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Chapter XIX

(Bpov)

Friday went better than I could have ever imagine. I made up with my best friend and talked to Jasper twice. Not only that, but I stood up to Tanya. I didn't even know what I was doing while I was doing it. I didn't even think I would. I just opened my mouth and all these words started coming out. Ones that made sense. It was the only time during this whole change when I use my smarts and they worked for me. I had to say, I didn't want Rosa to butt in before, but I was happy that she did when she did because I didn't think I had much else to say after the last thing I said.

Then after school, I went over to Alice's and Edward's house while Edward and the rest of the team was at the away game. I was little, sad, I guess. That's not the right word. I didn't know what I was, but I wasn't happy that they won. It was only because I had to go to the party Jasper invited me to. He texted me and told me they were on their way on home after winning the game. Alice took my phone and told him I was coming to the party on Saturday. I guess that made it official.

Because of that, Alice spent the night "teaching me how to move". She even had me dance with Edward, which was a little uncomfortable for me and I'm sure for him. It wasn't until she put on one of my favorite songs and told me to pretend I was alone at home is when I let loose. I even felt Edward's hand on me again, but I was so into the music, I didn't care.

Then their mom came home and I met her. She was so pretty. Her eyes perfectly fitted her heart-shape face. Her lips were thin, but made for a great smile. I felt instantly happy and at eased when I looked at her. I wished I can say I feel the same way when I looked at my own mother. I didn't know their mom that much, but she seems nice.

She even said I could sleep over, which I did. It didn't do it because I wanted to. It was more like Alice focused me. But still, it was fun and nice to be out of the house.

I was sitting at their table with Alice, eating the French toast their mom made. "This is so good, Mrs. Cullen." I expressed to their mom. When my mom makes her French toast, it isn't that well. She doesn't make them that often because she says their fattening.

But I was getting them at someone else house, and it wasn't even my birthday or Christmas, the time I usually get them I felt like I was eating at a restaurant or something. Their mom laughed. "Why, thank you, Bella. And please, call me Esme. It's fine with or without the Miss." She corrected me. I would have to remember that. I think I would still put the Miss in front of it. I always feel a little weird when I call another adult by their first name. "Help yourself to some more." she offered.

"I can't." I told her politely. In my house, it was a rule that I, and only I, was never to go back for seconds. It was like law. My mom would snap at me about how I didn't need it if I did. "Thank you, through."

"Bella, there's more than enough, honey. I insist." She said.

"Bella, just take another piece. She will make us eat it, if you don't." Alice said.

I guess one more piece won't hurt. And besides, it's not like my mom will know. I stabbed my fork into another piece of French toast before moving it from serving plate to my own. I sprinkled it with powder sugar before drowning it in syrup. "Alice, where's your brother?" Ms. Esme said.

Alice shrugged. "Probably still sleeping off last night's game." She answered.

"Oh, they did have an away game. How did it go?" she asked.

"He said they won." Alice replied.

"Well, he needs to come down." She said to her daughter. "Edward! The food's cold." She yelled up.

"No need to yell." I heard his voice. I didn't turned to look at him because I was too busy cutting another piece of my food and stuffing it in my mouth.

"Edward, we have a guest." Esme said as I heard his bare feet walk against the kitchen floor. I wondered why she said.

"Yeah, bro. no one's making a poster of you. Put a damn shirt on." Alice agreed.

"Alice, language." Her mother scolded her for swearing. Alice rolled her eyes. What were they talking about? I saw what they meant when Edward walked pass the table to the refrigerator. He didn't have a shirt on. He had on green striped pajamas pants, but no shirt. I wonder why he felt the need to come down here without one. And did he always do that? Was that considered normal unless someone outside the family was in the house? No one on my house did that, so I didn't know.

He grabbed the milk carton before closing the door. He turned to the counter. When he did, I saw the front of his body. One could tell he was some kind of athlete. It was very defined. He had more abs than the two or three people claimed to see on me. There was V line to the top of his pajama pants. He reminded me of one of my Ken dolls I had when I was younger. I bet that was the look he was going for.

He grabbed a cup. "Where's dad?" he asked as he pour a half glass. I didn't think people actually drank milk without anything.

"He needed to go in early to help with something." His mom answered.

He nodded in replied. He took a slip from the glass before looking at me. "Hey, Bella. I forgot you were here." He said with a smile.

"Hi. Why don't you have a shirt on?" I asked. Any other girl would be swooning and trying not to faint, I'm sure. I was just uncomfortable and found it a little odd.

"Because he's rude." Esme said as she took some dishes to the sink.

He rolled his eyes before taking another slip. "I didn't have one on when I went to bed and I couldn't find one before I came down here." He answered. "Why? Is it bothering you?" he asked with a smirk.

I chuckled because I knew what the smirk was. He was wondering if I was checking him out. I wasn't. It was honestly just a question. It must be really hard for him to accept that not every girl is in love with him. "I was just asking." I said before eating my piece of French toast.

"Why do you have your glasses on?" he asked after he saw me fix them. I wondered if he just noticed.

"Because I can't sleep in my contacts and I can't see without anything" I said with another chuckle. Shouldn't that be obvious? Did he think his sister would let me wear them if there were any other reasons? "Don't worry; they're coming off after breakfast. Alice said she would try to kill me if I had them on any longer." I explained.

"I didn't say I would try. I said I would kill you. Please don't underestimate my powers." She said next to me. I giggled as I cut another piece of toast and putting it in my mouth.

"Well, are you ready for the party tonight?" he asked.

"She will be." Alice answered for me. I gave an agreed nod. I'm sure she would do something great, just like the rest of the week.

After breakfast, Alice took me up stairs back to the "prototype closet", as her mother referred to it as such, so we could pick out what I was wearing for the party. She kept taking something off and tossing them to me, telling me to try it on. After I did, she would look at it and shake her head before turning back to the rack. I kept asking her should we be looking for something to wear as well. "I'm not the one trying to make an impact. Besides I already have want I have what I'm going to wear." She would answer.

Then she tossed a blue dress at me. I held it up. It was collarless with laced designed sleeves that matched the rest of the dress and looked like they stopped around my elbows. It had a black skinny belt around the waist. I didn't have to put it on to know I liked it. In fact, I loved it. I tried it on and fell more in love with it, if that was possible. After I zipped it up, it hugged me in all right places. The blue color looked so good against my skin. "Wait. I like this one." I told Alice before she said something.

She looked at me and nodded. "I do too. Okay. We have the dress. Take it off." she ordered.

"Why?" I whined. I didn't want to get out it.

"So nothing will not happen to it before the party. Come on." She concluded to order me. When she told the reason, I had to say, she made sense. I reluctantly unzipped the back and let it drop to the floor. I picked it up and laid it on the chair before changing back into the short and tank she lend me fore pajamas. "Shoes." She said holding up some black heels with bows across the top.

I tried them on. When I tried to stand, I almost fell back over. I would have if she didn't catch me. They weren't like the other ones she made me wear. The heel was much thinner. I thought I would break them. "I can't even stand in these, how am I going to walk and dance?" I asked.

"We just need to practice." She said. After that, she took my hands. She started walking backwards and I followed her. I felt like a toddler, learning how to walk all over again.

After the walking lesson, she played some music and showed me how to move my body without moving my feet. It helped that she put some heels on and showed me the ways she moves. We kept going back and forward between the walking and the dancing for about two or three hours.

After a while, she told me to get in the shower and use her soap and shampoo. The sleep over was kind of impromptu, so I didn't have any of my things. I had to use her pajamas, toothpaste and everything else. It was a good thing they had extra toothbrushes, so I didn't have to use hers or my finger, which is what I do the few times I spend the night at Rosa's and I forgot my toothbrush. I would have to use her underwear if she did already buy a lot of my own fancy underwear that she keeps making me wear. I was happy for that.

When I got out the shower, she spent the next two hours drying, combing, spraying and curling and re-curling my hair. Then she spent the next thirty to forty minutes tweezing at my eyebrows and anything else she felt she needed to be tweezed on my face. I asked her why she didn't just wax it. I think I can handle that better. She told me it just a few hairs and I didn't need a wax. Plus, she said she could control the look better if she used tweezers.

"My face hurts." I whined when she was done, rubbing the places she picked at. I felt as if she took a hot needle and poked it around my face.

"Stop complaining." She said as she smacked my hand away from my face. Then she started on my make-up. After twenty minutes or so, she was done. "Don't touch anything. I'm going to get ready." She told me before leaving for her room.

After another hour or so, she came back dressed in a shear black tank top that showed off her round shoulders and skinny looking arms. She also wore a bright pink skirt, which was designed to look like the fabric was folded on top of each other. It was cute for her, but I couldn't see myself in it. I was glad she didn't pick something like that out for me. Her shoes were black and shiny and matched the top perfectly. Her hair was up to show off her black and diamond bow earrings. No wonder she wasn't worried about what she was wearing. The whole thing came to going together nicely.

Then she walked over to me and helped me put the dress on without messing anything up. I had to wear a strapless bra with it because the top was translucent. It was first time I ever had on one. She put my jewelry on as I put my shoes on. Then she helped me off the chair. "Aren't you two ready yet?" we heard Edward call from downstairs. I'm sure he was waiting awhile. He didn't have much to do, but shower and get dressed.

"Chill. We're coming." Alice said. "Just put your phone and wallet in your bra. Any purse will mess up the look." she said as she was patting my hair down and fixing any other problems. I sighed as I did was she said. It was the first time I did something like that too.

She hooked her arm with mine before we walked out the room and down the stairs. "Whoa." Edward said when he saw us. "Bella, you look so good." He said.

I smiled. "Thank you." I told him. I hope Jasper thought so too.

"What about me?" his sister said to him.

He rolled his eyes to her. "You always look nice, do you need me to say it every time?" he asked.

"Hell yes." She said as if he should already know.

"Fine you look nice too." He said. I giggled.

"Thank you. Come on, let's go. Bye mom." Alice said before we left the house.

XXX

We pulled up to a rather big house. It was around the same size as Rosalie's house. It wasn't hard to guess this where the party was considering there was cars parked everywhere and there was buffed music coming from it. "Are you okay?" Alice asked me. That was a good question. I was about to go to my first high school party. And at a house of a person I wasn't too fond of and who wasn't fond of me. I knew Tanya would do something to ruin my night. Then again, maybe I won't even see her. It did see like to be a lot of people here. So was I okay?

I looked at Alice and nodded. "I will be." I told her before we got out the car. I was between Edward and Alice as we walked through the open door. As soon as we did, the music was much louder than when we were outside. I looked around to see I was right. There were a lot people. Some of them I knew from a class or two. I was sure everyone here was from our school; I just didn't know a lot of them.

"Want to do a lap around?" Alice asked in my ear. I nodded, not really know what that meant.

"I'm going to get something to drink." Edward said. We both nodded before he walked away. Alice hooked her arm with mine before pulling me through the crowd of people. As we walked away, I kept seeing people I knew, but I didn't see who I wanted to. I wondered why.

We kept walking until someone stopped us. We both turned to see Jasper smiling at us. There was one person I was looking for. His long sleeve on his white and brown shirt pushed up to his elbows. I could see his perfectly formed forearms. I saw his lips moving, but I didn't know what he was saying because I couldn't hear him over the music. "What?" I asked loudly.

"I said you made it." he repeated, louder. I nodded. He said something else. But again, I couldn't hear him. Did that stupid music have to so loud that I could hear the person next to me? I pointed to ear and shook my head, telling him I couldn't hear him again. I saw him chuckle. He leaned into my ear. "You want to go to the kitchen with me. It's a little quieter." He said in my ear. I could hear him clearly now. I felt my knees weaken as his breathe touched my ear. Goodness, will the feeling I have around him stop. It would make it easier to talk to him it does.

"I'm with Alice." I told him back.

"Where is she?" he asked. What? She was right next to me. I turned to the side where she was. She wasn't there. I turned to the other side, thinking she moved. She wasn't there either. Where did she go? Did she leave me? I guess she did.

I shrugged. "Okay." I told him, answering the kitchen question. He pulled back and held out his hand. I couldn't help the smile as I placed my hand on top of his palm. My heart started jumping crazily as he tightened his hand around mine. He weaved through the people and walked towards the kitchen, pulling me behind him.

He pushed through a swing door and we walked into the kitchen. It was sort of narrow with counters along the three walls. When the door stop swinging and closed, I found he was right. It was quieter. He let go of my hand before walking to the refrigerator and opened it. He pulled out a beer can and hand it out to me. I look at it. Edward was right, Jasper did drink and he thought I did. I didn't think I would see it. I don't think I liked it.

I shook my head. "I don't drink." I told him. I was glad I didn't have to yell anymore.

He smiled at me. "Good. You shouldn't." he said before putting it back. When he pulled back, he had to bottles of water in his hand. He gave one to me. "So you decided to come." He noted as he leaned against one of the counters.

I nodded as I leaned against one on the opposite side. "I was free, so I thought why not." I joked. He did what I wanted him to and chuckled.

"I'm glad you were." He joked back.

I gave a small chuckle back. "Do you know where Rosalie is?" I asked him. That was the other one person I was looking for. I didn't see her when Alice and I walked around and I didn't see her when Jasper pulled me to the kitchen. I figured she was in the bathroom or something.

"She's at home. She didn't want to come tonight. She said she wanted to hang out alone with Emmett." He answered.

"Oh." Why was she not here? This was my first party, how can she not be here? She probably thought I didn't need her. or maybe she thought I didn't want here. I would have liked a warning, though.

"Hey, I'm here." He said when he saw my face. I guess I had a look of disappointment on my face. I smiled at him. "And I'm glad I am because if I wasn't, I wouldn't be able to tell you that you look really nice tonight. That dress looks good on you" He admired.

I couldn't stop the silly little giggled that came out of my mouth. It seems like that's I can do when he talks to me like that. "Thank you." I replied.

"Those shoes look killer." He said.

I can only guess he meant they looked like the hurt. And he wouldn't be wrong. "If that's your way of saying they hurt, they kind of do." I told him.

"Can you dance in them?" he asked.

I gave a shrug. "We can see." I said. Wait, did that come out of my mouth? Did I just give him a clever and flirty response? By the way he smiled in return, I think can I assume I did. Where did that come from, I wondered. Maybe Alice was right. The confidence came from feeling sexy and that's exactly how I felt in this dress.

He took the bottle of my hand and placed both my and his unopened bottles on the counter. He held out his hand. "Let's go see." He replied before placed my hand in his again. My heart started beating fast again. When I did he led me back to the rest of the party. He walked me to the middle of the crowd. I couldn't help but look around me. "Are you okay?" he said in my ear.

"I'm not use to dancing around so many people." I told him.

"How about you just focus me?" he said before pulling back. He gave a nod and smile. I was allowed to look at him? I think that made it worst instead of better. But I think I know something that would help me.

I closed my eyes like I did last night and I pretended to be in my room. I listened to the music and pretended to be alone.

Then I just let go. I stopped worrying about who was looking at me and how I looked. Honestly, I think it had something to do with the fact that I was dancing with the person I wanted. At one point, he spun me and I was dancing against him like I was dancing with Edward. I was even leaning into his body more than I was with Edward. When I was dancing with Edward, it felt a little uncomfortable, but with Jasper it was different. I still felt like I was going to faint every time he moved his hand here or there. But at least if I did, he would be there to catch me

After three or four songs, I lost count of the songs just like I lost count of how many times he spun me or the amount of times my heart skipped when he touched me, I told him I was thirsty. He nodded and pulled me back to the kitchen. Because the bottles we left were gone when we got back, he had to get us two more. When he handed it to me, I quickly opened it and chugged it down. He laughed at me.

"Are you having fun, Belle?" he asked.

I heard he didn't say the '"a" at the end of my name. "Did you just call me 'Belle'?" I asked him as he took a drink from his own bottle.

He chuckled when he was done. "Yeah. I thought I would call you something a little different. Is that okay?" he asked. I smiled. He gave me nickname; something only he would call me. I think I was okay with that. I nodded. "So are you having fun?" he asked again before drink from the bottle again.

"Surprisingly yes." I told him. Rosalie wasn't here and I haven't seen Alice or Edward since we got here and she left me, but I was fun. I was glad Alice made me come.

"I'm glad. "

I nodded. "Me too. I'm glad you guys won." I said to him.

"Too bad you wasn't there to witness it." he replied.

I shrugged. "No point of watching something I don't understand, right?" I told him.

He chuckled. "I understand that. I grew up with a football coach as a father so it wasn't hard for me to get in to. But not everyone can't be as lucky as me." he joked. I laughed in response. "Maybe I can give a lesson, so you can come next time."

I gave a smile. "I think I'll like that." I told him, but unlike before, I wasn't able to going through with the flirt. I gulped. "I mean so I can watch the team." I added.

"We will have to do that so you can come see the team." He teased. He took a gulp from him water. "Ready to go back there?" he asked.

I drank the rest of my water before tossing it to the nearest trash can. I gave a nod. "Ready." I told him before giving him my hand again. My heart bounced in my chest for the fourth time tonight. We walked through the door and walked to the area we were before. When we got there, I saw Tanya looking for someone or something. I knew I was having too good of a night.

She smiled when she saw us. She walked over to Jasper. "Edward's looking for you." She yelled at him over the music.

"For what?" he yelled back.

She shrugged. "He said he needed you for something." She replied.

"Can it wait?" he asked.

She looked behind him at me. She looked down and saw our hands locked. She rolled her eyes back to Jasper. "No. he said he need you now." she told him.

I saw his body move like he was sighing. He turned to me. "I'll be back." he said in my ear before letting go my hand. Tanya pointed in a direction when he looked at her again.

"Watch it. You're going to spill my drink on my dress." She snapped at him as he grabbed her arm. I didn't see the red cup in her hand until just now. Jasper didn't seem to care about her drink or her dress as he leaned in said something in her ear. "Just go." She told him. She pushed his arm off her when he was done.

As he weaved his way through the sea of people, I realized he was leaving me and I was alone with Tanya. This would be a good time to have Rosa here with me; or at least to know where Alice was.

But since I didn't, I wasn't going to be here with Tanya. So I turned to leave. Before I could get anyway, she grabbed my arm. When I turned to her, she was smiling at me. Not one her evil or mocking smiles I knew her so well for, but something different. Why was she smiling at me? I think that was worse than she's glaring at me. "Where are you going? I wanted to talk to you."

I sighed. I sighed because I knew what she wanted to talk about. She wanted to talk about that thing that happened between her and me at lunch when I was sitting at her table with her friends. I didn't want to talk about it. If I just say sorry, she would leave me alone. Worth a shot, right? "Look, Tanya. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you yesterday, but –"

"Embarrassed me?" she repeated, cutting me off. I nodded. "Please. I'm so over that. I should be the one who's sorry." She said.

I raised an eyebrow. "Really?" Her, sorry? That was a joke I never heard.

She nodded. "Actually." She turned to someone. She gave them a sign to turn the music down. Whoever she was signaling did so. When the music was off, everyone complained. "Sorry everyone." Tanya said and every person turned to me and her. "I wanted to make sure everyone hears what I have to say to Isabella." she turned to me and smiled again. Again, it was creepy. "I mean, Bella." She corrected herself. "I wanted to tell her that I've been a bitch to her and I'm sorry." She said.

"Really?" I repeated. I didn't trust her anymore that than first she said. Even less now that we had an audience.

"Yes. In fact, I think we even should be friends." She said before opening her arms to me. "Best friends." She said still smiling.

Maybe she was telling the truth. Maybe I should trust her and give her a chance. I gave Edward a chance, who was almost just as bad as she was. Why not give her one too?

I slowly closed the space between us and she hugged me. I actually started to think she wasn't the mean person she tries to me. I did, until I felt some liquid rolling down my back. I thought it was my sweat from dancing, then I realized it was stopping.

I backed away from Tanya. When I did, she splashed the rest of what was in her cup all over my front side. The beer that was in her cup got, in my hair, on my face – which caused my make-up to start dripping – and all over the dress I borrowed from Alice. Tanya was lying to me. She said all that for me to let my guard down. She didn't want to be my friend. Of course not. How could I be so stupid?

When I wiped my eyes cleared, I saw people laugh. Some were trying to, but they were failing badly. Tanya's smile changed into the evil one we all knew. "I'm sorry. Oh, wait, no I'm not. That's what you have to do when dogs don't know they're place. You have to punish them. Did you really think you can come out of nowhere and take what I worked so hard for? Think again." I wiped my eyes because more of the maraca dripped.

I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing can out. I tried again. Again nothing. I felt I was having one of those dreams where something is coming for me and I couldn't scream. "Aw, what's wrong? Little Miss New and Improved Bella can't think of a clever comeback without her shield of bodyguards?" she teased. "That's because you're not on my fucking level. You never will be. You are below me. So go cry to your lame ass father and your slut of a mother." she said. Everyone laughed.

I couldn't believe she said that. I may not like my mother, but I didn't allow anyone to talk about. I glared. "You..."

"What?" she challenged. I was so upset that I couldn't say anything in returned. "That's what I thought. You're little fifteen minutes are officially up. Now what you need to do is stay away from my friends, stay away from my boyfriend and stay the hell out of my way." She said before turning away. "Oh." I she as she turned back to me. "I think I should probably warn you that the only reason Jasper is talking to you is the same reason your 'best friend' is. They both feel sorry for you. As if there was any other reason. And how can they not. You're so pathetic, I almost do." She said. When she mentioned Jasper, I felt myself getting more and more upset. For the simple reason was that I knew she was right. What other reason would he or his sister even be bothered with me? You may turn the music back on." She said to whoever turned off.

Just like that, the music played again. Most of the people went back to dance like nothing happen. Others looked at me. They chuckled as they shook their head, thinking the same thing Tanya just said, I was patetic.

Tanya walked over to me. "If you're going cry, I suggest you do it outside. Don't want to be a downer to the party." She said in my ear before bumping pass me to walk somewhere.

I didn't feel the need to cry until she said something. If I was, I wasn't going to do it. I refuse to give her that much power over me. I needed to leave; not just because I knew I was going to cry, but because I didn't belong here.

I pushed passed everyone so I could get to the door as fast I could. I didn't think I was going fast enough. The dream with the monster getting me turned into one where I couldn't move because the floor was melting my shoes and slowing me down. I finally got to the door when someone grabbed me. I turned to pushed them off, but I saw it was Alice. "Bella, what happen?" she asked.

"Tanya." I said with a shaky voice. I was still trying to keep from crying.

"What did she do?"

I shook my head. "She said the truth. I don't belong here. I need to go."

"You came with Edward and me. How the hell are you getting home?" she demanded.

"I'll get a cab." I said as I pulled my arm out her grip.

"Bella" she called after me as I reached for the door.

I turned her. "Thanks for trying, Alice; but you can't fix something that's beyond repair." I told her before walking out the door.

XXX

I spend the whole ride home crying in the back of a cab.

I didn't want to start with anything with her. I just did all this for Jasper and no one else. But what was the point? Nothing was going be the way I wanted to. So what he danced with me? He could have been doing that to be nice because Rosalie wasn't there and he thought I depended on her like everyone else. What if everybody was right? She just hung out with me because of pity.

I paid guy before walking to the door of my house with the shoes I worn in my hand. Some beer got on them; I would have to clean them by hand to get the drip stains out.

"Hey Bells. How was the party?" my dad said as I walked in.

"I don't want to talk about it." I mumbled in a dead voice. I was tired and ready for bed.

He looked up from his newspaper. When he looked at me, a wet mess, his eyes popped opened. "What happen?" he asked as he jumped off the couch. He grabbed my face and made me look at him. "You've been crying." He noted. I moved his hand off my face. "Have you been drinking beer?" he asked, obviously smelling it all over me.

I shook my head. "A girl spilled some on me." I lied. It wasn't a spill. Spill would imply that it was on accident.

He crossed his arm, clearly not believing me "Bella, what the hell happen at the party? Don't lie to me, either." he demanded.

I couldn't hold in it in anymore. I started to cry again as I fell in my father's arms. "I got caught trying be something that I wasn't." I told him simply. He sighed hard as he hugged me back as tightly as he could. He kissed the top my head.

"What's going on?" I heard my mother ask. I made myself stop crying before I looked at her. It did no good through. She took one look at me and knew what I was just doing. She rolled her eyes. "Are you ever not upset about something? What's wrong with you now?" she asked, not caring about the answer.

I wiped my eyes. "Nothing." I mumbled.

"She had a bad night Renée." My dad told her.

She looked up and down at me. "In something like that on, I'm not surprised."

I looked at my dress. "What's wrong with what I got on?" I asked as I looked at her again. I know it was wet, but I thought she would like it like I did. At least it wasn't sweatpants. I thought she would think that was step up.

"What's not wrong with it? The top is lace, which shows your shoulder, that are rather board and manish. And the length shows more of you chicken legs that shouldn't be seen." She commented. I looked down again. She was right. I didn't see any of those flaws until she pointed them out. "Not to mention you hair,"

"Renée ." my father growled. "She doesn't need that right." he told her.

"Fine, shield her from the truth like always." She said before I heard her walk back to when she came from.

My father sighed again. "I'm sorry Bella. Go take a shower and I'll check on you after I talk to you mother." he said before dropping his hand. I nodded before walking to the stairs. "Hey." He stopped me. I looked at him. "I love you, you know that right?" he asked.

I nodded. "Love you too." I told him before going to my room.

When I got there, I went right to bathroom. I striped out of the dress and climbed in the shower. I had to lathe, rise, and repeat three times to completely get the smell of beer off me. I felt better when no longer reeked of the smell. When I got out, I took my contacts out and put my glasses on before brushing my teeth and hair. I tied my hair back in a ponytail. When I did, it was shorted now. I changed into my pajamas before walking out and flopping on my bed.

I laid there for a moment before my laptop ringed, telling me voice call was coming in. I sat up, grabbed it and clicked answer. "I'm going to fucking kill that bitch!" Rosalie snapped when she came on my screen.

"Rosalie." I sighed.

"No, I mean it. I heard what the hell she did to you. I going to kill her." she said. Alice must have asked someone what happen when I left. They told her and she told Rosa. "How dare she do that or say any of that crap to you? When I see her, her ass is mine and don't try to stop me." she went on.

"She didn't say anything that wasn't truth." I told her.

"Bella, you are not below her. You are not below anyone." She urged.

"I meant about you only being friends with me out of pity." I told her.

She rolled her eyes. "Not this again."

"Then why are you my friend?" I confronted.

"Because you're the most down to earth, nicest person I have met in a long time. Sometimes I wondered if people are friends with me because of my looks and what I can do for them. You're the only one I know who don't care about shit like that. That's why we're friends. I don't do anything out of pity. I do it because I want to; and Tanya or Emmett isn't in charge of who I talk to and it fucking kills them because it." she explained.

I gave a smile. "Thank you." I said. If she was here, I would hug her. I think that's all I need to hear her say.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there." She said.

I shrugged. "It's okay."

She shook her head. "I should have been there. I will be next time." she said.

I was going to say something, but my phone went off, telling me I had a text. I wondered who that was. I got of the bed and walked over my dresser, where I placed it before I got undress. I grabbed it and looked at the text before looking at the name. "Are you okay?" it said. Who was that? I saw 'Hale'. I looked at it confused.

I walked back to my bed and sat in from of my laptop again. "Why are you texting me?" I asked Rosalie.

"I'm not. My phone's been off all night. When I plugged it up, I saw I had a missed call from Alice. It's on the charge on the other side of the room right now." she explained. "Why did you asked that?'

I was going to answer, but my phone went off in my again. "I heard what happen. I'm sorry I left you." The next on said. Left me? There was one person who left me before that happened.

I looked at name again. it wasn't Rosalie Hale it was…"Jasper." I gasped.

"What about him?" Rosalie asked.

"It was him. H-he texted me. He wanted to know if I was okay." I stuttered out. I couldn't believe. He texted me. He was worried about me. Even it was just a little bit, he was worried and felt bad about what happened when he left.

"That jerk." Rosalie snapped. I looked at her with misunderstanding. What did she mean? "He hears me talking to you and he's texted you to take your attention away from." She assumed. I wanted to laugh. Of course that's she meant. I heard a knock on her wall. "Stop." She snapped as she hit it back.

"Get over yourself, sis." I heard his voice a few moments later. It was clear.

She turned to her door. "Get the hell out of my room." She said. He was in her room? Now? A moment after she said that, I saw the screen move. "Can you get out?" she snapped before the screen settled on a new face.

"Hey." Jasper smiled at me. Jasper was on my computer screen talking to me and smiling at me. Then I remember that I look like pre-new Bella. But he was still smiling at me. "Did you get my texts?' he asked. I nodded. "You didn't replied so I didn't know." He said.

"That because she was talking to me." I heard Rosa.

He rolled his eyes to his sister. "I'm going to let her. Just give me a minute." He told her before looking at me. "Sorry about the interruption. I just wanted to see if you were okay. I heard what Tanya did. She's messed up for doing what she did and I want you to know I told Edward to talk to her or I will. And that I didn't have anything to with it or what she said. I had fun with you, it just sucks Tanya interrupted us." he said.

I nodded. "Yeah, it does." I agreed.

"Next time we will have to do something without her being in reach. Maybe I can even give you that football lesson." He smiled.

I nodded again. "I think I would like that."

"Cool. Ow." He said before looking at his sister. "Okay." He said to her. He looked back at me. "Rosa is giving a look so I guess I'll let you talk to her. You're seating with us Monday, right?" he asked. I don't think I wanted to. That meant another conformation with Tanya. I would have said no if it was anyone else, but with him, I nodded. He smiled. "Good. Talk to you later. Good night, Belle."

That nickname, there it was again. "Good night." I replied.

"By the way, nice shirt." he said. Because I forgot what I had on, I had to look down at my shirt. I looked at my Flash shirt I brought back when I was really into comic books. I looked at him. Was that he was talking about? "Flash is so underrated." He commented.

"Uh, yeah. He is." I agreed. That was why I like it him. Superman or Batman was always looked over him. the Flash was cool and unless you really liked comic books, like I used to, or knew someone who was, you probably will never hear of him.

"Alright. I guess I'll give you back my sister before she hits me again." he joked. So that was why he said "ow" before. I gave a laugh before he said by and the screen moved again. When it did, I was in front of Rosalie again.

"Close my door." She said before I heard a click. She turned back to me. "Must you two do that on my time?" she asked as if it was my fault. I laughed before grabbing my phone. "Who are you texting?"

"Alice." I told her.

"Why?"

"To tell her I changed my mind." I wasn't given up on this that fast. I had Jasper's attention. This felt way too good to give up now.

My door opened and my dad poked his head in. "You look better he said." he nodded.

I nodded. "I feel better."

She didn't have one before, but if Tanya wanted a threat in me, she got one.

welcome to the bottom of the page. this is the part where i say we're half way done, but honestly i dont know. i'm not really sure how long i want this story. when i do, you guys will too.

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alice's party outfit: (polyvore) alices_party_outfit/set?id