A/N Heyy guys I'm so sorry for not updating sooner but as with City Of delusion my collab with trulymad I've just been so busy with collage work! I also had to work out some of the logistics for this chapter like Bella, Rosalie and jaspers ages as there all siblings, I've Made it so jasper and rose where born at the star of the year and Bella the end so there in the same school year and still the same age but it's still possible for it to have happened.

Oh! I'll be forever grateful to someone who can suggest to alternative birthdates so this will work!

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You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

My Immortal - Evanescence

BPOV

"Peter!" Lauren Mallory screeched as she stared at the cast list. "Peter! Who the hell is Peter?" I bit my lip, holding in laughter as I watched her stare hard at the small sheet of paper on the door of the auditorium. Alice, Emmett and Rosalie had all insisted on coming to look to see what parts we had all got, I personally wanted to put it off for as long as possible, you see best case scenario was I was Juliet, worst case scenario, I was Juliet. So, for me it was a lose, lose situation, i wanted the part, but then i would have also been some what happy being a part of the chorus. I had been dragged, against my will, to look at the list and found Lauren having a hissy fit in the middle of the corridor, even Jessica Stanley had backed away from her.

"Yes Miss Mallory?" Ms Murphy poked her head out of the two double doors to the auditorium, her long string of beads dangling around her neck. She had a small smile on her face, as if she knew exactly what was going on. "Is there a problem?"

"Of course there's a problem!" Lauren hissed. "I'm peter!" Ms Murphy just raised an eye as if to say yes, and... "I don't even know who he is! And, he is a he!" No... Really? Here was me thinking she was stupid. "Last time I checked I was a girl! I should have been Juliet, I was clearly the best" Oh wow, can she get any more modest?

"Well, firstly Miss Mallory there just weren't enough female roles and I was fair with casting, the people I gave the major roles to deserve them the most." She said, she looked sympathetic, but amused at the same time, you know, I think she has just become my favourite teacher. "Bella deserved her role." Excuse me? "As did Edward, and everyone else, I'm afraid the casting is staying as it is unless there is exceptional circumstance, in that case you would need to see me about that. Now, if you're quite done I need to get back to work."

I couldn't quite believe what she said, I deserved the role. What role? My head quickly scanned the casting list, and lo behold there my name was across from Juliet. This wasn't good but it wasnt necessarily bad either, I was excited, and nervous and a whole host of things my head couldn't quite get around right at that moment. What did she mean about Edward then, he wasn't? No. He couldn't be, my eyes flew to the white sheet of paper stuck to the wall.

Romeo: Edward Masen

Juliet: Bella Swan

Lord Montague: Ben Cheney

Lady Montague: Angela Weber

Benvolio: Jasper Swan

Mercutio: James Hunter

Abram: Mike Newton

Balthazar: Laurent LeBlanc

Lord Capulet: Eric Yorkie

Lady Capulet: Rosalie Swan

Tybalt: Emmett Cullen

Count Paris: Jacob Black

Nurse: Alice Cullen

Peter: Lauren Mallory

Prince Escales: Felix Armstrong

Friar Laurence: Marcus Romano

Friar John: Christian Stone

Apothecary: Tyler Crowley

Gregory and Sampson: Demetri Berkley and Garrett

Chorus: Jessica Stanley

This couldn't be happening he couldn't be Romeo, I couldn't be Juliet, this wasn't right, I was a wall flower, and I blended in. I wasn't a sheep, I was me and darn proud of it, but, unfortunately most of the time 'me' was a shy wall flower desperate to break out her shell and gain some much needed confidence and self esteem.

"You and Edward will make a fine Romeo and Juliet; you certainly have the chemistry..." She smiled softly I could feel my whole body getting warm and I knew my cheeks where flushing. She gave a smile to everyone else faltering when her eyes met Laurens, but it swiftly picked back up again. "I'll see you all in lesson tomorrow, got to get back to my paper work, honestly that is the one thing I despise about being a teacher, all the miles and miles of paperwork." She muttered as she ducked back into the auditorium "Oh!" Ms Murphy popped her head back round the door quickly. "Don't forget to start rehearsing your lines, you have a lot to learn, good luck to you both" she smiled at me and smiled at someone over my shoulder and then disappeared back behind the door, my whole body stiffened.

I turned, and there he was, stood behind me, his face assessing mine, he stood casually leant against the wall just outside the small group of people gathered round the cast list. I couldn't tell what he was thinking and it was killing me, his face was heavily guarded and gave nothing away. It frustrated me that I couldn't tell whether he was happy about this, sad about this or not bothered about this, anything at all, I would had killed to know anything he was thinking right now. I took in a shaky breath and shook my head; I guess I'll never know, I'll just have to make the most of this. Keeping my head low I walked passed him feeling his eyes following me the whole time.

"Bella!" I groaned softly, I needed to get out of here, I was starting to feel suffocated with everyone's eyes on me; I didn't need or want the attention. "Bella! Wait up!" I stopped and stood still the loud clacking of heels stopped as Alice hopped to a stop beside me, I plastered on a smile not trusting myself to put on a genuine one.

"Hey Alice" she frowned, she knew me too well.

"What's up bells?" she placed her hand on my arm softly. "You're Juliet! You should be so excited, I have to admit even I'm jealous, although I have to say Romeo is better suited to you than to me." She nudged me with her hip and smiled at me my lip twitched, but I still felt confused, I didn't know what to feel about all of this. Part of me want to to break into a happy dance in the middle of the corridor and start bouncing off the walls, the other part was worried I wouldn't be able to get through this without making a fool of myself or breaking down.

"Alice..." I sighed "Alice what happened yesterday was, well I... I don't know what happened yesterday but I'm almost positive it was nothing, plus he's going out with Lauren, as much as she annoys me I'm not going to try and come up with some extravagant scheme to break them up and make him mine, then he'll run into my open arms with no hard feelings and delude myself into thinking that will give us a happily ever after" I rolled my eyes. "I mean there are so many examples in books and movies that show that never goes well, that doesn't mean you can scheme for me either..." I looked at her, her eyebrows shot up.

"Bella what makes you think..." I cut her off and shot her a look.

"Alice, I know you well enough, you know I love you but I don't need you to meddle in this" she pouted. "Please Alice"

"Fine." She grumbled, crossing her arms.

"Congrats on your part too!" At this she perked up and grinned at me.

"I know, I'm really excited, it's not the lead but it will have to do!" she teased, she turned back towards the others who were stood chatting back by the theatre. "Oh! Before I forget, me and Jazz are going out after school and I think Rose is going with Emmett back to our place, so your own this afternoon, Kay?"

"Yeah, sure, have fun!" I waggled my eyebrows and she just laughed.

"I'm gonna go back, you coming." I shook my head.

"Gotta get to class; I'll see you at lunch though right?"

"You bet your ass." She laughed. "See ya later" she waved to me as she walked back towards the others, I watched as she joined in their conversation with ease and Jasper slipped his arm around her waist and pulled her to his side protectively and kissed her head. My eyes moved to Emmett and Rosalie they weren't as obvious with their affections but if you watch them you could see they always had a body part touching. Right now, there hands were by their sides and Emmett was playing with her fingers as she leaned into his side, I smiled as I watch the two couples interact with one another. I sighed and let my legs reluctantly carry me to next class, algebra, lucky, lucky me...

Classes passed quickly, it reached lunch and I sat down in my usual seat with the rest of the guys although the whole time I could feel Edward's eyes on me. I kept looking up and seeing him watching me then he would turn away and so would I, then the cycle would start again. The cafeteria felt ten times smaller; getting smaller still the longer I sat there. As soon as lunch was over, I rushed out of the room, finally being able to breathe. The rest of the day past without incident , but I still kept thinking about theatre I couldn't get it out of my head, I was lost I didn't know what to do I couldn't give up the part that would be cowardly, but I didn't know if doing this play with Edward would be any less unpleasant.

Driving home in the old rust bucket, my red truck, I kept thinking about what I was going to do tomorrow, I didn't want to star alongside someone who didn't appear to like me very much, not only would it be awkward, but Romeo and Juliet itself brought back memories of my mom from years ago, good memory's, but it always made me miss her when I thought about it. As soon as I got home I rushed upstairs and pulled out a small leather backed copy of Romeo and Juliet. It had been my mom's she had then given it to me when I was younger and I fell in love with the play just as she had. I opened the front cover and read for the thousandth time what my mom had written on a little slip of paper just inside the front cover:

Bella,

Today is your 9th birthday honey and I wanted to give this to you just as

my mom gave it to me when I was your age and I wanted to pass

this down to you so you can fall in love with Romeo and Juliet as much as I have.

Happy birthday baby.

All my love,

Mom

As I flicked through the book, reading my favourite parts, I remembered the times when my mother had read this to me when I was a little girl. She would always choose her favourite parts of the play and read them to me. At the time I was too young to have her read the whole play to me, but, she always had me mesmerized when she read. I smiled, and as I read I could hear my mother voice reading to me again as I lay tucked up in bed, in awe of my her as she read to me.

My room hadn't changed much since she'd gone; it had the same worn white carpet and pale green walls even the bed was still the same, except she had changed the sheets from her old ones which were purple with a black horse on it. I had loved those bed covers when my mom had brought them home, I refused to let either of my parents take them off my bed even when the covers got dirty and ratty. I had always had a love for horses, I had started having riding lessons when I was 8 years old but quit when even after six months worth of lessons when I was still being led around in a circle.

Horse are free, there wild, being the youngest of three had always felt the most restrained, like mom and dad had wanted to keep me as there little girl forever, even though I am only a few months younger. Rose and Jasper where born first, Rose being twenty minutes older than Jasper, which she never lets him forget. Then, a couple of months later I was conceived, I wasn't "planned", in other words I was an accident, not that my parents had ever said that and they never would.

It hit us all hard when mom left she was our rock, mom and I we had always been best friends, always best friends first and mother and daughter second, we all were, Rose, mom and me. Best freinds. I sighed and stared at the ceiling, I missed her terribly sometimes, I squeezed my eyes shut pushing those thoughts to the back of my mind. As quickly as those thoughts left my mind a pair of green eyes flashed across my subconscious and all my thoughts went back to Edward and the play.

Could I do this?

Did Edward want to do this?

Did I want to do this?

Do I have a choice?

If I did do this, would I be able to this without choking or worse end up staring at the audience blankly when I supposed to be saying something? What if I started to say the wrong lines from the wrong play, and just get it totally and utterly wrong? There were so many questions swimming in my head, it was mind boggling, it made my room seem claustrophobic, I knew I just needed to get out for a while, to just breathe.

"Hello!" a gruff voice called to me, breaking through my thoughts.

"Hey dad!" I called as I grabbed my shoes and walked down the stairs jumping the first step. Dad turned to me as I reached the bottom of the stairs.

"You the only one home?" I nodded.

"Yeah, Rose is at Emmett's and Jasper and Alice went out to straight after school." I stated pulling on my shoes.

"So if all the couples are coupling, what are you doing?" he asked as he hung up his gun belt after pulling his jacket off. Charlie is the chief of police of forks, not that much crime happened here, I think the worst crime that has happened this year was when a couple of idiots attempted to rob the corner store and failed miserably.

"I'm going to go and see mom." He smiled at me softly, his dark eyes sad.

"Are you okay bells?"

"Yeah, I just need to... Think some things over." I breathed, I knew he knew were I was headed, I always went to visit mom when I needed to think, it cleared my head.

"Okay." He nodded, and though I could see he was curious, even if he didn't want to know into the mind of a teenage girl, he didn't pry further. "Don't come back too late okay?"

"Sure." I nodded, I headed for the door, stopped, then turned, I walked back to my dad and wrapped my arms around his waist in a hug, and awkwardly he brought his arms around me a hugged back. "Love you dad."

"Love you to bells." He murmured surprised, letting go I once again headed to the door and made my way to the old rust bucket, climbing in and reversing out of the drive. I followed the road to the familiar destination I had been so many times before and parked just outside the gate. Climbing out of the car and through the gate I carried on walking and stopped at a black polished marble head stone, I rested my hand on it and rubbed softly at the smooth surface.

"Hey mom." I whispered.

Renee swan

1965 – 2010

Beloved daughter, wife and mother

You will never be forgotten in our hearts.

A/N Sooo what did you guys think? Kinda cliffy, once again sneak peeks for reviewers! I know it's not Beta'd but I just wanted to get it up ill send it to my Beta tomorrow well today and just replace this with the beta'd version, I hope this wasn't too riddled with mistakes! sorry about all the removing then putting back on of the chapter FF Doc manger was freaking out on me grrrr.

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