doing; which was good.

When I got there, I saw she still she had on school clothes on. She said she didn't have time to change. Since I got there, I was sitting across Bella on her bedroom floor. When I asked if us going to her room was that a good idea, she said it was fine because her dad was watching a game and she didn't want him to disturber us and vice versa. She gave me my weekly word. This week's was "gossamer", which meant "light, thin and flimsy". It was hard to believe we were already in the G's.

"So what's the answer?" she asked me to one of my homework questions after we read the paragraph from my book.

I looked for the answer again. I couldn't find it. "I don't know." I said, shook my head.

"Yes you do." She urged.

"Not off the top of my head."

"Didn't you write down?" she asked.

I nodded. "But I don't have my notebook."

"Where is it?" she asked. I shrugged. I didn't know what I did with it. I know I had when I left school. I don't remember what I did with it since then.

She sighed. "Let's read again." she suggested. Then she groaned as she scratched her side.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"This stupid shirt your sister picked out for the day is freaking itchy. I feel like I've been scratching all day. Can you pass me that shirt behind you?" she asked pointing at something behind me. I turned to see a piece of gray fabric hanging on the side of her bed.

I grabbed it. "This?" I asked. She nodded. I saw the word "Forks" on it. I unfolded it to see what it said. When I saw what it said, I had to say, I was surprised. "You're on the debate team?" I asked I folded it back half way. I thought she didn't have a life before me.

"I was." She corrected. "I quitted."

"Why?" I asked I handed it to her.

"Like you and I, my mother and I have different opinions on what 'cool' is. After one meet, she made me quit." She explained. I gave a nod. I should have guessed it was something like that.

I was about to ask her something else, but I completely forgot about it when I saw what she was doing. "Wh-what are you?" I shuttered out.

"Changing my shirt." she said with the inferred "duh" as she continued to lift her shirt. Yeah, I shuttered because she was changing her shirt in front of me. It wasn't like I wasn't use to it. Tanya dresses and undresses in front me all the time. But the difference between the two was that Tanya was my girlfriend. Was it okay anyone who wasn't her to change in front of me?

It wasn't until she had the shirt way pass her stomach and her white flowery bra was exposed when I realized I was staring at her like Jasper was earlier. I should probably say something. "You're sure you don't me to step out or something? I mean should you be changing in front of me?" I asked. Then I realized it was too late because the shirt was already off her body and in her lap. She looked like she should have been modeling that bra.

She shrugged before tossing it to the corner. "If I was completely changing then yeah. But it's just my shirt, so I don't see the point." She said as she fixed the shirt I handed her to put it on. "Besides, we both know you don't see me that way." She noted before pulling the shirt over her body. I wonder if she would still think that if she knew I was just staring at her.

"Do you play some kind of sport or something?" I asked as she pulled her hair out of the shirt.

"I play tennis some times and I played soccer until my freshman year." she explained.

"That explains it." I mumbled.

"Explains what?" she asked, clearly hearing the mumble that I didn't mean to come out my mouth. It explains why she had such a great ass body. I thought the only way girls could sexy stomach like that was if they danced, like Tanya.

But I couldn't tell her that. "Uh, why you have abs." I pointed out.

She laughed. "Your sister said the same thing." She answered. So she didn't catch that I was looking at her stomach when I shouldn't have been to even notice something like that. "Let's read." She said, getting back to homework. I nodded ad forced myself to focus on the book.

We both grabbed our books and began taking turns to read the passage again. She suggested we read aloud to each other because it would give me a reason to pay attention. I think I might need that even more after what she just did. She was about to take her turn to read when the doorbell downstairs rang.

"Shouldn't you get that?" I asked.

She shook her head. "My dad will." The bell rang again. "Or not." She added before getting off the floor. "I'll be back." She said before leaving the room.

While she was gone, I tried to read her part. Then after a while, I got bored. She was gone longer than I thought she would be so I looked for something to do or something to entertain me while she was downstairs. Then I saw a notebook on her dresser. I got off the floor and walked over to it. I picked up and started flipping through it.

It was just a lot writing. A lot of the pages were ripped out. I saw the words "Dear J." at the top of almost every page. I thought they were some kind weird letters to Jasper or something. I was proven wrong when I saw his name more than a few times. She was talking about him, not to him. I saw everyone's name: Alice, Rosalie, Tanya, even Emmett was mentioned once or twice.

Then I realized this was some kind of journal or something.

I knew I should have been looking at it, but the fact that I saw everyone else's name made me for read it more. The reason because I looking for my name. I wasn't wondering what she had to say and what she really thought about me. Clearly, she was lying about not being attracted to me. And obviously, she undressed in front of me to tempt me or something. and this notebook will prove that.

I just could not accept the fact that she didn't see me in that way at all.

I finally found my name. I was about to read what it said when I heard her footsteps. I quickly closed it and tossed it where I got it from. She walked in with a smile on her face. Then she looked at me. "What are you doing?"

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oh and for those who care, bella's outfit pic will be on the next chp.

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