One month later

Dear Dan

Hi! Wow it still feels strange to be writing you a letter… I guess we only ever talked in person or online, remember that day where we only talked to each other with animal noises? That was practically impossible… and it feels like forever ago! I guess it was.

Anyway, how are you going! I hope you're having fun in New York, if you're still there. I have been sending all my letters there so I sure hope you've been getting them, there have been some serious handwriting efforts! I mean, there were drawings and everything. We've all been writing to the address you left with Chris, I hope you've gotten at least some of these, or that if you've moved they've forwarded them to you! Money must be super tight, I know that mail can get expensive when it's international but we'd all love just a note letting us know how you're going what you're up to! We all miss you.

I never asked for any explanation in any of my other letters, but I suppose it would seem kind of strange if I didn't wonder why you left? I know you had planned to go back to the states for vidcon with all of us, but that's half a year away and we always go together. I don't know.. was it something I did? Because if it was I'll change anything you want, or do anything- even if you just want to never see me again! I can do that.. but I just wish I knew what it was Dan, I can't stop wondering why you just left..

I don't really have any news! I'm sorry if you've been waiting for me to post a video, I keep meaning to but it all sort of gets too hard, maybe we'll do a big return one together once you're back? I've gotten so many messages asking when we'll be back, everyone really misses you Dan.

I hope you can find a way to write back, or give us a call? I put our address and my number on the back, in case for some reason you couldn't find them and that's why you haven't been in touch, and the other letters didn't reach you. I really hope you'll call soon.

I miss you so much.

Love

Phil

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Hey Dan

I miss you! I guess you must have needed some time away but…

Okay I'm just going to be blunt here. Phil is falling apart. He doesn't do anything, if you have Internet where you are you'll see he hasn't posted anything anywhere since you left. He just sits on the couch, eats when we make him and writes letters to you. What happened?

Chris showed me the letter you left, real nice of you- did you think you could just piss off like that? We're your friends, all of us, and you left basically with no warning, for no clear reason..

I am guessing you do have your reasons, fine, but even if you had some need to run away from everything here, friends included, you had no right not to tell Phil. He's broken and it's all your fault.

I dunno… I can't think why you'd do it… I'm trying not to be angry at you- I wasn't at first! People need to do things and that's cool, but you could have at least left some word of why for Phil. You guys are, well, you! That's pretty shitty Dan, you didn't even give him your address, you left it with Chris? Did you think he wouldn't show Phil? Did you think Phil would just move on, be fine without you?

Call him. Or at least send a note, something, but send it to Phil this time? Everyone can be scared and be cowardly, but you really do owe him that.

Alex

Sorry if this is a bit confusing but this story will be jumping around a bit! Lots of backstory and more chapters to look forward to (: Up next maybe we'll get to see where Dan's at? Thank you so much hiilikecheese, NeverlandNat and Cocoacucumbaface for reviewing! Lots of rainbow cookies for you! :D