I woke up the next morning to Jack trying to wake Henry up
"Good morning Jack" I say as I move to sit up in bed
"Morning Aunt JJ, I just want to know if Henry wants to come play before breakfast" he said looking down shyly
"That's ok.. you know if you tickle his stomach he''ll wake up quicker" I whisper and pull back the sheets, Jack smiles and then slowly starts tickling him and when Henry starts to slowly wake up he starts to tickle him faster until Henry is wide awake laughing so hard
"Mommy make him stop"he said between laughs "I need to go bathroom"
"Alright that's enough Jack" I laugh and Henry gets up ans runs into the bathroom.
"So how's school going Jack?" I ask as he sits down on the bed
"It's good. I'm at the top of all my classes" he smiles
"That's good buddy, what's your favourite class?"
"I like maths and science the most and English is ok too" he said and I could see the glint in his eye
"That's great, your a little genius too" I laugh and turn when Henry walks back into the room
"I thought I was a little genius Mommy" he climbed back onto the bed
"You both are, you guys spend a lot of time with your uncle Spencer" I laugh
"It's not just uncle Spencer that helps us be smart Aunt JJ. Everyone in our family is smart and that's where we learn it all from".Jack says and looks over to Henry "that's how we going to be profilers, isn't that right Henry, we learning from the best already"
"Yup and that means we are going to be better" he laughs
"Oh is that right little man? Well I'm sure the world will be even safer with you two on the case" I laugh "So Henry, Jack came in here to see if you wanted to go play before breakfast, so why don't you go do that while I get ready?"
"I would rather hear some more of the story. Want to hear some more story Jack?" He looked over and Jack nodded, both boys getting comfy on the bed.
"Alright then where was I up to?"
"You told us about your first date. What happened after that?" Jack said resting his elbows on his knees and chin in his hands
"Well to start with everything was going really good but then it went really bad. A lot of things happened, she did her own thing and I got to know your dad better but eventually we became friends again, and it was all because of you little man" I smile and hug Henry tighter
"Because of me? How Mommy?"
**Flashback**
I sat on the floor leaning against my bath tub staring at the pregnancy test, one night with Will and of course this happens. Even though we aren't talking at the moment I always had hope that Emily and I could eventually work it out but now? Now I've really screwed it up and doubt there will be any chance at getting back together. I sat there crying for about 2 hours, knowing I should tell Will but the only person I want to tell first is Emily, we had always told each other things before everyone else, it's one of the things that made our bond special. After sitting there for another 10 minutes I got up, cleaned myself up a bit, chucked on a jacket, grabbed my keys and made my way out the door.
The drive to Emily's condo took about an hour and the whole way I kept changing my mind, I shouldn't be going there to tell her this, it will probably crush her but on the other hand I don't want her to find out from anyone else apart from me and I wanted her to be the first to know. I pulled up outside and saw her standing on the balcony, looking at the view and drinking a glass of wine. I hop out of the car and look up at her and I can feel the moment she sees me, she stands up straight and looks down at me.
"What are you doing here?" she yells down
"I need to talk to you, it's important. Are you alone?" I didn't want to interrupt if she was busy
"Yes, what's this about JJ?" I feel a pang to my heart, like every other time she calls me JJ and not Jennifer
"It's not about us, but it's important. Please Em, let me up, even just for 5 minutes" I'm practically begging her but she didn't move and I just stare up at her
"Fine, 5 minutes" she turns and walks inside and I run up to the door of the building, nod at the doorman and walk fast over to the elevator and wait for it to reach the lobby. The ride up to her 5th floor apartment seemed to take forever and my mind could help but go back to the many times I used to have my back pushed up against the wall of this exact elevator, hands roaming over Emily's body while we had our tongues down each other's throats and the many hours spent in her bed after that. Get a grip Jennifer, you can't be this turned on before going to break her heart again. By the time I made it to her door I had taken a couple of deep breaths and had controlled my racing heart, she opened the door as soon as I knocked and just seeing her standing there in her casual clothes made my heart started racing again. She opened the door and moved away, her silent sign of letting me in. As I walked into her condo and shut the door even more memories started racing back and I couldn't help but tear up even a few managed to escape and I tried to wipe them away before Emily saw but wasn't so lucky
"You ok Jay?" I look up and see the concern in her eyes but her stance shows she's still not sure about me being here
"Um, yes and no.. I have some news that you probably don't want to hear, but when I found out you were the first person I wanted to tell. More of I needed to tell you first, needed for you to hear this from me and not someone else" I ramble as she turns and sits down on the couch and signals for me to sit on the chair across from her
"Are you leaving the BAU?" she whispers, I can hear the hurt and worry in her voice
"No, nothing like that"
"Then what is it? Must be important to come rushing over here at 11.30 on a work night" she went into profiler mode and started studying me "you hooking up with Detective crawfish? So much for just a friend" she scoffs and I get angry
"Don't bring him into this, I wasn't even with him until you pushed me towards him and now I'm in this mess because of it" I yell, I didn't want to tell her like this, I wanted to ease her into it, I didn't want to just dump it on her in the heat of the moment
"What are you talking about? You were with him while we were together" she yelled back "you put yourself into this mess between us"
"I was never with him, we were seriously just friends, we would go to the odd movie or art gallery or just sightseeing if he was in town or if there was a concert or Mardi Gras or something I would enjoy in New Orleans I would go down there, there was nothing sexual about our friendship. I never once cheated on you, I promise you that" I told her in a much calmer voice hoping it would get through to her
"Then what about Miami?" she whispered
"I was angry with you, knew you didn't like him and wanted to make you feel what I felt like that night at the club. I slept with him just that once and it felt wrong and probably one of the worse things I've ever done but now I'm in this situation and I wanted to tell you first" I look up at her and can see her trying to figure out what it is I have to say and I see it click
"Just say it JJ"
"I'm pregnant, well I think I might be, I only took a home pregnancy test, I have to make a doctor's appointment tomorrow to get it confirmed or denied" I tell her and I can see a mix of emotions running through her eyes before the walls come back up
"Congratulations" she says but I don't hear any happiness in her voice
"I'm not here to throw it in your face but here because you are usually the first person I always think of when I have news and as much as I knew I shouldn't be here I just had to tell you. I knew if I told Will first it wouldn't feel right and if not him I would've told Pen and you know she can't keep her mouth shut" I chuckle hoping it would lighten the mood a little
"So you came here because I was the first person you thought of?"
"Yea, always are" I whisper not able to make eye contact with her and after a few minutes of awkward silence she gets up and pours another glass of wine and a glass of water and passes me the water when she sits down
"Are you happy? About the pregnancy?" she asks and for the first time since I found out I really thought about it. I've always wanted to be a mother but I always thought it would be with someone I love. It could affect my job, I see a lot of cases involving children and having one of my own could affect the way I see the cases. It would affect the future I want with Emily because it will now involve Will in a much bigger way then I had planned but even with all these pros and cons I knew the answer
"Yea I am, I may not have gotten pregnant the way I had planned, or who I had planned with but I've always wanted to be a mother and I already love this baby even though I've only known for about 4 hours." I smile and instantly rub my hand along my stomach
"Then I really am happy for you Jennifer" she smiles as do I at the mention of my name
"Thanks. I'm actually really excited about it now. I didn't think about it until just then and I can't wait" I smile and sit back in the chair some more
"That's good Jay, you'll make a great mother" she says then gets up "Do you want a coffee or something?"
"I would love a coffee, but I can't anymore. A tea would be great though" I say and realise that my coffee addiction is now over
"Alright, why don't you chuck the TV or radio on and I'll be back in a minute" she suggests and walks into the kitchen and I get up and turn the TV on, I figure if there is some awkward silence we can just pretend to be watching whatever is on. I find a channel with FRIENDS re runs playing and I sit on the couch and put my legs under me and curl up while I wait for Emily to come back.
"Here you go" she said when she came back in and handed me my tea and sat down next to me "so you're pregnant then" she says looking into her coffee
"Yep" I nod and take a sip of my tea
"What are you hoping to have?"
"I don't know, don't really care as long as they are happy and healthy" I smile and rub my stomach again "I shouldn't really get my hopes up too much. It could've been a false positive, I won't know for sure until I go to the doctors tomorrow"
"Well we start late tomorrow, want me to come with you?" she asks and looks over to me
"Oh you don't have to, it's just a simple blood test and I probably won't get the results straight away anyway" I say but am actually really touched she wanted to come with me
"It's no problem, I mean you're staying here tonight so we can go in to work together anyway" she says matter of factly
"Oh am I really?" I laugh
"Yes Agent Jareau, I can't have you driving home at this time of night. It's late, you're pregnant and you've been crying and I know how tired you get after crying so you are not driving home tonight. I've got a guest room with a very comfy bed" she laughs
"Well then Agent Prentiss I guess you can come" I smile then frown a bit "You know I was debating whether or not to come here tonight, I didn't know how you would react. I was quite scared on how you were going to react and how things would change between us" I admit
"Well things couldn't have gotten any worse between us" she says "and anyway even if I don't really like who you've gotten pregnant to this kid will be all you and I can't fault that" she smiles and sits back on the couch
"Thanks Em, it means a lot" I smile and pat her leg then take another sip of tea "I'm actually a bit worried about how Will is going to take it. I doubt this was in his plan when he slept with me. I mean I don't even know how it will work, he lives in New Orleans to start with" I say then notice her shift uncomfortably "Shit sorry Em, I won't talk about him" I say and stare into my nearly empty tea
"No, it's ok Jay, I guess I'll have to learn to listen about him" she says and looks over to me "really Jay, I know things between us didn't work out how we planned or hoped but I'll always be there for you"
"Same Em, forever and always" I smile then drink the rest of my tea and place it on the table and I try and stifle a yawn
"C'mon JJ it's late, let's get to bed" she says and I raise an eyebrow immediately thinking if this was 6 months ago it would've been said in a totally different context
"Get your head out of the gutter Jareau" she laughs and helps me up and walks me to the guest room "goodnight Jennifer" she whispers and turns to go to her room and I felt so bad, I knew this was hurting her but at the same time I was happy that she was supportive
"Night Emily" I say back before she got to her door she looks up and our eyes connect and I feel electricity run through my body but as soon as it starts she walks into her room and I go into the guest room and fall onto the bed, hoping that that split second didn't just ruin the amazing night we had just had
**End Flashback**
"So the beautiful woman was happy you were pregnant?" Jack asks
"She sure was" I smile
"What happened next Mommy?" Henry looks up from my lap which he had decided to lay down on at some point through the story
"Well as you know I was really pregnant and she was by my side the whole time and was supportive when I told your dad and was a great help until your dad moved here. Then she would look after me while we were at work or away, she loved you so much before you were even here and when I went into labour she stood by me until your dad rocked up" I say and look over to the boys and realise we had been sitting here for almost an hour "Alright no more stories, let's go eat, I reckon Uncle Dave has made an awesome breakfast by now" they smile and get up off the bed in such a hurry I'm surprised neither of them fell face first
"C'mon Mommy, breakfast time" Henry calls from the doorway and I just smile at him, still 6 years later not believing how lucky I am to have him.