Tretår
Back had asked her first.
"Why do you drink coffee all the time?"
Jade was never very good at keeping promises, even to herself.
She shrugged, "I like it"
Jade hated that too.
She went from hating coffee, to hating to like it, because for her, it was easier to need something occasionally than to want it all the time.
For example, dating Beck eventually became a need. Jade liked needs. She needed Beck to be her boyfriend, because that's just who he was, that was the role she had him as. He was another character in her messed up play called, Jade's Life. It was still a work in progress.
Jade needed her mother's approval. Dealing with the women's disapproval was a frustrating and exhausting task. She needed her mom to not be hard on her little brother. She needed her mom to be content enough not to nag her about anything.
There was little Jade truly wanted.
Jade wanted her Dad's approval. No matter how pathetic and cliché that want was; it was what it was. In her heart, Jade west wanted her Dad to be proud of her. She wanted to show him she could live up to the West name.
Tori Vega was like coffee, but worse.
Jade wanted Tori to be her friend, wanted Tori to be there for her and she wanted to be there for Tori. But Jade needed the girl to leave her alone, but Tori never followed the script. Tori was a glitch in the system, an accident, some rouge actress that somehow snuck behind stage and was now messing everything up.
Tori drove Jade crazy. Jade wanted Tori in ways she couldn't quite comprehend.
Or maybe she could, but wasn't ready to admit it.
This time, Jade just swore.
Tretår
(Swedish)- The second refill
This was the last part
A "tår" (as well as a tear) means a cup of coffee. A "påtår" is a refill of said coffee. A "tretår", is the second refill, the "threefill", if you will.