Sorry, I haven't updated in a while. My mid-year exams are coming up and I have been studying like crazy. But I will update more often. Hope you enjoy. Please tell me what you think. I love criticism
~Divergent10
I see Tobias pinned against the lockers kissing Lauren the schools 'Queen Bee' as many say it. I don't know how to react. It's not like he is kissing back but he also isn't trying to get out of her grip. I just run, out of school straight to the studio. I pull off my wig and contacts. I know I have tears streaming down my face and if the paparazzi saw me like this there would not be good news but I don't care.
Inside I walk to my studio and sit behind my piano and cry. I don't dare touch the keys in fear of the sound. Everything sounds wrong now, flat, dull, lifeless. I don't know how long I sit there until Christina calls.
"Are you all right?" She says as soon as I pick up.
"Yes… No… I don't know?"
"Okay, I know what you need. Ice cream and Chick flicks." I feel so cared for. I never had this feeling in my old life in Hollywood. Of course I had friends but this never really happened because we were always of shooting a new movie or recording a new album. The thought kind of makes me laugh.
"Be at my house in 10. I'll call the girls." She says in a sweet tone I can only recognize as buttering someone up. Like directors use when they want you to shoot a movie that they already know will be crap. I hang up and head to my car. My mascara looks like mess and my hair is tangled and knotted and well a mess.
When I get to Christina's I have brushed out my hair and placed my wig on it.
"Girl, you look like a mess." I laugh at the comment.
The rest of the day I spend with Marlene, Shauna, Lynn and Christina all telling me Tobias is a dick. The ice cream is really good. But in the back of my mind I know something is off. Tobias wouldn't do something like that, not after what we have been through.
I decide not to stay the night but go home and see if Tobias want's to explain to me what happened.
When I get home I see Tobias on the couch watching a Football game. He acts like nothing is wrong at first.
"Hey." He says and turns around to see me. "What happened you look like a mess." He then continues shocked. Like he doesn't know. I don't know what comes over me I just grab the closest thing which happens to be my phone and throw it at him. He dodges and comes over to me grabbing my arms so I can't do anything.
"You saw did't you?" He asks, I weakly nod in answer. I feel so weak right now I can't do anything with him holding me like this.
"I didn't kiss her. She had me pinned to the wall." He says calmly. I annoys me how calm he is at time like these. I just wish he would yell at me.
"You're a big boy, you could have gotten yourself out of that position." I say in defense. I try to stay calm but know it won't work. Before I go crazy I pull my hands from his and walk across the room to get my phone.
"I'll sleep in the guest room tonight." I say. Before he can say anything against it I'm already gone.
When I wake up after a restless night I decided I can't sleep without Four so I text him I want to talk. At around nine, he comes down from our room wearing his Football helmet and sits down across me.
"Okay, what did you want to say?" He says interrupting the silence.
"I'm sorry. I overreacted. Maybe we needed this you know." I say. His shocked face tells me he is not thinking the same as I am, so I continue. "I realized I can't be without you. I could close my eyes last night, you weren't next to me and it felt wrong."
He doesn't say anything, just takes off his helmet giving me a sign that I am approaching his forgiveness. I know what will pull the trigger for him. I walk around the kitchen island and kiss him.
"I forgive you."